#pet death implied

[dogman-and-peteys-datemate]

vent below. possible tw for mention/talk of pet death (nothing graphic, it's simply just mentioned/implied). also i talk in 1st person, but this post isn't about/directed towards anybody here i promise

listen, i may be stupid, but im not THAT fucking stupid. i don't wanna face the facts, but deep down i know. eventually my pet cat will get worse, and he'll eventually fucking die. that's how life is, blah blah blah. stop acting like im so fucking delusional and in denial when im NOT. im the only one who's actually, like, present and is facing reality. and i don't mean to sound like THAT type of person, but i SIGNIFICANTLY have it worse than you do. how so? well, let me see here...

im neurodivergent. im autistic and have adhd. you're not nd whatsoever

i have mental illnesses. like actual mental illnesses that require me to be on medications. i got fucking admitted to the mental health unit at some point, that's how bad it was at one point. you may have some anxiety, but that's it

the world can pause/stop for you. you can take time off of work any time you want to, and for a really long time too. you have a full time job that pays WAY more than mine. when you lose someone, you can press pause and take time to properly grieve. I FUCKING CAN'T!!!!!!

honestly, im just fucking done. so done. hopefully, once my pc gets fixed, i can start contributing more and try making some extra money somehow. whatever, my stupid issues are miniscule compared to everyone else's

[amalgamcorps]

idk if i can finish this warmup because it almost made me cry but i wanted to share some music with my baby boy again...

kittytaur playing the kittytar

(do not tag as me/kin/id)

[likesplatterpaint]

Breaking a little. Second guessing. Telling stories about her. Laying on the floor with her. How will my tomorrow night exist without you, banana?? I know it’s time. I know you hurt. I just love you so, so much. And I know you love me too.

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

The more I learn about pigeon-keeping, the more enamored I become. I’m definitely daydreaming now. I am full-on daydreaming about cuddling a pigeon. I can’t wait. I’m excited. I’m vision-casting. I’m legitimately making plans and calculating how much it would cost and I’m asking keepers questions and I even joined a discord chat! I’m thinking about the cage that was for Cooter but is now unused because it’s such a big cage that the diamonds could fit between the bars. I’m thinking about how the diamonds don’t eat the safflower or peas in the seed mix I buy, and how much others’ pigeons seem to love them. 

Hhhhhh. For years thought I would stick to ringneck doves, but the fact of the matter is that I’m still not over the (really harsh) way I lost my first four, I know I still haven’t been able to forgive my family for the neglect that led to it, and I still don’t forgive myself for not properly saying goodbye to Cooter even when We Made The Plan. Those wounds are still healing. I don’t know that I want another ringneck yet...

I would have to figure out what to do with the diamonds while the pigeon’s free-flying though. They were terrified of Cooter, but Cooter was an aggressive dick towards other birds. I imagine a bird twice his size would be even more frightening for them... (Diamonds are tiny, their bodies are like three inches.) But my Roommate Plans include cats, so obviously the birds would be confined to my room. Which means both the potential pidge and the diamonds would have to be in the same room. I could just rotate their free-flight time in shifts, that’s what I did with Cooter, but I’m wondering if I should figure out where to get a 48x24″ cloth cover for the diamonds while the pigeon’s out? (The diamonds are in a big cage, okay. I don’t do “pets in small cages”, not ever, and especially not in a house where one of the conditions of my “lease” is that they have to stay in their cage.)

or i could just wait for about seven years and i won’t have to worry about having the diamonds anymore. but i don’t know if i want to wait THAT long...

[stormbringer15]

stop putting that “people who can’t bear to watch their best friends die in their arms are the worst kind of people” post on my dash

[rotking]

i think my mother might be kind of glad my leech might die. she never liked them just because i let them feed off of me. i don’t understand what the big fucking deal is. i really dont

it’s just blood. grow up. calm down.

[playdvd]

i forgot to write my dream down.

i saw kiki's face and was like Oh Kiki oh Baby!!!!! i immediately kissed her fuzzy nose & it was so so so soft. then i was like, wait can you be here, you're supposed to be dead... my dream made it logical by being like oh this isn't actually Kiki, this is just a REALLY soft piece of carpet 😂 but that's literally what she was during her life 💕

[auraoflunacy]

We could use kind words right now tbh