Honestly, I have a lot of fun working on my comic. For almost two years, I tore myself up about it, constantly pushing myself to be "better" and "worthy of beginning this project". I didnt internalize the fact that the skills I needed were only obtainable through working on this very project. I also heard a lot of people say making a comic was uniquely challenging, a true test of discipline, and that worked to intimidate me out of starting.
The single reason I ever managed to force myself to begin was because I was tired of this. I stopped caring if my comic was good or perfect, I just focused on having fun and telling a story I hoped would matter to someone.
And in a way, I've achieved that. It matters to ME. and that's so much more than enough!
I won't lie to you and say it never frustrated me, and that there were never times in which I wondered what the hell I was doing. I spend a lot of my time on this project frustrated and confused — and I refuse to believe that's a bad thing.
We focus so much nowadays on instant gratification, and it can make long-term projects and goals feel daunting and impossible. But it's so much healthier to be willing to sit with this annoyance and finish the project anyway. It's so much more rewarding to complete a task you thought impossible. The enjoyment I get from this project is only possible because of the challenge it gives me.
So I guess what I'm saying is more people should submit themselves to long term projects. Comics are incredibly fun, and I highly recommend trying to make one if it interests you. (But you have to make it for you!! If you focus on making it about trends or fame then you fundementally miss the point)
