Thinking about my Dreamers AU again
I think the worst part of it is they truly did love each other. Who fell first is probably up for debate but they both genuinely loved each other. I think Lucifer however, accepted his feelings much later than Vincent did actually.
Vincent enjoyed Lucifer’s creativity and optimism. He loved Lucifer’s big ideas and his little gifts and enormous dream worlds. He enjoyed Lucifer’s sassiness and his flair for the dramatic . He liked staring into Lucifer’s crimson eyes. He could be vulnerable with Lucifer in a way he couldn’t be with anyone else. And unlike most people in his life there isn’t much more to gain from Lucifer except for his company. Lucifer is an intangible dream spirit who doesn’t interact directly with the world of man. The most he can really give Vincent is good dreams and some secret knowledge. Because of this Lucifer has no reason to stab Vincent in the back either. Most of the secret knowledge isn’t super interesting to Vincent as it’s either for magic or inventions, two fields he currently has no interest in. The most useful information is on how to shape his own dreams.
Lucifer admired Vincent for his ambition and his grit. He loved his courage to keep going and his dreams of influencing culture and ideas, steering the world towards the future. He loved his showmanship and skill in the old razzle dazzle. He loved listening to him talk when he’s passionate about something. He hadn’t been this close with someone who wasn’t family in a millennia.
it’s just that Lucifer was never going to be okay with Vincent being a serial killer, especially in this AU where he gets a much more limited exposure to the worst of humanity. He can’t understand why Vincent would murder to advance his career . He especially can’t understand how or why he would backstab the same person he had praised only a couple hours before. It’s against everything he believes about Vincent and humanity.
So Lucifer decides to break it off. He can’t interfere with the mortal world to stop the murders and he doesn’t believe he can talk Vincent out of this. He can’t be with, much less be around a murderer and pretend everything is fine. He can’t. So for his own sanity or whatever is still left of it, he has to leave. He’ll never contact Vincent in the dream world again. It kills him to leave but he can’t stay either. Besides Vincent doesn’t need him to make the bad dreams go away anymore.
Vincent’s next few nights of dreams are empty of anything that didn’t come from his own head. Lucifer was gone and never coming back.
Vincent cannot accept that. This is one of the very few people he trusts. This is one of the only people he loves. Lucifer has seen parts of him that he has shown to nobody else. He knows that Lucifer loves him too. So why is he leaving? Why is he ripping out Vincent’s heart and stomping on it? Over something like this? He’s not even a human. Why does he care so much about some random dead guy?? You can’t just say you care and let me show you the most vulnerable parts of me before throwing me away like yesterday’s news. Not happening. Not if I have anything to say about it.
So he resorts to the occult via a business partner’s (friend’s) witchy expertise and some good old fashioned trickery. The thing about the ritual is the power is nice. Vincent will never say no to some free power. The extended lifespan and the magic powers were not something Vincent was unhappy about either . But it’s not the main reason he did the ritual. The main reason is he just wants to make sure Lucifer can’t fly off again. If Lucifer is bound to his soul, he can’t leave ever again. It’s a dangerous combination of vengeance for Lucifer leaving and desperation that he’ll never see Lucifer again that makes Vincent go through with the ritual.
So now Lucifer is stuck with Vincent until he expires. And with his powerful magic bound to his soul, it’s not looking like that will happen anytime soon. If ever. And it’s emotional agony. Trapped to a single place, a single mind. Unable to tell anyone else where he went. He’s forced to bear witness to Vincent’s sins. He’s basically like one of the emotions from Inside Out. Except Vincent can hear him in his mind. And that’s just by day. At night Vincent and Lucifer fight for control of the dreamscape and Lucifer is treated as both a prisoner and a honored guest. Vincent occasionally tries to rekindle what they once had. But Lucifer refuses to play along (almost) every time. Vincent is a mess of bitterness, vengeance and longing. Lucifer is a mess of heartbreak, anger and horror. They both miss what they had, but it can never be the same between them. Vincent wants it back, and he has a very long time to wait Lucifer out. Lucifer shouldn’t want it back but he does. That doesn’t mean that Lucifer would ever get together with Vincent again.
