#post marauders

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Realism drawing I did of Peter Pettigrew ❤️🐀

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headcannon/fic concept that i’m not gonna fully write out

so, we’ve got your average insane post-azkaban sirius, they’re….let’s just say not well, given that she was in azkaban for 12 years for a crime he didn’t commit

anyways, currently this is like i guess the laying low at lupine sort of time, remus is trying to help sirius where he can but of course it’s difficult. one of his first thoughts is the comfort that they shared in music as kids, so remus plays some queen for sirius.

it

doesn’t

go

well

“I’ve paid my due’s, time after time.”

Sirius’ eyes are wide, staring at Remus, gears in their mind turning as they start to remember the next lyrics just before they’re sung.

“I’ve served my sentence, but committed no crime.”

“Turn it off,” Sirius starts muttering, covering his ears.

Remus immediately gets up, feeling stupid about skipping to a random queen song. So stupid about the song choice. He skips forward to a different song, a song that hopefully Sirius wouldn’t want to skip given how closely they bonded over it when they started dating. (Somebody to Love)

“Turn it off,” Sirius continues, louder and louder as her hands hold tightly over his ears, “Turn it off, turn it off, turn it off!” They shake all over.

So Remus does, unsure what to do, he turns off the music and sits next to Sirius. Putting his hand out, and hoping that he can calm Sirius by his presence.

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Starry Sky

Nymphadora Tonks x reader

Warnings: Just slight exams stress, but is pretty much fluff, I try not to use any kind of prouns so reader is gender neutral, hope you all like it and enjoy it.

Let me know, who would you cast as Nymphodora Tonks during her Hogwarts years I think Emma Mackey is a good option!

645 words

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The cold air fill the air, there was not a single noise around the castle, everyone was just too focused on studying for the exams before the exams period or decided to be happy and get a proper sleep night with the freezing weather the season brought

You were part of the group that was trying to stay awake and study as much as you could to avoid the stress during exam season, your girlfriend, on the other hand, was resting next to you, her head on the textbooks, you sigh and pronounced a simple spell to put a pillow underneath her for Nymphodora to rest well, she looks so peaceful and calm.

The night went on, the common room was now empty, it was just you two, you saw the time and decided it was a good idea to take a break, you walk upon the window and stare at the lovely sky since it was wintertime, all the stars illuminate Hogwarts, it offers such a view.

When Nymphodora woke up, she saw she was lonely at the study table, she was still a bit sleepy but started to look right away for you, where did you go? Why did you leave her alone!? Omg did something happens to you?!! god no, like yeah Hogwarts is supposed to be the safest place on earth, but Goddess it can be rough!!

And as she was having this mental breakdown about where you were! She trips with some plant that was in the common room, she made quite a scene typical of her, the loud noise got you out of your mesmerizing at the starry sky and turn to see what it was.

And when your eyes found she just felt her heartbeat race, you are so pretty, so wonderful and so pure she got lucky since she is dating the nicest and amazing person around the castle. The rays of moonlight illuminate your skin and even though you are tired of studying you look perfectly imperfect in her eyes.

— Oh Nymphodora, love are you okay?

You asked quite worried as you approach where she was.

— Did I die? And was received in heaven? Because love, the prettiest angel is holding me!

She says with a smirk and makes you blush

— Oh Nymphodora, you are talking nonsense!!

You said completely blushed

— Nonsense?!? Of course, I’m not, you are soooo pretty, I can’t believe I’m so lucky, may I get a kiss?

She says as she watched you flustered and her smirk only grow bigger on her face

— A little little kiss!! Pleaseeeee

— Fine…

You said as you lean and leave a soft little kiss on her lips, and when she was about to protest you shut her

— You say a little little so that’s what you are getting, and now, if my girlfriend is alright I’m gonna go back to study

— Study? You have been studying for ages!! What were you doing before I wake up? You weren’t here!

— I was looking at the sky, is so starry tonight and I was wondering if I could see your constellation

A tiny bit of blush appear on her cheek and she stands up bringing coats for both of you, and simply says

— We are going out to look it up together!!

And since you couldn’t deny her anything, you agree and went outside with her, being extremely careful, you didn’t want to get detention.

That’s how you spend the rest of the night, goofing around in the snow, seeking stars and dancing under the moonlight, enjoying the emotions of the first love, and god, you wish this moment was eternal. At least now, every single time you look to the starry sky you will remember this moment.

None of you found the constellation, you were too busy enjoying each other company.

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A Moment of Bliss

REQUEST: I would love a Sirius x Reader x Lupin smut, where they treat her like a whore but are really cute afterwards. 

Pairing: Sirius Black x Fem!Reader x Remus Lupin Warnings: Mentions of war, Alcohol, Langauge, Smut (oh good dear lord the smut) Summary: Reader decides that everyone needs a break, and after a nice meal some naughty shit goes down.  Word Count: 6.7k+

  You sighed and rubbed your eyes. It was all too much, there was news daily now and none of it was good. Seeing the smiling faces of Marlene McKinnon and her parents on the cover of The Daily Prophet had caused you to fear the worst. You watched as Marlene’s father kissed her cheek as her mother waved, they were celebrating Marlene’s birthday when that picture was taken, she looked truly beautiful. You remember it well, how you had laughed and danced, a welcome break from the horrors of the war. You remembered with a smile how lucky Marlene’s parents had felt that they were able to bring Marlene’s friends together to celebrate their special girls’ birthday. You couldn’t believe their luck either now, how terrible it was. It had been months since they had been murdered, yet seeing her face plastered across the front page of The Daily Prophet caused your heart to ache with grief.

You felt a tentative touch on your shoulder and reached with trembling fingers to clasp the hand there, and leant your cheek against it.   “You shouldn’t read it if it makes you upset.” A soft voice said behind you, you chuckled darkly and turned to face him.   “Then I wouldn’t read anything at all, Remus.” You paused; your lip quivered as you gazed at the face of your lost friend. “I just can’t believe she’s gone.” You replied, you tried to smile at Remus but stopped short as his brow furrowed in concern.   “Have you seen the awful guff that Skeeter woman has written about her?” Sirius called from the doorway, he wore a grim expression and held his own copy of the Prophet in his hand. “We can’t let this go unpunished, Moony.” Remus nodded and gave your shoulder a subtle squeeze.   “I know, but we must act cautiously, Sirius. We can’t let her death be in vain. You’re no use to anybody if you get yourself killed.”   “Dreadful.” You added quietly, more to yourself than to anybody else. Sirius stalked into the room, his eyes never on one spot for more than a few seconds.   “How is it that we are expected to do nothing? After everything that’s happened, after everything we’ve…sacrificed. It isn’t enough!” Sirius stalked to the tapestried wall and punched it hard, he groaned as he pulled his hand away and shook it fiercely. The rooms of Grimmauld Place were quiet now, what once had been busy as the headquarters for The Order of the Phoenix, were now still as more and more allies lost their lives. Remus was upon his friend in an instant, he grasped Sirius by the shoulders and tried to calm him.   “We mustn’t fall apart, brother. Not now.” Remus breathed, he took Sirius’ face in his hands and forced the bearded man to look in his eyes. “We haven’t come this far for nothing. She was special, one in a million, and I promise she will be avenged.” Sirius was defiant for a moment, he tried to free himself from Remus’ grip; but after a second more, he relented and sighed.   “Yes.”

  You stood quietly and made your way over to the two men; you hadn’t been close friends at school. You hadn’t been particularly close during the beginning of the war; but as the numbers thinned out as more and more people were killed, you clung to those who you knew you could trust. You slipped in between the two men and grasped both of their hands.   “Let’s go and get some food. It’s been a long day, let’s have a drink for Marlene. She wouldn’t want us to mope about.” You looked between them, a sad smile settled onto Remus’ scarred mouth and Sirius squeezed your hand in agreement. You nodded at them both and lead them from the house, it was dark outside, and you kept to the shadows as you crept through the quiet streets toward Muggle London.

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  “Leicester Square? Really?” Sirius asked with a quirked eyebrow, you pushed him toward the door to an Italian restaurant.   “Yes, it’s busy and full of people. We’re not likely to come across anyone other than muggles having a Friday night out. Okay?” You chided as you waited for a muggle waiter to seat you at a table. Sirius squirmed uncomfortably at your side, Remus on the other smiled warmly down at you and placed a gentle hand on your back as you followed the waiter further into the restaurant. The restaurant was heaving with people, groups of friends laughed rowdily at circular tables whilst couples held hands and whispered to one another on smaller ones. You grinned at the normality of it all, you wondered what it must be like to have no knowledge of what was happening out there, of what you had lost.   “What would you like to drink, (Y/N)?” Remus asked as he passed a menu in your direction, you accepted it gladly and turned to the waiter who stood with a notepad and pen in his hand.   “Pinot Noir please lovely, bottle-one glass, thank you.” You said and with a fleeting look of judgement which you brushed off; the waiter wrote it down.   “Yourself, sir?” He asked as he leaned down to hear Sirius as he scoured the menu.   “Chablis.” Sirius answered curtly, you kicked him under the table and Sirius scowled. “Thank you.”   “Is that a bottle, sir?” The waiter asked, his look now nonplussed as he shifted his weight.   “Yes, thank you. Been a bitch of a day.” Sirius cleared his throat and offered you a pithy look. You shook your head and turned your attention back to the food on offer.   “Long Island Iced Tea for me please, sir.” Remus said cheerfully, the waiter looked surprised at Remus’ order and a flash of humour crossed his face. Remus blushed and averted his eyes as the waiter confirmed the order and with a wink in Remus’ direction left the table.   “You’ve made a friend, Moony.” Sirius wiggled his eyebrows as Remus blushed and sank into his chair.   “I didn’t know you were gay, Remus! That’s fantastic!” You said and Sirius erupted into laughter. You watched as the two men exchanged looks over the table. “Have I missed something?”   “No, (Y/N). Remus isn’t…gay. But you do like to dabble, don’t you Moony?” Sirius clasped his hands on the table and cocked his head to the side. Remus slammed his menu down and pointed his finger at Sirius.   “You’re one to talk. I’m sure I could tell (Y/N) some excellent stories about you and your exploits, Padfoot.” Remus snapped, Sirius threw his head back and let out one short laugh.   “I’ve done things that would make a whore blush, and unlike you, I have noting to hide.” Sirius said, his eyes sparkled in the dim light of the restaurant. You looked bewilderedly between the two men, this power play between the pair of them was delicious and strangely erotic. You could feel your own blush tickle your cheeks as Remus cast his eyes over you, his mouth a thin line on his usually soft face.   “I think you’re making (Y/N) uncomfortable, Sirius. This isn’t really appropriate dinner conversation, is it?” Remus retorted, Sirius cast a glance in your direction and seeing your red cheeks, smiled. He inched his hand closer to yours on the table, his fingertips barely touched yours and yet you felt like you had been struck by lightning. The corner of Sirius’ mouth twitched into a smirk; his moustache twirled perfectly at the sides accentuated it as his face was illuminated by the candlelight. Seconds later, Remus’ knee brushed against yours under the table and you felt the warmth of the contact inch up your thigh as the blush on your cheeks spread over your body.     “I can hold my own Remus, thank you.” You replied quietly, aware of how both men watched you as you fiddled with the menu. “I can hold my own.”   “I’m sure you can.” Sirius said under his breath. The tension continued to grow between the three of you, even when the waiter appeared with your drinks and took your food order, his keen attention fixed on Remus; Remus stared at you. His breathing was shallow, and you could see his knuckles were white as he balled his hand into a tight fist on the table. You couldn’t help but notice how dark his eyes looked as you passed his gaze over his face, the soft contours of his cheeks and the scars that had lived there for as long as you could remember. He had a sort of ethereal beauty about him that was impossible to deny, the gentle exterior and the darkness that was promised underneath by the swathes of battle marks across his flesh.

  You allowed Sirius to pour your wine and blushed again as he watched as you took a sip of the ruby liquid. You dabbed at the corner of your mouth with a finger and pressed it to you lips; the forgotten drop of claret soon mopped up with your tongue. You heard a sigh from Remus’ direction, your attention brought back to him. Sirius laughed again; his shoulder length hair tickled his face as he said:   “I think we shall have some sport tonight, brother.”

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  You ate mostly in silence, only commenting on how delicious the food was- or, in Sirius’ case lamenting on the best way to eat a pizza as he attacked it with a knife and fork. When the plates were cleared, the wine flowed freely around the table. You had insisted Remus catch up and order a bottle for himself, and he in turn demanded that both you and Sirius have a cocktail to even up the score. Sirius ordered himself a Negroni whilst you opted for a Black Russian, you smiled at the two men began to relax into the evening. The sensual tension from earlier in the evening forgotten as through a fit of giggles you told Remus of the schoolgirl crush you harboured for him in your fifth year, he in his sixth.     “Honestly, it was pathetic. Poor Lily tried everything she could think of to get us alone together so I could tell you how I felt.” Your stomach hurt from laughing so much, the sides of your cheeks ached, and you were delighted by the delightful shade of pink Remus had turned.   “I’m telling you now, (Y/N). Moony only ever had eyes for one girl at school and she never looked twice at him!” Sirius laughed; he swirled the contents in his glass before he knocked back a big gulp.   “Oh, please tell me who it is, Remus. I need to know who I was losing out to.” You said through your laughter. Remus mumbled under his breath, so quiet it was impossible to hear him. “What? Sorry I missed that.” You grappled at Remus’ hands as he tried to cover his face. “Who was it, Remus? I promise I won’t laugh.” Remus looked from you to Sirius, if looks could kill, his friend would be dead in his Negroni before he knew it. He took a deep breath and covered his eyes.   “McGonagall” Remus whispered, Sirius slapped his knee in delight, and you couldn’t help the snort that escaped you as you thought of a poor, seventeen-year-old Remus hopelessly in love with the stern professor.   “Have a thing for authority, do you?” You asked playfully, Remus’ look darkened once more as he lowered his hands.   “Quite the opposite actually, (Y/N). I like the idea of those in power relinquishing it.” He said quietly, you felt as though everybody in the restaurant had disappeared as the only sound you could hear was the beating of your heart in your ears. You bit your lip and blinked, desperate to rid yourself of the warmth you suddenly felt between your legs.   “I just like fucking.” Sirius added after a moment, he considered what he said and then lolled his head to the side once again swept his gaze across your face. “A lot.”

  You didn’t know what to do with your hands as you regarded each of the men now staring intently at you.   “Shall we get the bill?” Sirius asked.   “Yep.” Remus answered instantly, his hand in the air as he tried to get the waiter’s attention. You grabbed for your purse and you each threw money onto the table; the muggle money was so fragile you thought. Especially the paper money, luckily Remus knew what-was-what and squared up with the waiter who looked disappointed to see Remus leaving. It was Sirius this time who placed his hand on the small of your back as you made your way out into the night, it was chilly now and you pulled your thin jacket around your chest.   “Where to now?” Remus asked, “Home? Or another drink?”   “I could have another drink…at home.” You said, you felt the warmth return between your legs and both men grinned at you. You slipped your hands into each of theirs, Sirius brought your hand up to his lips and pressed a gentle kiss to your fingers. Remus brushed the back of your knuckles with his thumb, each action from the two men sent electric pulses through your veins.

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     “I’m telling you, (Y/N). If you had told Remus all the naughty things you wanted to do to him at school, he would have come immediately into his pants.” Sirius said as he poured port into three glasses and passed them around. You took a thoughtful sip, the richness of the port warmed you as you considered what to say next.   “Who says I wanted to do naughty things? The things I had in mind were wholly innocent, I’ll have you know.” You replied, you snuck a look at Remus from the corner of your eye; he seemed completely interested in his drink.   “Oh, I imagine they were, (Y/N). You were sweetness and light in school, weren’t you? Butter wouldn’t melt.” Sirius discarded his drink onto a nearby table and stood. He walked around his chair and placed his hands on the backrest, he leaned forward and squared his jaw. “I would have given anything to ruin you.” His gaze didn’t waver as a gentle moan left your lips; it was almost inaudible, but Remus’ head snapped up in your direction. You parted your lips and ran your tongue along them, they felt painfully dry.   “Sirius, you’ve had too much to drink mate.” He said, Sirius merely shrugged.   “In Vino Veritas, brother. You telling me that you wouldn’t have absolutely fucked her senseless if she told you she wanted you?” Sirius countered. Remus ran a hand through his hair as he took a swig of his port.   “I am still here.” You offered weakly. Sirius sneered at you as he picked his tumbler up and swirled it around again.   “I know, witch. I want you to hear.” Sirius said darkly Remus groaned in his chair, he shifted uncomfortably. “Don’t tell me you haven’t thought about it, Moony. Me and you, her hot little body to keep us warm.” You moaned again; it was involuntary this time. Both men looked in your direction as you rubbed your thighs together, desperate to relieve the throb between your legs. Sirius chuckled ominously as he offered his hand to Remus. Begrudgingly, Remus took it. Your heart thundered in your chest; you bit the inside of your cheek; surely you were dreaming? You would wake up any second now, a damp patch in your knickers and a desperate aching in your quim. Sirius rolled the sleeves of his smart white shirt up to his elbows; he crossed the room in an instant. He knelt in front of you, his hands on your knees. You could do nothing but stare into the face of this man you had known in some capacity since you were eleven, as he moved up your body, his mouth close to your ear; his hair tickled your cheek.   “Would you like that, (Y/N)? Would you like to lie between Remus and me? To be utterly filled to the brim?” You could feel his hot breath on your ear, you rolled your head back and sighed. Your eyes fluttered closed and Sirius’ lips grazed your earlobe, you clutched the arms of the chair tightly. “Just say the word, (Y/N). Just tell us you want us-”   “You don’t have to, (Y/N). Don’t feel pressured-” Remus interjected, you stopped him short with an extended hand. You reached for him; his eyes darkened as he took your hand. You looked up earnestly into his face, the face that had littered your dreams for a solid nine months as a teenager. You smiled wryly at Remus whilst Sirius held his breath, still by your ear.   “I want you.” You whispered, “Both of you.”

  Sirius pulled you out of the chair and pushed you toward Remus, his arms extended to catch you. You placed your hands either side of Remus’ face and inched your lips closer to his, Remus closed the gap with a growl. He kissed you hungrily, it was furious, and you slid your hands into his hair and tugged. Remus groaned against your lips as your hands moved readily in his hair. You felt a tug behind you as Sirius turned you in Remus’ arms brought your mouth to his. You couldn’t decipher whose hands were where; as you felt your shirt being tugged over your head, and hands working at the belt of your jeans. You felt them being pushed down your thighs as you were turned once again to face Remus. There was a pair of hands on your breasts, roughly needing them through the thin lace of your bra whilst a hand graced over your stomach and one plunged into your knickers.   “So wet already. Can you smell her, Moony?” Sirius grunted against your neck, his teeth grazed along the sensitive skin and he sucked hard. Remus only moaned in response, he bit down on your lower lip and you shuddered under him. Sirius moved his fingers deftly over your clit, he rubbed it gently and your head rolled back onto Sirius’ shoulder. “Make yourself useful, (Y/N). Why don’t you play with Remus’ big cock?” You didn’t need to be told twice, Remus’ lips pulled back into a snarl as you made fast work of his belt and pushed his trousers down to his knees. He was hard as you pulled him out of his boxers, he hissed as the air touched his member. You worked your hand up and down Remus’ shaft to the same pace that Sirius rubbed your clit. Remus pulled your head forward by your neck and crushed his lips to yours. Another moan slipped from your lips as Sirius parted your slick folds and pushed two fingers inside you, your grip around Remus tightened as he bucked his hips against your hand. Sirius quickened his pace, and your legs began to tremble as you began to move your hips against Sirius’ hand, fucking yourself on his fingers. You pumped Remus faster as a slew of curses fell from his lips. Sirius grabbed a fistful of your hair and pulled your head back roughly. You yelped in surprise but found your scalp burned pleasantly with the pain.

  “I want you to come on my fingers, witch. Do you think you can do that?” You nodded helplessly as his thumb began to rub you as his fingers plunged in and out of your sex. Remus pulled away from you, your hand now empty of him, you brought it up to tangle in Sirius’ hair.   “Fuck (Y/N), you have no idea how delicious you look now.” Remus whispered; he attacked your neck with wet kisses as Sirius brought you to orgasm. It flooded through you in powerful waves, your moans silenced by Sirius’ hand around your mouth.   “Quiet. I want to hear your pretty noises, but not here.” Sirius instructed. As you came down from your high, you saw Remus nod to Sirius as they both grasped one of your hands. With a distinct pop you arrived in your Grimmauld Place bedroom, before you had the chance to adjust after the apparation, you were flung backwards onto your bed. You watched with half lidded eyes as Sirius and Remus both undressed fully, you could see clearly now just how well-endowed the pair of them were. Remus was bigger than Sirius, but Sirius was girthier. You licked your lips in delight, you couldn’t believe this was happening. Both of these attractive men lavishing attention on you, it was almost too much to bear. Remus climbed onto the bed; his arms open to you.   “Sit on my face.” He commanded, you did so without hesitating. You hoisted a leg over either side of his head and lowered yourself gently down, his lips were gentle against your throbbing pussy, still recovering from your previous orgasm. Sirius appeared next to you, his hand slid down your back and gave your arse a smack, causing you to jolt forward. Remus grasped hold of your hips and held you in place, his tongue probing at your slippery entrance. It felt divine, Remus knew exactly what he was doing and as he kissed and nibbled at you, he began to shake his head from side to side. The feeling of his tongue rounding delicious laps around your clit was earthshattering, you had never felt anything as intense as this before. You were coming again in seconds; and you threw your head back and ground yourself against Remus’ face. You could hear Sirius laugh as Remus lapped at your core, you shuddered against him and whimpered at the overstimulation. Sirius grasped your hand roughly and placed it on his cock which throbbed impatiently. You moved your hand to the top around his foreskin and pulled back, Sirius smile illuminated the room as he moved your hair to the side.   “No love, use your mouth.” He whispered, you slid awkwardly from Remus’ face and crawled before Sirius. You looked up into his dark face as he regarded you, he watched as you ran your tongue from the bottom of his shaft to the top. He sighed and placed a delicate hand to the top of your head, pushing it downwards. You didn’t mind, in fact, you thoroughly enjoyed it. The feeling of the decision being removed from your hands was delectable in a life such as yours, where at any second you could die from making the wrong choice.

  It took you a second to adjust to Sirius’ girth as he began to fuck your throat, slowly at first and after you gave him a swift nod; he picked up his pace. You gagged around his cock as Sirius pushed it further into your throat, you had to swallow; or you thought you might choke. Saliva dripped from your chin as with great effort, you swallowed around his cock. Sirius let out a groan and grabbed a fistful of your hair.   “Do that again.” He commanded, you instantly swallowed around him. He quivered and thrusted into your mouth with more force, you whined around him as with each time he hit the base of your throat, he pulled out almost as far. You mourned the loss of him in your mouth each time. He tasted salty with sweat, and you found that the most delicious thing you had tasted all evening.

  Your jaw began to ache and though you did your best to ignore it, Sirius seemed to sense your discomfort. He pulled out of your mouth with a satisfying pop.   “I want to come inside you, (Y/N). I want to make you come all over my cock.” Sirius breathed into your ear, he still held fast onto the fistful of your hair. You moaned against his lips as he brought you roughly in for a kiss. “Feeling neglected, Remus?” Sirius laughed as he surfaced for air. You looked over your shoulder to see Remus on his back, he stroked his cock lazily as he watched you.   “On the contrary, just enjoying the show.”  

You were breathless, positively alight with desire. Every inch of your flesh screamed with want and for a second you felt guilty, wanton almost. Every scrap of decorum you previously possessed ebbed from your body with each illicit moan, and every time you passed yourself between these two men you couldn’t help the grin that formed on your face. The lascivious acts you had both endured and performed were more than you could ever ask for from one partner let alone two. The bottom line though, you felt, was if it was wrong or if it you weren’t meant to enjoy it…why were you enjoying it so?   “Come here, darling.” Remus said softly, as if able to hear your thoughts. He held his arms out to you and you crawled into his embrace gladly. He pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head and his hands travelled down your back to your rump, he squeezed it and gave it a playful tap. You smiled widely at him and kissed him deeply, your hands found themselves again in his hair and his mouth trailed hot kisses from your mouth along your jaw. Sighs of contentedness fell readily from your lips as Sirius approached from behind you. He brushed his hand softly up your arm causing your flesh to tingle under his touch. You heard Sirius whisper a spell and with a start you were thrown onto your back, propped up on the pillows; your legs brought up spread wide and bent at the knee. You felt soft fabric wrap around your wrists and the backs of your thighs as your arms and legs were bound together, leaving you bare, open and vulnerable to both men. Another soft piece of fabric settled over your eyes, completely covering your vision, and leaving you without sight. A fleeting moment of zealous insecurity bounded through your mind; you had never tried anything as adventurous as this with any of your previous partners. There hadn’t been many, mind you- but still you felt a little out of your depth. What flashed through your mind next was Remus’ kind face, you knew he would never let anything happen to you. You knew you need only say the word if you were uncomfortable and there would be no hard feelings. He would probably make you a cup of tea and talk about something innocuous until you felt better. And there was Sirius, who earlier on had felt so incensed over what had happened to Marlene that he was willing to put himself in danger- yes, you knew you were in safe hands.

  “How does that feel, (Y/N)?” Sirius asked from a way away. You pulled against your bonds slightly, you couldn’t escape them, but they weren’t painful.   “Indescribable.” You breathed. You smiled, unaware if either of them could see your face. You felt a soft caress of your inner thigh, your breath hitched in response. Your cunt ached with need, regardless of the two orgasms you’d already had by Sirius’ quick fingers and Remus’ clever tongue.   “We’re going to play a game, aren’t we Remus?” Sirius said jovially, as if he were speaking of Quidditch in the sun.   “Oh, yes. I love this game.” Remus replied from elsewhere in the room. You would have liked to think that your hearing would have been heightened by having your sight stripped from you; but you wondered whether the disorientation you felt as the two men moved around you was part of the game.   “We’re going to fuck you now, (Y/N). One after the other. You are to guess who is fucking you.” Sirius said. You felt a hand tug on the restraints around your knees and a hum of satisfaction.   “You are not allowed to come unless you guess correctly.” Remus added somewhat cruelly. You frowned and felt another hand caress your breast, they took your nipple in between their fingers and gave it a tug. You yelped with surprise and tried to lurch upwards, but a hand against your chest pushed you down again. Where the fingers were on your nipple a second ago, you felt a tongue trace around the stiffened teat. They sucked hard and you bucked your hips upward, desperate for something, anything to ease the throbbing you felt in your quim. You were wracked with worry though, what would happen if you couldn’t tell them apart?   “Our girl’s needy, wouldn’t you say Sirius?” Remus said, oh, it was Remus who suckled on your breast. You felt his hot breath on you as he pressed wet kisses across the valley of your breasts and then lavished the other nipple with the same delicious torture.

  You needed to come. You needed release desperately. You bucked your hips upwards again and a whimper escaped you. Fruitless.   “Please.” You whispered blindly; you didn’t know if they were even listening to you. “Please fuck me.”   “Who?” A voice answered quietly, you weren’t sure who answered you, you bit your lip.   “Anyone, both of you. Please, I need, I need-”   “Look at us Moony, two dogs with a little bitch all tied up and begging.” Sirius said, you had no idea where he was. He seemed to be everywhere and nowhere at once. Like his voice filled all of your senses and yet left you achingly touch starved. “Isn’t that something?”   “Yes, the irony isn’t lost on me.” Remus replied, he too seemed to float in the ether around you. Like a voice from a dream, almost tangible. You began to struggle against your restraints, it was torture. You wanted nothing more than to be fucked by these two men and the longer they made you wait, the more restless you became.   “(Y/N), are you ready?” You nodded as definitely as you could, you braced yourself for what, you couldn’t say. Another agonizing minute passed before you heard any movement. You could feel the heat from a body between your legs, it was impossible to say who it was as they leaned forward to press their member between your slick folds. Whomever it was pushed into gently, you squealed as they filled you torturously slowly. You moved your hips against him, desperate for the friction. When they didn’t move you let out a grunt of frustration. You heard him chuckle, whoever he was, and he gave the smallest thrust into you.   “Please-” You mustered, your voice was small and full of want. You wished you could take this person in your arms and fuck him, but with your arms and legs bound together, all you could do was lift your hips. He was big, bigger than anything you’d had before. You felt the sting as he stretched you out with each miniscule thrust. You felt fit to burst, like you could explode at any second if you weren’t fucked and fucked well. You writhed beneath him, impatient and desperate.

  You weren’t prepared for what happened next. Your mouth was forcefully opened, and a cock slid inside. Whoever wasn’t buried in your cunt took your mouth. Incredible. You spluttered against it, as the cock inside your quim began to move. You moaned throatily as you were utterly filled. The cock inside you began to push furiously into you, bruising your cervix with every delectable thrust. It was almost manic now; you were being tossed around something chronic and with every thrust from inside you caused the cock in your mouth to be pushed further into your throat. You wanted to badly to feel them around you, you wished to lavish your lovers with touches of encouragement.   “Fuck.” That was definitely Sirius. But you couldn’t work out where. Dear Merlin, you needed to come. Please, you begged to anybody that might listen, please. You hollowed your cheeks against the member in your throat and tried to suck, but the force in which they fucked your mouth let you do nothing but try and keep your teeth out of the way.   “Fuck, fuck.” That was Remus. His voice seemed to be closer than Sirius. You moaned again, as the man between your legs lifted a hand and began to rub your clit. That was it, you were going to come. The man between your legs fucked you harder as if he could sense this, the room was a cacophony of moans, of delicious skin on skin and you could almost float away in the bliss. You felt your orgasm begin to reach its peak, but that wasn’t allowed was it? Nobody had asked you to guess? You decided not to bring it up, but to reach the climax you so desperately craved.

  The thrusting into your core was desperate now, incensed. You could hear the cries of a man about to spill his seed. The man in your mouth pulled out and you clamped your aching jaw closed immediately. You felt hands around your throat and pressure as your moans became heightened, matching the orgasm that now sizzled through you.   “Oh...Lord!” The man between your legs came, you could feel it. “Fuck, I’m coming.” That was Sirius, you were sure of it. A slew of curses whispered in the distance and you could feel his thrusts become weaker as he filled you full of him.   “Sirius.” You whispered with a smile.   “It’s a bit late for that you naughty slut.” Sirius snapped, in an instant the ties around your arms and legs vanished and they fell to the bed with a thud. They ached, you ached. You had never been fucked that hard and you groaned as you rolled onto your stomach. You were pulled up sharply by your hips and onto all fours. You craned your neck round to see Remus behind you, red faced and sweaty as he lined himself up with your entrance. You noticed his chest was littered with scars and you wanted to run your tongue along each one.   “Need to come.” Remus muttered as he pushed into you roughly. It was like night and day to the way Sirius had fucked you, Remus pulled a fistful of your hair and yanked your head back sharply. He wasted no time in building a rhythm, he rutted into you mercilessly. You cried out, the pain in your scalp along with the pleasure in your loins was almost too much for you to bear.   “God Moony, I’m hard again just watching you fuck her.” Sirius said, his voice was strained as your eyes met. He was perched against the pillows, his back to the headboard as he stroked his now hard cock. His eyes were dark, and he licked his lips as he watched his best friend pound into you from behind. Remus let go of your hair and brought his hands to your hips in a vice like grip. He pushed and pulled you onto his cock, you could feel the wetness you had created trickle down your thighs.

  Your voice was hoarse as you came for the fourth time, you had cried and moaned and whimpered for what felt like hours. You felt tears sting your eyes as the pleasure trundled through your veins, your walls tightened, and Remus gave a great cry before he thrust into twice more and you milked him of his orgasm. He fell forward onto you and you went with him, falling onto Sirius’ chest with a grunt. Sirius wrapped his arms steadily around you and bundled you close to his chest. Remus pressed a tender kiss to your shoulder as he slid from on top of you and pulled you in between them, Sirius on the right, Remus on the left. You breathed. From the bottom of your lungs you gasped in great breaths. Sirius’ fingers travelled from your neck to the base of your spine and back again, and Remus stroked lazy circles on your stomach. You hummed contentedly as your heartrate returned to normal, you nestled your head into Sirius’ chest and wiggled your hips against Remus earning a laugh from the latter.   “Comfortable (Y/N)?” Remus asked into your hair. You hummed in agreement and let your eyes close.   “Well our game didn’t go much to plan, did it Moony?” Sirius asked, you could hear the smile in his voice. Remus’ chuckle vibrated against your back.   “No, not quite. Someone obviously didn’t understand the rules.” Remus said, he tapped your stomach playfully and you groaned.   “I understood perfectly, thank you very much. I just couldn’t hold on much longer. I was desperate.” You sighed and Sirius placed a kiss to the top of your head.   “You’ll have to do better. We won’t be as lenient next time.” Sirius stated. Your eyes fluttered open and gazed up at Sirius face, he was joking, surely?   “We certainly will not.” Remus confirmed from behind you, you felt your stomach leap in excitement.   “Next time?” You murmured; this couldn’t be happening. No, not to you. Remus rolled you in his arms, so you faced him, Sirius shuffled down the bed slightly and wrapped his arm around your middle.   “You think I’m going to go the rest of my life without ever fucking you again?” Remus questioned; his brow furrowed but you could tell he was being sincere. You pressed your finger to the scar that ran across the bridge of his nose and traced it lightly, he closed his eyes against your touch and pressed a kiss to the palm of your hand.

  You were still. The three of you. You must have fallen asleep; you have no idea when or how long for; but Sirius stirred behind you and your eyes opened wearily.   “(Y/N),” he whispered, “Rem. Come on, we need to bathe.” You lifted your head from Remus’ arm and yawned, your bodies were stuck together with sweat and who knows what else. Remus groaned and pulled you closer to him. Sirius bent to kiss your cheek and shifted to the side of the bed. “Shall I run you a bath, (Y/N)? I imagine you’re very sore.”   “Yes please, I’m broken.” You joked and shot a wink in his direction. You yawned again. “Do you fancy a coffee?”   “I’ll put the kettle on.” Sirius said as he pulled his discarded boxers on over his manhood, he flicked the light on as he exited the room. You turned your attention back to Remus who looked so peaceful, you felt guilty disturbing him. You placed a tender kiss to his lips, and he smiled.   “Come on, we need to get up. We absolutely stink.” You said softly, Remus only pouted and pulled you even closer.   “Don’t want to.” He replied stubbornly. You laughed and pushed his arms from around you. You rubbed your eyes and trailed your hands over your neck and chest, the skin there tender. “(Y/N), can I ask you something?” Remus said, he had propped himself up onto his elbow as he watched you.   “Of course.”   “Why didn’t you ask me out when we were in school?” He asked you quizzically, you groaned and flopped backwards onto the bed. He inched closer to you and placed a hand on the side of your face, turning it to him. His green eyes intently fixed on yours.   “Oh, I don’t know. Maybe I was scared you would say no. My little fifteen-year-old heart couldn’t have taken it.” You replied with a chuckle.   “I wish you had.” He paused thoughtfully; he tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “I would’ve said yes.”   “Really?” You pondered, he hummed and pressed a lingering kiss to your lips and suddenly, he was gone. You opened your eyes to find him at the other end of the room pulling his boxers on.   “I still might.” Remus winked, he left your bedroom with a yawn and closed the door.

  You sighed and rubbed your eyes. It was all too much, but the butterflies in your stomach reminded you that even in the midst of the horrors of this war there was still happiness to be had. Even if it came in the shape of two very unlikely men. You couldn’t believe your luck, how much it had changed.

[moonscarsandstars]

“Do you really love me?”

The stars glittered against the clear, black surface of the lake. Grass prickled Remus’s skin as he turned around to face Sirius. His grey eyes held spiralling universes in them.

“More than you’ll ever know,” whispered Sirius.

Remus reached out to kiss him, but pulled apart as Sirius pointed up at the sky. ”It’s starting,” he whispered excitement tingling in his voice.

It seemed like frozen fire was travelling through space, leaving a shining trail behind. Like the stars were raining, falling on them. Like the universe was falling apart, each woven thread coming undone.

It was like nothing Remus’d ever seen before.

Mouth parted in awe, he hastily turned to Sirius in excitement, only to find Sirius looking back at him, with the same love in his eyes that set flames in Remus’s heart.

Suddenly, Sirius’s lips where on his, and in a blur of passion, they were against each other, almost like the universe really was falling apart.

~~~

“Do you really love me?”

A heavy tear fell down Sirius’s cheek, as a harsh croak escaped him. Remus’s eyes landed on the giant bruise on his cheek- from where James had punched him.

But that was nothing compared to Remus’s gnawing flesh, with lacerations larger than life barely holding together at the seams. What did Sirius expect? It was dangling fresh meat in front of the wolf before snatching it away.

“I- I’m sorry- you have no idea-”

“No,” growled Remus. “You have no idea. Know what would’ve happened if I managed to kill Snape? If your fucking plan had succeeded?!”

Sirius shook his head weakly and cautiously, cold fear pooling in his eyes.

“Forget being expelled, I’d have been put down! Like the fucking beast I am!”

A loud, horrified gasp escaped Sirius, and he flinched back in terror, gripping the table with his white knuckles. His lower lip was trembling, and his face was paler than before.

“No- no- that- please- no-”

“Yes. And that’s what you don’t understand, isn’t it?” Remus took a heated breath.

“I’m- I’m so sorry-” Sirius managed to stutter out through gut wrenching sobs. 

“You don’t really love me. You never did,” spat out Remus, as if the words were poison.

“That’s not true,” whimpered Sirius in a wavering, broken voice.

“No you don’t.”

“I- I-”

“You’re just like your fucking parents.”

~~~

“Do you really love me?”

“Of course I do!”

“Then leave,” spat out Remus brusquely, voice scraping against the walls of the shack.

Chains dug in deeply against his wrists, and bloodied streams of dirt lead up to him struggling against himself. A loud, guttural wail escaped him, echoing through Sirius’s body. Sirius shuddered, tears pricking his eyes.

“You need the pack!” Cried Sirius, pulling fingers through his knotted hair.

“I need you to get out!”

Remus heaved a little, blood falling from his lips which he spat away. He trailed a broken nail along his shaking legs. He whimpered quietly, tugging harshly at the chain pulling against his foot.

“I’m staying,” muttered Sirius, more to himself. “I’m staying.”

“You stay, and we’re over.”

Swallowing thickly, Sirius stood confidently. “I’d rather end it than leave you alone here.”

“Fuck, Sirius just get out!”

“No! Don’t you understand?! I love you, and I don’t fucking care if I get hurt! As long as you’re safe,” he added softly.

“Are- are you- fuck it’s starting!” 

His screams wracked the building, and the walls seemed to shiver with Sirius, who hastily transformed into a dog. The last thing he could see was sharp, bloodied teeth, before the wolf’s claws carved through his arm.

Gritting his teeth and howling loudly, Padfoot tried to lick the wound, edging to the back of the room and staring cautiously.

The wolf was different now.

~~~

“Do you really love me?”

“I can’t believe it either,” deadpanned Sirius, bursting into laughs. “Why d’you think I don’t?”

“I don’t know,” shrugged Remus, a lump hanging at his throat and his eyes glassing over.

“Moony, hey Moons, what happened?”

Sirius crouched next to Remus, who was cross legged on their bed. He dragged a finger over the Gryffindor  poster that hung from one of the posters.

“It’s- I mean- we’re leaving this place soon, aren’t we?” Remus’s voice wavered in a way that broke Sirius’s heart. 

“We’re going to stay together,” said Sirius, trailing a finger over Remus’s tear stained cheek. “I promise, I’ll never leave you.”

“What if you find someone better?”

“No one, and I mean that Moons, no one could be better than you. You’re everything, better than this world, better than this universe. You’re more than I could ever have asked for. I love you.”

Another tear fell down Remus’s cheek, gently wiped away by Sirius’s soft thumb.

“Are you sure?”

Sirius chuckled. “I’d be in Azkaban before I stopped loving you.”

“You’d be in Azkaban within three years of leaving this place, I’ll bet.”

“Oh we’ll bet, all right,” chuckled Sirius, moving over Remus’s body. 

They fell down on the bed, smiling against each others’ lips. Sirius’s hands travelled through Remus’s hair, and he kissed him passionately, like there was no tomorrow.

~~~

“Do you really love me?”

“Where were you?”

“I asked if you really love me.”

“I asked,” repeated Sirius heatedly. “Where were you?

“Don’t you trust me?!”

A hitched breath stuck in Sirius’s throat, and his eyebrows furrowed further. He threaded fingers through his sweaty hair.

“Why? Don’t you trust me?”

“I do, it’s just- I’m not allowed to tell!”

“Why not?” 

“Dumbledore’s order,” muttered Remus defeatedly. “I wasn’t even supposed to say that. But fuck, it’s all I can offer in this stupid war.”

“What?” Sirius’s eyebrows shot up, and he suddenly stood from the old, dusty sofa they were sitting on. “He’s asking you to use your lycanthropy or something?”

“I- no.”

“You’re lying.”

“Why can’t you fucking trust me?!”

Remus got up too, anger fueling his tired, injured and bloodied body.

“Because you keep disappearing half the time, and fuck knows where you go every transformation!”

“Dumbedore asked me to! You think I’d do this out of my free will?”

“Then tell him not to,” said Sirius earnestly. It took all Remus had it in him to keep from screaming and falling into Sirius’s arms. “I’ll come with you!”

“I- he’s done so much for me,” said Remus desperately, on the brink of tears. “I can’t just take it for granted, can I?”

“You paid him, right? You studied well, right? And he said it was a gift, right?”

“Yes but-”

“No. You’re going to go to Dumbledore, and we’re going to tell him to get his head out of his-”

“Fine, fine, I’ll do it now.”

“Now. I’m coming with you,” said Sirius, grabbing a cloak off the stand and walking out.

“No- no, it’s okay,” muttered Remus, his voice breaking. “I’ll do it myself.”

“Promise?”

Sirius’s voice was so tender.

“Yeah,” replied Remus, putting on a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “I promise.”

“I love you.”

Remus couldn’t bring himself to return it as he walked away from Sirius for what could’ve been forever.

~~~

“Do you really love me?”

Remus stared up at the ceiling of their flat. No. His flat.

The emptiness sunk in, carving a hole inside Remus. One that ached inside, tore apart his barely beating heart.

“Did you really mean it?”

His voice was remarkably steady, hiding bleeding hope and pain that stretched through his heart,

“Did you mean it during the meteor shower?”

Remus closed his eyes, biting his lip to hide the pain. He could taste blood, crimson and metallic. Like the chains.

“Did you mean it when you apologised?”

Maybe that was the start. Maybe Remus shouldn’t have been so fucking desperate for love. Maybe Remus should’ve used his fucking brains.

Remus loathed himself, kicking the chair harshly as pain erupted through his leg.

“Did you mean it when you stayed?”

Remus couldn’t help his voice waver, as his eyes glassed over and his heart burned painfully.

“Did you mean it when you promised to stay with me forever?”

A harsh, bitter chuckle stung his throat.

“You really did go to Azkaban. And leave me. I fucking hate you!”

Remus screamed, tears pouring down his face as a gaping hollow feeling tore him apart from the inside. It physically hurt- worse than any transformation, and he fell to the ground in pain.

“I fucking hate you!” He screamed, knowing the lies that he weaved.

Bloodshot eyes met the picture of the Marauders watching the meteor shower. His white knuckles gripped it tightly, and he felt sick.

“Did you really love me?”

[rabbitsquib]

some wormtail from my mental health journal

[etherealcutefairy]

Dueling crush

Nymphodora Tonks x gender neutral!reader

Warnings: They are on the duel club, so they may fly away from time to time, well, just one of them will. Mentions of the war.

IF I MISS ANY WARNINGS PLEASE LET ME KNOW

who would you cast as a young Nymphodora? I personally see Emma as Tonks but idk who would you cast?

-880 words

*GIF NOT MINE, CREDITS TO THE OWNER*

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History does not forget, nor forgive, at least not those who end up living to share the story. Every magical family consider it was a must that their kids were well prepared in case the ambition of darkness strike again.

Or at least, that was the idea that y/n’s parents had, definitely seeing how many families broke during the last war, was something that made them worry, that’s why, since a young age, they teach all their kids how to duel, and insisted them to enter the dueling club to keep pulling their abilities.

That was the first meeting of the dueling club, everyone was a little bit shook when they saw you there, you, who always appear to be so calm, fragile, and like someone who rather stays away from fights.

— Have you seen who is in here?

Charlie told Tonks, who raise an eyebrow intrigued by your presence, it was no secret to the redheaded boy, that she had a big crush on you, your mysterious calm vibe was something she just couldn’t stop thinking about

— Mmm maybe they got lost? But man, I don’t care is my perfect opportunity to save them! And made them notice me

— Oh I bet she notice you Tonks, is nearly impossible not to, you are always so loud

Charlie joke as Tonks gave him a funny look that made everyone laugh, but you, who was waiting in silence near the window, god, why were you always so out of her reach?

— Well at least I’m always nice to look at

She said, not intending to sound like a brat, a familiar smirk appear on her face, you were beautiful to look at, and so she had heard, you were also brilliant in your academics, but you seem so quiet and calm she barely approached to you, since she didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable, but apparently, call it destiny, the signs had aligned and she got the perfect opportunity to talk to you.

But before the luck turn to be totally in her favor, the teacher enter the room asking for everyone’s attention, but since Tonks was confused about the fact you didn’t leave when it was clear this was the dueling club didn’t pay much attention to the teacher as they were talking maybe you weren’t lost after all

— … and since you seem to be way more advance than the rest of your classmates, considering that you are not paying attention, Nymphadora, come here, you will go first with…

The teacher scanned the room to find the poor victim that will face her, god, she had that big smirk on her face, she will be able to show off in front of you, the day couldn’t go better the teacher call out your name… what?!!

— Y/n Watson, come here, one of my greatest students, I’m so happy you get to join us

Tonks was mortified, she couldn’t show off if YOU were the one she was facing, but she did saw this opportunity as the perfect time to talk to you.

— Don’t worry darling, I’ll go easy on you

She said with a smile full of confidence, and a little flirty wink, that made you smile shortly

— Oh don’t you worry Nymphadora, I’m surely not

You strike back, GODDAMIT,! You were perfect! She was feeling sorry that she was about to kick your ass.

The teacher gave the instruction and the duel begging

— Oh I like that, confidence, that will allow me to have mercy on you angel, at the end of the day, I don’t want to harsh such a pretty face

— Well, I’m not asking for any mercy, I think duels are quite educational, so I will appreciate it if you don’t hold back

The flirting keep going, she didn’t miss the fact that you knew her name, like, she didn’t even like her name that much, but god you could call her whatever you like.

She was on cloud 9 when she was impacted with a clean and powerful flipendo

Making everyone in the room gasp, Charlie did laugh a bit

— An important rule, is to never underestimate your opponent, which will make you automatically lose.

The teacher exclaim with a proud smile on their face as you approach to help Nymphodora up.

— Hope you can keep fighting, darling

You said as you go back to your spot, oh what a lovely box of surprises you were, and a powerful one.

The duel kept going, now on serious matters, and even though she fought her best, she was only able to get to you twice.

It ends with you hitting her with a precise depulso, strong enough to take her out of the duel core but not strong enough to hurt her

— And Watson wins!

The teacher exclaims as your classmates cheer for you, while you have a little smile of embarrassment, after all, you weren‘t used to that much of attention.

You help Nymphodora up.

— You gotta date me!

She exclaims dramatically as she stands up, totally making you blush.

— I’ll think about it when you can defeat me

You whispered completely flustered as you go back to your corner where some of your house friends were. Oh, this was game on, she will defeat you and take you on a date, she was determined.