Ya know. Sometimes I think i'm subconsciously faking. As I am ok with unplanned days where I spontaneously do things. Sure that is basically going to the same 4 spots I love but that is still spontaneous.
I am ok with loud noises alot of times especially at the arcade or movies when I feel like a movie [wich is almost never]
I don't exactly "stim" I rock or bounce my leg but if I think about staying still I can without discomfort.
My parents never thought I was anything but nurotypical.
And man this all fucks me up.