#muse saga

[scifielves]

"If Ceobe is leaving for an extended period, I would deign to accompany her, should you allow me-"

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Note : I don't promote my fics again in here. But Bleobheris is one fic that I started a long time ago and had some readers here. I give a conclusion there. A satisfying one, I am not sure, but at least the page can be turned properly.

Warning : Violence. Whump. Post traumatic state, depression, suicidal thoughts, alcoholism. The starter pack as always lol

This is the story of how the raid of Bleobheris turned Jaskier into the Sandpiper.

[Muse Saga]

Chapter 7 : The Sandpiper

[fantasybots]

@fleshvitiation

Saga will absolutely intervene, putting herself between Reed and the biteys.

"I beseech thee, stop this senseless violence! These creatures have delivered no malevolence to thee or thine own, and I shall not stand for harm to befall them upon merely the whim of thee."

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I always believed I would spend the rest of my days with you all, or like we always did, crossing path, sharing adventures, or a meal somewhere, anywhere... We always had something to share.

I would have followed you as long as my legs would have carried me. I would have sung to you as long as my voice would have hold. And then I hoped you would have visited me when I would have been too old... Because you were eternal to mere mortals like me and this was the only good way to end this story. You alive. Me dead.

But today, I am lost. That future won't exist and I don't know what to do. You left me on that bank and disappeared into the mist, when all I wished was lying with them. I understand your feelings, princess, but, if they are not alive, I don't belong with the living either... You know it.

Now, my body seems too heavy to move even if I feel empty, and my heart is too broken to feel anything but pain. I don't know how to sing, because my voice is trapped somewhere.

There is nowhere I feel home anymore. I am just a lost soul on this sphere. So please, come back... or welcome me on the other side. Don't leave me here... alone. I beg of you. This is not fair I have to stay here, in a space full of your absence.

You denied me the right to have a more peaceful end and I saw in your eyes that you will never come back. Maybe we could have mourn together. We didn't have to be alone to face this ordeal, didn't we ?

But maybe you knew that my own pain would be too much to bear and you couldn't see me never heal. Maybe you were right. Maybe that's better that way. But maybe it means that everyone understood, and I was in denial all my life. Maybe my own kind knew from my first breath in this world how unworthy of love I was, and I should have bent before that heart would know the feeling. Maybe that's why in the end, I have to face this alone...

I am sorry, princess, for my bitter words but the wound is too fresh and the fall is hard, because I thought for a short time that I was enough and worth to be part of your family, when clearly it was just a construct of my mind. Also you knew what to say, but this is not fair you used that against me to keep me alive... on this side. Because I will give myself heart and soul to the task you gave me, knowing it will never bring me real peace.

But my letter isn't for that.

Yes, I am bitter that you did that to me, but deep inside I can't blame you and never will. You had too much to endure. This is only pain speaking and I am sorry. I have to find a way to accept things as they are. I need just time. Probably.

This letter is there to enlighten what I should have said before. What I should have say many times. I have to make things right before my own end.

The poet in me wants to believe that you knew how much I love you all. But for the first time in my life I regret I never said those three little words out loud. You are gone and it is too late now. There is no second chances with those kind of things.

I will continue to tell the story of my beloved family to the world as you asked me to, if I can find my voice back, but the world doesn't deserve the words I would say to you only. I will continue to hide them to their eyes and ears, like the most extraordinary things I keep inside.

But for you, I write these words, for the first and the last time. This is a beacon in the dark and the most important thing anyone has to know. And you have to know.

I LOVE YOU.

Your crazy uncle Jaskier.

(Letter found in a empty wine bottle in a lake in Rivia)

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Warning : Depression, mourning, mention of suicidal thoughts

Zoltan had received a letter from Jaskier asking him to meet him in Rinde for a short travel together. He knows his friend his not well for a long time but this may be the time to address some issues and reconnect.

[Zoltan POV]

This story is the second part of a long OS I made about the ending of the books... I am still not sure I would post the first part because I cry too much reading at my notes 😅. The second part you have here was not that long in the original but a few weeks back I stumbled on a tumblr post that made me think of something and I developed it.

This is not a happy story but this isn't totally sad either. So if you're triggered on mourning process, skip it.

[my-jokes-are-my-armour]

My witcher fics general masterpost

Here are all stories dispatched by ship. As most of my fic are mature because of the subjects (depression, suicidal thoughts, mourning process...) and the whump, I will go the other way around and put the 🌸 tag for the light fics. Note that warnings are also in the stories for each chapter.

Fics are post on ffnet and here on tumblr for the microfictions.

[Edit] I have an ao3 account now but I am not sure what to do with it so I will put the links when available there too.

Geraskier

The Muse Saga masterpost [x]

Pears [ffnet][ao3] : OS. 1.7k words. Whump. Geralt and Jaskier are taken prisoner and have a rough time but they have a little moment to chat a little bit. Geralt will learn a thing or two. [Mixed POV]

Microfictions :

Friend [x] : After the moutains [Geralt POV]

Don't abandon me [x] : Alternate ending. Jaskier has heard after the battle of Kaer Morhen [Jaskier POV]

Last thoughts [x] : Alternate ending. Rience finishes him off [Jaskier POV]

What if [x] : Just a thought about what if Jaskier heard them talk after Voleth Meir

Radskier

If I have the courage to publish more of it some day, this will go there. I try to make it happen creating this category. But due to certain things I have destroyed all remaining notes for the stories I had written for them. So that's all that's left at the moment.

Wild Blue : [ao3 series link]

Trapped [ffnet]: OS. 1.6k words. Hidden between the red roses, a wild blue flower grows. [Radovid POV]

Thorns [ffnet] : Multichapter (9). 35.9k words. Strong whump. Radovid and Jaskier are linked through their dreams. The new king of Redania witnesses the doom fate of his lover and has to find a way to help him get through some terrible wounds - physical as much as emotional. [Multi POV]

You can find every chapter with their specific warnings under the # wild blue of this post.

Others :

For the first time [ffnet][ao3] : Multichapter (in progress - around 12k words for the moment). Dark - Emotional and physical whump. Radovid has everything he wants except what matters. He acts his life out day after day. He is searching blindly for one thing that doesn't exist in his world but that he needs deeply : love. This is the story of how Radovid falls in love with a certain bard. For the best and the worst. [Radovid POV]

Microfictions :

My beloved king [x] : AU (kinda). Someone is jealous of Radovid love for Jaskier. [That guy in the back POV]

Mixed

This can be multiship or no precise ship at all.

Oxymoron [ffnet] [ao3] : Multichapter (in progress - 120k word for the moment). Quite heavy - Whump physical and emotional. The Continent has long forgotten magic and monsters. Those are for books and legends only. Yet some still believe in it and witchers are still in activity. Geralt, one of the last, knows that monsters have just adapted to the human world and hides even in the biggest cities. One day, he meets a young man playing in a bar on the road and his life is changed. - [Modern AU][Geralt POV]

Microfictions :

Vespula's logs - part 1 : [x] Vespula's notes on Jaskier's muses. 🌸

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The muse saga

Hi there. This is the masterpost for my Jaskier's fics regrouped under the "muse saga" title. Here is what to know about it.

Jaskier is the main character. He is bi or pan. He loves Geralt platonically but he is his muse so it means that this is the strongest kind of link for him. Can be read as romantic also.

The muse saga covers all the seasons of the witcher and are a mixte between the TV show and the books.

All the fics are mature. Contain depressive state to suicidal thoughts, and alcoholim. Some are whump and have blood. I try no to be too graphic though. But some scenes can be disturbing. On my blog you can access each chapter separately with detailed warnings. Follow the # "muse saga" on this post to find them.

Here are my fanfics in chronological order with characteristics and pitch :

Endless pain [x] : OS just after the mountain. 1,2k words. Jaskier never felt that much pain in his life but when Geralt shattered his heart. This is how he entered a world of endless pain.

Bleobheris [x] : Multichapter. ~ 20k words. Whump (mature only : because has disturbing scenes) This is the story of how the raid of Bleobheris turned Jaskier into the Sandpiper.

A bird in a cage [x] : Multichapter (8). 21,5k words. Whump. Jaskier has been put in jail after Yennefer had disappeared in the whorehouse. He has wounds that need some time to heal, both physical and emotional. Time he doesn't really have... He will have to dig deep to find the light in him.

Where do I belong [x] : Multichapter (6). 11k words (has disturbing mindsets moments). After the battle of Kaer Morhen, bluntly rejected by Lambert, ignored by most, Jaskier struggles to find where he belongs and why he is still there. [Multi POV]

A shard of glass [x] : OS. 5k words. At Kaer Morhen, Vesemir noticed Jaskier is skipping dinners. A conversation with the bard reopens old resentment toward humans and leads to a bad judgement. Harsh words are shared but kind too. And maybe Jaskier will finally find the comfort he needs. [Vesemir POV]

The last piece of him [x] [x]: OS. 1.3k words. (This is set after the end of the books - spoilers). After the lake events, Jaskier decides he has to return to Kaer Morhen with the only thing he could keep from Geralt. Someone has to tell Vesemir. He doesn't want the old man learning about the faith of his son from an unsensitive mouth. Even if it hurts, at least be it him. [Jaskier and Vesemir POV]

A place to rest [x][x] : OS. 5.9k words. (This is set after the end of the books - spoilers). Zoltan had received a letter from Jaskier asking him to meet him in Rinde for a short travel together. He knows his friend his not well for a long time but this may be the time to address some issues and reconnect. [Zoltan POV]

The man that never smiled [x][x] : OS. 7k words. (This is set after the end of the books and references more than is shown on the TV show so it can be spoilery) The Continent had drastically changed but some beacons of the past are still there, wandering in the garden of the academy of Oxenfurt. Elika, a young student, will meet this strange man that never smiles and would change her life, somehow... [OC POV]

(All the fics are first of all on FFnet. I know nobody likes it but this is my historical account so I stayed here. Muse saga isn't going to ao3, but post Lady of the Lake stories are part of a collection there.)

Part of the Muse Saga, there are also the unsent letters that are inly on tumblr.

To Geralt - Winter's heart : [x]

To Geralt - What should I've been [x]

To Ciri : [x]

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Warning : Violence (some graphic). Traumatic events and post traumatic state, anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts. Emotional and physical whump.

Note : I write a pan Jaskier in the muse saga and this fic contains short relationships with a man and a woman, including sex (not graphic)

There are a lot of heavy stuff in this fic. I will probably put the harder chapters with adult visibility so you would be warned even more 😅.

This is the story of how the raid of Bleobheris turned Jaskier into the Sandpiper.

[Muse Saga]

Chapter 1 : Trying to heal

Jaskier is trying to overcome his heartbreak.