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Happy birthday! Have a good one ;-)

Thank you so much!!!!!!! It was an excellent day!!!!!

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30 Days Commander Shepard Meme: 5, 10, 15, 20, 25, 30. Please and thank you very much :-)

hello!! thank you so much i love ranting about john ldigha[ogh

5. Is there an event from your Shepard’s past (before they joined the Alliance) that they look fondly on? What is it?

honestly like...john loved being in the Reds. at least when he was younger. because he was fucking GOOD, and he felt important and needed and skilled and like he was part of a family and it was really good for his self-esteem. knowing that it is less than surprising how quickly he got attached to being commander of the Normandy and his whole crew lol

10. How do they feel about being in command of the Normandy? About their SPECTRE status?

ahahaha so...john literally only exists in the Break of Dawn ‘verse because i’m terrible. so he’s got a weird relationship with it? before he gets (spoilers lmfao) discharged, he’s already kind of become disenchanted because he feels really restricted and ineffectual and he is NOT a military man at heart. and that only gets worse when he becomes a spectre. with all the freedom that role is supposed to offer him, it just becomes ANOTHER collar that’s pulling him in a different direction than the alliance one lol. he had a crisis when he first became a spectre, coz he was like *john cena voice* ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT 

why does he RETURN to command of the normandy?? when he’s literally not being paid?? at all?? no one is making him?? fuck if even he could tell you. something something it’s the right thing to do something something family something. :p

15. Squad: Who does your Shepard like the least? Why?

LMAO SAVAGE. so john doesn’t really NOT like anyone on the normandy squad. but he has the LEAST relationship with the me2-era crew. he’s a little cooler with miranda coz she and kaidan are close and he became her friend by osmosis, grunt is his son, and he’s VERY close with jack because they, kaidan, and ash are literally blood family at this point, but everyone else john just wasn’t really emotionally available enough to connect with.

20. What is your Shepard’s least favorite place to go in the galaxy? Why?

does the collector base count??? if not, NOVERIA. lmfao

25. How does your Shepard deal with death? Not just the deaths of civilians, but of friends (such as Mordin or Thane).

worse as time goes on. he’s seen a lot of it, and for a while he’s pretty good at compartmentalizing and letting people go. but like i said...he’s not a military man. he does not have the heart of a soldier. his heart bleeds a lot more than he’d like to let on, and the deaths start to take a toll on him. kaidan’s sort of broke the camel’s back, and it’s all downhill from there.

30. Share your favorite piece of art or your favorite screenshot of your Shepard. What about it makes it your favorite?

i actually dont have any art of john T_T i need some so bad!!!!! i also am terrible at remembering to take screenshots so yeah none of those either. i’ll share a good gif somebody else made of him and his hubby tho (my shep has the default appearance coz i have a thing for taking the default character of a game and injecting them with life idk let me live)!

there they are. beautiful. 

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Hey honey, great idea! If you feel like it. Can you write something that has Shep saying 'Is that a gun or are you just happy to see me Kaidan?' in it? I had a lovely chat with perfect-miss-lawson and it came up. We thought it would be nice if there was a ff or oneshot that has that line in it. If that is not your kind of thing though you can simply ignore it. No hard feelings ;-) Thank you for doing this!

It is probably a bad idea for me to write psuedo-smut right before bed, but late as this prompt is, I hope it will please you guys!

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Shepard sat in his skycar and reviewed the list of bars inthis district.

GASP. No, music too loud, lights too bright. Sure fire wayto chase away Kaidan Alenko unless he was having the best possible time.

The Dunk Tank. No, a little too jokey—the kind of place togo for pitchers of neon liquor and games that were designed to get you drinkfast and spending credits hand-over-fist.

Gaslight Square. The kind of place Kaidan would definitelytake a friend on a night on the town, for sure. But he wouldn’t have sentShepard the message “Headed to the club”if he had been going to Gaslight.

Pervus’ Proporium. No, Kaidan always hated being the onlylevo at a dextro club.

Brrrrrrrrrrt! No, not since the incident with the eels, lasttime.

The Contellix. More likely than the others, but if Kaidancouldn’t even wait for Shepard to get out of his meeting before heading to theclub, he was definitely too sick of people to head to a club where thepaparazzi were likely to be standing around waiting for a Council Specter orsome celebrity to come by.

Iglu. Had billed itself as a ‘biotic club’ until recently,and everyone still thought of it that way. Clean theme, dusky without beingseedy. Bright, throbbing, even music. Kaidan was at Iglu, for sure. Shepardsmiled, couldn’t wait to surprise his boyfriend without so much as a “Headingyour way, which club did you end in?” He entered the location into the navcomputer.

When he didn’t find Kaidan in the first two chambers atIglu, Shepard wasn’t even worried. With how fed up Kaidan had been with theCouncil, lately, he definitely would be headed back to the more secluded VIParea: fewer people checking out his ass, fewer people asking him to dance,drinks expensive enough to keep him (mostly) sober.

There he was.

The furniture, all an icy acrylic, through what little lightthere was into fractured rainbows all around the room, and the music came up toyour ears by way of your feet. And no matter how many high-fashion human VIPsdanced across his way, the moment Shepard saw the back of that leather sittingat the bar, he only had eyes for Kaidan.

“Major,” he whispered into Kaidan’s ear, letting his nosegraze along the flash of gray at Kaidan’s temple.

Kaidan whipped around in a frenzy, practically dropped hisdrink before fixin Shepard in a coy grin.

“Shepard! Welcome!” He put his hands on Shepard’s on hiswaist, wrapped his legs around Shepard’s to pull him in. “How’d you find me?”

Before Shepard could answer, his boyfriend’s tongue was inhis mouth, soaked in one of the bolder, sweeter alien liquors. When he felt thegraze of Kaidan’s teeth against his lower lip, Shepard decided maybe it wasn’tso important to brag about how he found his lover, afterall.

“Mmm,” Kaidan hummed, sliding off the barstool to pullhimself erect. He licked at the shine he’d left on Shepard’s lips, his handsnaking down to the front of Shepard’s pants. “Commander,” his voice came outas a playful growl. He palmed Shepard through the denim, almost hard enough tobring Shepard up on his toes and thrust his hips forward. “I thought this wassupposed to be our night off. D’you bring a gun in your pocket? Or at you justhappy to see me?”

Again, Shepard couldn’t answer before Kaidan’s hand slidinto his back pocket and their mouths were together again. Between Kaidan’shands, suddenly throbbing against his fingers, the come-on didn’t even soundcorny. Kaidan’s body was so hot, Shepard couldn’t tell if he was sweatinghimself, or if Kaidan’s thin t’shirt was just soaking straight through Shepard’sown and soaking him down.

He moaned into Kaidan’s mouth,  opened his eyes to Kaidan’s already staring athim, shards of rainbow light reflected in his deep irises.

“You’re drunk,” Sheapard breathed, feeling more than a littledrunk himself all of a sudden.

“I am tipsy. And only for the next few minutes.” Kaidan’sthumbnail grated slowly up the zipper of Shepard’s fly.

“Y-yeah?”

“Biotic metabolism, lover,” Kaidan let the whisper slitherover the rough scrape his stubble had left on Shepard’s ear with a nuzzle. Hemoved down to kiss Shepard’s throat. “So how about we do a little dancing,” hetook the collar of Shepard’s shirt between his teeth as if he were ready to ripit off. “And in a couple minutes, I’ll be sober.” He kissed a line back up toShepard’s ear. “And I’ll still be just asturned on.”

Shepard shuddered, fingers digging into the flesh of Kaidan’schest.

“You’re… I don’t think I’ve ever seen you this… turned onbefore…” Shepard couldn’t help trying to keep his voice down, it already took aphenomenal effort not to moan when Kaidan sucked at his pulse.

“Sometimes I need a terrible day to remind me how good Ihave it.” Kaidan’s hand slid under Shepard’s shirt, pushing it up as he climbedhigher up his body. “Or how bad I want my man.”

“Kaidan…” Shepard cussed when Kaidan’s hand came up throughhis collar, fingers brushing across his lips. The air in the club felt coolagainst his bared chest, and Kaidan felt hotter than ever when he pulled Shepardin. “We’re… in the middle of the damn bar.”

“Yeah,” Kaidan’s thumb slid between Shepard’s lips. “Why doyou think I came to Iglu? Nobody bats an eye at the PDA in this place…”

“Oh my god…”

“Plus the hotel room I got us for the night is right up thatelevator…”

“Kaidan!”

Shepard had never been more pleased to discover he had moreto learn about his man. But the dancefloor was waiting, and the night wasyoung.

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I was tagged by the amazing @mshenkowithoutadoubt. Thanks love!

Relationship status: Married

Favourite colour: Blue. I mean really, I don’t know that there is a shade of blue I don’t like.

Lipstick or chapstick: Chapstick. I have a really bad nervous habit of chewing on my lip so, chapstick kind of a must.

Last song you listened to: "Harder You Get” by Scissor Sisters

Last movie you watched: Star Wars: Rogue One and I have questions

Top 3 characters: Jaxson Shepard/Kaidan Alenko (Mass Effect - and yes, as my OTP to end all OTPs they count as one character, deal with it), Scott Ryder (Mass Effect), Nathan Drake (Uncharted)

Top 3 ships: Jaxson/Kaidan (Mass Effect), Scott Ryder/Gil Brodie (Mass Effect), and I’m equally in love with Lito/Hernando & Nomi/Amanita (both from Sense8) - and I’m sorry I keep cheating

Books you are currently reading: I - um - so yeah... I’m reading the Mass Effect: Andromeda Official Guide Collectors Edition. I - I think I have a problem. I’m so ashamed. *chokes* Next question please...

Top 5 musicals: Ok, like, I know I’m gay but I’m not super into musicals. Wait, I can do this. Well, Phantom of the Opera for sure. I openly admit to having the original cast recording. Hmmm.. West Side Story is pretty good. Having gang members twirling is a bit strange but there’s some good stuff in there. Saw Guys and Dolls once at the university. It was fun. And that’s all I got.

Tagging. This always makes me nervous. But there are some mutuals I’d like to get to know better. @gayscottryder @gil-ryder @estalfaed @mshenkon7 @dalish-quarian @complicatedgayness. Only if you want to, of course!

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mshenkowithoutadoubt replied to your post“Inquisition showed me that side quest overload can ruin my experience…

What do you think about the  planets’ space? Just as in inquisition we have these huge maps.                

It’s boring to me. Going to these big maps with a million side quests to do? Been there, done that. The original trilogy was more linear, but it still had enough roaming to make it feel open and alive. It was a good balance. I’d much rather have that than a recycled Inquisition exploration system.

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mshenkowithoutadoubt replied to your post

“if BW remade the original trilogy with MEA’s gameplay I’d lose my shit”

What do you exactly mean? The mechanic?

yeah the combat, I’d want it the same as in MEA, the whole jumping stuff too...also make Shepard hella OP because I want to be a biotic god

susurrusilous replied to your post  

“if BW remade the original trilogy with MEA’s gameplay I’d lose my shit”

 I'd die. oh god but what a wonderful way to go

yeah...but we all know it’s not gonna happen :’(

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draco-illius-noctis answered your question “ok guys so i’m at the hillel right now on campus for like the third...”

I mean, it sounds like it to me. But I guess go there with the assumption that it's not, just to be safe? It sounds like it was really specific to just be a "we should hang out sometime" thing, idk.

i’m trying not to get my hopes up but like everyone i’ve asked says it sounds like a date and im still in awe that someone noticed me enough to ask me out?

mshenkowithoutadoubt answered your question “ok guys so i’m at the hillel right now on campus for like the third...”

Might be a date. Did he just ask if you wanna grab a coffee or something like 'let's talk more about that over coffee'?

no we were talking and then he got up and got his computer from the other side of the room and then he came back and asked if i wanted to get coffee on friday lmao

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Replies to my post about a Men of Bioware Calendar:

@sanguinespire wrote:

yes, and of aliens, and ladies, or whatever lol it would all be awesome.

*blushes* Yes... all of those things would be wonderful. But I selfishly focused on the boys because... well... they my pixel crushes.

@mshenkowithoutadoubt wrote:

Make it yourself! (Hmmm that sounds mean, but I don’t mean it like that!) There’re online services with free softwares with which one can make their own calendar and print it rather cheap. I made a Mass Effect calendar for myself with all the pictures I love. Every Month has a different theme - April is Kaidan. It was also fun making it.

Great idea! I really should do that! And, hell, there might actually BE an official Men of Bioware calendar out there. I was just musing mostly... On a side note, I love that Kaidan is April on your calendar. It’s my birthday month and he’s my fave. LOL Little things make me happy. ;)