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[socialworkerbee]

sometimes I sit and realize I am in grad school. I am a grad student. I never thought I'd make it this far. And I think that's pretty cool.

[socialworkerbee]

1.29.23 Week 9/11

Last day of week 9. I have an A in one class and a low C in the other. I wanted to try and up my grade to at least a B, but it looks like that's not happening. I really wanted to keep my 4.0 GPA, but I guess it's not happening. Which, now that I think about it, I had a C in my policy class...not sure how I have a 4.0 GPA.

Then again, I got into Walden with a 3.0 GPA and got into the Advanced Standing. But I didn't think I had a 3.0 GPA with my BSW. I'm not questioning it. I'm doing my best and working hard.

I struggle with the diagnoses cases because they are very brief and I miss information crucial to the diagnosis. I also don't get the chance to dig deeper and ask follow up questions. I spoke with my grandmother (LCSW who is now a professor and Clinical Supervisor) and she said that's to be expected since its just a brief description on paper and not a conversation.

I am also switching around how I do my assignments today. Usually, I start with my Families/Groups class work, but today I am starting with Psychpathology. I am hoping I'll feel less rushed and do better. This professor grades a little harder (understandably) compared to my Family/Groups class.

Wish me luck, I guess!

[socialworkerbee]

1.26.23

I have to take today off work because I didn't take care of myself. I overstressed myself over things I can't control at work. I am so full of doubt and fear that I couldn't handle it. I got way too invested in so many of my cases, especially with getting rent paid.

I have to remember that I can only do what I can do.

So, I am now home and engaging in my hobbies to help re-center myself. I can't help if I spend so much time worrying about how unfair or insane the situation is.

I still have homework to do and I think not knowing how to lead the interns also had something to do with it. I want to help them, but I don't even know how to navigate this situation.

But now I can think a little clearer. Tomorrow I will set a game plan for next week.

Also, I have an A in once class and am barely pulling a C in the other. I was hoping to keep my 4.0 GPA for once. But all I can do is my best. Besides, homework can feel like something I can control if I do it right.

I'm also trying to get my eating under control because I've started binging. Yay.

On top of all of this, my boss has already kick started a project (despite us struggling with a separate project) that I am very excited about. I suggested asking my grandmother to come in and help put together a proposal to address the problem, but it devolved into me now looking into proposal writing courses. Exciting but terrifying.

Oh well, now not only am I a certified MANDT instructor, I might be able to help get the organization money. AND I'm a case manager. AND I can officially supervise interns next fall. While doing my own internship.

I want a raise.

[socialworkerbee]

psychomotor: of or relating to movement associated with mental processes; associated with depression