there are times when i get so sick of myself and everything around me i wish that i could just erase myself, turn into dust and get thrown away. go to places only when im kicked forward.
do the tiles remember all the steps people walked on them? did they love the feet that stamped them? do people love people even after being walked all over like a raccoon under a car in the death of day?
i wonder where i would go now that im noticed. she thinks im a good person and now i have to be better to make her keep thinking that im good. i've already shattered dreams and expectations like cheap beer bottles. i don't want her to know who i am because even i have not an idea on who i am. i want her to keep thinking i am good so that she doesn't expect more. the burden is already too heavy. my shoulders are aching and the road is still a million miles.
it'll always be a million miles.













