#rkxeve

[rkjinwook]

these days, i...

 adore you, sings jinwook under his breath. i adore you, i adore you, enough to get dizzy. the sheet of lyrics is crumpled between his fingers, his own parts highlighted in a pink so bright it almost stung his eyes when he first saw it. a few weeks later, the text is faded beneath the splash of color and in the seams of the page’s folds.

he’s in charge of some catchy chorus lines this time around, and as much as he dislikes the air of competition surrounding that sort of thing, it feels good - the parts are comfortable, and they fit him, and the center point dance that comes along with it is bright and dynamic, in a way that has quickly become convex’s own style, if he’s allowed to say so himself. he likes the way the chords shift minor at the end of the chorus, and he likes that the dance team has snuck in so many playful hidden bits of choreography, even if the song won’t see the light of a music show stage. he likes the idea of releasing a music video as an anniversary fan gift. all things considered, jinwook should adore it.

he sets the lyrics down and sets his fingers against the studio keyboard, absently hitting a few chords from the bridge. he should be just as enthusiastic about the amount of downtime that has come to the group between promotion cycles, but lately he’s been aching for more schedules to take his mind off things. after recovering from comeback promotions in may, jinwook had thrown himself into the vlive opportunities that came their way, but that was only once a week. the rest of their practice schedules had been mostly mindless routine, and jinwook would’ve appreciated the familiarity more if his personal life hadn’t been falling apart at the same time. he’d finally gotten the extra independent study and studio time he’d been missing, but mostly, when he’d tried to write, it’d been an unpleasant, pessimistic mess and not like convex’s bright image at all.

it’s never been jinwook’s personal style, either, to feel so listless in his happy place. he catches himself frowning at the blank wall, and he’d come here to work his parts, but he opens the bench and digs out a book of old sheet music instead - anything that won’t take the innocent lyrics i’ll sing you, and twist them into memories of a song he’d written himself, three years ago, in a tone just as adoring.

[seulgirk]

Got You!

@rkxeve

When Seulgi had first come to Sphere, she remembered quite well the welcome she received by the trainees, but perhaps the most memorable one had been from Eve.  The other girl had ended up essentially hugging Seulgi until the two of them had ended up on the floor in a sort of slow-motion tackle that the other had done to her.  It was very memorable and one of her most fond moments in Sphere.

That being said, it seems like the two had barely seen each other lately, so Seulgi made it her mission to try and track down her sunbae.  Once she spots her, she decided to get her “revenge” walking up to her and threw her arms around her in a hug.  “Helloooooo~” she coos, leaning onto the other trainee, laughing slightly as she wraps her arms around her, giving her a little squeeze.  “You’ve been avoiding me! I thought we had something special!” she smiles. 

[rksora]

it makes my heart explode

          ━━━━━━━━━━━         @rkxeve ◞  ❤

belatedly, jiwon realizes ... most of the girls are far above her caliber of expertise. while it was something she had come already knowing, it was only when she finally was faced with the girls who she’d be practicing with during the month, did it hit her like a train going full speed ahead. and there was no brake to this horror. it would continue to fill her until all the introductions are done and she’s but a small little bunny, wracked with nerves and feelings of self-doubt once more. 

not only would this be her first evaluation, she was doing it with girls she not only didn’t know, they were far more qualified -- jiwon already knew she was going to let them down. and in that instant, she knew she had made a mistake agreeing to join. they were going to be evaluated for their skill, criticized by the harmony of the group, to the very skill each member possessed and jiwon knew that she was not on par with the other’s. it was depressing, but true -- and unfortunately, it was written all over her face as she agonized over it after the first hour of practice.

“ugh, this was a mistake.” she mumbles to herself, as her fingers pull long blonde tendrils into a ponytail.

[rkrachel]

fall away-;

@rkxeve

there’s been a chill in the air for quite some time now, and though she’s usually rather seasonal with her wardrobe, there’s a lot left to be accounted for- particularly a lot of old sweaters that rachel either doesn’t want anymore, or doesn’t fit. Her first thought instead is to offer them to eve, who hopefully won’t see it as anything negative. 

“eve~” she singsongs one particularly cold morning, hooking arms with the younger as they walk to their next destination after she’s caught up. “so i was going through a lot of my stuff, and i’ve got... a lot of warm clothes that i thought you might want.” she grins, remembering how eve had commented before about liking her style, and eager to see the grin on her friend’s face. “nothing is wrong with them, they’re just ones that i don’t really wear anymore, and i think a few are ones that you like too. do you want to come look during free time today?” she laughs, “i swear to god i have way too many. i should have luna send some back to her siblings too, huh?”

[rksona]

★ — don’t believe ;

@rkxeve

outgoing → eevee 💕 ➟ hey... are you busy? ➟ i miss you ➟ if you are, it’s totally okay!! ➟ i would’ve texted you anyway ➟ because, like i said... i miss you

[rklandon]

░▐ ★_moonlight、

《 ★ rkxeve 》yixing had been biased when watching the third season of the mgas. some of the coaches being friends of friends, a direct connection that guided his preferences but it doesn’t top that two of his best friends were contestants. both in different companies and under different coaches, trainees who had made it because of previous seasons and during the coach performances with their mvp, it was clear why. he remembers how beautiful jinwook and eve’s performance was, how they looked as if they were being blessed with sunshine, kissed by moonlight. evocation that he’s not capable of when dancing, not in the same capacity. he’s more prone to popping and locking, to having control of his body and its movements, but that kind of performance? they flowed like water. 

but that’s not what he’s there to ask about. what he wants to know is more difficult than that. what he wants to say is weird for him to say and he almost doesn’t. he isn’t sure he wants an answer but there’s not many people he could ask and there isn’t many people who would know. from the outside looking in, eve is one of the least heard-from female trainees, but he’s aware she knows more than expected so he speaks and he makes it quick, acting too awkward in front of his friend’s girlfriend. “hey eve... what... do you think of the group?” everyone knows they’re not to share details but yixing doesn’t think jinwook wouldn’t tell her what’s been going on. “of everyone’s posittions.” 

[kibumrk]

getting over it ;

after eve confronted him, kibum tried to change what he was doing. he doesn’t know what about her words made him finally get his shit together. maybe it was her mentioning of jinwook and rachel, and her clear concern and care for both of them. maybe it was her justified frustration with him for not appreciating this chance to get what everyone here wants more than anything. maybe it was just the determination and clear empathy in her expression and voice as she spoke, as she gave him a piece of her mind. 

maybe it was just her, and the way she stood there and confidently tore into a stranger, all for the sake of others. it made him realize a bit of what jinwook sees in her, and maybe she reminded him a bit too much of rachel. 

her words push him to notice his members -- to see the way they look at him in concern, to hear the worry laced into their words to him. he finds himself discussing the issue outright with jihoon without breaking down, and on a particularly bad night he remembers eve’s burning expression and accepts the helping hand woohyun extends. 

he spends the last week of the month still hurting, still missing home, but not wallowing in his own misery, as eve so aptly put it. he shares smiles with the other convex members. he joins in on an impromptu movie night. 

by this time of the month, he knows the dance to mansae forwards, backwards, and upside down. he could probably perform any position in his sleep, and he focuses on working with yixing to finalize the positions for everyone. he swallows his bitterness at yixing getting more lines than him, at him having the fewest of all of dance unit, despite him having trained the longest. he’s wallowed in it long enough -- it’s high time for him to get over himself and appreciate this for what it is: his debut. 

some days are still hard. he still finds himself feeling bitter and angry far more often than he’d like, but instead of isolating himself and drowning in those feelings, he accepts the support his members happily offer, having fun with them and helping them learn the choreography whenever they have trouble. it’s familiar, it’s distracting, and it’s fun -- he finds himself surprised by how much he trusts the members of convex already, even though he can count on two hands how many months he’s known most of them. 

he still feels bitter, still feels like he deserved more lines and more spotlight than he got, but none of that is the members’ fault. and he still misses rachel with an ache that leaves a painful hole in his heart, but slowly, so slowly, he can feel convex starting to fill that hole bit by bit. 

[rkpjy]

⭐️NOVA ENTERTAINMENT EVALUATION performing la la latch by pentatonix ft. eve, hyungwon, inho, jinyoung, luna & taeyeon march 2018

he knew he joined an already formed group when inho accepted him and at first he did feel out of place. he was the least experienced of the bunch when it came to evaluations and training, plus he had no idea who 95% of these trainees were. he only ever met hyungwon before, and talked to inho when he wanted into the team. the rest, he met during practice. had he known it would be this intimidating, he probably would have gone with more familiar faces, but part of being a trainee meant taking risks, and not always stick to what was comfortable.

he was assigned fewer parts and he did not mind. he knew his skills were enough but they were all seniors and so he didn’t expect to be thrown under the spotlight, nor did he necessarily want to either. he decided to take it as an opportunity to learn and observe, not having extensive knowledge about harmonization. he did get the hang of it rather quickly, his tone mixing with theirs in a beautiful manner. going acapella meant the only instrument they could rely on was their voice, and they had to be in complete harmony in order for it to sound good.

to say he was nervous on the day of the evaluation was an understatement; jinyoung was an enormous, walking ball of stress when he found himself in front of the coaches. all he wanted was to perform exactly as practiced, or even better, and not let the team down. he thought about his peers’ advice, trying to remember all of his cues, all of the vocalizations he needed to do. they had to be able to rely on him fully, as he would rely on them. jinyoung took a deep breath, glancing at the others once they started humming in unison to accompany taeyeon’s “la la la”s.

at that very moment, he felt like he was finally part of the team.