#psychodynamic therapy

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[simpletricksandnonsense]

Sigmund Freud's The Interpretation of Dreams

In his seminal book, Freud dissects a dream about a patient named Irma. For decades, readers thought it was simply his first big case study in dream analysis. But hidden in the details -- nasal structures, medicinal Coke, medical guilt -- is a buried truth.

Freud had referred a patient, Emma Eckstein, to his closest friend, Dr. Wilhelm Fliess, for nasal surgery. Fliess botched it catastrophically, leaving gauze inside her nasal cavity. She nearly died.

Once you know this, the dream transforms:

Dirty injections become the surgery gone wrong

Nasal imagery points to Fliess’s bizarre theories

Freud’s “defenses” are his unconscious trying to dodge responsibility

The most famous dream in psychoanalysis isn’t just wish-fulfillment — it’s Freud’s unconscious forcing him to confront that his closest collaborator had become dangerous. And he hid that confession in plain sight for over 50 years.

🎥 Watch the full breakdown:

#Freud #Psychoanalysis #DreamAnalysis #HistoryOfPsychology #psychodynamic #psychoanalytic #SigmundFreud

[gigi-orosco]

It's not selfishness I seek and find in others. I search for the same attachment style, the trauma derived one which makes me and the other person in constant need for symbiosis and total isolation at the same time.

I lick and bite the hand that feeds. Same for the ones I fall in love with - whatever love means. It's a never ending vicious circle in relationships caused by disruptions, absence of reverie and containment in the schizo-paranoid position of newborns development.

First interactions with the caregivers build neurological structures, most of the chemistry of the brain since the first stages of childhood - in uterus life included. So, if you also have a 'defected' genetic heritage the chances are you will have personality disorders. If you're ill-fated, your personality structure will be split in hundreds disconnected fragments causing many diseases. The most known is schizophrenia which is also an umbrella term. If you're lucky enough, your brain can build a parallel half of the personality structure too and live a decent life. Decent is a euphemism. Encysted on personality disorders there are almost always mood disorders.

My borderline personality disorder falls into the latter type: I'm split in half. One is kind of ok and can almost live on its own without causing too many tantrums. The second one is pure chemical, psychotic havoc. I've never liked this ill part of myself that is needy, wants constant reassurances and causes exhaustion in partners. I have an insecure attachment style and the fragmentation of some parts of my personality has lead to a poorly built ego. The relationship model I consequently act out is needy and avoidant at the same time, as I previously said. I'm prone to cut people out of my life if I see this behavioural pattern coming to the surface because I start acting in a psychotic way, obsessing over the moment in which I will again be abandoned by the other. Another part of this curse is that I can feel raw emotional material (every shifts in moods and behaviours, body movements, change in the tone of voice, non verbal infos and changes in writing too) of the ones I love, so I always know well in advance where the ruinous relationships will lead. It's like constantly sorting out wheat from the chaff: what is yours? What is mine? I feel a catastrophe coming my way, I'm always right in sensing it - but I just can't bear the waiting. I can bear the catastrophe itself but not the waiting. Weird, huh?

It's nothing banal nonetheless, it's not just me who needs constant feedbacks in the romantic relationship - it's also the other person who needs someone at their side who makes reiterated attempts to shake them from the state of self absorption they're into. My attachment style is carved into my brain, I so only choose people that guarantee the reinforcement of the scheme.

The sane part of the ego structure - built up in years of self analysis, studies, psychotherapy and connections with nature and animals (yep!) - has learned how to limit the damages, but I'm still uncapable of having a romantic relationship without suffering psychotic episodes: if I hadn't taken meds I would have already died.

It is fascinating how the smallest things can ruin an entire life.

I have tons of shit to write and I'm trying to be constant expressing myself in English not to loose the the few things I've learned in the past months.

(I hope I'm interpreting Melanie Klein, Donald Winnicott and Wilfred Bion theories correctly - I think they adhere to reality more than all behavioural cognitivism)

[neulich-in-der-sitzung]

[alph4betti-spaghetti]

Prep group (therapy)

So, I forgot to report - I started group therapy last week. It will run for 12 weeks as preparation to go into the day programme which runs for 18 months. Last week was your standard first session; new names and faces, ground rules and boundary setting followed by a mindfulnes exercise to bring it home. The sessions last two hours. I wasn’t all that keen on the characters, and I found the two therapists a bit... I dunno. But I know it takes me a while to warm to new people in these environments. It’s only a small group of about six (inc. me but not the two therapists) all women. I found myself getting rather annoyed by two of them, they seemed to be interrupting and making a lot of assumptions about everybody in the room. I felt like I was too recovered to be there. But that could just be me feeling a little superior and a bit narcissistic.

My next session is later today. I don’t really want to go, but I will.

[faithhopeloveandtherapy]

I don’t think I’d have made half the progress I’ve made in therapy if I hadn’t read other people’s psychotherapy blogs and realised how much of what I was experiencing in my own therapy was normal.

[drmorbius12]

In One Ear

[actuallyadhd]

do you ever reach a point where you stop feeling like a Problem? I've always been Too Much and a massive annoyance to everyone. I feel so eaten up with shame all the time. If I could just control myself, if I could just be normal and silent (I'm hypertalkative), then maybe things could be different. I was punished a lot for my ADHD as a kid. Now all I want to do is continue the job by punishing myself, to make it go away. But it's never going to. I don't know what to do.

I’m so sorry you’re feeling like this. I can relate to some of what you wrote and it sucks so much. I know I’ve wondered why I can’t be normal a lot. It’s really really tough to stop believing these things.

What I am sure of though is that you absolutely did not deserve to be punished for your ADHD, and whoever thought you did is not someone you need in your life. Punishing someone for having ADHD is like punishing someone for needing glasses to see: cruel, senseless, and downright abusive. 

Your symptoms probably won’t go away. Us ADHDers will most likely never be normal. But I hope you can learn to stop feeling like an annoyance or like you’re too much, because you aren’t. You are exactly the right amount, and asking you to be less than yourself is incredibly unfair. 

You say that you want to continue the job of punishing yourself. This is actually a very central concept of many types of therapy, and the fact that you’ve recognized yourself that that’s what you’re doing is a huge step. Especially psychodynamic psychological theory is based on that we act the way we do as adults because of how we were treated as kids. For example, if we as kids were always met with rejection when we tried to show any kind of emotion, then we’re very likely as adults to hide our emotions; sometimes to the point of not even feeling them, because we’re so used to getting ignored. 

It is definitely not permanent though. This is what therapy is for; helping you recognize why you think and feel the way you do, and helping you change that. You deserve to feel good about yourself, and you shouldn’t have to feel ashamed. It might take a while to get there, but I sincerely believe it’s possible and I hope you find a way to start moving towards it. 

Hopefully this was helpful, and remember that you can send us anything. You’re not too much for us.

-Becca