I just want to pour out everything I feel in this letter, so please take time to read and understand.
First of all, aaminin ko, marupok ako when it comes to you. Mahal na mahal kita, and I can’t help but accept your apology because I can never resist you. You’re my everything. But lately, there’s something that’s been hurting me deeply.
You have a friend, someone you trust, but instead of giving advice that would help us grow and fix things, mas pinipili pa niyang payuhan ka na iwanan ako. Sinasabi niya na toxic ako. Yes, maybe I am toxic for asking for a little time with you, but can you see it from my perspective? Kung sa oras na ginagamit mo para makipagusap sa GC niyo, mas pinili mo sana na kausapin ako at ayusin ang mga bagay, hindi ba mas okay iyon?
You think it’s about your day off. Hindi. Naipaliwanag ko na sa’yo na it's about that little time before you sleep. That moment when I feel we can connect after a long day. Pero hindi iyon ang nakikita ng iba.
Masakit makita na ang kaibigan mo, imbes na tulungan kang pag ayusin tayo, eh mas pinili pang turuan ka na iwanan ako. To me, it feels like inggit. Kasi meron ka ng isang tao na tulad ko, someone who loves you unconditionally, something they don’t have. Kaya mas madali nilang sabihin na, “Iwanan mo na lang siya. Marami pang iba diyan.”
My GirI, supported you in all your decisions, economically, mentally, physically. Lahat ng kaya kong maitulong sa abot ng aking makakaya, ginawa ko. Siguro wala silang katulad ko na asawa o partner nila sa buhay, kaya mas pinipili nila na ibaba ka kasama nila kaysa tulungan kang ayusin ang meron tayo na misunderstanding.
But let me tell you this: no one else will love you the way I do. No one else will fight for you the way I’m fighting now. Kaya Karen Joy, if you’re reading this, let me be honest with you: you’re not being a true friend. A true friend would help find the problem and fix it. A true friend would want their friend to be happy, not push them to give up on someone who genuinely cares.
To you, my Girl, I just want you to know that I’m here, fighting for us, kahit gaano kasakit. Mahal na mahal kita, and no matter what happens, you’ll always have me.