#notes from therapy

[orufreyhaunting]

Still thinking about telling my therapist the shit going on with Orufrey and her, losing her professionalism for just a moment cause she’s human, going “what the FUCK??? That’s SICK AND TWISTED”. Love when she just *gets it*, ya know?

[the-healing-mindset]

My therapist said:

What if all along, you've had the right answers and it was everyone else who was wrong?

Still trying to process that one.

[dravenxivuk]

A highlight from my therapy session today: "So how do you deal with negative emotions?" "I stick them in a box and hide them on a shelf until that collapses, then have to brush them all up quickly and stuff them away again" "Uh huh, how's that working for you?" "Well I've not stabbed anyone yet"

[theprogressivesadist]

[purehoneyblossom]

The more I grow into myself and learn more about my needs, the more detached I become from people or things that I grew unhealthy attachments to. Being in love with the idea of something blocks you from discovering your true self and connecting to the entities that are truly right for you. So, what do you know you need to let go of?

[jackteeth]

Feelings about my absent father? In MY me? It’s more likely than you think!

[tennisdadsaficionado]

I am feeling so fucking proud of myself right now

I left the house. On my own. Like… properly left. Not just stood in the doorway arguing with my nervous system

I genuinely can’t remember the last time i managed that. probably 3 or 4 months ago? 6 months ago?

And I went to the library. On my own.

The fact that the library is literally across the road from me is irrelevant.

I went. On my own. Without Li holding my hand. For the first time.

Was I so terrified in there I thought I was going to throw up or pass out on the books? Yes Was my heart racing like I was doing a marathon? Yes Was I hyperventilating? Also yes

Did i do it anyway?

ALSO YES

The brain was doing things.The nervous system was LOUD. Clippy was fully convinced we were in danger, there was a tiger behind the next stack and we were going to die.

But I still did the thing

Which means this is not a tiny win actually, this is a MASSIVE one. Full boss battle cleared energy

I shall now be unavailable for the rest of the week while I hide under blankets and let my nervous system recalibrate

Worth it. So fucking worth it

[tennisdadsaficionado]

About to go into therapy. I dunwanna. It's gonna suck. It's gonna be super hard. I dunwanna. I will. But I dunwanna.

The session is on anxiety.

And so I'm currently anxious about anxiety 🤦🏻