#ndph

[powerchairpunk]

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[fangedphillygrrrl]

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i'm in constant physical pain (because i have two different conditions whose prognoses are basically "you're gonna be in constant pain for the rest of your life and we're not completely sure why") and i've been living like this for long enough that i'm used to it. honestly, i am. and whenever it comes up, i brush it off, and no matter how much people say that it's sad or it sucks or whatever, im just like "haha yeah i'm used to it :)" cuz i don't wanna make it a bigger deal than i already do, and i never want it to seem like i'm looking for pity. but sometimes i just wanna scream YES, IT SUCKS SO BAD! YES, I'M USED TO IT, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS SO LONG THAT I GENUINELY DON'T REMEMBER WHAT IT'S LIKE TO NOT BE IN PAIN, AND THAT'S FUCKING DEPRESSING! THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL TOLL OF BEING IN CONSTANT PAIN WITH NO END IN SIGHT IS ENORMOUS, AND IF YOU'VE NEVER HAD TO EXPERIENCE THAT THEN YOU ABSOLUTELY CANNOT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE! I AM CONSTANTLY MOURNING THE LIFE I CAN'T HAVE! i keep pushing it all down and i think someday i might explode.

[boycritter]

if i had a nickel for every chronic pain condition i developed as a tween due to an extremely stressful life event that also causes fatigue and cognitive issues, is hard to treat and likely impossible to cure, has little research into it, doctors and scientists wildly disagree over how the condition works or even if it exists at all, is a diagnosis of exclusion, and was blamed on anxiety/depression for years, id have two nickels. and it fucking sucks that it happened twice.

[urdtarah]

i literally spent a majority of my childhood being called a liar because no one believed me and no doctor was finding anything. the last neurologist told me i'll probably have to wait until im 50 for it to go away and that was his solution. having a test that says i'm not lying and a doctor who says they can help is making me sob into my sandwich

[be-the-inspiration]

Maybe they'll finally find something wrong that can be fixed...

[agnes-is-ari]

In hindsight, NDPH is a really funny diagnosis. You go to the doctor and say “Hey I’ve started getting daily persistent headaches” and the doctor goes “yeah I’ll diagnose you with that” and sends you home with an ibuprofen. And then they’re wrong.

[cptsdragon]

[alexei-home-fromthewar-at-last]

I’m just a (demi) girl chugging Gatorade and caffeinated beverages, hoping it’ll solve my physical health problems.