#question yourself

[forcemascpropaganda]

hi. i'm the anon who sent that hate ask a while back and then apologized.

i don't know why i'm sending you this.

i'm not trans (because it's all hypothetical and i won't do anything about it) but i think maybe if i lived in a better world i would transition. i hate myself so much for this.

i think if i just give it more time i'll forget all about this whole deal. it's just a hocd-esque thing. i'll just move on with my life and remember it as a bad dream.

plenty of people started identifying as trans during the pandemic and then realized they're actually cis when things opened back up. i started a few years before that, but it's pretty much the same thing. it's normal. they live normal lives now and so can i.

i just ended up with these feelings because i've been chronically online since i was a pre-teen. it's all just stupid internet stuff. it doesn't get to actually have an effect on my life.

it's all a bad dream.

Hi, welcome back, happy to see you !

First, I don’t especially want you to transition, but I want you to be in peace with your gender and it doesn’t seem to be the case.

Plenty of people started identifying as trans during the pandemic and realized they‘re cis after it ? Well, I never looked into it, so I‘m going to believe you. But it doesn’t seem to be your case. You started before the pandemic and you’re still struggling with that.

You also seem to make the argument that you are in a specific social context (chronically online since pre-teen) that cause your gender struggles, like all those people who got back to being cisgender after the pandemic where only trans because of the specific social context of the pandemic and the lockdown.

Even if I take all that at face value, it doesn’t work. Those people live cis lives now because the contexte that « made them trans » was temporary. Is your context of being chronically online going to change ? Do you want it to change ? If being chronically online is part of your life, and being chronically online is what make you want to transition, then it isn’t going to change.

How long will you accept to live in a bad dream ? Say you started feeling this way just before the pandemic (~ end of 2019), it’s been at least 6 years. Isn’t it a little too long for something that’s just going to pass ? Don’t you want to live for yourself rather than for the idea of a normal life ?

You can’t just run from your feelings and let them ruin your life ad vitam eternam.

I‘m sorry the world isn’t a place that let you transition with the joy and peace you deserve.

You can take step toward a more masculine apparence without explaining anything to anyone or committing to a transition.

Also, more based on our previous interactions but : wanting to transition, being masc, being a man… nothing of that make you evil, bad or wrong. No identity can define your morality. It’s your actions and how you treat others that can.

[reality-detective]

"If you control the food, you control the people. That's ultimately the end goal." 👀

All around the world, unelected globalist bodies like the UN and WEF are waging war against farmers, in an attempt to seize control of the global food supply, under the banner of UN Agenda 2030.

Are You Prepared? 🤔

[pagestohearts]

"Musicals aren't realistic." Valid point!

But, and I mean this genuinely, because it seems sensitive - have you considered that fiction isn't realistic? There's a realism genre. Is that the only genre you like? If so, go on! If not, are you sure the realism is your complaint, or maybe just something you thought of that made sense to explain how you felt? It's possible that musicals make you feel embarrassed, or ashamed. Or maybe anxious, or uncomfortable, or dismissive. Maybe something else completely. That's okay, it probably isn't your fault - we all have emotional associations we don't understand and might reflexively explain away or avoid. But consider that something in your past made you feel that self-expression has to meet certain criteria to be praiseworthy. Does that fit your worldview? Does art need to be realistic? Or do you think you might be able to confront whatever feelings come up and learn to appreciate it instead of dismissing/avoiding? I hope you consider. If not, it's alright. But next time you want to say it "isn't realistic", try to remember whatever dragon movie or silly-physics cartoon or futuristic action you enjoyed last and try to think of a better explanation.

[the-ephemeral-ethereal]

One should bring this question to bear on all one's desires: what will happen to me if what is sought by desire is achieved, and what will happen if it is not?

Vatican Saying 71 by Epicurus

[ahb-writes]

Ryuuzou Takehara

(from Xam'd: Lost Memories)

[jotunvali02]

Uuuuughhh.

For the last time, NO I won’t reblog your so-called mandatory post to “prove” I’ve never done this or that nasty thing.

I don’t have anything to “prove”, espcially not to judgemental, purtity-obsessed people I've never met and who will never meet me.

1: I’ve certainly done not very pretty things earlier in my life and I won’t lie about it just to please people I don’t know. And even so, even if I meet your criteria, bragging about how I’ve never cyber-harassed anyone (which is true) sounds so terribly narcissistic, so self-centered and so f*ing arrogant! Like “hey look, I’m a good, pure, immaculate, superior being, so much better than you, especially if you didn’t reblog like me!”. Jeez. 

2: No, I’ve never harassed anyone, why would you care? No, you’ve never harassed anyone either, why would I care? I don’t care about your life, so why would you care about mine? Besides, if you need to publicly brag how you’ve never done anything wrong in your life, that means you must feel guilty about something. Only liars need to repeat and to brag about how they’re telling the truth.

3: I’m grown-up enough to know a minimum of myself, to know what I defend and believe in without feeling the crave to “prove” it to people I don’t know, people who praise an inexistent, illusional purity (purity do NOT and will never exist, stop deliring plz), who praise the hate of thy neighbor and praise revenge all the while asserting out loud they’re in favor of love and inclusion. If you like love and inclusion, then my ass is crepe paper.

It’s not because I don’t reblog your shite that it means I’m an awful racist or homophobic. I can be racist and still  reblog your post either way. Just as I can be not racist and still dismiss your post. Cause Jeez, racism, cyber-harassment, and other kinds of oppressions are NOT about reblogging or not reblogging.

For Heaven’s sake.

[reecedarlene]

I think I ofren assume people expect the worst out of me, which results in me also expecting the worst out of me.

And when you expect the worst of yourself, you question your own intentions every time.