I know you said not to tell me how you’ve been and not to tell you what’s in my head but I’m sorry it comes out naturally it’s on the tip of my tongue whenever we’re alone yet I must bite my tongue and play along with the mantra of deprecating thoughts flowing through my head telling me that you wouldn’t want me alive or dead I know it’s true The things they say about you How you’re moving on from me I hate it Watching from the sidelines Hurting while watching you with her It stings, it burns The voices in my head Tell me everyone wants me dead Especially you But after all I’ve been through I can’t believe it You wouldn’t do it But they insist that I’m the one you’ll never miss But the worst is the fact that I’m starting to believe them Starting to believe the words they mutter Silently, just for me It hurts The fact that you’ll never get to clarify Would you even care if I die? And in the back of my mind There’s no doubt You wouldn’t care I’m not the one you love I’m not the one who’s there I used to be We used to be perfect And you used to be mine Yet not anymore That I’m sure of I watch as you fall for her Yet I watch from afar As you talk to me about her Does it even matter that I’m hurting too? You’ll never notice That I put on a fake smile Every time that you’re around Because we’re friends And that’s what we’ll stay I have no doubt on the fact today I’m done With the following my heart I guess this is where we part As friends, as used to be lovers I hope you know I hate this More than you would ever know But this is the end I’m stuck with cold sheets And a lost love And you have her To be fair she’s great If she makes you happy, I’m happy Damn I’m such a cliche - Why can't I tell you (the voices are talking)