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Posted : Dec . 22rd . 2025
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Posted : Dec . 22rd . 2025
Last Edited : Dec . 23rd . 2025
I think Jayce is like me.
He isn't necessarily great with people and he doesn't always function well around them
But he attracts them anyway because he is interesting and himself. No matter where he is his true self always seems to shine through
But give him time and actually take a moment to listen to him you'll find that you have a fantastic friend in the making
Which is what Viktor did
A part of me sometimes wonder if I'm actually an introvert or if I'm extraverted but so scared that any attempt to socalize will disapoint that I made myself content that being alone will keep people pleased. or whatever that omnivert thing is i think
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Omniversion or omnivert: someone who is adaptable and can exhibit both introverted and extroverted behaviors depending on the situation.
Sometimes used as a synonym of ambiverted, but it may exclude the centroverted aspect of ambiversion. It may be more fluid between extremes.
My partner calls these monoliths although they are neither made of stone nor one piece.
These are the ones I haven't given away.
I'm about to branch out to 8 sided monoliths, and create a formula for how to calculate dimensions for a variety of iterations.
That's why they call me Amalia polymath. It's like Renaissance person, but even more so.
We should bring the term back. Specialization is boring. Be a generalist
people with high IQs are usually mentally ill because they understand life to such a point that nothing matters. so we become pretentious in our stimulants and nihilism. might as well include using big words to make ourselves feel superior to the simple-minded; when really we crave to be as clueless and carefree just to know what it's like to feel joy.
If you want to know more a bit about me, this is me in a nutshell. I wouldn’t say I’m shy, but in certain situations I’m extremely anxious. To a point I’m overly polite and nice and it comes across as creepy because I’ve said this on my blog, I didn’t want people to know my vunerabilty. I would either be way to freaking happy or way to quiet, since I grew up in a dysfunctional family home, I never knew how to do emotions.
I am an introvert but I’m not shy, if I had the chance to stay home all day and not go out, I will. Now that I’m living on my own in my flat, I feel safer. I love being in my flat because I do feel comfortable. When I was living with my family, I hated staying there so any chance of me getting out, I took it and stayed out. For years I thought I was an extrovert because of that reason and I know not many people will understand that. I only recently found that out.
The situations where I was anxious is when I see people with loving families and I don’t know how to deal with that or what to do. So I just freeze and smile and I didn’t know I was being creepy, it’s me hiding my emotions when I feel uncomfortable. So when people saw that, thought something was wrong with me, but they never had a dysfunctional family where they get abused, beaten, raped, being hated and ridiculed. So when I see something that’s opposite, I get jealous and I freeze. I don’t want jealously get the better of me, I don’t want to hurt people. So I just smile, pretending everything is fine in my head, but inside I’m quivering, shaking and scared. Like “what the fuck do I do in this situation?”.
Normally in the past people hated me because they believed my family. The fell for my mothers manipulation and they hate me for it. BUT when I see people who generally care, I freeze and again I smile. Like “everything is okay”, a lot of the times I blame myself for people liking me and trying to be friendly. So many times I had to start a new life, with new friends because people believed my family and my mother. Now, that has never happened, now I freeze and smile. It’s all I can do because I’m terrified to make new friends and I can keep them this time. I normally shut down and freeze and smile but it’s hard to get out of that habit.
So now you know a little bit about me. I wish I can share this to certain people because they think I’m weird when I smile and freeze. But this is why I hate gossiping, you never know what’s going on inside their head. I don’t like to share info but I know I need to be more open and if they don’t like that, well that’s their problem. This is me trying to fix myself to become the best person I can be. It’s hard, but I’m getting there. I know I’m not perfect in anyway, but I’m trying to be the best person I can be.