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Loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need for yourself

Rupi Kaur

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Saints & Theives

I know it's the oldest lesson in the book, but is having it all really account for anything?

I used to think stuff could make me happy, food could make me happy, a relationship could paint a smile on my face; but it turned out none of those things have, did or ever could.

Some might think it selfish to focus on oneself in this situation but honey, you enter this world alone and you will die alone. People will fill that middle chunk of your life and paint colourful whispers of ink on your canvas.

But In the end, it's just you. Learn, try to be the best person you can, I'll post for the rest of my life - blog and advise until my fingers bleed but not one word will make a difference unless I believe every letter, every word that I type. So I start with me, because I know I'm a wreck, I know I know little to nothing about everything, I know how weak I can become - so I work on myself.

Just me, because figuring yourself out is the first step to literally anything - most of all influencing the people you know, you love for the better.

One person has the power to change the world, it always begins with one. What will you learn about yourself, now?

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Rich People Syndrome

Let’s make this clear. I’m not rich, not even close.

I’m not drowning in Aus-dollar bills or in cheddar; my parents though... in comparison - appear like James Packers long-lost siblings. No doubt my folks have worked hard, tirelessly to make it in each and every foreign country they’ve swung around to. They’ve never made me forget the blood, sweat and tears? (My dear mother never cries) they’ve had squeezed out of their pores, to install me into a private school, give me private violin/roller-skating/basketball/swimming classes and pretty much everything I could possibly need to be successful in anything - ever.

Given all this, I know the polar opposite to this, growing up visiting Sri Lanka - I saw my countries people shudder with every news story, the war on the very brink of stealing the very last thread of hope holding communities together. But more than that - I saw my friends, my best friends live without commodities even the biggest simpleton would consider being basic needs. Sri Lanka always has been a country in need of more. More food, more medical supplies, more soldiers and more money whilst the people of the country were writhing in the most chased emotion in the world - happiness.

For the first time in my life I saw that despite every obstacle standing in the way of living a truly ‘fulfilling’ life - as what we’d call it, these people were happy, joyous even. And not for the first time in my life - I couldn’t understand; how? why? With time and a few years between then and now I understood. If one doesn’t know what is out there? The possibilities, the amount of stuff wealthier people have - then what is there to be unhappy about? Even if a person did know - what would be the point? To be unhappy and gloat around at improbable events?

This doesn’t only apply to those in poverty. I’m a middle-class citizen (hats off to the folks) my parents drive a 2011 Toyota Camry, we’ve lived as Australians for 13 years - but we still aren’t homeowners. Knowing all these facts about my family doesn’t make me pout when I see a guy drive down my street in a canary yellow Lamborghini, windows down blaring the latest 50C track (not okay btw - thanks for forcing me to close my mother’s ears from all that cussing). I know for a fact some people own multiples houses, go to Europe twice a year and snapchat their newly updated iPhone every time Tim Cook lets one rip. The point is - there will always be someone richer, more famous, better looking, more successful than you, but that shouldn’t make you hate yourself. I find the less I have, the less I have to worry about, and that seems to be the cherry on top for my mates back home.

I’ve never seen a bunch as happy as they are. Without a phone (yeah, you heard me), without the internet, without food some days - at the surface it looks grim, switching to that way of life after living nearly twenty-one years the way I have, I would have to be Oprah or the Dalai Lama to pull that off.

I remind them every time I see their dimpled cheeks, that they’re the most courageous people I know - and all I get back is a head tilt and a look of confusion on their faces.

What I think might be the hardest thing to do, is what another persons life.

Twenty-one years, and now I know. Well, I need to remind myself every so often, but I know that being grateful for what I have is the only thing that can make it better. So be grateful for what you have, if happiness is what you’re after, start with being grateful.

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Void

We all have a tiny hole in us

Sewn into the thin material of our souls

We try to cover it up, stitch it back together

We buy things, try to find love, eat the finest cuisine

But still, that void remains

I believe it is a God-shaped hole

The only puzzle piece that fits

To give others your time

And spread love like a wildfire

Wouldn’t you want that effect

On every person, you meet?

We’re all on the search for happiness

It is the highest form of currency

We know.

Let us try to find it 

together.

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Mantra

When I'm going through a tough day, or encounter a hardship that seems impossible to conquer - I ask myself ’How do I define myself?'

This question isn't easy to answer at first, sure my hobbies and likes form a part of me.

However, there's more than just that; I am the daughter of my parents, a sister to my friends and more than anything I have a legacy to live out.

None of this just applies to just me obviously, every single one of you is critical for a better future. You are more than you can ever initially think. It only makes sense you are here for something great too. Spend your time wisely, and be the best person you can be for today.

I can guarantee you won't think of this when you're feeling under the weather. But when those tears are drying up, or when that Macklemore song plays - remind yourself you're beautiful as you are.

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Kohl

I am two people. Switching back and fourth

From Oxford shoes, Lapel collars, Scarlett painted lips.

To Converse laced feet, Kohl lined eyes, Gold hoops threading my fingers.

Be true to

who you 

are

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Climax

I’ve immersed myself in reading, now more than ever.

I guess my Arts degree is to blame, but that being said - I find I’m reading because I need to experience what others go through, to solidify my shaky reasoning that I’m not alone.

These epiphanies occur like spilt ink blooming on a wad of tissue; they happen suddenly, then gradually come to an anticlimactic halt.

These realisations need nurturing, with a healthy dose of careful attention;

a sprinkle of motivational quotes and YouTube videos to keep the ground moving beneath my feet.

Take care of yourselves.

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The Wondrous Places

After all this time, I’ve begun to wonder if it’s worth all the stress - thinking, writing, pursuing.

I know that’s probably my sick-self weighing me down - but today I feel defeated.

Maybe I’m doing too much at one time. I’ve quit feeling alone, since it’s just my own self-importance

telling me, no one else feels the same.

But at the same time I feel wound up, like I’m about to cop maximum impact from a grand piano

Falling from the sky.

Or from a hail stone, the size of a truck colliding with my skull.

It’s days like these, that make certain in my life, I could never be a Philosopher.

All that thinking? no thanks. As a person entering her 20’s I have enough to think about

A future to daydream. Dreams to comb through. Books to read. Places to fantasise of.

Time. We all want more.