No proper words for this, so have a semi-coherent brain dump I guess?
Pan and I have done various sorts of possessory work for 30 years now at least. This is not new for me, but even less so for him.
Pan is historically known for something called 'panolepsy,' which is when a person is possessed by Pan specifically. In ancient Arcadia, he was the most popular prophetic deity. Since possession was part of his cultus back then, he has had millennia of experience possessing humans and is quite good at it.
Over the years, we've experimented all kinds of ways. Degrees of possession. Different activities while possessed. Possession both here and in the astral. We've discussed boundaries and modern social difficulties around possession. We've worked hard on trust.
Now there's this new variation.
I don't even know what to call it. Dissolution? Assimilation? Symbiosis?
None of those words fully describe this.
It's far more mutual than most people think reasonable.
After all, possession is supposed to be all about the god controlling the human. That's what makes this so terrifying for people. They fear losing control of themselves, and not being able to wrest it back from their deity. Movies and TV shows have popularized possession as horror.
But what if the god isn't reveling in controlling their human? What if it isn't the deity sneering "Ha ha, now I can force you to do anything I want for my amusement. No matter how badly that affects you," like some people assume possession is?
What if instead... the god fills a person to overflowing with their energy, then shares agency with that human?
What if the deity and their human move together in that ecstatic state of wildness, instinctively wheeling in the wind of divine energy like some birds fly in synchronized clouds?
What if their two energies fit together like a key in a lock, because the god and human share the same energetic lumps and bumps? So the deity doesn't have to either shove aside or maneuver carefully around this person's energetic oddities, but instead easily fits into them like a hand in a custom-made glove?
What if they both share similar values, goals, passions, and desires? So god and human aren't in opposition, but instead naturally dance together?
What if... possession becomes an act of merged control, of joyful intimacy, of deep trust, while accomplishing mutually desired things together?
I don't know what to call that, but we're playing with it.
