#midnitetears

[midnitetears]

You Didn’t Have to Heal Me #231

You didn’t have to heal me.

You didn’t have to gather

the broken pieces of a past

you never created.

Those wounds were never yours to carry,

never yours to mend.

Healing was always my journey.

Fixing myself was always my responsibility.

What I needed

was never a savior.

I simply needed love.

A hand that wouldn’t let go

when the storms arrived.

A heart that chose mine

without trying to reshape it.

Someone who would accept me

for who I was,

and quietly stand beside me

as I grew into who I was becoming.

That was enough.

It always would have been enough.

I appreciate everything you tried to do,

every moment you believed

you could make the pain disappear.

But love

was all I ever asked for.

Somewhere along the way,

we reached the end.

Maybe I wasn’t enough.

Maybe I didn’t fit

the picture you had painted.

Maybe I couldn’t become

the person you wanted me to be.

Whatever the reason,

life kept moving,

even when my heart wanted it to stand still.

These days,

I’ve laid down the dream

of searching for another forever.

I’m tired of chasing love.

Tired of wondering

if someone will finally stay.

I’ve had my share of goodbyes,

my share of promises

that couldn’t outlive reality.

You were supposed to be

my forever.

Life chose differently.

So now,

you no longer live beside me,

or in the future I once imagined.

You live somewhere quieter.

A place time cannot erase,

where memories are gentle

instead of painful.

Not in my world anymore

but forever,

in my heart.

Yours Faithfully 🌻

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#207

To my future person…

I hope you love the rain

the way I do,

not just the soft kind,

but the wild, restless storms,

where thunder speaks in the dark

and lightning writes across the sky.

As we open the window

just enough to let the night in,

the cool air brushing against us

as we lie tangled together,

silent… but saying everything.

A single candle flickers,

painting warmth across your face,

while we drift closer

nose to nose,

forehead to forehead,

breathing the same quiet moment.

Your lips find mine,

soft, unhurried,

like time has nowhere else to be.

But here, with you and I.

And as the rain keeps falling,

steady, endless,

we fall too

into sleep,

into each other,

into something that feels like home.

Yours Faithfully🌻

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The Questions Love Left Behind #229

Why does love hurt?

Why do two strangers

cross paths,

learn each other’s hearts,

build a home inside one another…

only for one

to walk away?

What was the point?

What lesson

was I supposed to learn

from losing you?

Was it that

I wasn’t enough?

That I wasn’t worthy

of being loved?

Or was it that

love was never meant

to stay

only to visit,

change us,

and leave?

I don’t understand.

If our story

was always meant to end,

why did our paths

ever meet?

Why did the universe

place you in my life

only to ask me

to live without you?

Why did I have to fall

so deeply in love,

to know what forever

felt like,

only to discover

that forever

could end?

I search for answers

in the silence,

but silence

never replies.

It only echoes

your absence.

Maybe one day

I’ll understand.

Maybe one day

these questions

will no longer keep me awake.

But today…

I’m still standing

where our story ended,

holding a heart

that still whispers your name,

wondering

why love

could feel so beautiful…

and hurt

this much.

Yours Faithfully 🌻

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#194

How do you let go

just like that

seven years

reduced to a moment,

a blink,

a silence I still hear?

No “let’s try,”

no “we can fix this,”

just your mind made up

without me in it

a door closing

before I even knew

we were leaving.

You walked away,

and I stayed

in the space you left behind,

still holding conversations

that never happened,

still searching for answers

you never gave.

I tell myself to move on,

to keep walking,

to let time do

what it’s supposed to do

but I haven’t moved an inch.

Because the way you left me feeling…

it lingers

like a bruise no one can see,

like a question with no end,

like a love

that didn’t know

it was already over.

Yours Faithfully🌻

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#196

I can’t keep letting you consume me

you’re gone,

so I should let you go.

Yet here I am,

sifting through the echoes of you,

replaying memories

like they still belong to me.

I’ve had my faults,

and so have you

two imperfect souls

trying to hold something

that was never meant to stay.

Maybe everything happens for a reason,

maybe love sometimes visits

just to be felt,

not kept.

And still…

I’m grateful.

For the memories,

for the kind of love

I always dreamed of

even if it was only borrowed,

even if it was never mine to keep.

I carry it with me now

as something soft,

something fleeting,

something real.

So this is me,

closing the chapter

with trembling hands

Thank you.

And… goodbye.

Yours Faithfully🌻

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The Quiet I Found #230

I disappeared without a goodbye,

silenced the noise,

deleted the endless scrolling,

and stepped away from the world

that always seemed to demand

a little more of me.

At first, I missed it

the familiar faces,

the moments shared,

the feeling of being connected.

But only a little.

Because in the silence,

I found something I had forgotten.

Peace.

A peace untouched by distractions,

unbothered by meaningless conversations,

random follows,

or the inevitable,

“Hey… long time.”

Just stillness.

Just me.

These days, Tumblr, Pinterest, and YouTube

are all I need

small windows to inspiration

without the weight of comparison,

without the pressure to be seen.

Losing the one soul

I wanted to love

for the rest of my days

broke something inside me.

There is no pretending it didn’t.

But heartbreak has a strange way

of rebuilding us.

Piece by piece,

it has led me back to myself.

I’m learning to enjoy my own company again,

to step beyond the edges of my comfort zone,

to create memories

without waiting for someone

to stand beside me.

I am single,

but I am not alone.

There is a difference.

For the first time in a long time,

I am becoming the person

I was always meant to know.

And as I move forward,

I won’t chase the noise again.

I’ll choose the quiet.

Because somewhere within its gentle silence,

I finally found myself.

Yours Faithfully🌻

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Why Can’t I Get You Out of My Thoughts? #225

I still think about you,

and no matter how hard I try,

I can’t seem to quiet your name

inside my mind.

Maybe that’s because

you can’t simply get over

seven years of loving someone

as if they never existed.

Love doesn’t leave that easily.

It takes time,

and time feels painfully slow.

What I hate most

is this part of healing

the part where you live

in every corner of my thoughts.

I find myself returning

to the day you walked away,

reliving every moment,

every word,

every silence,

as though replaying it enough times

might somehow change the ending.

You’re gone.

And somehow,

even with my heart in pieces,

I still miss you.

I miss your voice.

I miss your presence.

I miss the version of us

that I thought would last forever.

Sometimes I wonder

what life would look like now

if that day had gone differently.

Would we still be laughing together?

Still building a future?

Still calling each other home?

But those answers

belong to a life

that no longer exists.

So I stepped away.

Left social media behind.

Went missing for a while,

hoping the silence

would help me heal.

And all I have now

are these words,

a place to pour out

the weight of my thoughts,

the ache of my feelings,

the pieces of a heart

still learning how to let go.

Yet every road I take

seems to lead me back

to the same heartbreak,

the same memories,

the same longing.

And I keep asking myself

Why,

after all this time,

can’t I get you out of my thoughts?

Maybe because

for seven years

you weren’t just someone I loved.

You were part of my everyday,

part of my future,

part of the person I became.

And learning to live without you

isn’t forgetting you

it’s learning how to carry the loss

without letting it carry me.

Yours Faithfully 🌻

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Where You Still Exist #220

Dreaming of you is a strange kind of pain.

It breaks me apart,

yet somehow it comforts me too.

Because in those quiet hours,

when my eyes finally close,

you still exist in my world.

Not beside me,

not in the way I once wished,

but in the place where you never truly left

my dreams.

There, we are still us.

Our story never ended.

The chapters keep turning,

the conversations continue,

and for a little while

love is allowed to live again.

I don’t know if that’s healing me

or hurting me even more.

Maybe it’s both.

Maybe that’s what grief becomes

finding comfort

in the very thing that wounds you.

Either way,

this is the life I have now.

Learning how to keep moving forward

while carrying memories of your existence,

of your laughter,

of your love,

of everything we once were.

And though this endless loop

often leaves me aching,

it has taught me things too.

It forced me to look at myself,

to see what I couldn’t see before.

It opened my eyes

where they were once closed.

It showed me truths

I spent too long avoiding.

I don’t know if I’ll ever love again.

Maybe I will.

Maybe I won’t.

The future remains unwritten.

But what I know for certain

is that I loved you

with everything I had.

With every piece of my heart,

every hope,

every dream.

And whether that’s a blessing

or a burden now,

I cannot say.

But one thing remains true:

I may love again someday,

yet I will never love

the way I loved you.

Because some loves arrive only once,

leave their mark forever,

and change the shape of a heart

long after they’re gone.

Yours Faithfully 🌻