Disclaimer; those are only my opinion you have right to disagree but don't come harassing me thank you
Absolute favorite: Dan(in some of my runs he have been pretty effective and I get to play with him everytime he join my team, plus his quest is so sad i almost cry everytime I do it :( he's also very funny i love the satire about the game critics XD but I also unfortunately have the same problem... we're self centered T_T ...), leigh(also very strong party member, I get her almost in all my runs she's irreplaceable, even if i play from time to time with other party members. Even if she can be very disturbing I like her personality. And I also love her quest about her past it's really touchy I think), Papineau(mainly because I love Big guys. He's also funny in some of his dialogue and again good party member), Hellen(of course I wouldn't mention our favorite serial kil- huh gardener... yeah... anyways. Hellen is a good party member to me again. She, dan, and leigh were here in my Promise run and for done her quest i must say i loved it. I like characters were they look intimidating but she a soft side here I mainly speak for her interaction with the rat child.), Sam(how not mention the protagonist. I know sam is a self insert characters but I still adore him he have something i can't tell exactly I just think he got something special) Rat baby(do I need to elaborate? Yea... actually yeah... well i love rats it's a big reason. And the rat baby's interaction might be my favourite from all party member some are really cute, other funny, and mention to Joel's interaction who's actually heartfelt knowing the poor boy. I also love that it can learn many things like a real child. And I don't care if it's the weakest party member. There only 2 time i sacrificed it for the factual run and a speedrun. Yes i feel horrible...), Joel(the teeth boy of course. I admit that i din't kept him too much for the runs about a time I change him for other party members. And why not mention the story. Joel was just a boy living in a happy family until the apocalypse. When you see what his family become it's really sad. And there was only 2 time I din't recruit him. 1 I thought it was a bug but I actually failed his recruitment, and 2 my factual run)
Other favorite: ernest(good party member . And Ernest is so funny in his dialogue), Morton(i like this kleptomaniac), Audrey(i din't thought I'd have a vending machine as my favourite character but I do. I din't used her much as a party member but I like her personality and I feel bad for what happened to her)
I like you :): Roaches(they're funny... nothing more), Xaria and Monty(good party member. I love them as a duo and can't imagine them working alone ... actually yes I have a loner xaria au in mind. But that's off topic... I just have hard time with their personality. Like Xaria a anger ball and Monty a pyromaniac do I need to elaborate?. What catch for xaria is Joel and Rat child(once she get to apologise)'s interaction and the promise ending. Monty ... maybe i hope he get some more reason to be more likeable), Juicebox(he's not a party member technically but I like him. I talked to him during one of the run I got xaria and monty early and despite his destructive habit he's actually a cool guy), sophie(she's pretty much like Joel actually. Without the family turned into teeth monster but still. I have often bad luck with her and her mother but I could've reunited them once and only once :( I dare everytime I don't meet the corrupted harriet when I have Sophie i hate the thought of having killing harriet), aster(i used him as a party member and recently got to get his cursed form for the flawed rituals ending. I do love his interactions but that's all I admit i don't much thing to say about him)
Neutrals: Phillippe(I like him but nothing more), wriggly fred(I din't even knee it was possible to welcome him), the spider(i never had it)
Love-hate relationship: that's all the stalker basically, Lyle(I did used to like Lyle more but I have a little more hard time with him. Don't get me wrong I think he can be adorable sometimes and he's nice toward the rat baby. But he's stalking Sam. Of course his stalking habit aren't romantised which is a good thing. And the fact he have people trapped in his picture is disturbing(you're gonna say it's normal. It's look outside everything is disturbing) but only speaking of his stalking is ignoring the rest. Lyle is not hostile as long there no reason to be. And I felt really bad when I peeked at his real form (pure ignorance), spine(for interacting with her in understand but she disturbed me a lot...), The shadow(for the same reason that the other stalker. Pretty ironic when you did the mask ending...)
Now before I get the full details, I am not discontinuing my Cookie Run Kingdom au. I'm still fully passionate about it and will still continue to write it and draw art of it. Though I do want to say that I will be taking a break from the ask blog after I finish Chapter 3 of the prologue "For Better or For Worse" so I have more time to focus on the current and main parts of my crk au.
Now with that out of the way, I want to discuss why I'm making this post. This is mainly about my rather rough relationship with a certain blogger that took interest in my crk au. I will not state their name and to anyone who has an idea of who I'm talking about, I ask you to not state their name in any reblogs or comments under this post. As I do not want any harassment or threats sent their way, this is not what this post is about.
Originally when I first posted about my crk au, it caught the attention of this person and they sent an idea in my ask box, and I thought it was kind of them. I was still in the extreme rough drafts and outlines of my au at this point, so I was grateful for the suggestion and even suggested that they should write their own au sometime as I also wanted to support and encourage fellow writers and creatives in the Crk fandom with my au. Eventually, we became mutuals and privately chatted about ideas for the story of my crk au.
It was nice talking to someone about my crk au, as I was quite nervous about posting any of my ideas out in the internet in general since this is my first time ever having a social media account where I post stuff and my drawings. But anyway, things took a turn when we were talking about fanmade first cookies for my au. Apart of the suggestion about making first cookies that were parents to gingerbrave gang, I was intrigued but not fully behind the idea. So I only took parts of the whole suggestion and added my own ideas (this is how my ocs First Flora, First Cheese, Giselle, Adeline, and Sage were created). But that's when they started to act weird, they keep suggesting over and over that I implement their whole idea into my au and framed in a way that implied my way of only taking pieces of it and putting my own ideas into it was poor writing. Even made a reblog post of my headcanons for the First Cookies, stating their own headcanons for them and the whole idea they suggest to me and framed it in a light that it was completely canon to my au, when it wasn't. That's when I first blocked them, but when an anonymous ask came in asking about it (I did not answer it btw) then I realized that I should've clarified my boundaries and my thoughts instead of blocking them. So I unblocked them and we talked it over, looking back at it I should've kept them blocked because they kept repeating this behavior over and over again.
The first time I noticed this repeated behavior is when they privately told me that storylines for Nutmeg Tiger, Black Sapphire, Candy Apple, Pavlova, Salt Cellar, and Kouign-Amann were "plotholes" even though the story was and still is in progress. I'm not going to post the full process of my story because I want the story itself to tell it. I told them this and we did get into a bit of an argument but we apologized and decided to take a break from each other.
Here's a bit of screenshots of how the conversation went (with their name cropped out since I don't want any harassment sent their way, and I've already blocked them for good as I'll explain later in this post):
I will admit that there were a few faults at my end such as my tone which I later reclarified how I felt and apologized for sounding too accusatory when I didn't mean to. But we went a separate ways and they stopped sending me ideas. Or so I thought.
On my ask blog @bubblygum-crkauasks, I recognized their style of writing on a few anonymous asks. Though I will admit it is pretty hypocritical that I did answer some but I only did it since some were actual questions about my au and I saw it as the same gist as always that I was allowed to use it or not use it, or take some pieces and mix my own thoughts with it. But then that behavior of being upset than their idea wasn't fully implemented into my au started popping up again. A prime example of this is from the comment they gave for this post from my ask blog where you can also see the reasons on why I didn't like that in my reply under the same post.
But the major problem is that this behavior kept repeating on my ask blog now, I got many asks reinforcing that I should've done something different based off things that are in their own ideas rather than what I actually established in my au or getting many repeated questions I should "really" implement this after not answering an idea they sent because I didn't want it. While these were all anonymous, like I said before I recognized the same style and tone of writing since I used to privately chat with them long ago. On an additional note, a different kind of anonymous asker came around, not to actually ask a question or suggest something about my au but rather tell me about a fan story that this person (the same one I'm talking in this post) made and allegedly just wanted my validation and attention so they can call it canon to my au (since they always used the word "probably" in their fanstory posts) or was just a big fan of this person, no hate to them and please do not try to find them out and send harassment their way. Though I did later make it so everyone can mention me so it was easier for this person and everyone else that is invested in my au to inform me of any fan stories o fanart they have of my au.
But all of this began to tire me out, it made me so frustrated, drained, paranoid, and even anxious whenever these kind of questions came into my ask blog's inbox. It made me think back and forth about closing the ask blog for a long time and I was slowly even starting to lose interest in my au. I also had to stop myself from staying up late, worrying about these things, but that more related to my issues with anxiety as someone who’s autistic than what we're talking about right now. But I kept telling myself that if I just edit some responses, check their blog, and delete those kind of questions I'll be fine.
But then they made a crk fanfic idea post, and the last idea was a blatant rip-off of my au. Now, before you call me overreactive, I know the idea of a crk au having a new set of ancients and/or the Beasts having children isn't exclusively my idea there are plently of crk aus that use this premise. But this last idea was an practically an exact copy of my au but with their ideas that I didn't go with.
As shown in the screenshot below:
And the thing is they mentioned me in their post, and the only reason they don't see it as stealing is because they gave some ideas for my au. I absolutely do not find this as a justification nor okay at all. This crossed the line and it feels like entitlement to me just because I took some of their ideas (even though I have my own ideas and some of my other mutuals gave me their own ideas). Plus those mutuals understand that just because they gave some ideas for my au doesn’t mean they can't necessarily those ideas anymore because now they’re apart of my au now but that I will give credit to them.
Also while I love that people find my au interesting and that they also would like their ideas to be implemented, I also want there to be boundaries place and respect for my own ideas if I don't go with everyone else’s suggestions for my au.
Now to truly show my frustrated feelings, I find it very ironic that:
1. This person said they were okay if I didn't go with one of their ideas.
2. That they clarified that they weren't trying to steal my au when I didn't convey the right tone when shared my issues with that kind of behavior.
Only to do the opposite of the first thing, constantly reminding to get me to go with their ideas even though I decided to not accept it in private and being impatient about it. And practically do the second thing, stealing the most of premise of my au and serving it as their own idea, but I won't mind if they did their own new ancients and if the beasts had kids au if it wasn't mostly a copy of my au. In fact I already knew they had plans for their own crk AUs, I'm just merely upset that they practically copied my own Au for what seems like just because I didn’t go with some of their ideas.
I only blocked them, not because of any malice, it's just that I repeatedly told them that I was uncomfortable with that kind of behavior, only for them to keep repeating it over and over again. It’s to the point I believe that they’ve developed a bit of a toxic attachment to my au (allegedly, this purely from what some of their posts come across as).
I was also told once that they helped others with their crk aus, only to find nothing of the sorts in their archive as I only found credited reposts of other people's art from X/Twitter, therefore it's only my au they've given ideas to, and it’s made me feel uncomfortable long enough.
Now, I know that not everyone is going to like this post and some may even call me ungrateful and overdramatic for blocking them when they didn't do anything that was extremely wrong like harassing me or stalking me. But I genuinely do not want this person to be involved or know anymore about my au. It caused so much unnecessary stress to my mental health and even began sour my attitude towards my own au.
That’s the end of the vent. Sorry if this makes anyone uncomfortable, and if you decide to unfollow or even block me too I understand. I’m also sure that this person isn’t bad, despite my own frustrations with them. It’s just that I don’t feel entirely comfortable with that person anymore. I also personally don't know this person and I've never met them in real life, so even I don't know what they're entirely like. So I understand if a few people don't take this serious or call me immature for blocking them.
This post is also not to discourage anyone from following them or liking their content, I just want to say that I permanently no longer have any connection to this person and that they’ve done things that I am not okay with such as disguising their “own canon” of my au to criticize somethings in my au even though I didn’t establish anything of the sorts (which is something they’ve done a lot despite me telling them over and over again that I’m not comfortable with it) and that they practically copied most of au in their Crk fanfic ideas (though feel free to call them out on that politely, I don't want any harassment sent in my name.)
I also will not let this affect any writing when it comes to my au. Despite it being mentioned in this vent, this only was only mentioned to due with me and this person talking about it. Nothing else.
Once again, sorry if this made anyone uncomfortable. I’m fine if anyone enjoys my au but please remember that I have boundaries and I want them to be respected. And I wish nothing but the best for this person and their AUs.
I wanna share options on the finale of TADC. This does have spoilers so please scroll past if not wanting spoilers. And for those seen the movie and reading this, please don’t judge and respect how I feel.
The series was rushed, there should have been more episodes to lead to Jax’s abstraction and Caine’s return.
Ribbit and Kaufmo felt like add ons. No actually story besides just being there, didn’t like the Ribbitrabbit ship, it is cute but it feels sibling coded. With them being both animals and having similar pasts. Kaufmo was there and he was blamed for ruining everything when he was sweet and nice. Wish I could know more about Kaufmo and see the love he deserved.
I thought Jax was more transman, like being more of a man for his mom but also hating her. The dresses and women clothing something he hates because it reminds him that his dad didn’t want anything to with him and conflicts with his mom wanting him more manly or less manly.
But I can work with him being transfem, makes sense when in the Russian version, being called a femboy bunny.
Love the abstrady, that was a win for me. Ragpom, friendship but still a win lesbians.
Still want more back lore of gangle, zooble, Pomni, Ragatha, Kinger, Kaufmo and Ribbit. And the rest of the characters.
So I think it was probably the worst decision to stop there when so much is left unanswered.
Then again, Gooseworx she’ll make the show bad on propose if the fandom behaved badly, and it did multiple times. So I don’t blame her wanting to not work on the show again.
I am very happy that I was right that Ribbit was a girl since episode 5. I made whole post about why I thought she was a girl and I was right. I felt so happy being right about it.
I hope future fandoms will be better, otherwise future creators are doomed. I love Ribbit and her room too. Made me think of an older sibling, uncomfortable with shipping going around them.
Never liked Jax with gangle and zooble scene, it was honestly sad.
I do think Jax was bullying gangle because his mom bullied him so he takes it out on Gangle to feel any sense of control.
I feel there should have been more shipping with Kaufmo and Jax since they complement each other, one being more calm and friendly while the other is chaotic. That was such a missed opportunity for gay men. (Plus appeal of skinny guy and pear guy.) Ribbit being the older sibling.
Didn’t like how everyone blamed Kaufmo and didn’t pay attention when he so nice, he’s like a father figure but not the old kind and can understand at a younger age. He literally didn’t know Jax and Ribbit were having a moment.
When we did saw they’re abstracted forms, it could be Kaufmo and Ribbit swimming together first or any other sort, but that doesn’t mean target Kaufmo and blame him. Plus we saw that moment and the middle one swimming a little faster to get to the other abstracted.
Jax’s sadstic side made sense, wanting to control others and protect himself.
Didn’t like how everyone moved on from Jax clutching the bowling ball to his chest, that felt like Jax had more feelings hidden for Kaufmo. Or he was panicking and wanted the last thing his friend had to keep him grounded.
Those are my options of the finale. I know some of you will agree and disagree, so let’s not turn this into a fight. I don’t want to be in a cross fight and feel less human.
Imagine wasting so much time and energy on a show you don't even like. Imagine complaining about a gourmet meal made with so much love and care, making it everyone else's problem.
(DO NOT GO TO THIS PERSON'S VIDEO TO HARASS THEM. I WILL BLOCK YOU IF YOU DO SO!!)
why has it become so normalised to judge people's taste in media
like who am i to dictate what you watch or listen to? go watch helluva boss and hazbin hotel as much as i don't like it, listen to qoq 'boring' and popular artists, i do it too?? everyone's entitled to their own interests as long as they don't harass everyone about it
First all, I had fun and my friend's house, second I've been emotional because people keep wanting me to draw but it's complicated than that, also my hands are more built for video games and computer, not drawing, my hands have been figity mind the spelling since my parents tried to make me tie my shoes, also I have autism and a temper, if you want to know what autism is look at this:
and that is why I always use my AI for my OC, and the pic of my OC is my best work, I'm not giving this pic up, it's what started my Yugioh Legends in the first place, now please stop harassing me and stop nagging me of using a damn primitive pencil, besides, who uses pencils now a days, they are fragile and it's not good for hands like mine, so please, let me do it my way, and Thanks for all the people who supported me and gave me ideas, love you all, also anymore hatred will have that person blocked and I'll report that person as well
