Jan 20
I haven't been writing at ALL lately. Well, nothing "serious". Maybe I need to consume some new media for fanfic inspiration...
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I haven't been writing at ALL lately. Well, nothing "serious". Maybe I need to consume some new media for fanfic inspiration...
when i write, it's nearly always 'method-writing' - getting into my character's head and feeling what they feel. which is good and bad. in some ways it's great and means my characters are always surprising me. but also, with how much i like to torture my characters, it's...a lot. sitting with their feelings of emptiness, hate, jealousy, overwhelm, or despair. feeling my heart physically race or my stomach twist as a write a scene. i wonder if becoming them is, in some ways, changing me
if i could just figure out how to CONTROL my random boosts of extreme inspiration and productivity i could probably do great things. alas im stuck being a bump on a log 95% of the time and a mad scientist the other 5%
As a US citizen with immigrant (also citizen) parents...what on earth is happening to this country...i can't anymore
i think the heart of a lot of my writing is actually love and connection, but in a twisted way where love is revealing and destabilizing but the characters still can't stop, and where connection is a weapon and a liability but happens despite our better judgment, and we learn that we wouldn't have it any other way. Like being burned alive and liking it
why is it that every time i write smut it turns into a deep, trauma-informed emotional powder-keg that forces my characters to confront their inner contradictions
i totally forgot about the flirtatious dynamic between Yuri and Kaufman and now i'm suddenly intrigued
It occurred to me that all my zelloyd fics have something in common - them being pushed into coming to terms with being more than friends for the first time, whether wholesomely by Zelos' butler or...less wholesomely by their own desires. Maybe I should write some established-relationship fluff for once!