In exploring death anxiety, something that may help (which may seem counter-intuitive) is exploring death and mourning rituals.
The rituals I have known through my life, which were wholly unsatisfying, involved putting a person in a casket, having a church service, and putting them into the ground, never to be seen again. Nothing followed that, except a period of grief we were expected to move on from in a few days to return to our normal lives.
As a child, this wasn’t a huge issue. I was not too close with those who passed, I am fortunate for that, but as I get older, I realize how hollow these rituals are to me.
Finding a ritual that works for you will involve effort, and will involve making sure not to engage in cultural appropriation (such as with the rituals of the Day of the Dead – for many of us, that is closed). I have started small, without even realizing this.
I ritualized either leaving one white rose with the dead, or keeping it, if I could not be with them or at their funeral service. I ritualized having chocolate upon learning of their death, and again after the funeral service if I could attend, or the day of the funeral service. Flowers for the dead, sweets for the living.
It has grown from there, into the future plans of hosting a memorial section in my house, which will go in my library when that is completed. I am making plans to celebrate their life and mourn their passing on birthdays, to donate to causes they were passionate about, to reminiscence with music and movies, to do work they would have done, and remind myself of the tastes they loved. The chocolate, and the rose, will still have their place in all of this.
My practices will be my own, private and personal.
Through this practice, though, and keeping it constant rather than “one and done”, I believe I will find a way to better cope with the fear of death, as well. Yes, my loved ones will be gone. Yes, it will hurt. Constantly. And yes – one day I, too, will be gone, and anyone’s remembrance of me can only help them…but while I live, I may be comforted by thoughts of it, and while I live, other people may be comforted by thoughts of how they’re remembered.
It also causes us to look at Death more, and to consider what the people in our lives mean to us, when we consider what we would like to do to come to terms with their loss.
Creating useful practices, for the religious and the non-religious, is a powerful tool at confronting the reality of death. We are not in the process of denying it, even by keeping our grief alive. We are giving it a space. We are giving it room in the conversation. We are acknowledging it.
My practice will not be for everyone.
But I encourage you all to find a practice that allows you to engage with the reality of loss and death, regardless of your beliefs. You will not have these people again, as they are now, in your life. It is something we all have to come to terms with.