My best friend of 5 years stopped talking to me about 6 months ago, with no explanation, just kept saying he was busy
But recently I found out that he’s been talking badly about me behind my back for 6 months, calling me a “freak”, “schizo”, “mental”, “insane” (which hurts even more because I’m psychotic), has been telling people my private information and sexual trauma, and has been making jokes about me being raped. Finding that out left me with a lot of pain and trauma, to the point that I think I split a new alter (I have a very high split tolerance so this is rare).
Then the other day, I found out why
This best friend of mine had gone off to another friend group, and I have a close friend in that group who I haven’t spoken to in a while. The close friend brought up my best friend, and I said we haven’t spoken in a long time and that I found out what he’d said about me. My friend said my best friend told him it was because I’m attracted to young children. I don’t know how this happened, I’ve never told anyone, but somehow, people found out. And anywhere I mention it, I make it explicitly clear that I would never act on it, and I also never use any of my real information online. None of my IRL friends have Tumblr, and my old best friend doesn’t use social media at all. So I’m very confused and hurt and scared, and I don’t know what to do.
Also we’ve written a book together so I’m terrified that he’ll change it and publish or post the story without my credit (because he now looks down on me for being a paraphile). This story is very important and personal to me, as it’s a vent story about my psychosis and trauma. But he kind of took it and made it his own thing, so I’m scared that he’ll publish something that has my trauma and personal information in it.
Also if this comes off anon somehow, please delete it
This is paramisic and sanist.
First off anon I’m so sorry about what happened and what u went through 🫂 Nobody deserves to have their trauma spread around and treated like a joke, or to be treated like less for being psychotic. That’s just. An outright POS thing for them to do,I can’t even convey it. I don’t know what goes on in some people’s minds for them to even consider that to be ok to do to ANYONE. We hope you’re okay or even just doing a little better.
Also the amount of?? Stalking??? They must have had to do to find out that your anonymous account was you. That’s a creepy thing to do even between friends. We’ve been cyberstalked before by someone we used to be close with and it’s just such a horrible betrayal. Ik we sound repetitive here but we really hope ur doing better.
Additionally if anything ever does come out of him about the book and you need it taken down,feel free send a message our way!! We’ll do what we can to help. /nf /gen
(We’re really sorry it’s taken so long to answer this ask /gen. Our tumblr has gotten glitchier over the last few weeks and sometimes asks just disappear/reapear in our inbox at random.)