#negative vent

[baked-bun4]

Anxious attachment style sucks. I can't get to close to people or I make them uncomfortable. I always feel a sense of longing. I haven't been hugged, like a genuine good hug, in over half a year now. I want to text my friends saying I miss you or something but everyone then takes that as me being weird or that I have a crush on them but really I just want a really really close platonic friendship. Someone to text me when anything happens big or small. To be someone's first choice.

Mdd/clinical depression is hittingggggg. I may delete this is i decide its weird in the morning

[midgelslovebug]

(TW for parental death)

I've been talking about it with my best friend today and there's a very specific kind of guilt I feel today for missing my mom. There's still figures in my life who have been better mothers to me in a handful of years than my mom ever was, I'm loved, I KNOW that I'm loved. And that's why I feel bad for mourning her, and for longing for her today.

It's not easy to process grief over not just a person, but everything that person WASN'T in your life. Should have been, but wasn't. I cut contact with her for good reason, I didn't want it to be on my shoulders to mend the relationship we had but now that I know there will never be a chance TO mend it is...hard. its an awful feeling and I'm trying to learn how to deal with it every day and I don't want to wallow in it but I feel like just BEING sad today and then I feel bad for feeling sad when there's other mothers to celebrate instead

I don't know, I'm gonna try not to talk about it too much here but thats whats on my mind.

[aspec-vents]

i wish more aspecs knew about aplatonics and actually respected them. i hate having to explain my aplatonicism to a community that should be understanding of the exhaustion that comes with explaining your identity. i hate experiencing repulsion within a community that should be understanding of it. i hate being overlooked by a community that understands how that hurts. i hate being demonized by a community for not feeling an attraction when that’s what our whole community is about. it’s frustrating and exhausting

Let's be kinder to our friendly neighbourhood aplatonics

[magictransgirl]

I still don't truly understand why my friends are nice to me and aren't total dipshits and cunts to me. Like why don't you hate me? What did I do to earn this privilege of being treated like a human being????????????? /gen

[chestersbraincell]

2 giggle-worthy hyperfixations at the same time…

I don’t think my psyche can handle it….

[colfy-wolfy]

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYNYAN hoping this year will be at least half decent for myself and all of you!! huge-ish vent below cut btw, just a warning for whoever doesn't want to read that. Hope everyone who reads this has had an amazing holiday and i wish you all a happy 2025!! I love all of you who follow me and I especially love all my friends and mutuals, you guys are awesome. ❤️❤️

This year, especially the last couple months, was one of my most depressing years of my life I think. That's my only excuse for such a lack of art posts. I don't owe anyone who follows me anything, I post whenever I feel like it, but I myself would've liked if I were able to draw and post more often simply because I love it when people find happiness and inspiration in what I make and it personally makes me happy to draw things for myself, getting to take what's on my mind and translate it on a canvas. But that was made nearly impossible because of the sheer amount of grief and stress I was put under these past couple months. I didn't even have any motivation to draw anything for myself, most of my best drawings were of things I hyperfixated on. Anything else was stupid doodles or quick sketches that drained me for days. I've had way too many loved ones die this year for my comfort, and I've never experienced even one death of a loved one before this so for me to have to deal with so much sudden moments of grief was a lot on me and even now I can't believe it. It's not something I can or would like to dwell on every moment of every day but the effect it's had on me does exist even when I don't think about it. On top of that, my family life seems to have gotten worse now that I'm an adult and also understand how broken of a family I've got which is a whole complicated thing I'd rather not get into.

I don't like talking about such real serious shit on my main blog like at all, I like to keep my blog friendly and positive, so venting here so personally is a bit out of my comfort zone.. but I just wanted to get that out there because despite all of that's happened, I've had my close friends with me the entire way down and I am so incredibly grateful for that. You all know who you are, I love you all and I really REALLY mean it. You guys mean so much to me it hurts, even when we argue or when some negative shit happens we still get through it and care for each other. You guys are my real family. Anyone else reading this, I hope that even during your hardest moments that you have someone to lean on and they can lean on you too, someone who supports you and who you can support back. Even if you have no one now, please try to take care of yourself and hold on there until you can find a friend who you can count on and that you can give all your gratitude to. There's no family like your found family. Care for others and they will care for you back. Happy new years. <3

[star-critter]

Even the most tame of dogs are

threatened

manipulated

tortured

abused

neglected

and whether they like it or not....

Those "tame dogs" WILL go back to their wild roots

[ashromedaera]

Oh I hate you