did someone mention a jason todd/peter parker pit rage episode? hmm? maybe? no? just me? ah, sorry.
as the green haze slowly leaves his mind, the first thought that rushes through him is,
it’s not an unusual one, every time that familiar green takes over, he’s usually caused some type of damage, killed someone, even.
jason takes a deep breath, trying to familiarize himself with his settings.
wherever he is smells homey, like rugs and coffee and books, and there’s the slight tang of metal in the air.
the floor underneath him is hard, but there’s something strong and soft wrapped around him.
had he gotten himself captured? he didn’t think so.
opening his eyes, he is brought into an… apartment?
it sure as shit isn’t his, but it’s familiar in the way he knows his own.
his breathing is still heavy, as he slumps against whatever restraints hold him.
as they tighten around him minutely, he realizes they aren’t restraints at all.
red and blue and strong limbs, keeping his arms down and holding his head gently, all the while ensuring no movement will be made on his part.
“webs..?” he gets out through parched lips, his throat aching at the vocalization.
“you with me, red?” is returned, the limbs wrapped around him gentling to a sort of octopus hug, instead of the tight hold it had been.
“w-what did i…” it hurts to think, to talk, he’s so exhausted.
this is normal for an episode, too, but strangely, he already feels so much better than he normally did.
it was the first time peter had been around for one.
the thought was both horrifying and comforting, and he wasn’t sure which to lean towards.
he painstakingly raises his shaking hands, patting at the torso in front of him.
now that he’s more aware, he can see that they’re on the floor of peter’s apartment, the smaller man sitting right on top of him, his legs had been twisted around his arms, with his own holding jason’s head close to his body.
peter leans back slightly, giving jason room to pat him down.
“you didn’t hurt me, jay. you didn’t hurt anyone.” it’s whispered between them like a promise, like the solace found within a raging storm.
jason can’t temper down his panic quite yet, shaking hands making their way to peter’s flushed cheeks, holding his face between his hands as he breathes in the presence of the other.
“you- you’re okay? you swear it?” this time the whisper is desperate, punching through the pain he feels.
peter’s hands mirror his, softly brushing a thumb across his cheek, the other through the thick hair matted above his forehead. he smiles a quiet, secret smile, and jason unconsciously leans closer, waiting to be let in on it.
“do you remember when we first sparred?” he asks, tilting his head and smiling like he was never worried at all.
jason’s heartbeat slows down at that, as he nods his head softly.
“i had you pinned down, you couldn’t move. and i told you that you would never be able to hurt me if i didn’t let you. remember that?” peter’s hand gently unknots his hair, and jason feels something tight loosen in his chest that he didn’t even know was there.
“yeah.” he breathes, leaning into the other man’s hold.
“well, i wasn’t joking.” when jason opens his eyes again, bluegreen meet crinkled brown. “dick called almost as soon as you left the cave. i came here to start tracking you down, but you were already here.” his smile turns mischievous for a moment, like he knew something jason didn’t, before softening again at jason’s no doubt disheveled look. “maybe you wanted the weapons stashed here. maybe you knew it was safe. maybe, you knew it was where i’d come.”
jason breathes, letting it hit him fully, that he really hadn’t hurt anyone. he had immediately come here, and so it seems, had peter.
he leans his forehead against peter’s chest, breathing as he reconciles the information.
“we were here the whole time, love. just you and me.” was mumbled into the top of his head, and he could almost feel the last of the strings holding him up being cut, muscles finally relaxing into this man that he fully knew would protect him.
and what a strange, euphoric feeling that was. to be the one being protected.
the hand moving through his hair continues as he fights against slumber, his own resting on the spider’s hips, gently holding him close.
“thank you.” he breathes in peter, coffee and old books and that slight metal twang, mixed with the comforting sandalwood scent of his shampoo and conditioner.
“nothing to thank me for, jay.” a kiss to the top of his head. “i never get cuddles this long when you’re always on the move.” that gets a huff of laughter from the larger man. “come on, i’m thinking a quick shower, something easy to eat, and straight into bed. whaddya say, big guy?”
jason presses a soft kiss to whatever skin he can reach.
“that sounds like a dream, baby.”
and peter’s smile as he hauls him up off the floor is blinding. fangs poking through his parted lips and eyes crinkled like the world wasn’t on fire, and jason wanted to believe them, he wanted to believe him.
he wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.