#radq rant

[zanemaxxing]

i need people to be more okay with transharmfuls being nice. being fun. being whimsical. liking cute things. being good people. caring for others.

being transharmful isnt always towards everyone around you. we can love people too. we can be affectionate and kind and loving just as much as everyone else.

and we are just as deserving of love and affection as transharmed or other transid users. not all of us are big scary standoffish people.

[theslenderversesystem]

I hate grades and expectations about them. Your IQ shouldn't be based off of them. What college/school/work you go to afterwards shouldn't be based off that. I absolutely hate how you're expecting to get Cs, Bs, As, etc when you never had an interest in that topic. I sincerely love learning bur when it comes to things I'm forced to everyday for 7 hours straight? I'm exhausted, by time I'm at my math job I'm exhausted and I simply don't want to work anymore because as much as I love learning, I don't want to be overworked and unfortunately for us, it's easily done.

Grades shouldn't exist if I'm being honest. The entire reason why I'm about to fail multiple of our classes is because we're almost having anxiety attacks during them because, if you didn't know, inducing a bad fear in someone purposeful or not, hurts them. We get lightheaded, sometimes have delusions spike up, and in general feel like we're about to pass out. Do you sincerely expect us to work when that's going on? No. And for the other classes, we're dyslexic and we're not going to read block texts for a class which we know we won't understand shit after we read it because we struggle heavily with block texts. How the hell are we expected to get good grades when we have multiple things conflicting that?

I simply think that grades shouldn't matter as much as they do.

[valentinoofficial]

Haii ! ! ! The Bringer of Happiness wants to know how Alastor's week has been ! ! ! Or the collective's week ! ! Beau doesn't mind hehe :)

Why, hello there! Thank you! I really appreciate it. My week has been... well, complicated. Forgive me for the rant.

I thought about making my own blog, but I don't know what I'd post... Stolas's and Fizz's blogs are kind of quiet now, and so is Val's since we have low motivation...

I saw Scream 7 yesterday, and it was fairly good. It was definitely better than the last movie. The reveal was a little disappointing, but other than that, the movie was great. I'm likely going to watch the other Scream movies again, as it's been a while for me...

I deeply miss my friends as well... sourcemates, I mean. I miss Lucifer, although I have a strong relationship since he's one of my headmates, it's not really the same... Vox, everyone.

I also need to clean our room and organize some things... plan out our day. I'm thinking about moving our Simply Plural stuff to Notion... We got put on new medication after we got out of the ward, so we'll see how that treats us. I'm trying to grow out the body's fingernails, as we have a bad habit of biting them. They've gotten pretty long, it's nice, we didn't bite them as much in the ward due to fear of germs.

Alas, thank you for listening to little old me ramble. :)

[princesspuppypony]

Angel-Chan is so tired.... Rantz below. ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ )

The internet went down, so I went to go take me a shower And ended up crying in the shower because of dysmorphia and the state of the world.... again. But I was hoping it would be back when I got out, so I could go back to mindlessly playing DBD to not form a thought again. Just for me to find out that it's down because we can't afford to pay the bill ..... again! (Smol context, I'm too disabled to work, and Mommy is also disabled so it's hard for them to work with how absolutely destroyed the world is. Especially for disabled folks. So we've been in bad poverty for a while) But the thing is, Mommy finally got a nice work at home job. Aka a job... online.... and its starts on two days. Best way to lose your job is to just be like "hey missing the first day because the thing I need to be stable isn't stable teehee" So I had to call and ask my dad to help us pay it. Which he did, because he's nice like that. And it's all handled now, but I'm just so tired now from being soooo stressed. I even ended up SHing some and I hate that literally just cause it upsets Mommy so much. I don't mean to, but when I'm stressed I will hit myself so I don't spiral into a hyperventilating mess. I've just in gen been a wreck mental wise. Mommy has a job and that's great, but now that's a big change to my life and my tisim is mad about it. Also I'm going to be sosososososoooo lonely (╥﹏╥) I spend A L L of my time with them, and basically with no one else, so when she's gone for hours and hours I'm going to be completely alone.... Things have just been so rough, and I just want everything to work out finally. Angel-Chan just wants a break that last longer than the hard things for once....

[theslenderversesystem]

If I see another fucking anti-radqueer say radqueers need professional help I'm literally going to go fucking more insane than I am (I identify as insane)

What the fuck do you mean I need professional help because of a goddamn stance? Especially since you don't know what radqueers are IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I need professional help because I'm mentally ill NOT MY FUCKING STANCE. And no I'm want professional help so I won't get it. i don't care what you fucking think I need, learn shit before you FUCKING SAY THAT.

Please stop treating professional help as a fucking cure too. I can fucking promise you that it doesn't always fucking help AND hasn't helped us at all.

I'm not sorry for the usage of caps, I'm raging (bpd rage) so I'm not going to apologize because antis aren't even trying to learn from what I've seen and I'm not going to be patient. ( No I didn't harass anyone, I simply blocked them but I needed to get this out of me )

[violetbloodtrinity]

How THE FUCK can people who use slurs AS SLURS consider themselves radqueer?

Genuine question. If you are intentionally, actively being a cisbigot, why do you consider yourself radqueer?