- The last blooms of summer
What this august, these last weeks of summer, have in store for you? Which of your desires for this season will be fulfilled suddenly this last month?
piles → one and two ♡
The last month of this season, the last weeks, the last days in which we can't help but put all our hopes in. Hope that they will be able to shift our whole life suddenly, that they will give us everything that the rest of the summer failed to manifest for us... Hope that it is not too late, that we weren't too delusional, that we will be proven right, when our dreams and goals will come true at the last minute, no matter what...
Slow down for a moment, take a deep breathe in. Think about it, about all of it. The summer, the plans you've had, your visions... And the things that never appeared no matter the patience and hard work that you've had for them... And follow your gaze to that one pile, one detail of this painting that is calling you, hiding your message, about the goodbye gift this summer has for you.♡
p.s. This time I made a little addition to every pile: a reason/ explanation of why you intuitively might have chosen one pile and one detail of the painting rather than the other. As a way of understanding how our subconscious might resonate with certain things we see, and look for a sign or an answer in them. (Also, I usually pick the painting and the details that I want to feature days before doing the reading, deciding their order based on visual aesthetic and effect it gives me, so it's always so interesting to see how every message ends up with the detail of the painting that perfectly represents it visually!). So let me know if you like these additional interpretations.♡
So... Which pile is calling you?
Pile One
Pile Two
- Pile one,
(the key: the seven of swords and the fool)
Detail of the ‘’Turkish Woman’‘, by Theodoros Ralli (Greek, 1852 - 1909).♡
When we think about our dreams, our deepest desires at this moment, that one thing that we so passionately hope for... For most, it's the new things that come up: opportunities, progress, achievements and rewards. But for you, there is not even one thing of these.
Even if you wanted, you couldn't let them in. Not when your whole mind and heart is full of that one single situation that is tying you and dragging you away, every single day, at your every try and decision to make it out of it, to live your life differently, and free from all of this...
You just hope that it could end someday, somehow, and set you free. You spent your every single wish on it for so much time, months, even years... And yet you never saw something so persistent, something so out of your control and yet dead set on you, of all people, no matter what you throw at it in hopes to break its walls. The walls that seem to become tighter and tighter now, suffocating, with the stagnation of this situation and pattern, of the way they limit you, not let you breathe in nothing different...
You are tired, you are just surrendering. It would've been your strongest desire, the one of escaping from this, but you don't even bother anymore to think about it. Only your subconscious, perhaps, does. Still aching silently at every sign that confirms to you that you are doing the right thing by not even trying anymore, by not spending any more time or strenght to fight it...
But, even if it seems only a helpless observation the one your soul is doing, it does still try, it does still look for a solution, even if your conscious mind is so tired and against all of this. Somewhere somehow, there is still a part of you that believes that it is possible for things to change, that it's not your destiny nor duty to endure it. Or, to be precise, your subconscious is slowly coming to the conclusion that you can be the one to change things, no matter how they seem now.
This month, at first and on the surface, will still be and feel the same, exactly like the last months that passed by. Hot air, deep and overwhelmed breathes, a still tired body, no matter how much time you spent thinking that you are resting. Your mind will still feel present and at the same time not, confused, somehow, looking for something that you yourself don't know what is it. At least until... you will start to see it.
It won't be an aha! moment, an old light bulb materializing out of the blue and jumpscaring you... But it will be almost as anxiety inducing, strange, and weird. A creepling realisation, points that will be connected right before your eyes that will suddenly start to see, to notice, instead of just wandering, but not the things you will have quite literally in front of you - no, it will be something different, something deeper, thoughts and memories of the past you.
Day after day it will be an overload. Your subconscious, after preparing all the receipts, will start to push them right under your nose, demending your attention. People, situations, answers, examples, all the things that you already looked into, when frenetically searching for a way out of this situation. But now they will be slightly different. All worked out, with notes, with circles around the clues and details. A whole and complete map of your situation, with a way out highlighted with such force that you won't be able to look away.
It will be sudden, and strange. Because you didn't plan all of this. You didn't plan to look into it again, to try one more time, to have hopes and intentions to give once more to this situation. But when the answers will be so clear in front of you, it will be impossible to resist, you will run to see if they are correct.
First with some uncertainty, then with more and more confidence, you will stand up again in that situation that for so long kept you sat, forcing you to surrender. You will face it once again - ‘‘one last time’’ you will whisper to yourself - with new evidence, new ideas, new way of handling all of it. And it will work out.
At the very last moment, right before the end, a summer that seemed completely the same as others will become a scene right out of a film. As you will finally become free from it, from all of it. Physically, mentally, emotionally - you will win against it. You will set your own self free, right before the new season starts, a new and literal beginning for you.
All because of a part of you, a tiny but such fierce one, that never surrendered, never accepted to be trapped by others, and decided to guide you out of it. Into your new life.
p.s. Like the veil in the detail of the painting that drew you in, although almost imperceptibly because you got so used to it, this one situation was limiting you, limiting your view of the world, your enjoynment of it, and your possibilty to speak your desired life into existence all around you. Something that will change starting from this month, as you will finally take it off you.♡
p.p.s. If this message resonated with you and you feel like you might want or need a deeper dive into your situation or the months ahead of you, you can take a look at the personal guidance that I offer, right here, that starts as low as €11.♡
- Pile two,
(the tree: the two of swords and the tower)
Detail of the ‘’Turkish Woman’‘, by Theodoros Ralli (Greek, 1852 - 1909).♡
Some might say that it is too late, it is the last month of the summer. Others might say that it is better late than never. And you... You kind of don't know. Not when it comes to your body, your health that is important to you, and yet the opponent is too strong - the routines, the discipline of it all, the affordability of a better and healthier life style - is just too much.
It could be said that it is a little too simple of a reason, but it is the truth. It really is too much to get into, to take care of, even if you really wanted it, to be healthier for this season so you could really enjoy it. It's just that, (this is the conclusion you came to), perhaps you didn't even wanted it that much. To be more active, to eat more fully, to feel more lightly as you go through your days and little adventures. Perhaps you didn't even wanted to have a different aesthetic or look to you. Perhaps it was all just about the voices and examples around you, that got to you, and really you are just okay the way you are, for yourself.
And yet, you are not so smiley when you are looking in the mirror. You are not too proud of yourself, nor satisfied, when you don't have the strenght to keep up with something, when you get too tired. And that little voice, the one that never left no matter how much you've said to yourself that you are just fine, is still here. It never left. It never stopped to judge you nor to compare you. To your younger self, to others on some socials, to those you see walking past you. The ones that are lighter or bigger. The ones that are stronger or weaker... That voice never became silent, the whirl of examples and condemnations only got more chaotic. Because it is coming closer.
That deadline that you set for yourself, hypothetically, some months ago. When you decided that you will transform completely for this summer, and be so free and strong that there won't be even one activity or adventure that you will pass on.
It is the last month. And this, itself, feels like a sentence to you. Because you indeed didn't manage to do your transformation, or didn't change enough for your own standards. And, in one way or another, you chose this ‘‘failure’’ as your coach for this season. You let it choose for you, what you can do and can't. Where you are good enough to be seen and where you aren't.
And one after another, so many things were lived by you completely differently from what you planned. Some days you weren't so strict with yourself, you were kinder, and inevitably were reminded, by that mean voice in your head, how it will affect your progress and your appearance. And others you were less understanding, you gave your all to your goals, until you collapsed from tiredness, questioning why are you doing all of this in the first place. It was all or nothing, too little or too much. Every single day, every single moment of a summer that you wanted so badly to just be perfect for once.
And now it’s all just about to end. Another summer full of things that you didn't want and ideas that you never recreated. But this time, also, with a new conviction that it is your fault more than ever, because you could've done something differently, but didn't...
But, although in these first days of the month those thoughts will be quite heavy... After spending so much time listening to them and contemplating, you will discover somehow a new option. The one of not condemning yourself too much. And, not yet.
It is the last month, yes, but it is still a whole one. One that has many days in it, many moments and opportunities to catch up on some adventures or desires of yours. One that is not obligated to be as full of frustration and regret as the others ones. Nor it is forced to be so judgemental of the you that did try still to work on yourself.
You might have expected a gift that comes from this summer. But the one you will receive will be much more precious - it will be from your own self and your mind that, finally and for once, will start to be a little more kinder to you.
It is difficult and bitter to accept a loss, it's true. And yet it doesn't force you in any way to sit with it, and not try again, now or a little later. And this is exactly what you will do - you will free yourself for this one last month, finally, from your own expectations, convictions, and judgement. You will just live it, and enjoy it. You will take on those opportunities and adventures, and when you will want to, you will adjust your self care to them. When to rest, when to be active, when to eat more or less, when to wake up earlier or go to bed later. Which outfit feels more right in the moment, which colours and make up makes you feel more confident. You will face each question one at a time, and find your answers intuitively, based on how you will feel about them purely in that instant. And, ironically, in one month you will understand and do for yourself much more than what you expected before this season started.
Because it will be natural. And it will be gentle. Because it will be a focus on feeling better in your own skin, not on changing it. And without realising, this little detail will change everything. Your mind too. As it will unlock it and free from old convictions on what you need and must do. Allowing you to find your own rhythms and routines that will finally have sense for you and your own body, ones that will be so easy to follow because they will be yours, not of someone else that you decided to force on you.
And just like that, one shift of a mindset, will save much more than just a summer and its last month - it will give you something to bring into the new season, something that will truly and really be helpful for you in your journey on becoming the strongest and healthiest version of your self.
p.s. The gift of yours that you will receive will be a little like the confidence and determination in the eyes that captured you, in the detail of the painting that you chose sooner. Emotions that you do want to feel in you, when you move and experience life through your body. Perhaps even provoking those old fears and convictions of yours about yourself, by making the most of these moments ahead of you, while subtly and victoriously smiling at the things that tried to stop you.♡
p.p.s. If this message resonated with you and you feel like you might want or need a deeper dive into your situation or the months ahead of you, you can take a look at the personal guidance that I offer, right here, that starts as low as €11.♡
