This was also a vent I made when I was sad, so I drew Malakoff sad in a hoodie bc I wear hoodies a lot.

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This was also a vent I made when I was sad, so I drew Malakoff sad in a hoodie bc I wear hoodies a lot.
Old art from manic episode…..
vent dump vent dump (more like gore? More like gore, yeah)
(I’m okay atm, don’t worry, I just wanted to share some gore art I’ve done that I haven’t shared before (some of these are quite old, too) )
very extreme gore warning under the cut
I ask myself what trans joy is and feel the need to cry. I don't know why. Is it longing? Is it hope? All I can think of is how scared I am these days. Scared for kids and teens who are having war waged against them for votes, scared of the increasing push on how trans women are inherently sexual predators and should be treated as such by the law, scared for any education on trans people being censored in public schools and universities, scared because I'm not sure how secure my ability to legally access testosterone will be in the future, scared because I want to teach about us as a career. I'm scared, I'm fucking terrified.
But I can't say that I am because then I'm being over dramatic, I'm trying to purposefully scare others, I'm just crazy. The top contender of trans stereotypes is that we're mentally ill after all. Why would my gut feeling be trusted? If cis people don't put two and two together, then I must be overreacting. Like cis people ever have a fucking clue about what's going on.
Worst of all is that I don't like using fear in politics. I know that fear is used to overwrite critical assessment. But with my critical assessment, the banning of transition for minors, moving up to include young adults, and impossible hoops for adults having been attempted to set up, and the proposed ban of gender affirming care through medicare and medicaid, why should I sit there and think there isn't an issue? I see the damn foot in the door, and I'm afraid of what will be pushed through next. My fear in politics is justifiable, unlike the fear of immigrants coming in to steal and murder.
That's not even getting into project 2025 seeing trans people as inherently pornographic and that our existence should be outright illegal. I'm 99% sure that won't happen, but the very idea makes me feel ill.
I am in stress to the point where it is survival mode. Do what I can and prepare for the worst. Try to convince others that minorities, especially undocumented immigrants and trans people, are in fact human beings.
-Vent I wrote down late July this year. I learned about the immigration issue from this episode of Last Week Tonight if anyone wants a little info on it.
you wash it down with heartache,
with heartache,
you do
TW // derealization
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I love birthday parties!