more cam ocd headcanons bc it's been a rough 24 hours
cam's ocd makes her go nonverbal at times due to avoidance compulsions- when she's doing really bad, all words feel Wrong and it prevents her from speaking (as well as writing) . this is,,, very stressful and quite scary :-(( [this is smth i experience and . this is a "projecting to cope" moment bc idk ANYONE ELSE who has this]
relationships are . hard . with ocd . she's constantly questioning "do i have terrible thoughts about my friends? am i really attracted to my partner? do i Deserve [x good relationship]" which can get . really exhausting . there are times where she just needs to spend a few days alone Coping because being around people just exacerbates her guilt
speaking of Coping . her mental health days look like: hiding underneath her extremely heavy weighted blanket, ordering fancy coffee/foods because they make her feel good, and SLEEPING for once in her life
her ocd can make sleep quite difficult because of anxiety/intrusive thoughts- she has an extensive nighttime routine which makes it easier to fall asleep at night though (with calming sensory aspects- scents, sensations, and sounds . + our lord and saviour melatonin) . arastoo learns her nighttime routine quite quickly and simply just sits there while she does it because . it makes him happy to see her take care of herself . <3
sometimes when people find out about her ocd they make jokes abt how germy her job is and it makes her SO MAD because her ocd is . entirely unrelated to germs or dirt in general . in fact she is a wildly messy person who is not concerned in the least about cleaning . so the misconception drives her MAD