#mel babbles

[grumpycakes]

I feel like over competent, hot, grizzled Leon Kennedy was a personal attack and it’s honestly so rude lolololol

[aheistwithyaboi]

Hey kids and welcome back to idk what the fuck my blog is. If you’ve just arrived good luck. My username is from A Heist with Markiplier, and my most recent posts are about Hannibal, my icon is Jim from The Office and I don’t know what I’m doing. I reblog shit I like and thank you for following this mess of a blog :)

[mel-the-fangirl]

I wanted to share with you all the most inspiring piece of writing advice that always gets me out of my funks: fuck the rules.

That's it.

Fuck the rules.

Feel free to write what you like even if it doesn't make much sense. Write whatever the fuck you want and everything else will follow. I think in the past before I came on here, I've been so preoccupied with making sure whatever I write is perfect right down to the letter that my voice was lost in between the words. I was really frustrated so I came on here and typed "writing advice" in the search bar, I found a lot of good stuff that still inspires me to this day but that one piece of advice stuck with me the most.

Fuck the rules. Be creative, don't conform, develop your own unique style, let your voice speak through whatever you write.

Okay, that's it. That's all I wanted to say. Pardon me, guys. I'm in a talking mood 😂 But seriously, I hope this helps some of the lovely, talented writers on here that are having some doubts or are feeling frustrated about their writing.

I know how that feels, I still feel that way. But honestly, never stop writing even when it feels like you aren't turning out anything good, even when it feels like whatever your working on is absolute shit, don't stop writing.

Okay! That's it, for real. Mel out. Love y'all.

[grumpycakes]

YouTube shorts has been giving me a lot of food content recently.

Some of it just fun and informative (a gorgeous lady going through recipes from black/southern culture that are disappearing and explaining the history of each one, the one Irish guy that gets sassy about potatoes, Dylan and the old ass recipes of yore)

But because of a collab during Xmas I’m now getting a guy who debunks food bs and tries out crazy looking recipes that people say are “”low calorie””

He seems to be a nutritionist or done it enough himself he understands basic nutrition guides. And he’s super supportive and calls out when someone is unfairly being attacked cause they’re eating healthy but are fat.

And this am he was defending someone who found out something she was making was higher calorie than she thought. He defended her choices, offered some ways to make it lower, and called out people being heinous.

But the calorie counting wasn’t touched on. (I don’t expect him to, seems like he helps ppl w this)

And I remembered this other creator I followed who’d dropped a lot of weight over the last few months who credited tracking calories and showed us an app that helped her. Saying that if you wanted to lose weight too you had to track calories. Just how it is.

Which makes me suggestible brain think, ‘shit I need to count calories if I ever want to lose weight huh’

But counting calories sounds exhausting. Like I’m already having to fight my own brain just to keep track of chores and groceries and taking care of myself. Adding a dimension onto that where I have to minutely track what I’m eating sounds horrific.

Not to mention my mother has basically admitted she had an eating disorder (partially out of poverty but…) and I know in highschool I knew I couldn’t have NO FOOD, but I made myself not eat ANY SNACKS while working out a ton. So I worry I could be super susceptible to an eating disorder.

Bringing me all the way back around to hating that calorie counting is a thing. Cause it feels like a baby/sanctioned eating disorder that we all just nod our heads to and go, “well if you want to be HEALTHY…”

Anyway.

[grumpycakes]

As my siblings get confirmations of also having adhd (mom and us daughters all have it) it’s been nice to commiserate

But one thing that’s been messing w me is how my mother and siblings keep saying “well when you had one kid that was SO CLEARLY adhd the others seemed fine”

And as the kid who was SO CLEARLY adhd and the one they treated like a bull in a china shop and a emotional bomb, annoying, hangry etc. it’s like,

ah, noted

I was the little annoyance of the family

Thanks for confirming

(And I’m sure that’s not what my sisters mean, but it’s hard not to hear it that way from them when they say it over and over and over.)

Anyway

[grumpycakes]

I know it's a privilege that I've never had to face this as bad as it is right now.

But how the fuck do people just get up day after day when the world feels like it just keeps getting darker and crueler and there's nothing stopping it.

I know you just do, and I will.

but man, celebrating tomorrow in this disaster country feels so fucking dystopian and I do not understand the people who sincerely do it right now

[grumpycakes]

-Lays down- I got a refurbished iPhone 8 in like idk 2023 cause it still had a button/fingerprint instead of Face ID only. But I forgot that tech shit doesn’t let you update past a certain operating system after 10/15 years.

So now I’m having apps that won’t update and won’t work. Meaning I have to get a new (to me) phone

And updating to an iPhone would be easy but I hate the new styles.

While updating to an android seems like a fucking hassle but would still give me fingerprint

But my computer and tablet are apple bs so it worry’s me that it won’t be as seemless.

Idk, guess I’m asking for opinions if you want to share

(Will not get a google fone)

[grumpycakes]

I took my meds today. I’ve been good and consistent w them. Why am I so fucking anxious and stressed out still.

(I know why. The world is falling apart and I feel like I can’t do anything while my life continues to March on)

Just having a stressy struggle day