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My life has been one crazy event after another, and I know I havenât been online lately, much less posting, but I swear Iâve been spending quite literally every waking moment that I have working on FLUttering Hearts, and later today Iâll have a bunch of preview updates to post for everyone interested~
As a lil treat for waiting so patiently for my dumb lil snz game, pls enjoy a rainy, wet and snzy Sven to hold ya over~
Summary: When Elex takes a dangerous job out of town, he promises itâll only be two daysâjust enough to pay the bills and get back home. But when S7en starts feeling under the weather, old fears rise to the surface for both of them. Determined not to repeat their past mistakes, Elex makes S7en promise to keep him on video the whole time, refusing to let distance keep him from watching over the person who means everything to him. As hours turn into a tense waiting game, both of them are forced to confront how far theyâll go to protect each other, and what it really means to let someone in when things start falling apart. 7k words
The apartment was too quiet.
Elex could feel itâthe tension humming beneath the stillness, the weight of all the things they werenât saying pressing in like a slow, thick fog. He double-checked his bag for the fifth time, rolling his jaw tight as he mentally ticked through the checklist again. Gloves. Mask. Lockpick set. Spare blade. Burner phone. Backup charger.âšAll there. All ready.
But his stomach still felt wrong.
Behind him, S7en sat perched on the edge of the couch, hoodie sleeves balled into fists in his lap, orange ears flicking restlessly. He hadnât said much since Elex started packing. Not that S7en ever really did when he was pissedâbut tonight? It was worse.âšGuarded. Closed off.âšThe walls were already up.
"Youâre gonna miss the train if you keep checking that bag," S7en muttered, voice flat but tight around the edges. He didnât look up.
Elex swallowed down the bite of guilt that threatened to crawl up his throat.âšâIâm not gonna miss it,â he gritted quietly, yanking the zipper closed anyway. His hands flexed restlessly at his sides.âšâYou know I donât have a choice.â
That earned him a sharp breathâbarely a scoff, barely anythingâbut S7en finally stood, pacing toward the window without meeting Elexâs gaze.âš"Sure," S7en muttered under his breath. "No choice. Right."
The words werenât loud, but they hit like a punch.
Elexâs chest tightened. He ran a hand through his messy green hair, tugging at the roots in frustration.âšâLookââ His voice cracked and he started again.âšâLook, itâs two days. Thatâs it. Iâm in, Iâm out, I get paid. Youâll barely even notice Iâm gone.â
Lie.âšThey both knew it.
S7enâs jaw twitched as he turned slowly, orange eyes flicking up just long enough for Elex to see everything buried thereâfear, frustration, exhaustion. He crossed his arms over his chest like he was trying to hold himself together.
"You said that last time," S7en whispered. "And I almost ended up back in the fucking hospital while you were halfway across the city."
The words hung between them like a blade.
Elex flinched.âšâThatâs why youâre gonna stay on the line this time.â
S7enâs ears flattened halfway, lips twitching into a bitter smile. âI donât need a babysitter.â
âBullshit.ââšThe word shot out sharper than Elex meant it to, his throat burning as the panic heâd been trying to swallow all day started to crack through.âšâYouâve been sniffling all morning, and donât fucking lie about itâ I noticed.â
S7en shifted like he wanted to argue, like he wanted to throw his walls higher, but the way his nose twitched and the slight pink tinge around his watery eyes already gave him away. Elex knew that look. He knew it too fucking well.
âSoon as you get home,â Elex pushed, softer now, stepping closer.âšâI donât care how fine you think you are. You FaceTime me the second you walk through that door.â
S7en turned his head to the side, sharp teeth grinding together, but he didnât argue. He couldnât.
Elex let out a shaky breath, stepping in close enough to hook a finger under S7enâs chin, tipping his face up.âšTheir eyes locked.
âPromise me,â Elex whispered.âšâDonât make me come back to find you half-dead again.â
S7enâs throat bobbed with a swallow. His voice, when it came, was barely a breath.âšâ...Fine. I promise.â
But the badger could already see the lie swimming behind his stubborn, glassy eyes.
The promise didnât settle the tightness in Elexâs chest. Not even close.
He leaned his forehead against S7enâs for a breathâjust oneâand tried to memorize the way he smelled, the soft warmth of his skin, the faint scratch in his breath that was already too fucking familiar.
It felt like the last time all over again.
S7en had sworn he was fine back then, too.âšHad sworn he just needed to sleep it off.
And Elexâfucking idiotâhad believed him. Had left town on another job, chasing money that didnât feel worth shit the second he got that call from Rexar. The ER. The oxygen mask. S7en barely breathing, his voice so weak it didnât even sound like him when Elex finally made it back.
It had almost killed him, walking into that hospital room.âšAlmost broke him completely.
This job?âšThis time?âšHe couldnât fucking leave if something went wrong.âšNo sneaking out. No bailing early. No getting on the first train back.
He was stuck.âšAnd S7en knew it.âšThatâs why he was hiding behind that fake, tired smirk like he wasnât scared, like he wasnât building walls fast enough to crush them both.
Elex gritted his teeth, shoving his hands into his jacket pockets like it might keep them from shaking. He hated this.âšHe hated this.
âYouâre gonna answer me,â Elex breathed, pulling back enough to lock their eyes again. His voice dropped to something harderâlower, sharper.âšâI swear to fucking god, Sven, you better answer when I call you.â
S7enâs jaw clenched. His tail flicked once behind him.âšââŠI said I promise.â
Elex didnât believe him.âšNot really.
But he nodded anyway. Because what the fuck else could he do?
He stepped back. Grabbed his bag. Took one more look at the mess of teal and orange and stubbornness standing in front of him. S7en, with his arms crossed too tightly over his chest like he was holding himself together with nothing but sheer attitude. Ears half-flat, tail twitching just a little too much for someone who claimed they didnât care.
God, he wanted to stay.âšBut staying wouldnât pay rent. Staying wouldnât fill the fridge. Staying wouldnât fix shit.
So he turned, pulled open the door, and walked outââšwithout looking back.
S7en stood there for a long moment after the door clicked shut, throat burning in that quiet, empty way it always did after Elex left.âšHe let out a shaky breath, swiping his sleeve under his nose, ignoring how raw it already felt. Ignoring how damp his cheeks were starting to feel.
âGet it together, you dramatic little shit,â he muttered to himself under his breath, forcing his body to move before he sank into the floor.
He grabbed his phone, double-checked the address Elex had already sent him for the ride, and made his way downstairs. The cold outside hit like a slap, the humid air in the city making his head pound harder as he leaned against the front pillar of the old hotel.
He hated this part.âšWaiting.âšAlone.
He shoved his hands into his sleeves, curling them into fists, trying not to shiver too obviously. His ears twitched as he checked the app againâdriver four minutes away.
He sniffled softly, tipping his head back against the building behind him, feeling the weight settle in again like it always did when Elex wasnât there to fill the empty space.
It didnât take long for the car to pull up to the curb. A too-clean sedan with tinted windows and a driver that didnât bother to roll down the window until S7en approached.
âYou Sven?â the driver asked, not even looking up from his phone.
S7en clenched his jaw at the sound of his real name, not bothering to correct him.âšHe just nodded, muttered, âYeah,â under his breath, and slid into the back seat, curling against the door like it might keep him from spiraling.
The door clicked shut behind him.âšAnd just like thatââšHe was alone again.
The rideshare driver barely made it halfway down the street before S7en let out the breath heâd been holding.
His hand trembled a little as he slammed the apartment door shut behind him, sliding the lock into place with a soft click.
The moment he leaned back against the door, the warmth hit him like a freight train.âšGod, he was freezing. And sweating.âšPerfect fucking combination.
Peeling off his jacket, S7en grabbed his phone from his pocket, the screen lighting up with a text from Elex before he could even pull his shoes off.
Elex: Donât get comfortable. Call me. Now.
S7en rolled his eyes but opened the video call anyway, half-expecting Elex to already be pissed. He wasnât wrong.
The second the screen lit up with Elexâs face, that sharp, assessing stare was already waiting for him.âšLike he could see right through him.
S7en flopped onto the couch with an exaggerated groan, flipping the camera so Elex could see him propped against the armrest, throwing one arm dramatically over his forehead like he was some kind of tragic romance novel character.
âSee?â S7en rasped, forcing a crooked grin.âšâHome. Alive. You can stop having a stroke now.â
Elexâs expression didnât budge.âšHis jaw worked for a second, teeth grinding.âšââŠTake the hoodie off.â
S7en froze, trying not to let his smirk falter.
âWow. Straight to stripping, huh?ââšHe sniffled softly, scrubbing his wrist under his nose as he leaned back a little further into the cushions, ignoring the flicker of pressure already tightening in his sinuses.
He grabbed the game controller from the coffee table, propping the phone on the arm of the couch so Elex had a full view of his miserable, half-assed attempt at acting normal.
âIâm fine, El. Seriously.ââšHe coughed halfway through the sentence, quick and breathless, then cleared his throat like it didnât count.
Elex wasnât impressed.
But S7en didnât give him a second to argue.âšHe booted up one of their usual co-op games, thumbing through menus like it was just another normal night.âšAnother carefree, easy night.
It workedâfor about fifteen minutes.
S7enâs focus started slipping fast.âšHis breathing hitched more often, head dipping slightly as the pressure in his sinuses kept flaring, his vision starting to swim the longer he stared at the TV.
He dropped the controller with a soft thud, pressing the heels of his palms into his eyes as a low wave of nausea coiled in his gut.
Elexâs voice cut in, sharper now.âšâPause the game. Right now.â
S7en gritted his teeth, letting out a shaky laugh like it didnât matter, like he hadnât just lost every ounce of energy in the span of twenty minutes.
He leaned toward the phone, cheeks flushed, voice rough.âšââŠâm just tired.ââšA sniffle.âšA weak, crooked grin.âšâDonât start freaking out on me yet, Badger.â
S7en forced it out with a crooked grin, trying to drag some humor into his voice. It didnât land the way it usually did.âšNot when his voice sounded like itâd been dragged over broken glass. Not when he kept sniffling between words, trying not to make it obvious how much his chest hurt.
But Elex didnât so much as blink.âšDidnât even crack a smile.
He leaned in, filling the frame with that hard, razor-edged stare that S7en knew too well.âšThe stare that meant he was already on edge.âšThe stare that meant he already knew S7en was lying through his fucking teeth.
Elexâs voice dropped low, sharp and flat, like he was grinding the words out from the back of his throat.
âYouâre not hanging up. Got it?â
S7en flinched.âšNot enough for Elex to call him on it, but enough that his throat went tight.
He knew Elex meant it.âšKnew there wasnât a single part of that sentence that was up for debate.
So he nodded.âšNot a wordâjust the smallest, slowest nod.
After that, time felt like it unraveled.
The conversation slipped into quiet check-ins.âšS7en, still on the couch, head lolling back as his breathing grew wetter, shallower, more labored by the minute.
Elex stayed on the other end, watching like it was the only thing tethering him to the ground.âšLike if he blinked, S7en might vanish.
Minutes bled into hours.âšHours stretched like years.
And all Elex could do was sit there, silent and powerless, watching the cat slowly fall apart on the other side of a fucking screen.
S7en stayed slumped on the couch, the phone still propped up, the angle slightly crooked where he hadnât bothered to adjust it. Elex had memorized the frame by nowâthe edge of the coffee table, S7enâs arm curled under his head, the edge of his hoodie sleeve pressed to his mouth every time he coughed.
And he was coughing.âšA lot.
Elex muted himself as he moved through the shadows of the abandoned warehouse with the rest of his crew, checking in silently on the feed every few minutes, glancing down at the phone screen like it was tethering him to the ground.
âStill breathing?â Elex whispered once, barely audible through the comm in his ear.
S7en, half-lidded and flushed, gave him a tired thumbs-up, though the crackling sound of his breathing told a different story.
Elexâs jaw clenched so hard it felt like his teeth might crack. He barely caught the next command from his contact before snapping back to focus.
Hours passed like that.âšCheck the hallway. Look at the screen. Disable the alarm. Look at the screen.
Each glance gnawed a little more at his nerves, because every single check-in showed S7en looking worse.
At first it was just the sneezingâharsh, breathless snaps that bent him forward again and again.
Then the coughs came heavier, rougher, low in his chest.âšS7en would press the sleeve of his hoodie to his mouth, hunching forward like he was trying not to let Elex hear, like it made a difference.
But Elex heard everything.âšEvery sharp breath. Every wet hitch in his lungs.
And he was running out of ways to pretend this was still fine.
Elex pressed himself against a support beam in the back corridor of the warehouse, pulling his phone closer, muting the comm again.âšâS7en,â he whispered. âHey. Look at me.â
S7en blinked slowly, disoriented for a second like heâd forgotten the camera was still on. His voice was shaky when he spoke.
ââm fine⊠youâyou donât have to check every five minutes, LexâŠâ
But Elex could see the sheen of sweat breaking across his boyfriendâs forehead, could hear the strain in every breath, like every inhale was getting harder to pull in.
His throat tightened as the cold pit in his stomach spiked to full-blown panic.
âYouâre not fine,â Elex breathed, voice cracking for the first time all night.âšâDonât fucking do this again. Donât you dare lie to me again, Sven.â
On the couch, S7en winced, visibly shrinking in on himself, his ears pinning to his head, lips pressing tight like he was about to snap backâ
âbut instead, he just let out a soft, breathless cough and whispered,âšââŠIâm really trying, Lex.â
And just like that, Elex felt the ground shift under him.
His throat burned. He didnât even realize heâd stopped moving until one of his crew hissed his name over the comm, snapping him back to reality.
S7en was on the verge of nodding off, breath shallow against the crook of his arm. Elex could hear itâthe soft whistle at the top of every inhale, the way it caught before fully pulling through.
And thenââšâh-Hhh! HAHâtSCHhh!âhhâHDTschhâuh!âhh-uhhTsschhIEW!â
The sound cracked through the speaker, leaving S7en blinking dazedly, sniffling as he wiped at his face with the cuff of his hoodie.âšHe flopped back, half-smiling, voice scratchy as hell.
âMâfine⊠see? Better alreadyâŠââšHis voice was a mess, like sandpaper grinding on broken glass, but he forced a small laugh anyway, like it didnât physically hurt to talk.âšHe dragged the phone closer, giving Elex that same fake-ass grin heâd worn this morning.âšâSeriously, I thinkâhhuhhâŠ!âthink Iâm over the worst of itâŠâ
He trailed off, ducking into his arm again with another breathless, desperate-sounding sneeze.
His fist slammed into the nearby wall with a dull thud, barely catching himself from ripping his comm out entirely. He didnât care who heard him anymore.
âStop it.ââšElexâs voice cracked, raw and shaking.âšâJustâfuck, S7enâstop lying to me.â
S7en stiffened, blinking like heâd been slapped.
Elex sucked in a ragged breath, teeth sinking into his bottom lip until he tasted copper. His vision blurred for a second before he whispered, barely holding it togetherâ
âPlease⊠please donât lie to me. Not again.â
S7en looked down, his walls crumbling just a little. The fake grin flickered. His ears twitched low, curling into himself as another shaky cough rattled through him.
ââŠI didnât wanna make you worry.â
But Elex was already fucking drowning in it.
The badger shoved his back harder against the concrete wall, gripping the phone until his knuckles blanched. His pulse was hammering in his throat so loud it felt like it echoed in his skull.âšHe watched S7enâs face on the screenâwatched his eyelids flutter like they were too heavy to keep open, watched his breath hitch again, watched the way his shoulders curled in tighter and tighter.
S7enâs ears had flattened halfway, twitching with every shallow breath. His tail, usually restless and flicking with whatever emotion he tried to swallow, hung limp over the side of the couch, the tip barely curling toward his ankle.âšElex knew that posture.
He hated that he knew it.
And thenââšThe screen jostled.
S7en shifted, like he was trying to sit up, pushing weakly at the couch cushion. The phone wobbled, slipping off the armrest, landing at an awkward angle that barely showed S7enâs shoulder and part of his ear.âšElexâs stomach dropped.
âWaitâSven. Sven, stop. Stay downââ
But the only answer was the sound of S7en choking on a coughing fit, gasping like heâd just sprinted up six flights of stairs.
The phone clattered again, hitting the floor this time with a hollow thunk. Elex could barely see anythingâjust a blur of fabric and shaky movement.
He lost it.
âS7en! Fuckâpick up the phone! Pick it up!â
A rough, breathless laugh cut through the speaker, followed by another broken cough.
The phone shifted just enough to catch S7enâs flushed, exhausted face as he leaned over the edge of the couch, trying to reach for the phone again.âšHis ears were pinned flat, tail twitching onceâweak, unfocusedâbefore going still again.
Elex felt his throat close up.âšâNo youâre not,â he rasped.âšâYou canât fucking breathe.â
S7en flopped back onto the couch, lips parted, dragging air through his nose in shallow, uneven pulls, like even that felt like work.âšHe turned his face half toward the phone, his orange eyes glassy, heavy with something way too close to fear.
But the laugh came anywayââšSoft. Broken. Tired.
âShhhit⊠youâre gonna scare me worse than I already am if you keep yelling like thatâŠâ
And Elex, frozen on the other side of the screen, couldnât tell if he wanted to punch somethingâšâor fucking cry.
He pressed the phone so tight to his ear that the speaker cracked with static, like if he could just crush the distance between them, heâd somehow be there.âšHe wasnât.âšHe wasnât anywhere fucking close.
âOkay⊠okayâfuck, just⊠listen to me,â Elex breathed, pushing off the wall and starting to pace in tight circles, running his hand through his hair so hard he nearly ripped out a tuft of green.âšâBreathe with me, alright? You remember how I showed you last time?â
S7enâs glassy eyes fluttered back toward the phone, his lips trembling like even nodding took more energy than he had. His ears flicked once, tail barely twitching.
âCâmon, S7en. In through your noseâreal slow, yeah?â Elex coached, stepping toward a darkened corner of the warehouse, pressing his back to the wall again. He held up his own hand on the screen, counting out the rhythm with his fingers.
But S7en couldnât match him.
Every inhale caught halfway in his chest, breaking off into a rough, chest-deep cough that shook his whole body. He doubled over again, wheezing, tail curling in like a dying ember.âšEven the small, hitching gasp that usually came before his sneezes choked into another fit instead.
Elex panicked.âšHis voice shot up like a gunshot in the dark.
âInhaler, Svenânow. Go get it! Or check your oxygenâsomething! Move!â
But S7en just slumped further, head dropping against the back of the couch, too dizzy, too breathless, too gone to even try.âšHis orange eyes fluttered, unfocused, watery.
ââŠâm tryinâ,â S7en rasped out, voice shaking. âLex⊠I canâtâhhuhh⊠I canât fucking moveâŠâ
Elex felt the ground give out beneath him, heart slamming against his ribs so hard he thought it might shatter. He pressed the heel of his hand to his forehead, pacing faster, harder, words tearing out of his throat like they burned.
âPleaseâfuckâdonât do this again, Sven. Pleaseââ
But S7en had already started to go slack, barely keeping his head upright.
Elex had never felt more fucking helpless in his entire life.
He backed into the farthest corner of the warehouse, heart in his throat, phone pressed so close to his mouth that his lips brushed the edge of the speaker.
His pacing stalled. His breath hitched.
âFuck this,â he growled under his breath. His vision blurred, body trembling as panic clawed up his throat like acid. He pressed his fist against his temple, breathing sharp and fast. âIâI can leave. I donât give a shit. Iâll leave. Iâll tell them to shove their payoutââ
He ran a hand through his hair, clutching at the roots, staring at the frozen frame of S7en on his phone like it was the only thing anchoring him to the ground.âšS7en hadnât moved.
He lookedââšGod, he looked like he was fading in real time. Pale. Sweaty.âšBreath shaking in and out of parted lips, his ears twitching just barely, tail hanging completely limp off the couch like it didnât even belong to him anymore.
But S7en shifted, the faintest, fragile shake of his head making Elexâs stomach drop.
âDonâtââ S7enâs voice cracked, more air than sound, barely pushing past his lips. His chest hitched again like every word was a struggle. âLex⊠you⊠canât lose this⊠not⊠because of me againâŠâ
Elex slammed his fist into the wall, curling over like the breath had been knocked out of him.âš"Stop saying that," he ground out through clenched teeth, his voice trembling, cracking wide open.âš"Stop making me pick between you and anything else, because I fucking wonât."
But S7en just shook his head again, weakly, brokenly, eyes glistening with something Elex couldnât bear to see.âšHis breath came in short, shaky pulls, but the words still fell out, desperate and raw:
âStay⊠please justâ stay, Lex⊠donât lose this for me againâŠâ
Elex felt his throat lock up, biting down so hard on his tongue he could taste blood. His vision blurred with fury and helplessness all tangled together like a noose around his throat.
His next words came out like broken glass.
âYou think this job fucking matters more than you?ââšElex choked on the air, shaking his head hard.âš"I'd burn it all to the fucking ground if you asked me to."
But S7en didnât ask.âšS7en just kept breathingâragged, shallow, barely holding on.
And Elex couldnât do a fucking thing but watch.
S7enâs bottom lip started to tremble. Just a little at first. Barely there. Barely anything.
But then his ears sank low to his headâdefeated, trembling, not in frustration this time, but in something much smaller, much sharper. His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard, jaw twitching like he was trying to keep it together.
It didnât work.
A wet, shaky breath hitched in his chest.âšAnother.âšAnother.
And thenââšHe cracked.âšCompletely.
S7en curled in on himself, covering his face with both hands, shoulders shaking as a quiet, broken sob caught in his throat. His tail twitched weakly, curling up toward his stomach like he was trying to make himself disappear.
ââm sorry,â S7en rasped, voice so small it made Elexâs heart split in two. âIâm sâcoughâIâm so sorryââ
Elexâs legs gave out beneath him like someone had ripped the floor away. He sank down into the corner, knees pulled to his chest, phone gripped so tight his knuckles turned bone white.âšHis breath hitched once. Twice. His vision swam as he pressed the phone closer, like he could somehow crawl through the screen if he held it tight enough.
He didnât speak.âšCouldnât.
He just listened.âšListened to S7en break down, listened to the choked, exhausted sobs between every shallow breath, listened to the whistle of air that barely filled his lungs.
It felt like it stretched on forever.
Nothing in the warehouse moved.âšNothing outside the screen mattered.
Elex sat frozen on the cold floor, hands trembling, body locking down like if he let go, even for a second, S7en might just disappear.
Elex didnât know how long they stayed like thatâhim on the cold floor, S7en curled into the couch, both of them connected only by a flickering screen and the sound of struggling breath.
The silence started to crush him.
His throat burned with the words he always swallowed. The ones he shoved down and buried under jokes, or arguments, or sideways affection in the form of thrown snacks and lazy insults.
But not now.âšNow, everything was stripped down.
âSvenâŠâ he whispered, voice hoarse, breaking around the edges.
The screen flickered as S7en shifted slightly, just enough to peer out from behind his sleeve, eyes red and puffy, cheeks wet.
âIâm scared,â Elex said. Quiet. Steady. But broken in a way he hadnât let himself be in a long, long time.âšâI hate this. I hate being here. I hate not being able to touch you or hold you or fucking carry you to bed when you're like this.â
S7en blinked slowly, tears still slipping silently down his cheeks. His breath hitched again. Elex pressed on.
âI love you,â he said, like it hurt to say but would hurt more not to. âI donât say it enough, but I do. So fucking much it makes me stupid. It makes me stay on jobs like this just so I can keep us afloat, even when every bone in my body is telling me to run back to you.â
His voice cracked.
âI donât know how to sit here and watch you fall apart again. IâI canât do it. I canât just sit and watch you fade.â
There was silence on the other end of the line. Thenâ
âIâm scared too.â
S7enâs voice was barely a breath, choked and trembling.
âIâm scared, Lex. I donâtâŠâ He wiped at his face weakly with the sleeve of his hoodie. âI donât know how to do this alone anymore. I donât want to be strong right now. I donât want to beââ He broke off in a cough, then let out a soft sob. âI just want you here.â
Elex sucked in a breath like heâd been underwater. His chest felt like it might collapse from the pressure.
âI know, S7en. I know.â He leaned his forehead against the cold concrete wall, closing his eyes. âIâm gonna get there. I swear to god Iâm coming back the second I can. Iâll fucking teleport if I have to.â
S7en laughed, a broken little sound that sounded more like crying. âYou donât have that kind of magik, dumbass.â
âIâll figure it out,â Elex whispered, smiling through his own tears. âI swear on my life, Sven. Iâm coming back to you. As fast as I fucking can.â
And this time, S7en didnât argue. He just nodded, slow and shaky.
The cat shifted with a low, exhausted groan, curling tighter into himself on the couch until his knees pressed up to his chest. His tail flopped limply over his shins, twitching every few seconds like his body couldnât fully relax.
The phone slid a little against his hoodie but settled, propped up on his sternum, framing just enough of his flushed face for Elex to see how completely wrecked he looked.
S7enâs mouth hung open slightly as he breathedâslow, labored pulls of air through parted lips, his nose hopelessly stuffed. His breath hitched every now and then, almost catching on a soft snore, only to stutter out again with a damp-sounding sniffle that didnât clear a damn thing.
Elex bit down on his bottom lip, heart aching as he watched the scene through the grainy phone feed.âšGod, he looked so fucking small like this.âšTucked into the corner of the couch, hoodie sleeves swallowed over his hands, face half-buried in the throw pillow like he was trying to hide. His ears were still drooped, tail curling tighter as he shivered every so often, breathing shallow and damp with congestion.
Elex stayed frozen in place, curled up in the corner of the warehouse floor, staring down at the tiny window on his screen like it was the only thing in the world that mattered.
He watched every breath.
He counted them.
And slowlyâfinallyâS7enâs glassy eyes fluttered closed.
His breath stayed rough. Unsteady. But it kept coming.âšKept going.
Elex let out a breath of his own, shaky and wet, pressing his knuckles to his lips as he watched S7enâs chest rise and fall in slow, uneven rhythm.âšHe stayed like that for a long whileâjust watching, listening, not daring to look away.
And then, just as his throat threatened to lock up again, he whispered one last promise, barely audible against the darkness:
âIâm coming home. I swear Iâm coming home.â
He stared at the screen a moment longer before finally muting himself, curling tighter into the corner, and burying his face in his hands.
By some miracle, the job ended three hours early.
Elex didnât even wait for the all-clear. Didnât wait for payout. Didnât wait for the cleanup crew to sweep through and wrap the whole thing in a neat little bow.
The second the last mark hit the ground and the signal buzzed in his ear, he ran.
He ripped off his comm and bolted for the door, ignoring the shouts from the others behind him. Someone cursed after him, demanding he stick around to settle the job, but Elex didnât give a single shit.âšMoney could wait.
S7en couldnât.
By the time he threw himself into the driverâs seat of the borrowed car parked two blocks down, his hands were shaking so hard he nearly dropped his phone.
He unlocked it with his thumb, breathing sharp through clenched teeth as the still, dim image of S7enâs sleeping facefilled his screen again.
Still curled up on the couch.âšStill flushed.âšStill breathing.
Elex squeezed his eyes shut for half a second, then turned the key and floored it.
The night outside blurred past him in streaks of streetlight and empty highway, but all he could focus on was that tiny frame on his screen.
S7en hadnât moved much. His breathing stayed rough, wet, uneven, and every couple of minutes, Elex caught him shifting weakly, curling tighter, coughing softly in his sleep.
Every time S7en stirred, Elexâs stomach twisted tighter.
âCâmon⊠hang on, babe⊠Iâm almost there,â he whispered, glancing down again for the hundredth time, gripping the wheel like it might snap in his hands.
He couldnât stop checking.âšCouldnât stop making sure.âšCouldnât stop the fear crawling higher in his chest that the next time he looked, S7en might not beâ
No.âšNot this time.
Elexâs foot pressed harder on the gas, the car groaning under the strain as he tore through the night, heart hammering in sync with the rough, shallow breathing still filling his speakers.
âJust hang on,â Elex rasped again, voice cracking.
âIâm almost home.â
The moment the car skidded to a stop, Elex barely remembered shutting the door behind him before he was sprinting up the stairwell two at a time, phone clutched tight to his chest like it was still the only tether to S7enâs life.
The lock stuck on the first try. His hands shook too bad to fit the key in. He cursed under his breath, shoving harder until the door finally swung open.
âS7enâ!â
His bag hit the floor with a thud as he charged inside, breath ragged, head whipping toward the couch.
And there he was.âšExactly like the video.âšCurled up, shaking, eyes half-lidded and glazed with exhaustion.
S7en lifted his head with what little strength he had left, lips curling into the smallest, most stubborn fucking smile.
â...told you I was f-fideâŠâ
It came out so soft, like it took all his energy just to push it out. And right after, the words shattered into another wet, brutal coughing fit.
Elexâs chest caved in.âšHe dropped to his knees beside the couch, catching S7enâs trembling frame in his arms, holding him tight against his chest, cradling the back of his head.âšâShhâshhh⊠itâs okay⊠Iâm here, Sven, Iâm hereâŠâ
S7en barely stayed upright in his arms, breath hitching againâbuilding, stutteringâbefore his whole body tensed.
The fit ripped through him so fast, he barely had time to turn away, scrambling to twist as much as his weak body would let him, hiding his face behind both trembling hands. His ears pinned back, tail curling tight to his leg as his eyes darted wildly, flicking around the room in panic.
Elex could see it in his faceâthe way S7enâs panic cracked wide open as he choked on the last hitching breath, desperate to find anything to catch the mess.
âShitâwait, I got youâ!â
Elex shot up, snatching the box of tissues off the coffee table. He pressed them gently to S7enâs hands, guiding them to his face just as another harsh, miserable sneeze tore through him.
âHhh-HHâdtschhHhh!!âhhâŠf-fffffâckâŠâ
Elex didnât stop there.âšHe dived for the drawer, yanking it open with one hand, fingers shaking as they closed around S7enâs inhaler.
He dropped back down in front of him, cupping S7enâs flushed cheeks, forcing their eyes to meet.
Elex gently pressed the inhaler into S7enâs trembling fingers, trying to catch his gaze, but S7en turned his face away, stubborn jaw clenched tight.
Elexâs heart twisted.
âCâmon, Sven. You need it.â Elex kept his voice soft, coaxing, even though every instinct in him wanted to snap, to yell that this wasnât a fucking game.
But S7en shook his head, barely, weakly pushing the inhaler away.âšââM fide⊠justâdeed a biduteâŠâ His voice cracked, raw and breathless, his words falling apart on the end.
Elex sucked in a sharp breath through his teeth.âšâNo. Youâre not fine. Stop saying that.â
He reached again, but S7en pulled back, ears flattened low, tail flicking once in a feeble, defensive jerk.
âI said Iâve got it,â S7en rasped, panic flashing in his glassy orange eyes. His arms curled tight around his middle, like he could physically shield himself from Elexâs worry.âšâI dodâtââ His voice broke off into another wet, rattling cough, shoulders curling in tighter, ears trembling.
Elex gritted his teeth, biting back the frustration rising in his throat.âšâSven⊠please donât do this again. You donât have to fight me.ââšHis voice cracked, raw and low.âšâLet me help you.â
For a beat, S7en stayed locked up tightâshaking, tense, still trying to build walls with nothing left to hold them up.
And then, finally, like all the fight drained out of him at once, S7enâs hands loosened, his breath hitching on a quiet, broken sound that was way too close to a sob.
ââŠIâ I cadât do this right dow, Lex⊠Iâbâ Iâb so fugkiâg tired of deediâg help.â
Elexâs chest caved in.âšHe leaned in slowly, cupping S7enâs flushed cheek, tilting his face back toward him.
âI know,â Elex whispered. âI know, babe. But you donât have to do it alone. Youâve got me. Youâve always got me.â
S7enâs face crumpled, breath hitching again.âšThis time, when Elex pressed the inhaler into his hands, S7en didnât push him away.
He leaned forward instead, curling into Elexâs chest, letting the tension bleed out of his trembling body as he took the first shaky pull of medicine.
Elex stayed there on the floor, arms wrapped tight around S7enâs shivering frame, afraid to move, afraid to break the moment.
S7en never let him this close. Not like this.
Sure, they touched. They joked. They clung to each other during fights or after bad dreams.âšBut this?âšThis quiet, broken letting go?âšElex could count on one hand how many times S7en had let himself sink into him like thisâcompletely unguarded, no snark, no deflection, no fight left to give.
Elex let his nose press into the mess of damp teal hair, breathing slow through his mouth like he could somehow soak up the closeness and tuck it somewhere deep where nothing could tear it away.
He felt S7enâs weight shift slightly, chest hitching again like he might start coughingâbut instead, his breath snagged, body tensing with another quick, sharp build-up.
âHhâhuhHâTSSCHhhhu!!â
The sneeze ripped out of him, completely unrestrained, muffled right against Elexâs chest.
Elex sucked in a breath through his teeth, surprised by the sudden burst of wet heat against his hoodie. His body tensed on reflex, just for a second.
S7en froze.
He stiffened like heâd been slapped, immediately trying to shrink back, the tips of his ears burning with embarrassment. His tail gave the weakest flick, curling tighter to his side as his throat bobbed with a swallowed breath.
ââŠS-sorryâŠâ S7en rasped, voice small and sharp with something raw, already starting to pull away.
Elexâs chest twisted hard.
âWaitânonono, heyâno,â Elex rushed, cupping the back of S7enâs head to keep him from shrinking any further. âThatâs notâfuck, babe, thatâs not what Iââ
S7en kept his eyes down, blinking hard, walls starting to slide back up.
Elex felt the panic rise in his throat again, tightening around his voice.
âI justâyou startled me, thatâs all, I swear.â He pressed their foreheads together, voice shaking.âšâI didnât care. I donât care. Iâm just glad youâre still breathing, you hear me?â
S7en hesitated, still flushed, still glassy-eyed. But his body softened just a little, breath catching in his throat again as he leaned back into Elexâs chest, sniffling softly.
ââŠtoo tired to fight you adywayâŠâ S7en whispered hoarsely.
Elex let out the smallest laugh, relief flooding his chest, and held him even closer.âšâGood.ââšHe pressed another kiss to S7enâs temple.âšâBecause Iâm not fucking letting go.â
Elex couldâve stayed right thereâpressed to the floor with S7en in his armsâfor the rest of his life if the universe would let him. But reality still had claws, and S7enâs breathing still rasped too shallow, too tight, not nearly steady enough.
Elex shifted slightly, trying not to disturb him too much. But S7en startled awake anyway, sucking in too fast and immediately coughing into his sleeve, body curling forward weakly.
âEasy⊠easy, babeâŠâ Elex soothed, already moving to grab the nebulizer from the drawer.âšHe worked quickly, slotting the canister into place, filling it up with trembling hands before turning back toward the couch.
S7en blinked blearily, half-conscious, ears low and drooping. The second he saw Elex holding the mask out, he groaned, flopping back against the cushions like a stubborn child.
ââŠdodât wadda do this shit todightâŠâ he rasped, voice thick and petulant.
Elex arched a brow, giving him a look that said donât start with me right now.
S7en sighed loud and dramatic, taking the mask with another tired grumble. He pulled the strap over his head, but as always, it snagged on his ear, folding it halfway down.
Elexâs mouth twitchedânot quite a smile, but something close.âšSomething warm.
S7en squinted through the haze, catching the shift in Elexâs face.
ââŠshut upâŠâ he mumbled through the mask, already assuming he was being teased.
But Elex just leaned in, smoothing the tangled mess of teal and orange hair from S7enâs damp forehead, pressing his palm softly to his cheek.
âIâm not laughing at you, Sven,â Elex whispered, thumb stroking just under S7enâs eye. âI just love you. Even your dumb ear.â
S7en let out a breathy, reluctant hum, the tension bleeding out of his shoulders as he let Elex guide him back down, curling into his chest again.
Elex gathered him close, feeling the soft curls of mist drift up past his cheek with every shaky exhale through the mask.âšHis arms locked around S7enâs frame like he could keep every piece of him safe with just his grip alone.
They stayed there on the floor together, S7en hooked up to the nebulizer, Elex rocking him gently, holding him like he never wanted to let go.
And when the hum of the machine finally settled into the silence of the room, Elex pressed his lips to S7enâs temple, voice barely more than a breath.
âNext timeâŠââšHe swallowed thickly, closing his eyes.
âYouâre coming with me⊠or Iâm not going at all.â
Oooo could we maybe get a(nother) follow up to the S7en fic with Elex catching S7en's sickness and hiding it so he doesn't get his bf all worked up and worried because his lungs are still a little sensitive?
Hey there Nonny!
Be careful what you wish forâŠ. đ the fluff in this one makes me melt I cannot lie đ«
Asphyxia (pt 3)
(Oxygen, or part 1 can be found here, and Breathless, Again or part 2 can be found here)
written and illustrated by: allergeez âš @thekinkyleopard owns Elex đ€
Summary: Elex wakes up knowing something is wrong. His body is sluggish with fever, his head pounding, but none of that mattersâbecause S7en is finally home. Finally safe.
After everything heâs been through, the last thing Elex wants is to burden him with something as insignificant as a cold. So he does what he does best: he pushes through it. He hides the exhaustion, swallows every cough, and forces himself to act normal. But sickness isnât something you can just will away.
As his condition worsens, it becomes harder to keep up the actâespecially with someone as observant as S7en. The problem is, S7en has only just begun to recover, and if he gets sick again, Elex isnât sure he could live with himself.
What starts as a stubborn attempt to tough it out spirals into something heavierâfear, control, guiltâemotions Elex doesnât want to acknowledge but canât seem to escape. But S7en isnât an idiot, and the more Elex pulls away, the more determined he becomes to figure out whatâs wrong.
And when he does?
Well, Elex might not be the only one whoâs pissed. 7.2k words
Content Warnings!:
Illness & fever (coughing, congestion, sneezing, general flu-like symptoms)
Mild medical anxiety & contamination fears (hand-washing, mild germophobia, references to past illness trauma)
Emotional suppression & avoidance (characters struggling to ask for/accept help)
Mild language (casual swearing)
Physical exhaustion & overexertion
Elex knew from the second he woke up that something was wrong.
His head throbbed in a slow, punishing rhythm, a heavy weight pressing behind his eyes like a vice tightening inch by inch. His limbs felt sluggish, his body leaden, overheatedâbut not in the comfortable, lazy way that came with sleeping too long. No, this was different. This was wrong.
Still, he forced himself upright, biting back a low groan as the dull ache in his throat flared into something sharp and raw. His skin prickled with fever, the air in their apartment thick and stifling, but there was no time for this. No room for it. Not now.
Not after everything S7en had just been through.
Elex scrubbed a hand down his face, exhaling slowly, forcing his expression into something neutral before glancing to the other side of the bed. S7en was still asleep, his teal and orange hair a mess against the pillow, his breathing shallow but steady. No more oxygen masks. No more hospital rooms. Just him, here, home, safe.
And there was no way in hell Elex was about to let him worry about this.
So he swallowed against the rawness in his throat, pushed past the fatigue clawing at his limbs, and carefullyâcarefullyâslipped out of bed without a sound.
His body screamed at him the second his feet hit the floor. A fresh wave of dizziness crashed into him, nausea twisting in his gut, but he gritted his teeth and powered through. Mind over matter. Heâd been through worse.
S7en stirred slightly but didnât wake.
Good.
The last thing he needed was the cat noticing.
Because S7en, stubborn as he was, had barely recovered. His lungs were still weak, his body still too frail, and if he caught even a whiff of Elex being sick, there would be no stopping him. Heâd hover, fuss, get in his own damn head about it, and the last thing Elex wanted was for him to stress over him when he should have been focusing on himself.
So Elex shoved it down. The ache in his chest, the burning tickle creeping into his sinuses, the sharp stutter of his breathâhe ignored it. He was fine. Heâd be fine.
He just had to make sure S7en never found out.
And if that meant hiding every cough behind a clenched jaw, stifling every sneeze into the fabric of his hoodie, and downing enough painkillers to pretend his fever wasnât steadily climbing?
So be it.
The first real warning sign came when Elex went to make coffee.
He had barely poured water into the machine when a violent shiver ripped through him, sending ice-cold prickles down the length of his spine. The air in the kitchen suddenly felt too thin, the light from the window too sharp, slicing into his headache like a knife. He braced himself against the counter, swallowing hard as his stomach twisted, fever heat coiling tight in his chest.
No. No, no, no. Not now. Not today.
He sucked in a slow, measured breath, rolling his shoulders, willing himself back into control. Heâd dealt with worse. This was nothing. Just a little exhaustion, a little lingering chill from sleeping without a blanket. He just needed coffee. Caffeine would fix this.
Exceptâ
His nose twitched.
The tickle was sudden, sharp, rising out of nowhere like a spark catching dry grass, flaring hot and fast. His breath hitchedâonce, twiceâhis head snapping forward before he could fight it.
The force of them knocked him forward, rattling in his chest, leaving his vision swimming and his throat burning like heâd just swallowed glass. He barely had time to straighten before another overtook him, tearing from deep in his lungsâ
âhdtâUSSCHHIEWW!!!â
Shit.
The sound echoed through the apartment, too loud, too obvious. His stomach dropped as he held perfectly still, pulse thudding in his ears, waiting for movement from the bedroom.
Nothing.
No footsteps. No sleepy voice calling his name.
S7en was still asleep.
Elex exhaled slowly, pressing the heel of his hand to his forehead, feeling the fever radiating under his skin. He hated this. The congestion, the heat, the way his nose itched relentlessly, teasing him with another sneeze he refused to let out.
And worst of all? The knowledge that he was contaminated.
The very thought made his skin crawl. He could already feel it, the invisible filth clinging to his skin, coating his throat, tainting the air around him. He needed to shower. He needed to scrub his hands, burn his hoodie, fumigate the entire apartmentâ
But he couldnât.
Because the second he acted too clean, too frantic about disinfecting everything in sight, S7en would know.
He was already walking a razorâs edge, trying to act normal while his body actively worked against him. If he so much as glanced at a bottle of disinfectant too long, S7en would sniff him out like the suspicious little feline bastard he was.
No. He had to play it cool. Hide this.
S7en had just barely clawed his way out of pneumonia, and his lungs were still weak. If Elex so much as breathed wrong around him, he could get sick again. And that? That wasnât an option.
So Elex squared his shoulders, forcing the tension from his body, and grabbed a paper towel, swiping aggressively at his nose before moving to make breakfast.
Heâd get through this.
He had to.
S7en had gotten used to waking up to Elex next to him. Even when they were both exhausted, even when life was kicking their asses, Elex was always thereâhalf-awake, chewing on something plastic, grumbling about the sun being a ârude little bitchâ before slumping into him for five extra minutes of warmth.
But today?
The bed was empty.
The sheets were cold.
S7en frowned, sitting up slowly, still groggy from sleep, his chest tightening with something uneasy.
Elex wasnât in bed.
Elex was always in bed when S7en woke up.
He ran a hand through his hair, blinking away the haze in his vision before glancing toward the door. The apartment was quietâtoo quiet. No sound of Elex shuffling through the fridge, no muttered cursing as he nearly tripped over their shoes by the door, no telltale sound of his knuckles tapping the counter absently like they always did in the mornings.
The silence felt... wrong.
Dragging himself up, S7en swung his legs over the edge of the bed, pushing to his feet with a slow exhale. His body was still weakâhe hated itâbut he was getting better. He was supposed to be better.
So why did it feel like something else was falling apart?
He found Elex in the kitchen, already dressed, already moving, wiping down the counter like he was trying to erase something only he could see.
S7en leaned against the doorway, watching for a moment before speaking.
"You left me alone," he muttered, voice still rough with sleep.
Elex stiffened.
It was quick, barely there, but S7en caught it.
The hesitation. The delay before answering.
"Yeah," Elex said, too casual, too quick. "Figured Iâd let you sleep. You need rest, yâknow, what with the dying and all."
S7en rolled his eyes, but the joke didnât land the way it should have.
Because Elex still wasnât looking at him.
And for the first time in a long time, S7en felt alone.
But he swallowed it back as much as he could, shuffling into the kitchen with his usual groggy irritation, hoodie sleeves hanging past his fingers, glasses sliding down his nose. His orange eyes were still hazy with sleep, his tail dragging lazily behind him as he blinked toward Elex with a tired squint. He was barefoot, which Elex immediately clocked as a problem.
The floor wasnât clean enough.
Not for bare skin. Not for someone who had just gotten out of the hospital, lungs still too weak, body still too fragile.
Elexâs hands twitched toward the disinfectant spray, but he forced himself to grip his coffee mug instead, knuckles white.
Just act normal.
"Why the hell are you up first?" S7en muttered, voice rough with leftover congestion.
Elex smirked, masking the way his stomach clenched at the reminder of just how recently S7en had been this sick. "Had to make sure my dumbass boyfriend didnât wake up and start licking the walls again."
S7en squinted at him.
"That happened once."
Elex huffed a laugh, lifting his coffee to his lipsâ
And that was his mistake.
The heat hit his throat, scalding against the rawness heâd been trying to ignore, and the tickle in his throat that had been lurking for hours suddenly flared up hard and fast.
His breath hitched.
His lungs clenched.
No, no, noâ
Elex barely had time to turn his head, fist clenched against his mouth, before the cough tore out of him, rough and deep and impossible to hide.
The sound of it made his own skin crawl.
And worse?
S7en froze.
For a long, horrible second, the kitchen was silent.
Thenâ
"What the fuck was that?"
Elex gritted his teeth, forcing his face neutral, the heat of his fever making the air feel thick, suffocating.
"Swallowed wrong."
S7enâs ears flicked.
He was watching him now.
Fully aware, pupils narrowing in that calculating way Elex hated.
"You sure?"
Elex shrugged, already turning toward the sink to pretend to rinse his mug.
"Yep."
S7en didnât move.
Didnât blink.
Elex could feel the weight of his stare, feel the way his lungs wanted to wheeze, feel the next cough curling in his chest like a live wire.
Donât let him see. Donât let him hear.
He held his breath.
Held still.
And after an excruciating momentâ
S7en grunted, finally moving toward the coffee pot.
Elex exhaled slowly, trying to ignore the way his hands had started shaking.
But the second S7en stepped closer, the air shifted.
It was subtle, just the smallest tilt of his nose, the faintest flick of his earsâbarely noticeable to anyone else. But Elex knew. He knew.
S7en smelled it.
He always did.
Elex felt a fresh pulse of panic claw up his spine. If that damn cat caught so much as a whiff of thisâ
"Something smells weird."
Elex tensed.
"Likeâ" S7en sniffed the air again, his nose scrunching. "Not bad, justâŠoff."
Fuck.
"Yeah?" Elex muttered, keeping his voice lazy, unconcerned. "Probably just your own breath. You were mouth-breathing like an asshat all night."
S7en scowled, flicking his tail at him in irritation, and Elex almost relaxed.
Thenâ
S7en tilted his head, squinting harder. His pupils dilated slightly. His ears twitched forward.
The exact fucking look he got whenever he was about to figure something out.
Elexâs entire body went on high alert.
Because if S7en knew? If he caught on?
Elex would be done.
So he did the only thing he could doâhe faked a yawn, stretched dramatically, and turned away.
"Ugh, I need to piss," he announced, already heading toward the bathroom.
S7en made a vague noise of acknowledgment, clearly not fully awake yet, but Elex didnât give him time to press further.
He was gone before S7en could dig his claws into the situation.
Elex shut the bathroom door behind him, locked it, and immediately braced his hands against the sink, breathing hard.
He had seconds before another sneeze hit.
His nose burned, his sinuses prickling unbearably, every breath quivering with the inevitable. He scrambled for a handful of tissues just as his chest hikedâ
"Hh'UMFShhhiew!âh'Ushh'iew!âhhâieXSHHHh!!"
The force of them wrecked him, leaving him gasping against the counter, fever heat pulsing under his skin. He grabbed the faucet, cranking the water to the highest heat, and scrubbed his hands raw, fingers digging into his palms like he could scrape away the sickness itself.
Not clean. Not clean. Not clean.
He squeezed his eyes shut, inhaling slow, steady.
No more. No more sneezing. No more anything.
He was fine. He had to be fine.
He couldnât let S7en know.
Not now.
Not ever.
Elex leaned heavily against the counter, his breath coming in uneven gasps as he forced himself upright. The heat of the water scalded his hands, the sting grounding him, but it wasnât enough. The sickness was still there, clawing at his throat, pressing against his skull, burning beneath his skin. He squeezed his eyes shut, willing the dizziness to pass, willing his body to just cooperate.
Minutes passed. Maybe more. He wasnât sure.
Eventually, the tremors in his hands eased enough for him to shut off the faucet, but the unease lingeredâcoiled tight in his chest like a cable ready to snap. He needed to move, to shake the feeling of filth clinging to him, but when he pushed off the sink, his vision tilted. The world blurred at the edges, his knees threatening to give.
He caught himself just in time, fingers gripping the doorframe, heart hammering.
Breathe. Breathe.
By the time he stepped out of the bathroom, his body felt detachedâlike he was wearing it rather than existing inside it. He forced himself forward, each step calculated, careful, controlled. If he could just keep this upâif he could just last the dayâhe could make it through this without S7en catching on.
But as the hours crawled by, the fever pressed in harder, suffocating.
And S7en?
S7en was starting to notice.
S7en was used to Elex being a little twitchy. It was just how he was.
Always moving, always chewing on something, always restless in a way that made it hard to tell if he was anxious or just alive.
But this?
This was different.
They were sitting on the couchâor, at least, S7en was. Elex was perched on the other end, practically curling into the armrest, the furthest he could physically get without sitting on the floor.
It was weird.
Elex was always touching him. Always pressing up against him in some wayâa foot shoved against his thigh, a hand absently tugging at his hoodie strings, a knee bumping into his as they sat too close for no reason.
But right now?
S7en may as well have been on a different planet.
He frowned, stretching his arms over his head before slumping further into the cushions.
"Yâknow, itâs real fuckinâ weird when youâre not all over me," he muttered.
Elex huffed, a short, forced noise. "Wow. Clingy much?"
S7en kicked at his foot.
"You like it."
Elex snorted, but he didnât move closer.
Didnât shove at S7en like he usually would. Didnât sink into him lazily, the way he always did after a long day.
Something about it made S7enâs stomach twist.
He let it go.
But the feeling stayed.
Elex had made it through the morning.
Barely.
Now, the afternoon loomed ahead, and his body was falling apart faster than he could keep up.
His limbs felt weak, heavy like they didnât belong to him anymore. His fever had climbed, turning his skin too hot, then too cold, then hot again, like his body couldnât decide what the hell it was supposed to be feeling.
But worse than the heat, worse than the exhaustion, worse than the pounding ache in his skullâ
Was the fact that S7en wasnât an idiot.
Elex had been dodging him all day.
Avoiding sitting too close. Keeping his back turned while cooking lunch. Drowning himself in cups of coffee and forcing a smirk any time S7enâs gaze lingered too long.
But the cat was watching him.
He could feel it.
The slow tilt of his head. The way his orange eyes narrowed, pupils slitting ever so slightly, tail flicking in that way it did when he was figuring something out.
It made Elexâs skin crawl.
And thenâ
The itch flared again.
A sudden, unbearable tickle climbing sharp and fast through his sinuses, making his breath hitch, eyes fluttering against his will.
Fuck. Not again.
He twisted away, forcing the urge down, down, down, clenching his teeth and balling up his hoodieâs fabric in his hands.
Donât.
Donât.
His shoulders tensed hard, muscles locking up so tight it made his head pound worseâ
And somehow, somehow, the sneeze receded.
Barely.
His chest was still tight, his breath still uneven, but at least he hadnâtâ
"You good?"
Elexâs entire body locked up.
S7enâs voice was casual, almost bored, but there was something off about it. Something too sharp, like he was waiting for the answer to confirm a suspicion.
Elex forced himself to exhale slowly through his nose.
"I'm fine," he said, voice rough, but steady enough.
S7en hummed.
"Sure."
He didnât believe him.
Elex knew it.
Knew it the way S7enâs ears twitched forward. The way his tail lashed lazily against the arm of the couch. The way he tapped his mechanical pencil rhythmically against his sketchbook, eyes never leaving Elexâs face.
But he didnât press.
Not yet.
Which meant Elex still had time.
He just had to hold it together a little longer.
Justâ
A shiver rattled down his spine, making his breath stutter, and he barely bit back a curse.
S7enâs eyes narrowed.
Fuck.
Keep moving.
Elex turned toward the sink, gripping the edge with white-knuckled force, blinking hard against the dizziness creeping into his vision.
His palms were sweating.
His skin felt disgusting.
He needed to wash his hands again.
But if he did, if he reached for the soap one more time, S7en wouldâ
âYouâre acting weird.â
Elex stiffened.
Breathed in slow.
Out.
And forced a lazy smirk as he turned around.
"Am I?"
S7enâs gaze flicked over him, studying.
Too long. Too observant. Too much.
His pupils dilated, nose twitchingâlike he was smelling something.
Elexâs stomach dropped.
"I dunno," S7en mused, stretching his arms above his head, tail curling lazily. "Youâre being... extra twitchy today."
"Maybe youâre just being extra nosy today," Elex shot back, gripping the counter behind him to ground himself.
S7en grinned, but his eyes stayed sharp.
âMaybe.â
Elexâs heartbeat pounded in his skull.
He had to get away.
Elex needed space.
S7enâs eyes were on himâtoo sharp, too focused, too knowing. He could feel it, the weight of that gaze pressing into his skin, reading into every twitch, every forced breath. It made his stomach turn, made his hands clench uselessly at his sides, made the sick heat crawling under his skin even worse.
He needed to get away.
Elex pushed off the counter, muscles stiff, nausea curling at the edges of his senses, but he forced himself to keep moving. His pulse hammered against his skull, drowning out the soft sounds of the apartment, making it hard to think past the heat pressing against his temples.
The fever was getting worse.
His own body was turning against him, pulling at the edges of his control, but he had to keep going. Had to stay ahead of it.
If he slowed down, even for a secondâif he let himself feel the exhaustion sinking into his limbsâS7en would see it.
And if S7en saw it, it was over.
Elex swallowed hard, his throat raw and aching, and forced himself forward.
By the time he made it back to the kitchen, his hands were already reaching for the disinfectant wipes, fingers trembling as they closed around the familiar plastic container. The motion was automatic nowâhabitual, necessary.
Clean. Fix it. Clean.
But it wasnât enough.
It was never enough.
His skin still crawled, his breath still felt wrong, his chest still ached with something he couldnât scrub away.
And behind it all, the fever burned.
Rising. Tightening.
His head pulsed, sinuses clogging up, making every inhale a slow, labored pull through congestion that was only getting worse. He wiped his phone screen again, third time now, but the anxiety didnât ease.
Nothing eased.
Because no matter how much he tried to erase the contamination, no matter how many surfaces he disinfectedâ
The sickness was still inside him.
And S7en?
S7en wasnât letting this go.
Elex could feel itâthe weight of his gaze, the way his energy had shifted from lazy amusement to something sharper, quieter, watchful. He didnât need to turn around to know S7en was still tracking his every move, pupils just slightly too wide, ears just slightly too alert.
It was only a matter of time before he put it together.
Elex had to stay ahead of him.
So he moved. Kept moving. Forced himself into motion, into habit, into the kind of constant distraction that would keep him from thinking too hard about the fever pressing hot and heavy under his skin.
He had work to do.
He wiped down the counters. Again.
Ran a disinfectant wipe over the fridge handle. Again.
Checked his phone screenâagainâand swiped a microfiber cloth over it until the glass shined.
Still, it wasnât enough.
Because no matter how many times he scrubbed his hands, no matter how many surfaces he wiped down, no matter how much he cleaned and cleaned and cleanedâ
The sickness was still there.
Thick congestion was already pressing hot and tight behind his eyes, his sinuses burning like someone had shoved a matchstick up his nose and let it smolder, each breath dragging through his throat like smoke, raw and unrelenting.
His hands were clammy, his breath coming in shallow pulls, but he kept moving.
He had disinfected the kitchen. Three times.
Cleaned his phone screen four times just in case.
Scrubbed his hands so many times the skin was turning red, peeling around his knuckles.
And yet, he still felt dirty.
Still felt contaminated.
He had made it this far, hidden it this long, but his body wasnât listening to him anymore.
The warning signs had been too easy to ignore at first.
The slight chill at the back of his neck.âšThe dull ache in his limbs.âšThe tight, nagging itch in his nose that wouldnât go awayâ
But now?
Now the weight pressing on his chest felt unbearable, his head ached so badly he could barely see straight, and his noseâ
Fuck.
It twitched suddenly, sharply, the burning sensation flaring up out of nowhere, and his breath hitched hard.
No.
Not now. Not here. Notâ
The first sneeze tore through him before he could stop it.
Elex barely had time to process the horror before the next hit, dragging him forward, shoulders snapping down as his entire body shook with the force of it.
The sound ripped through the apartment, wet and unrestrained, and the second the fit was over, the panic set in.
Elex froze.
His pulse pounded in his ears, cold dread settling deep in his stomach as his fingers twitchedâ
His body locked up, hands hovering in front of him like they werenât his own. He could see the germsâfeel them clinging to his skin, crawling up his arms, coating every surface.
His heart pounded against his ribs, his breathing coming fast and wrong as his hands shook violently, fingers twitching as he lunged for the sanitizer.
The bottle nearly slipped from his grasp, but he caught it, shaking it so hard the liquid inside sloshed. His brain was fuzzy, fever-haze clouding his thoughts, but he had to get rid of it. Had to clean. Had toâ
He pumped the sanitizer into his palm and scrubbed.
Once. Twice. Again. Again. Again.
It wasnât enough.
It wasnât enough.
It wasnât enough.
His breath came faster, too fast, his lungs tightening as he fought against the feeling, against the sickening reality that he couldnât take back what had just happened.
And Elex gritted his teeth, his pulse hammering in his ears as he braced himself against the sink. His whole body trembled, every inch of him screaming for relief he refused to give it. The fever was pressing in hard now, wrapping around his skull like a vice, but he kept moving.
Scrubbing.
Disinfecting.
Fixing what he had done.
Not clean. Not clean. Not clean.
The whisper crawled up his spine, slithered under his skin. He could feel itâfeel the contamination clinging to him like oil, seeping into the air, coating everything he had touched. He wiped down the sink. The door handle. The light switch. The airâ
A violent shudder ripped through him, and he choked back a whimper, squeezing his eyes shut.
Breathe. Breathe.
He couldnât.
His breath stuttered, caught on the thick, unrelenting burn in his lungs, but he forced himself to keep moving. He was fine. Heâd be fine. He had to be fine.
Thenâ
A voice.
"Elex?"
His blood ran cold.
He froze, heart seizing up in his chest.
Footsteps. Slow. Careful.
Too close.
His fingers clenched into the counter, nails biting into the surface as he struggled to keep himself together.
"Sâfine," he rasped, voice barely above a whisper. He cleared his throat, forcing something steadier. Stronger. "What? Need me to open a jar or somethinâ?"
Silence.
Then, a quiet sigh.
"Cut the shit."
Elexâs jaw locked.
Shit. Shit.
His reflection in the mirror looked like hell. Damp hair clinging to his forehead, his face flushed with fever, red-rimmed eyes filled with exhaustion and something sharpâsomething desperate.
He turned the sink back on, pretended to be focused on washing his hands.
"I'm literally justâ"
"You're sick."
Elexâs stomach dropped. A different kind of heat flushed through him this timeâshame, dread, panic.
He forced a short, sharp laugh. "Wow, thanks for the update, doc."
A pause. A shift in the air.
Thenâsoft.
"Youâre sick," S7en repeated, quieter this time. "And youâre hiding it from me."
His voice wasnât amused anymore.
It wasnât sharp with teasing or smug with victory.
It was hurt.
The sound of it made something deep in Elexâs chest twist painfully.
"You were gonna keep hiding it, werenât you?" S7en asked. It wasnât really a question. "Even afterâ" A breath. "After everything."
Fuck.
Elex squeezed his eyes shut. His throat burned. His hands curled into fists, nails biting into his palm.
"You think I donât know what youâre doing?" S7enâs voice was steady, but there was an undercurrent of frustration beneath it. "I know you, Elex. I know how you get when youâre freaking out."
"I'm notâ"
"You are."
S7en stepped forward. Close enough that Elex could feel the warmth of him at his back. "You're scrubbing the air, El."
Elex flinched.
He hadnât even realized.
His fingers were still clenched around a disinfectant wipe, moving in circles over the countertop.
Over. And over. And over.
He felt sick. Sicker. Not just from the fever. Not just from the way his whole body achedâ
But because S7en was right.
Because he was contaminated. Because he had ruined everything. Because if S7en got sick againâif his lungs gave out againâif he was the reasonâ
His breath hitched sharply.
Not again. Not again. Not again.
He had to fix this.
He reached for another wipe, but before he could grab it, S7en caught his wrist.
Firm. Unyielding.
Elex jerked, but S7en didnât let go.
"Stop."
His voice was gentle. Not commanding, not forcefulâjust there.
Elex swallowed, his hands still twitching, fingers clenching uselessly against the air.
"It's okay," S7en said softly.
Elex shook his head. His breath stuttered, uneven, wrong. "Itâs not okay," he rasped. "IâI sneezedâI fuckingâcontaminated everything."
Elex shook his head again, panic tightening like a noose in his chest. He tried to pull away, but S7en wouldnât let him.
"Elex." His voice was steady. "You're okay. You're just sick."
Elex felt his legs tremble beneath him. He hated this. Hated the way his body feltâweak, out of control, vulnerable. Hated the way S7en was looking at him.
He wanted to run. To hide. To scrub his skin raw until he felt clean again.
But S7en didnât let him.
"You're okay," he repeated, softer this time.
Elex clenched his jaw, his whole body trembling.
His breath came too fast, too uneven, each inhale catching in his throat, clogged and raw. His fingers still twitched where S7en held them, like his body couldnât decide whether to pull away or clench tighter, hold on.
He felt filthy. Exposed. Wrong.
His skin burned under his hoodie, his fever too high, but none of it compared to the way his stomach twisted, the guilt gnawing at his ribs.
He wasnât supposed to let this happen.
S7en had just gotten better. He had just started breathing normally again. Elex had watched him nearly cough his fucking lungs out, had sat there through every long, awful night where every breath had been a goddamn fight. He had been so sick. So weak.
And now?
Now, Elex had ruined everything.
Now, he was the threat.
He shook his head again, harder this time, but S7en still wouldnât let go.
"You donât get it," Elex croaked, voice wrecked. "IâI canâtâ" He squeezed his eyes shut, shoulders shaking, panic twisting tighter in his chest. "I canâtâI canât be the reason you get sick again."
S7enâs grip tightened.
His voice came soft, steady. Unshakable.
"Elexâ"
"You almost fucking died, S7en," Elex snapped, voice cracking straight down the middle. His throat burned, his whole body shaking like it was coming apart, but he didnât care. "You were in the hospital, youâyou couldnât fucking breathe, and nowânow Iâm just supposed to sit here and act like itâs fine if I make that happen again?!"
S7en stilled.
Elex could feel it. The way his breath caught, the way his hands tensed for just a fraction of a second, the way his pulse jumped beneath Elexâs trembling fingers.
Guilt crashed into S7enâs expression like a storm.
But before Elex could sink too deep into it, before he could pull away, S7en moved.
He shifted closer, stepping into his space like he was trying to anchor him, like he was afraid Elex was about to tear himself apart right in front of him.
"You didnât do anything to me," he said, voice rough, thick with something Elex couldnât name. "You didnât contaminate anything. You didnât ruin anything. You just got sick. Thatâs all."
Elex let out a harsh, shaking breath, his hands still twitching like they needed to be doing something, like he still had to fix this.
"I should have been more careful," he muttered, eyes dropping to the floor. "IâI shouldâveâI shouldâve stayed away from you, I shouldâveâ"
"Stayed away?"
S7enâs voice went sharp.
Elex flinched.
And fuck, he was too exhausted to hide it.
S7en exhaled hard, raking a hand through his hair, tail flicking behind him in agitated, frantic movements.
"Elex," he said, gritted out like it physically hurt to say, "you canâtâyou canât just keep me in a fucking bubble every time you get sick."
Elexâs jaw clenched, but before he could argue, S7en kept going.
"Do you even hear yourself?" S7en demanded, his voice raw, frustrated, but not at him. Never at him. "Youâyouâre not some fucking diseased animal, Elex! Youâre a person! You get sick, I get sick, it happens! I canât justâI canât just live my whole life in fear of that, and you canât either!"
Elexâs breath hitched.
Because he wasnât just scared.
He was terrified.
Because what if?
What if this was the one time it went wrong again? What if S7en got sick and couldnât bounce back this time? What if it was Elexâs fault?
"IâI canâtâ" Elexâs voice cracked. His hands balled into fists, but S7en caught them.
S7en held him.
Didnât let him pull away.
Didnât let him run.
Instead, he squeezed, firm but gentle, grounding him.
"You were there for me," S7en said, softer this time, steadier. "I needed you, and you were there. You didnât leave me when I was falling apart. So donât ask me to leave you now."
Elex felt his chest tighten.
His eyes burned.
He wanted to fight it. Needed to fight it. But he was too tired. Too drained.
And S7en was too close, too warm, too real.
So instead of fightingâhe let go.
A slow, shaky exhale.
His shoulders slumped, tension bleeding from his muscles like air from a punctured tire.
S7en didnât move.
Didnât push.
Just held on.
S7en could feel the second Elex gave in.
The fight bled out of his body all at once, his shoulders slumping, hands no longer twitching with the urge to clean, to fix, to escape.
But he was still shaking.
Still burning up.
Still fucking wrecked.
And S7enâwho never knew what to do with his hands, who never hovered, who never worried the way Elex didâsuddenly didnât care if it made him clingy or annoying or anything else.
He wasnât letting go.
Not now.
Not after Elex had spent days breaking himself apart trying to keep this from him.
So S7en did what Elex had done for him not so long ago.
He held on.
Gently, carefully, he guided Elex toward the bed. Not rushed. Not forcing. Just moving, just keeping him close, keeping him steady when his knees nearly buckled.
And ElexâElex let him.
He didnât protest.
Didnât crack some awful joke just to deflect.
He just followed, leaning against S7enâs side, his whole body too hot, the fever finally winning.
S7en eased him down, pulling the blankets up, keeping his touch gentle, steady, carefulâthe way Elex had done for him a few days ago, when he had been the one fighting for breath, fighting against his own fragile fucking body.
And when Elex exhaled, slow, wrecked, exhausted, something in S7enâs chest ached.
Because he recognized that sound.
It was the same sound he had made when Elex had been taking care of him, when he had finally stopped trying to act like he wasnât drowning in it.
"You okay?" S7en asked, voice softer than usual.
Elex huffedâa weak attempt at amusement.
"Would be bore okay if by dose wasdât fugkiâg closigg up od be," he muttered, sniffling thickly, his voice a wrecked mess of congestion and fever.
S7en snorted. "Yeah. No shit."
Elex groaned, dragging his hands over his face. "Fugk, by head..."
S7en didnât even hesitate.
He shifted, fingers moving to Elexâs temple, rubbing slow, soothing circles, the way Elex had done for him when his fever had been the one stealing the air from his lungs.
Elex froze.
And S7en knewâknew he wasnât used to this, wasnât used to letting someone else do the caring, the fixing, the hovering.
But he didnât pull away.
Didnât flinch.
Didnât try to brush it off.
Instead, he let out a slow, shaky exhale and sank further into the pillow.
S7en didnât stop.
Didnât tease him about it.
Didnât say anything at all.
He just kept going.
Because he knewâknew what it felt like to finally let someone else take over, to let the weight of it lift, even just a little.
And if Elex could have that, even for just one goddamn night?
S7en would make sure he did.
No matter what.
Elex had gone quiet.
Not in the way he usually didâwhen his mind got too loud, when he was pulling back into himself, into the places S7en wasnât allowed to reach.
No, this was different.
This was exhaustion, fever-heavy and all-consuming.
S7en could feel the heat rolling off him in waves, his body shaking despite the thick blankets S7en had pulled over him. His breath hitched with congestion, thick and shallow, and every few seconds, his nose twitched like he was fighting off a sneeze.
Elex never let himself lose control.
But now?
Now he was losing.
S7en frowned, shifting to grab more tissues before pressing them gently into Elexâs hand.
Elex made a weak noise of protest, half-asleep, barely there, but S7en wasnât having it.
"Blow your goddamn nose," he muttered, voice softer than the words. "You sound like youâre drowning in it."
Elex groaned, cracking one tired, red-rimmed eye open.
"Bossy," he rasped, but took the tissues anyway.
S7en watched as he struggled to sit up, his movements sluggish, hands barely steady.
Before he could make it worse, S7en reached out, bracing him with one arm, guiding him up easily, gently, carefully.
Elex let him.
Didnât even fight it.
That scared S7en more than anything else.
Elex wasnât a fighter in the traditional sense, but when it came to himselfâhis health, his own well-beingâhe was a goddamn battleground.
And now?
Now he wasnât even arguing.
S7en swallowed the tightness in his chest and let Elex slump into his side as he blew his nose, harsh and miserable, before immediately dropping back against the pillows like the effort had wiped him out.
"That bad?" S7en asked, trying to keep his voice light.
Elex just groaned.
"Everythigg hurts," he muttered, hoarse and wrecked. "I thidk by skid is bad at be."
S7en snorted. "What, like, personally?"
Elex huffed, half a laugh, half a cough.
"Yeah," he grumbled. "Betrayal. Treacherous little bitch."
S7en rolled his eyes but kept his hand on Elexâs back, rubbing slow, grounding circles like Elex had done for him when he was the one breaking apart.
Elex exhaled, deep and slow.
Then, quieterâ
"You should stay away from me."
S7en stiffened.
For a second, he thought maybe heâd imagined it.
But no.
Elexâs voice was softer now, raw and strained, but dead serious.
"Iâm serious," he murmured, not looking at him. "You just got better. I canâtâI canât be the reason you relapse."
S7en exhaled hard, dragging a hand down his face.
"Weâre really doing this again?" he muttered.
Elex didnât answer.
Didnât have to.
S7en could feel it, the way his body had tensed, the way his fingers had curled into the blanket, like if he just held on tight enough, he could stop this from happening.
S7en shifted, leaning in closer, pressing their foreheads together, letting Elex feel the solid weight of him, the warmth that was still there, still strong, still okay.
"Listen to me," he said, steady and sure. "You didnât get me sick. And if I do get sick? Itâs not your fucking fault."
Elex swallowed, eyes fluttering shut.
"It would be."
"No," S7en said, firm. "It wouldnât."
Elex huffed, a tired, miserable noise.
S7en rolled his eyes.
"Seriously, what are you gonna do, Lex? Lock yourself away for the rest of your life? Walk around in a hazmat suit just in case?"
Elex made a weak, stubborn noise, burrowing further into the blankets.
S7en shook his head. "You donât get to keep doing this. You donât get to tear yourself apart over shit you canât control."
Finally, finally, Elex cracked his eyes open.
"Yeah?" he muttered. "Like you didnât do the same thing?"
S7en froze.
Because fuck.
He was right.
Elex had held him up when he was at his worst, had been right there through all of it. Had never let him fall alone.
S7en sighed, running a hand through his hair, thinking for a second before saying, "Because I donât give a shit about me. But I do give a shit about you."
Elex went still.
Completely.
Like his brain had just blue-screened.
And before he could overthink it, before he could ruin itâ
S7en reached for the thermometer, shoving it into Elexâs hands.
"Now shut up and put this under your tongue," he muttered, ears flicking back. "Before I shove it somewhere else."
Elex snorted.
Another weak laugh.
Another win.
And as he finally, finally relaxed against S7en, letting the weight of the fever take him under, S7en just sat there.
Holding him up.
The way he always would.
Elex had given in.
Not all the way, not completelyâbut enough.
Enough that he let himself sink into S7enâs warmth, let the weight of exhaustion pull him under, let his body finally stop fighting.
And S7en?
S7en wasnât going anywhere.
Not after all the bullshit avoidance, not after watching Elex tear himself apart, not after hearing him whisper that he couldnât be the reason S7en got sick again.
Like he hadnât just spent the last week watching over him.
Like he wasnât allowed the same thing.
Like S7en getting sick again was some earth-shattering, world-ending event instead of just...life.
S7en swallowed hard, shaking off the lingering weight of that thought, and pressed the back of his hand against Elexâs forehead again.
Still too hot.
Still burning up.
S7enâs ears flicked with frustration.
He didnât know how to do this.
Didnât know how to be gentle, how to be soft in a way that actually mattered. He only knew how to watch and wait and be there when shit hit the fan.
But Elex deserved more than that.
So S7en did what he could.
He tucked the blankets tighter around Elexâs shoulders, making sure he was warm enough but not too hot.
He grabbed the cool rag from the nightstand, folding it before pressing it lightly against his forehead.
Elex made a soft noise, somewhere between a sigh and a whimper, his eyelashes fluttering but not opening.
S7enâs chest tightened.
"Yeah, yeah," he muttered, trying to keep his voice steady, casual. "I know. Iâm a fucking saint."
Elex didnât answer.
Just let out a slow, exhausted exhale, his body melting further into the blankets.
S7en watched him for a moment, fingers absently brushing the cooling strands of his hair back, his mind drifting.
He still remembered the way Elex had sat at his bedside just days ago, quietly rubbing circles into his back when he was struggling to breathe, wiping him down when his fever had spiked too high, watching him with the kind of focus that felt too much, too intense, too raw.
Now S7en was the one watching him.
Noticing every shallow breath.
Every twitch of discomfort.
Every exhausted tremor in his fingers.
It wasnât fair.
Not that Elex was sickâthat happened.
But that he had felt like he had to go through it alone.
Like he had to hide it.
Like he had to carry it on his own shoulders just to protect S7en from something he had no control over.
And S7en hated that.
Hated that Elex had been suffering in silence, scrubbing his hands raw, avoiding him, trapping himself in his own head just to keep from being a burden.
Like S7en wouldnât drop everything for him in a heartbeat.
Like S7en didnât already know what it felt like to be in this exact position.
His fingers curled tighter around the edge of the blanket, jaw clenching, tail flicking in agitated movements before he forced himself to breathe.
Not the time.
Elex had stopped shivering.
That was progress.
S7en exhaled slow, shifting so he could tuck the blanket higher over Elexâs shoulders.
Thatâs when he felt itâ
The smallest, barest hint of movement.
Elexâs fingers, still curled into the fabric of S7enâs hoodie, tugged.
It wasnât intentionalânot really.
More of a half-conscious reaction, a barely-there plea for something S7en wouldnât have noticed if he hadnât been paying attention.
But he was.
So he didnât hesitate.
Didnât question it.
Just shifted closer, letting his weight settle against the mattress, letting Elex press against his side, forehead brushing S7enâs shoulder, his whole body giving in.
S7en just held him.
Didnât make a big deal of it.
Didnât say anything at all.
Just breathed.
Because Elex was finally letting himself be taken care of.
Hey! Remember back in August how I teased a Svelex fic set for Elexâs birthday? NWELL, I FINALLY FINISHED IT 6 MONTHS LATER âš
Just under 8k words, CW: Illness & Injury (fever, pneumonia, difficulty breathing, passing out) Medical Settings (hospital/ER scenes, oxygen use, discussions of health conditions), Mild Alcohol Use (social drinking, light references), Themes of Self-Neglect (pushing past physical limits, refusing to ask for help)
Though Oxygen explores themes of stubbornness, friendship, and vulnerability, at its heart, itâs a story about learning when to let goâand knowing when someone cares enough to catch you.
Summary: S7en has never been great at self-preservation, but for Elexâs birthday, heâs determined to pull off the perfect surprise. Weeks of planning, secret coordination, and late-night prep have all led to thisâone flawless night where everything goes exactly as planned.â Thereâs just one problem. S7en is sick. Really sick. And heâs been hiding it.
With the weight of the day pressing down on him, the only thing keeping him going is sheer stubbornness and the desperate hope that he can hold out just a little longer. But as the night unfolds, his body has other plans, and no amount of willpower can fight the inevitable.
As reality comes crashing down, S7en is forced to confront a truth heâs spent his entire life ignoringâheâs not invincible. And sometimes, pretending to be okay only makes things worse.
Prologue:
S7en had never worked so hard on something in his life.
For weeks, he had been obsessively planning Elexâs birthday partyâlate nights spent hunched over sketches, paint drying on his fingers as he designed the perfect decorations, hours scouring online shops for the exact shade of green streamers that wouldnât make Elex groan about âclashing aesthetics.â Heâd snuck around behind his back to pull together the guest list, bribe people into secrecy, and track down the most obnoxiously over-the-top cake he could find. It had to be perfect.
Elex deserved perfect.
And, as always, Elex had no clue.
Which, honestly, wasnât surprising. The man could smell a lie from a mile away, sniff out bullshit like a bloodhound, but when it came to anything about himself, he was painfully oblivious. S7en could have probably told him, straight-up, âHey, Iâm planning a surprise party for you,â and Elex still would have just grunted, shrugged, and gone back to chewing on whatever plastic thing heâd picked up that day.
The same way he had completely failed to notice that S7en was getting sicker by the hour.
It had started as a scratch in his throat, nothing majorâjust the kind of raw, dry feeling he chalked up to too many sleepless nights and the absolute joke that was his hydration levels. He ignored it, popped a cough drop, kept going. He had too much to do to slow down now.
But then it got worse.
The scratch deepened into a constant ache, turning into that burning, sandpaper sensation that made every swallow a chore. His voice had started rasping sometime around day three, but he played it off, clearing his throat and mumbling that it was just from talking too much.
Then came the congestion.
Thick. Unshakable. A slow-building pressure behind his nose and eyes that made his head feel too heavy, too tight. He kept sniffling between sentences, breath hitching every time he tried to take a full inhale, but he was damn good at keeping it subtle.
Elex never noticed.
When he felt a sneeze creeping up, heâd duck into another room, press the back of his wrist hard against his nose, and wait it out. If he got caught off guard, heâd twist away, stifling into his sleeve so violently it left him dizzy. It left his chest tight, his head pounding, but it was better than Elex hearing and asking questions.
There was too much to do.
If he let himself sneeze once, it would turn into five. Maybe ten. And if that happened, heâd never get through his never-ending to-do list.
So he fought it. Again and again.
S7en had become a professional at dodging suspicion. He had to beâElex might have been oblivious about some things, but he wasnât stupid. If S7en so much as sniffled too obviously, the badger would latch onto it like a feral dog with a bone.
So S7en adapted. He learned how to mask it, how to time it, how to slip away just before his body betrayed him.
But sometimes⊠it got close.
The first time was lateâway too late.
S7en had been running on a handful of energy drinks and sheer force of will, hunched over his desk, hand-painting decorations that no one but him would care about. The apartment was silent, save for the soft glow of his desk lamp and the occasional sound of Elex shifting in his sleep.
Which was a problem.
Because that meant every single noise S7en made was way too obvious.
He had been tryingâreally tryingâto keep himself together, but his nose was done playing nice. The burning deep in his sinuses was unbearable, and no matter how much he bit his lip or rubbed furiously at the underside of his nose, it wasnât stopping.
The tickle teased mercilessly, rising, falling, rising again.
Donât. Donât. Not now.
His breath hitched.
He jerked forward, smothering the sound into his hoodie sleeve as hard as he could.
âHhhâNGXT!âh'KXTâchh!"
He held still, heart hammering in his chest.
The silence stretched.
Thenâ
A sleepy mumble from the bed.
â...Why you sneezing like a bitch over thereâŠ?â
S7en froze.
Shit.
He hadnât even realized Elex had woken up. The badgerâs voice was thick with sleep, slurred and lazy, but there was just enough suspicion in it to make S7enâs stomach drop.
Think. Think.
âFucking⊠dust?..,â he muttered quickly, sniffling once for effect. âThe paperâs covered in it.â
A long pause.
Thenâ
A heavy sigh, followed by the sound of Elex flopping onto his other side.
âGo to bed, dumbass,â he mumbled.
S7en stayed still until he was sure Elex had drifted off again.
Then, finally, he slumped forward, burying his face in his arms.
Too close.
The second time was worse.
They were sitting on the couch, half-watching some dumb action movie, Elexâs feet propped up on the coffee table as he mindlessly chewed on the plastic cap of a water bottle. He was in a good mood, talking non-stop about how he "just had a feeling something cool was gonna happen" on his birthday.
Which would have been hilarious if S7en wasnât actively trying not to sneeze on him.
His nose had been itching relentlessly for the last five minutes. That awful, creeping burn was rising up again, and no matter how much he rubbed at his nose discreetly, it wasnât enough.
Bad timing. Really bad timing.
His breath hitchedâbarely enough to make a sound.
Too close.
He needed to get out of there.
Stretching his arms in an exaggerated yawn, he forced his muscles to stay loose and casual as he pushed himself off the couch.
âGonna grab a drink,â he muttered, already heading toward the kitchen.
âGet me one,â Elex called after him, not even looking away from the screen.
S7en didnât answer.
Because the second he was out of sight, he barely made it to the sink in time before a violentâ
âripped through him, bending him forward with the force of it.
His hands gripped the edge of the counter, breath shuddering as another chest-deep cough tore out of him immediately after. He squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself to get it together beforeâ
âYou good in there?â
S7en nearly jumped out of his own damn skin.
Elexâs voice was casual, distracted, but S7en knew him too well.
The badger had noticed something.
Shit.
He barely had time to smother another cough into his sleeve before he forced his voice to sound normal.
âYeah. Justâfuckingâdropped something.â
A pause.
Then, mercifully, Elex just grunted, attention snapping back to the movie.
S7en exhaled slowly, pressing the heels of his hands against his temples.
Too close. Again.
By the end of the week, he knew.
This wasnât just a cold.
The signs had been there for days, creeping up on him like a slow, inevitable landslide. At first, it had been subtleâa scratch in his throat, a little extra weight in his chest. But now? Now, every breath ached, every inhale felt like dragging air through soaked fabric.
His lungs werenât just tight anymore. They were drowning.
And when he coughedâbecause, at this point, there was no fighting it anymoreâit wasnât some weak, dry little thing he could brush off. No, it was deep, raw, rattling, the kind of cough that came from somewhere low and dangerous, scraping the bottom of his lungs like a dull blade.
It hurt.
And Elex still didnât notice.
Because S7en made sure of it.
He had perfected the art of hiding it.
Whenever Elex was around, S7en played it off like nothing was wrong. He timed his coughing fits so they happened when Elex was in the shower, when he was digging through the fridge, when he was too distracted ranting about something to notice the way S7en had to brace himself against the counter just to stay upright.
If a sneeze hit, he bit back against it with everything he had, muffling it into his hoodie sleeve until his head pounded. If he couldnât stop it, heâd make sure to stifle it into near silence, no matter how much the pressure made his already aching sinuses throb.
His voice was going hoarse, his breathing was labored, but he pushed through, kept talking like nothing had changed.
When his hands started shaking, he simply curled his fingers tighter around whatever he was holdingâa drink, his paintbrush, the edge of the counterâuntil they stopped trembling long enough to keep up the act.
His eyes were red-rimmed, glassy, but if Elex glanced at him for too long, heâd just mutter something about being exhausted and wave him off.
Everything needed to be done.
And he wasnât about to let a little cold ruin it.
Even as it got harder to stand without swaying.âšEven as his lungs tightened like a vice with every breath.âšEven as his body screamed at him to just stop.
He pushed forward.
Forward. Forward. Forward.
August 10th:
The morning of Elexâs birthday should have been easy.
After all, S7en had spent weeks planning every last detail. The decorations were set up, the cake was waiting in the fridge, and their friends were in on the plan, all waiting for the big reveal later that night.
All he had to do was get through the day.
And yet, when Elex jolted awake that morningâcocky, buzzing with birthday energy, already texting half his contact list like he was about to throw himself the most legendary party of all timeâS7en could barely sit up without his vision blurring at the edges.
The second he lifted his head, a fresh pulse of pain slammed through his skull, a migraine so sharp it felt like his brain was trying to escape through his eye sockets. He swallowed against the nausea, trying to ignore the way his throat burned, raw and swollen, while his chest tightened with every inhale.
Bad. Really bad.
But he didnât have time for bad.
So, S7en forced a grin, let Elexâs nonsense birthday rambling wash over him, and powered through.
âS7en, I swear to God, my birthday instincts are going crazy today,â Elex announced, cracking open an energy drink before he was even fully sitting up.
S7en barely managed to hold back a pained wince at the sound of the can popping. Too loud.
âOh yeah?â he croaked, then immediately regretted speaking. His voice was wrecked, rougher than usual, like heâd spent the entire night screaming into a pillow.
Not ideal.
But if Elex noticed, he didnât say anythingâtoo busy stretching with an exaggerated groan before flopping onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow. His mismatched eyes gleamed, that lazy smirk pulling at his lips.
âYeah. Itâs likeâI dunno, a sixth sense,â Elex went on, taking a sip of his drink. âLike, I just know when something bigâs about to happen.â
S7en hummed, noncommittal. âBirthday instincts,â he repeated flatly.
âExactly.â
âHate to break it to you, but you might need a refund, dude.â
Elex snorted, waving him off. âNah, nah, itâs real. Watchâby the end of the day, something sick is gonna go down, and Iâm gonna be totally right.â
S7en bit the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing, because if Elex had even the slightest clue about the party, he would not be this calm. But the badger, for all his cocky bravado, was utterly, hilariously clueless.
Good. That meant S7enâs work wasnât for nothing.
But as he pushed himself up, the room lurched sideways, and his stomach twisted violently.
Shit.
He froze, pressing his hands into the mattress to steady himself, willing the dizziness to pass. But his lungs ached when he took a breath, and his ribs felt like they were wrapped in tight, unrelenting bands.
Breathe. Breathe through it.
Elex, of course, was too busy hyping himself up to notice.
âBet something sick happens before noon,â he said, checking his phone. âMaybe Iâll win some crazy giveaway. Or, like, get free food somewhere.â
S7en forced out a breathy laugh, ignoring the sharp, rattling sensation in his chest.
âYeah,â he muttered. âSomething like that.â
Because at the rate he was going?
Something was gonna happen before noon.
Just not the kind of surprise Elex was expecting.
S7en just had to get through the morning.
Then the afternoon.
Then the party.
Simple.
Except nothing about this was simple when his entire body was actively trying to betray him.
He had barely been upright for two minutes before the pressure in his sinuses flared up again, an unbearable, burning tickle crawling its way deeper. His breath caught just onceâa sharp, involuntary inhaleâbefore he forced it down, biting the inside of his cheek hard enough to sting.
Not now. Not in front of Elex.
Elex, still riding his birthday ego trip, had zero idea what was going on, stretching like he had all the time in the world. Completely unaware of the absolute war S7en was fighting just two feet away.
"Alright," Elex announced, cracking his neck. "Iâm thinking pancakes."
S7en barely heard him. His focus was on not sneezing.
The burning sensation spiked, his nose twitching, his breath threatening to hitch again. He clenched his jaw, exhaling slowly through his mouth, willing the tickle to settle.
No luck.
It was coming, fast.
Shit. Move.
Before Elex could glance his way, S7en swung his legs over the bed and pushed himself up, heading straight for the bathroom. Too fast. His vision swam, dizziness crashing into him all at once, but he barely managed to keep himself upright, gripping the doorframe for balance.
He shoved the door shut behind him, barely able to hold back the gasping inhale beforeâ
He doubled over against the counter, pressing the heel of his hand against his nose, his breath still stuttering from the sheer force of it. The moment he tried to straighten, another thick, chest-deep cough forced its way up, scraping like sandpaper in his throat.
His lungs felt wrecked. His head was pounding.
And he had approximately five seconds before Elex came looking for him.
Swallowing hard, S7en quickly turned on the sink, splashing cold water onto his face, trying to erase the obvious flush creeping into his cheeks. A second later, he heard Elexâs footsteps outside the door.
âYou dying in there?â
S7en cleared his throat, ignoring the sharp pain it sent through his ribs. Make it sound normal.
âChill,â he called back, voice rough but controlled. âDidnât know I had to schedule my pisses around your breakfast plans.â
Elex snorted. âI mean, you do. But Iâll allow it, since itâs my birthday.â
S7en exhaled slowly, gripping the edge of the sink.
Too close. Again.
By the time S7en forced himself back into the kitchen, Elex had already trashed his pancake idea in favor of raiding the fridge for anything edible. He stood with the door wide open, shoving a piece of cold pizza into his mouth like he wasnât the absolute most unhinged person alive.
S7en could barely look at food without feeling his stomach twist unpleasantly.
"You good?" Elex asked around a mouthful, finally giving him a passing glance.
S7en shrugged, keeping his movements casual, despite the way his body screamed at him to sit the hell down.
"Tired," he muttered, heading for the cabinet where they kept their mugs. If he had something in his hands, itâd be easier to look normal.
Elex didnât press, which was both a relief and kind of funny, considering if their situations were reversed, S7en would have had him in a chokehold demanding answers. But Elex just yawned, stretching again.
"Yeah, yeah," he said. "Big day. You should nap or something."
The irony almost made S7en laugh.
Yeah. Sure. Great idea. Heâd get right on that.
As soon as he survived the next fourteen hours.
But as he reached for a mug, the telltale prickling started up again. His breath hitched before he could stop it.
Shit. No. Not here. Not now.
Keeping his back firmly to Elex, he pressed his wrist hard against his nose, willing it to stop. His shoulders tensed as the itch flared up, teasing mercilessly.
Hold it. Hold it. Hold it.
Elex, blissfully unaware, just kept rambling, his voice distant, drowned out by the relentless burning in S7enâs sinuses.
It was winning.
S7en had no choice.
With as much control as he could manage, he ducked his head into the crook of his arm, forcing the sneezes silent.
"Hh'NGXt! Ktchhh!âhâNNgch!"
The pressure was brutal, his skull throbbing with the effort of holding them back. His lungs seized painfully, a cough clawing its way up, but he swallowed it down, knuckles tightening around the counter.
He waited.
Nothing.
Elex hadn't noticed.
Slowly, carefully, S7en straightened, schooling his expression before turning back around.
Elex was still halfway through his pizza, scrolling through his phone with zero clue about the absolute disaster happening right in front of him.
S7en let out a shaky breath, grabbing his mug with slightly unsteady fingers.
He just had to get through the day.
That was the mantra he kept repeating in his head, over and over, like a scratched CD skipping on the same damn track. Just a few more hours. Then the party. Then the moment when Elex would finally see the absolute masterpiece S7en had spent weeks putting together. Thenâmaybeâhe could breathe.
If his lungs still worked by then.
It was getting harder to ignore. Everything.
The aches had settled deep into his bones, like he was dragging concrete around his limbs. His head pounded relentlessly, his chest felt like it was wrapped in steel wire, and his breath was turning shallow, forced, unnatural.
And Elex?
Still didnât notice.
Somehow.
It was actually impressive, in a way that was borderline offensive.
Because anyone with a working pair of eyes could tell that S7en was not okay.
His skin was pale, fever-glazed, dark shadows lingering beneath his eyes. His voice had gone from a little hoarse in the morning to full-blown wreckage, scraping and raw like heâd been swallowing glass shards for fun.
And yet.
Nothing.
Elex was still living in his own little birthday world, sending obnoxious texts to his friends, hyping up his own damn existence, and loudly debating whether he should get a new tattoo or a pet snake to mark the occasion.
S7en was dying in real time, and Elex was googling exotic pet names.
Ridiculous.
By the time they left the apartment, the sun was too bright, the air too sharp, and S7en was too damn tired.
He had planned to stay inside, get through some last-minute details, maybe even steal a moment to sit down and pretend his body wasnât actively staging a rebellion.
But Elex, in all his unmatched, chaotic glory, had insisted on going out.
âItâs my birthday,â he had said, flashing a grin that should be illegal. âYouâre legally required to follow me around and do dumb shit all day.â
S7en had just barely held back a groan.
The first stop was some hole-in-the-wall shop Elex swore had the best snacks on the planet. S7en, running on sheer force of will and the lingering effects of a third energy drink, followed him in, head pounding, lungs on fire.
He was so focused on staying upright that he didnât notice the way his sinuses had been slowly tightening, congestion pressing like a vice behind his eyes.
Then, as he shifted his weight, something shifted with it.
A sudden, sharp readjustment deep in his sinuses sent a blinding tickle straight through his nose, pressure tipping over into something unstoppable.
Oh, fuck.
His breath hitched dangerously, his nostrils twitching, the overwhelming sensation building too fast for him to fight.
Not here. Not now.
He turned sharply on his heel, heading toward the corner of the store, hand clamped over his nose.
The moment he was out of sight, he braced against the shelf, burying his face into his sleeve as his body gave up.
His ribs screamed in protest, his vision swimming from the sheer force of it. His breath hitched again, another wracking cough tearing out of him immediately after, leaving him shaking, dizzy, breathless.
Too much. Way too much.
He forced himself upright, swallowing against the rawness in his throat, fingers digging into the shelf for balance. He needed to move beforeâ
âSven?â
Shit.
He barely had time to school his face into something remotely normal before Elex appeared around the corner, holding a pack of sour candy and a soda, looking infuriatingly relaxed.
âYou find something?â Elex asked, popping open the drink like nothing was wrong.
S7en cleared his throat, biting back the unbearable urge to cough again. âNah. Just looking.â
Elex blinked at him, then tilted his head slightly.
For half a second, S7en thoughtâhoped, reallyâthat maybe Elex was finally putting two and two together. That heâd look at him and actually see what was happening.
But then the badger just shrugged.
âCool. Letâs hit the gas station. I wanna see if they have those weird energy drinks from Japan.â
And just like that, the moment was gone.
S7en swallowed back another cough, another wave of exhaustion, and nodded.
âYeah,â he muttered, voice scraping at the sides. âSure.â
And without much more, he followed Elex back out into the sun, lungs screaming, heart pounding, the warmth of the afternoon too sharp, too heavy against his feverish skin.
The heat pressed down on him like a weight, making the air feel thicker, harder to breathe, and for a moment, as they stepped onto the sidewalk, the world tilted dangerously beneath his feet. He forced himself forward, keeping his stride even, controlled, ignoring the way his vision blurred at the edges.
The party was just a few hours away.
He just had to last a little longer.
But his body? His body was done.
The fever that had been simmering beneath his skin all morning had finally boiled over, turning into a suffocating, all-encompassing heat that made the world feel distant and unreal. He felt like he was walking through a fog, slow and sluggish, barely tethered to his own movements.
His hoodie, usually something soft, comforting, familiar, now felt like a weight pressing down on his overheated body. The fabric clung to his skin like insulation, trapping the fever in, suffocating him from the inside out.
It was getting harder to think.
Harder to breathe.
Every inhale was tight, shallow, unsatisfying, as if the air itself had thickened, turning into something too dense to pull into his lungs. He knew he should have eaten something, but the mere thought of food made his stomach twist violently, nausea crawling up his throat.
But none of it mattered.
None of it could matter.
Because Elex was still completely oblivious.
So when the badger shoved his phone into his pocket and announced they were going to the arcade, S7en nodded.
When Elex cracked another joke about his âbirthday instincts,â S7en forced out a laugh, even though his ribs ached from the effort.
And when a sneeze built out of nowhere, sharp and relentless, he bit down on the inside of his cheek hard enough to sting, forcing it back, forcing his breath to even out before it could betray him.
It was fine.
He could do this.
And thenâ
Elex threw an arm around his shoulders, dragging him closer, leaning some of his weight into him in that effortless, careless way he always did.
S7en felt his legs nearly give out beneath him.
It was only for a second. A brief, involuntary dip in his balance that he corrected just in time, locking his muscles in place before he could actually collapse.
Elex didnât notice.
Because of course he didnât.
He just kept talking, laughing, existing, completely unaware that the world around S7en had started to tilt dangerously again.
That the sounds of the arcade were beginning to blur into a low, distant hum.
That every inhale was tighter, shallower, harder to take in.
That S7en, for the first time all day, wasnât sure if he could keep this up.
A single thought forced its way through the haze.
Youâre not gonna make it to the party.
The arcade was a neon-lit blur, the pounding music and overlapping voices slamming into his skull like a hammer to glass. His fever had reached new, unbearable heights, making the room feel hot and cold all at once, the flashing lights too bright, the noise too much.
And stillâhe kept moving.
Elex was having the time of his life, completely in his element, button-mashing through some fighting game like it was a life-or-death battle. S7en barely processed what was happening, just stood there, hands shoved into his hoodie pocket, rocking slightly on his heels to keep himself upright.
The floor tilted beneath him again, nausea coiling tight in his stomach.
Just a little longer.
Just a littleâ
âDude, youâre terrible at this,â Elex announced, nudging him toward the machine. âCome on, you gotta play at least once. Birthday rules.â
S7en knew if he sat down, he wasnât getting back up.
But Elex was staring at him now, actually looking at him, and S7en had to move, had to do something, had to make sure Elex didnât catch on.
So he shrugged, smirked through the absolute exhaustion dragging at his limbs, and picked up the controller.
The match was a disaster.
His hands were too shaky, his reflexes too slow, but somehowâsomehowâhe made it through without drawing too much attention.
By the time they left the arcade, the sun had begun to set, and the cool air should have felt refreshing. Instead, it only made his fever chills worse.
S7en barely made it through the door before he was shrugging off his hoodie, the fabric sticking to his overheated skin. His t-shirt underneath was just as bad, suffocating, but Elex was already grabbing beers from the fridge, completely unaware of the absolute train wreck standing behind him.
Elex tossed one over without looking.
âHappy birthday to me,â he announced, cracking his open. âNow drink, coward.â
S7en caught the can out of reflex, but the thought of alcohol sent an immediate wave of nausea rolling through him. He hesitated, fingers tightening around the cold metal, trying to psych himself up.
If he refused, Elex would notice.
So he lifted it, took a sipâ
And nearly gagged.
The second the liquid hit his throat, his stomach flipped violently, his body rejecting it on instinct. He swallowed it down, forcing his expression to stay neutral, relaxed, normal, but the warmth rising in his throat told a different story.
Fuck.
The carbonation burned going down, only agitating his raw, sore throat further. He barely contained a cough, throat clenching as he forced himself to lower the can casually, like nothing was wrong.
Mercifully, Elex had already turned away, completely distracted by his phone buzzing on the counter.
âRex?â he muttered, before picking up.
S7en exhaled silently, relief cutting through the fever haze.
âYo, whatâs up?â Elex answered, tucking the phone between his ear and shoulder as he grabbed his keys.
S7en barely processed the conversation, his focus slipping in and out as Elex and Rexar started talking about car problems, something about the transmission, something about a weird noise.
Then, finallyâfinallyâElex headed for the door.
âIâm gonna check my car while I talk him through this,â he said, already halfway outside. âDonât drink all my beer while Iâm gone.â
S7en barely managed a smirk, lifting the can in mock cheers as the door swung shut.
The second the lock clicked, his whole body gave up.
The first cough was immediate, tearing through his chest with enough force to make him double over against the counter. The sound crashed through the empty kitchen, harsh and unrestrained, his body finally allowed to react after an entire day of suppression.
Then another. And another.
It was unstoppable now, his body making up for all the times heâd held it back, a brutal mix of hacking, gasping coughs and desperate, shuddering sneezes.
His body jerked forward with each one, raw, painful, messyâhis breath barely catching before another slammed into him. His hand scrambled blindly for his phone, barely able to see through fever-glazed eyes as he pulled up his contact list.
The party. The guests. He needed to check the plans.
He hit the first name.
Freya.
Her face appeared on screen, and the second the call connected, she took one look at him and frowned.
"Geezus, S7en. You look like death.â
S7en sniffled hard, rubbing at his nose with his wrist, attempting to smirk, but it came out more like a grimace.
âDamn, angel, donât hold back,â he rasped.
Freya narrowed her eyes, clearly unimpressed. "Are you seriously still running this party?"
"Obviously."
"You can barely hold your damn phone up."
S7en rolled his eyes, regretted it immediately when the movement made his head swim. "Iâm good."
Freya looked like she wanted to reach through the screen and shake him, but before she could argue, another rapid-fire sneezing fit tore through him, leaving him breathless and hunched forward over the counter.
Thenâflatly: âUh-huh. Sure. You sound great.â
S7en groaned, sniffling thickly as he waved her off.
"Look, justâare we still good for eight? I donât have time for a lecture.â
She sighed, clearly not thrilled, but nodded. "Yeah. Everythingâs set."
"Good. See you then."
And with that, he ended the call before she could press him further.
Next.
Kriia picked up on the second ring.
And just like Freya, she took one look at him and immediately frowned.
"Yo. What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"Evening to you, too," he muttered, sniffling into his sleeve.
"You look like you lost a fight. With, like. A bus."
S7en snorted, regretted it instantly as another cough tore through his chest, sending a sharp, tearing pain through his ribs.
Kriiaâs expression shifted, concern settling in. "Dude. Are you sure you should be doing this?"
S7en waved her off before she could start, ignoring the way his vision blurred at the edges.
"Itâs Elexâs birthday. Iâm not ruining it.â
Kriia exhaled slowly, like she was debating whether to fight him on this. But in the end, she just muttered, "Your funeral, man," before confirming the plans.
S7en ended the call and dropped his phone onto the counter, fingers digging into the surface as another wave of dizziness hit.
The door clicked open again.
Shit.
His body snapped upright on instinct, throat still burning, lungs still raw, but Elex was already stepping inside, phone tucked away, beer still in hand.
"Apparently Rexâs transmissionâs fucked," he muttered, completely unaware of what had just happened.
S7en forced a half-smirk, voice barely above a whisper.
"Tough break."
Elex flopped onto the couch.
"Whatever. Commuteâs gonna be shit, though."
S7en swallowed hard, ignoring the fire in his chest.
"Yeah," he murmured.
Everything was too hot, too loud, too sharp at the edges. His body was dragging, fever weighing him down like cement blocks strapped to his limbs, but the worst part was his head. It was pounding relentlessly, a deep, throbbing ache that had settled right behind his eyes, making his vision swim every time he moved too fast.
And yetâhe still almost forgot the damn restaurant reservations.
It wasnât until Elex, now two beers deep, kicked his feet up onto the coffee table and stretched like he had no plans to move for the rest of the night that it finally hit him.
Shit.
"Alright, get up," S7en said, standing way too fast. The floor tilted. He gritted his teeth, planted his feet, forced himself to stay upright. "We got dinner reservations."
Elex blinked at him, caught mid-yawn. "Waitâwhat?"
S7en sighed, rolling his eyes like his head wasnât spinning in slow, miserable circles. "You really thought I wasnât taking you out for dinner? What kind of boyfriend would I be?"
That earned him a grin, lazy and smug. "Damn. I really am the best."
S7en snorted. "Uh-huh. Now get your shoes on."
And just like that, the plan was back on track.
As long as S7en didnât pass out before they got there.
The drive was a blur.
S7en shouldnât have been driving. He knew that.
His vision swam every time he shifted lanes, his hands felt unsteady on the wheel, and every time he blinked, his fever-hazed brain took just a little too long to process what was in front of him.
But if he let Elex drive, that meant questions. That meant attention. That meant a risk he couldnât afford to take.
So he forced his fingers to grip the wheel tighter, focused on the road like his life depended on it.
Which, honestly, it probably did.
By the time they pulled into the restaurant parking lot, his knuckles were white from how hard heâd been holding on.
Just a little longer.
Exceptâwhen they got inside, it all went to hell.
S7en barely processed what the hostess was saying at first, his fever-glazed brain lagging behind reality.
ââŠIâm really sorry about the mix-up, but unfortunately, we donât have a reservation under that name.â
S7en blinked. "âŠWhat?"
The hostess winced. "It looks like there was an error in our system, and weâre completely booked for the night."
Elex frowned, looking at S7en. "Didnât you book this, like, a week ago?"
"Yeah," S7en rasped, throat raw, jaw tightening. He turned back to the hostess, forcing himself to stay calm. "So⊠whatâs the wait time?"
And for the first time all day, luck was on S7enâs side.
Because that was exactly what he needed to happen.
He gave the hostess a half-hearted nod before turning back toward the door, shoulders tense, every muscle aching.
Fine. Home it was.
S7en still should not have been driving.
His head was swimming, the world tilting at the edges, but he was too stubborn, too deep into the lie to stop now.
Elex, meanwhile, was perfectly content, reclining in the passenger seat like he hadnât a single care in the world. "Honestly, I wasnât that hungry anyway," he mused. "Good call, though. The universe clearly wants me to have homemade pizza instead."
S7en made a noise that might have been agreement, though it came out more like a weak exhale.
His grip on the wheel was tight, too tight, but he didnât trust himself to loosen his fingers without them shaking.
Thenâa problem.
The congestion that had been building behind his eyes all day shifted suddenly, sending a sharp, burning tickle straight through his sinuses.
His breath hitched violently, the urge to sneeze crashing into him like a tidal wave.
No. Not now. Not while driving.
He swallowed hard, pressing his tongue to the roof of his mouth, clenching his jaw so tightly it hurt. His fingers flexed against the wheel, breath quivering, trying desperately to force it back down.
It wasnât working.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
His vision blurred, breath stuttering, but just as his body jerked forward involuntarily, he lunged for the volume knob on the radio, cranking it up just in time.
"HhâNGXT! Kâtshhh!âhâNNgch!"
The pressure made his ears ring, his head throb twice as hard, but Elex didnât even flinch.
"Okay, why the hell is the music so loud now?"
S7en sniffled subtly, shifting in his seat. "Needed to wake myself up."
Elex huffed a laugh. "Damn. Didnât know dinner cancellation trauma hit you that hard."
S7en forced a smirk, even as his sinuses screamed in protest. "Devastating."
And then, thankfully, mercifully, they pulled into the apartment lot.
The second the car was in park, S7en let go of the wheel like it had burned him. His fingers were stiff, locked from how tightly heâd been gripping it the whole drive.
Elex stretched, groaning dramatically. "Man, what a weird-ass birthday. Hopefully, the universe has one more surprise left for me."
Yeah.
You have no idea.
S7en forced himself to stand, lungs protesting, vision blurring dangerously for just a moment.
Almost there.
He just had to get inside.
Just a few more steps.
Just a littleâ
His breath hitched again, and he clenched his jaw, swallowing it down.
Not yet.
Not until he was alone.
S7en barely made it through the door before chaos erupted.
âSURPRISE!â
The apartment exploded with noiseâcheering, shouting, laughterâall blending into one deafening wall of sound.
Elexâs reaction was instantaneous.
His fists shot up, body twisting instinctively, already halfway through swinging on whoever had dared to startle him.
For a split second, S7en had a horrifying vision of Freya or Kriia getting decked in the face, but just as Elexâs arm tensed, realization hit.
His narrowed eyes scanned the room, taking in the decorations, the crowd of friends, the drinks already in waiting hands.
Thenâhe turned to S7en.
That stupid, crooked grin stretched across his face, all sharp teeth and amusement, his previous fight mode already forgotten.
âYou little shit,â he muttered, clapping a heavy hand on S7enâs shoulder, shaking him a little. âYou actually got me.â
S7en barely held back a grimace at the sudden contact, his body thrumming with exhaustion, but he forced himself to grin through it.
âTold you your birthday instincts were trash,â he rasped, barely audible over the noise.
Elex laughed, shaking his head. âYeah, yeahâokay, you win.â
The moment should have felt like victory.
And in a way, it did.
S7en had done it. The party had come together exactly how he planned, every detail falling into place just as he had imagined.
He had made it.
But as the music turned up, as drinks started passing between hands, as people settled into the celebration, S7en realizedâ
He still had to survive the rest of the night...
By the time everyone had arrived, the apartment was a perfect mix of chaos and celebration.
Music blasted.âšDrinks flowed.âšElex was in his element, soaking up the attention, grinning like an idiot as his friends hyped him up.
S7en stayed near the edges, tucked into the background, letting the night move around him.
Everything felt far away, like he was watching the party from the other side of a glass wall. The fever had dragged him into a dreamlike haze, every noise muffled, every movement just slightly out of sync.
Still, he could see Elexâlaughing, teasing, play-fighting with Rexar over some inside joke about "Toad Biscuit" merch.
The night blurred around himâcolors bleeding together, laughter twisting into an indistinct hum, the weight of the room pressing down too heavy, too hot, too much.
S7en had spent the entire day pushing forward, ignoring the way his body was crumbling beneath him.
This was the last thing.
Just one more step.
One more task.
Someone called for cake.
The words barely registered, muffled beneath the feverâs grip, but his body moved on instinct.
S7en stepped toward the table, striking a match with trembling fingers.
The tiny flicker of fire blurred before his eyes, swaying unnaturally, and it took him a second too long to realizeâit wasnât the flame that was moving.
It was him.
The floor lurched beneath him like the ground had been ripped out from under his feet.
His chest tightenedâseizedârefused to expand.
A sharp, deafening ringing filled his ears.
His vision tilted violently, everything twisting into a warped, spinning mess of distorted colors and movement.
Far awayâtoo far awayâhe could hear Elexâs voice, lighthearted, distracted, still caught up in the conversation, still completely unaware.
S7en tried to step forwardâto finish what he started, to keep going, to keep standingâ
But his knees buckled.
His breath stuttered dangerously, shallow and weak, his body losing the battle he had forced it to fight all day.
And thenâ
Elexâs voice sharpened, cut through the fog.
Something in his tone shiftedânot joking anymore, not distracted anymore.
Alarm.
Realization.
âWaitâSven!?â
Elex saw it happening.
But he was too far.
He was on the other side of the room, still surrounded by people, still grinning one second ago, still completely oblivious to just how wrong things were.
Then he turned.
And his stomach dropped.
He saw itâthe way S7en swayed violently, the way his fingers slipped, the way his breath hitched in a way that had nothing to do with laughter.
His body was giving out.
Too fast.
Too soon.
Elex moved instantly, shoving through the crowd, but he was too late.
S7enâs body tilted forward, his orange eyes rolling back slightly.
The match slipped from his fingers, flame snuffing out before it even hit the ground.
His legs crumpled.
And before Elex could reach himâbefore anyone could reactâ
S7en hit the floor.
S7en drifted somewhere between consciousness and nothingness, floating in the thick, fevered haze of half-awareness. His body felt heavy, his limbs like lead, his chest wrapped in tight, suffocating bands that wouldnât let him breathe fully.
He could hear voices.
Familiar, but distantâlike sound carried through waterlogged fabric, muffled and uneven.
Then, one voice cut through the haze, clear and sharp.
âHis blood oxygen was at eighty-one percent when they brought him in.â
That was bad. Even he knew that was bad.
A sighâlow, exasperated, but not surprised.
Elex.
âGeezus fuck,â he muttered, voice strained with something tired, frustrated, guilty.
The other voiceâa womanâsâcontinued speaking, firm but calm, the kind of voice used to dealing with stubborn, repeat offenders.
âHe has pretty severe pneumonia," she said, matter-of-fact. "Youâre lucky he passed out when he did. If heâd stayed upright much longer, he probably wouldâve just stopped breathing entirely.â
S7en didnât have to see Elexâs face to know exactly what expression he was making.
Jaw clenched.
Hand rubbing over his face.
That rare moment when Elex wasnât just annoyed, but genuinely upset.
And not at anyone else.
At himself.
S7en could practically hear the weight settle in his voice when he muttered, ââŠI shouldâve noticed.â
The womanâwhose voice was familiar in a way that took too much effort to placeâsighed through her nose, not unkind, but firm.
"Yeah," she agreed bluntly. "You should have."
A pause.
Thenâpaper rustling, the sound of something being shifted from one hand to another.
âThese are his prescriptions,â she continued. âAntibiotics, steroids, inhalersâweâre trying these this time. Make sure he actually takes them.â
That voice.
The realization hit sluggishly.
ER nurse.
He knew her.
She had been there every time heâd landed himself in this exact same situation.
Enough times to know him by name.
God, that was embarrassing.
Elex sighed again, and S7en could hear the distinct crinkle of the paper bag as he took it from her.
His voice was quieter this time. Tired. Guilty.
âI got it,â he murmured.
Another pause.
Thenâher voice softened just slightly.
âJust⊠be more observant next time, yeah?â
No sharpness now, just gentle warning.
âCould be worse, next time.â
No argument. No defensive retort.
Just the quiet sound of Elex nodding.
S7en wanted to laugh.
If only he had the breath for it.
After a moment, a long, heavy sigh broke through the silence.
Thenâthe soft creak of a chair being dragged across the tile.
S7en felt more than heard Elex drop into the seat next to his hospital bed, elbows resting on his knees, the weight of exhaustion settling into his frame.
Then came the sound of both hands dragging down his face, a quiet but telling frustration behind it.
S7en almost wouldâve gotten away with pretending to still be asleep.
Almost.
Exceptâhis damn ear twitched.
Elex caught it immediately.
"I know youâre awake, dumbass," he muttered, voice low and uncharacteristically gentle.
S7en hesitated.
Then, slowly, he cracked his eyes open, squinting against the harsh fluorescent light overhead. The world swam for a moment before settling, and when his vision finally focused, the first thing he saw was Elex watching him.
Worried. Tired. Like heâd just come back from a war he hadnât even realized he was fighting.
S7enâs ears flattened instinctively in embarrassment, a quiet flicker of shame settling in his chest.
The room was small, sterile, impersonalâthe same goddamn hospital he had spent far too much time in over the years.
And the weight of his failure hit him all at once.
This wasnât how tonight was supposed to go.
A shift in his nose made him suddenly aware of the cannula, delivering pure oxygen to his wasted lungs.
His fingers twitched, reaching up to pull it off, but Elexâs hand was there firstâfirm but gentle, gripping his forearm.
"Donât," Elex said softly.
S7en stilled, swallowing hard, ears pinning further against his head.
A beat of silence.
Then, in the same quiet, unusually careful voice, Elex asked,
"Why didnât you tell me?"
S7en hated how much that question hurt.
He couldnât bring himself to look at Elex. Instead, he dropped his gaze to his lap, claws absently picking at the thin hospital blanket.
"Iâ" He stopped, voice raw, barely above a whisper. He swallowed, trying again.
"I didnât want to be the reason your birthday suckedâŠ"
Elex stiffened slightly.
S7en continued, ears still pressed flat, tail curling closer to himself.
"I worked so hard to make it perfect," he muttered, barely breathing the words. "And after everything, weâre still here. Anotherâ" his voice wavered, thick with frustration, "another claustrophobic, shitty little hospital room."
Silence.
S7en braced himself for Elex to be pissed. For the usual snark, sarcasm, maybe even an exasperated rant.
But insteadâ
Elex sighed, slow and deep, and when he spoke again, his voice was softer than S7en had ever heard it.
"Dude. I donât give a shit about some stupid party."
S7en blinked, glancing up at him hesitantly.
Elex ran a hand through his messy, dark green hair, shaking his head. "You really think I care about that more than you literallyâcollapsing in front of me?" His voice wavered slightly, jaw clenching before he forced it back down.
S7en didn't know what to say.
Elex exhaled sharply, leaning forward, forearms resting on his knees.
"I shouldâve noticed." The words came out quiet, guilty. "I mean, fuck, you looked awful all day. I justâI was too caught up in my own bullshit to pay attention."
S7en shook his head weakly, ears twitching. "Not your fault."
"You donât have toâI donât knowâcarry everything yourself," Elex continued, voice softer now, tired but firm. "Itâs okay to tap out sometimes. Party or not."
S7en hesitated.
Thenâfinallyâhe met Elexâs gaze.
And what he saw there wasnât annoyance, or frustration, or the usual bullshit banter.
It was genuine concern.
That made something tighten in his chest in a way that had nothing to do with pneumonia.
The corner of Elexâs mouth twitched into something softer, and after a pause, he added,
"By the way, next time you try to fake being fine, maybe donât fucking pass out in the middle of a party. Kinda ruins the illusion."
Despite himself, despite everything, S7en huffed a weak, breathless laugh.
"Noted."
Elex rolled his eyes, but there was no heat behind it.
And for the first time all day, S7en finally let himself relax.
Got a request by @1dwaekki to write a follow up fic to Oxygen~
Yes I know, I suck a lot and didnât feel like drawing a new cover so I used the most recent pic I did of S7en, oops đ
Breathless, Again (oxygen pt 2)
Written & Illustrated by: allergeez
6.7k words // Summary: S7en is still recoveringâbut if you ask him, heâs fine. He refuses to be treated like heâs fragile, refuses to be a burden, and most importantly, refuses to let his own body ruin things any more than it already has.
So the second heâs back home, he pushes himself too hard. Too fast. Ignoring the exhaustion, the weight in his chest, the way his lungs still fight him for every breath. Elex sees right through itâbut S7en is nothing if not stubborn.
Itâs only a matter of time before everything catches up to him.
As S7en fights against his own limits, Elex is forced to step in, not with angerâbut with patience. With quiet insistence, steady hands, and the kind of care S7en doesnât know how to accept.
Because S7en doesnât need to prove heâs okay.âšHe just needs to be okay.
S7en had barely been conscious for the car ride home, floating in the fevered, exhausted haze that had consumed him for the past two days. Two whole days trapped in a sterile, suffocating hospital room, his body reduced to nothing but a collection of strained breaths and clipped medical jargon. His lungs had refused to cooperate this timeâtight, stubborn, unrelentingâand despite his best efforts, he had spent most of his hospital stay tethered to a nasal cannula, sucking in pure oxygen like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to the earth.
Now, finally free, the crisp evening air wrapped around him like a long-forgotten luxury. He could breatheâsort of. Enough that they had let him go, at least. That was all that mattered.
S7en exhaled slowly, eyes heavy-lidded as he turned toward their apartment door, ears sagging slightly against his will. His entire body was still unimaginably weak, the kind of exhaustion that settled into his bones, weighing down every movement. Even his tail, usually flicking with lazy amusement or irritation, hung limp behind him.
Still, he could open a fucking door.
Moving slow, careful, he reached into his pocket for his keys, fingers trembling just slightly as they closed around the cool metalâ
âOi! Stop.â
S7en barely had time to react before the sound of heavy boots on pavement announced Elexâbarreling toward him from the car, arms overloaded with bags, jackets, and whatever-the-hell else he had grabbed from the hospital room. His voice was sharp, authoritative, the kind of no-questions-asked command he only used when he was pissedâor worried.
S7en froze, rolling his vivid orange eyes as his tail gave a singular, weak flick of irritation.
"You know opening the door wonât kill me, right?"
Or, at least, thatâs what he tried to say.
What actually came out was an embarrassingly hoarse, pitiful squeak.
His throat was wrecked, voice completely shot, every syllable barely audible through the raw, swollen wreckage that the infection had left behind.
Elex, already shoving his own keys into the door, stopped cold.
Slowly, he turned his head, brows furrowing, mismatched eyes locking onto S7en like a sniper sighting a target.
ââŠExcuse me?â
S7en, annoyed but too drained to argue, simply coughed weakly into his sleeve, not bothering to answer.
Elex, silent, finished unlocking the door in one sharp motion before pushing it open.
"Inside. Now."
S7en, beyond done, dragged himself forward, stepping over the threshold into the dim familiarity of their apartment. The smell of home hit him immediatelyâpaint, lingering traces of incense, the faint, ever-present scent of Elexâs cologne. Warmth. Comfort. The opposite of the cold, sterile walls he had been trapped in for the past two days.
For a moment, he simply stood there, letting the exhaustion pull at his body, letting himself sink into the sensation of being home.
Thenâ
A sudden, heavy thud as Elex dropped their bags unceremoniously onto the floor behind him.
S7en turned just in time to see the badger shrugging off his jacket, expression tense, posture stiffâall telltale signs that he was about five seconds away from losing his shit.
Here we go.
S7enâs orange eyes scanned the apartment, taking in the aftermath of the party, and something tight and miserable twisted deep in his chest, his ears pinning back against his skull.
Oh.
It looked like a massacre.
The walls were still adorned with limp streamers, hanging in sad, sagging loops, their once vibrant colors now dulled and lifeless. Half-deflated balloons clung desperately to the floor, some rolling listlessly with the draft from the open door. The hand-painted decorations he had spent hoursâdaysâperfecting were scattered across every available surface, abandoned and forgotten.
And then there was everything else.
Plastic cups, crumpled napkins, empty beer cansâa graveyard of discarded celebration. The coffee table was littered with half-eaten food, and somewhere near the couch, a party hat sat crushed under someoneâs boot print, like a cruel, careless afterthought.
S7en felt his throat tighten.
His chest achedânot just from the pneumonia, not just from the exhaustion pressing down on him like dead weight, but from something deeper. Something raw.
He had worked himself into the ground for this party.
Had spent weeks planning it.
Had given everything he had leftâhis time, his energy, his healthâto make it perfect.
And nowââšNow it was over.âšNow it was ruined.
He swallowed hard, but the moisture was already beginning to build in his fever-glazed, glassy eyes, threatening to spill over before he could stop it.
God. He was so fucking tired.âšAnd his bodyâhis emotionsâhad nothing left to give.
Behind him, Elex noticed immediately.
âHey,â the badger murmured, his usual rough-edged voice softened at the corners. âDonâtâdonât worry about this, alright?â
S7en didnât respond, still staring at the mess, his ears slowly sinking with quiet devastation.
Elex ran a hand through his messy green hair, exhaling before rolling up his sleeves.
âIâll clean it up. By tomorrow, itâll be like nothing ever happened.â
He said it with the same casual confidence he used when getting out of troubleâlike he could will the situation into something manageable just by deciding it would be.
But when he turned back toward S7enââšHis breath hitched.
Something was off.
S7enâs distant, unfocused stare wasnât just exhaustion.âšHis slight squint wasnât just from the moisture in his eyes.
Elex knew that look.
Knew it very well.
A slow smirk tugged at the badgerâs lips.
âBless you in advance,â he said.
Immediately, a light pink dusted over S7enâs already fever-flushed face, his shoulders tensing slightly.
His nose twitched again, the slow, creeping itch beginning to buildâtantalizingly, maddeninglyâdeep within his sinuses.
God, not now.
He tried to glare at Elex, something half-hearted and unimpressed, but the mounting sneeze cut him off completely.
The force of them jerked his frame forward, and before he could so much as breathe, the sneezes morphed into a brutal, chest-deep coughing fit.
The raw, scraping sound tore through him, his entire body curling inward as his lungs fought viciously against him.
Elexâs smirk vanished immediately.
He was there in a second, one hand bracing S7enâs back, the other gripping his arm to keep him steady.
"Jesus, fuck, S7enâbreathe, kidâ"
S7en barely heard him, too caught in the wreckage of his own body, his ears pressing flat against his skull.
Elex tightened his grip, grounding him.
When the fit finally, finally eased, S7en slumped forward, his breath still rattling in his chest, eyes squeezed shut as he tried to recover.
Elex exhaled through his nose, shaking his head, but his hand remained firm and steady against S7enâs back.
"...You good?"
S7en cracked open one watery, miserable orange eye, shooting him a weak, glare-adjacent look.
Elex huffed a laughâquiet, fond, just a little exasperated.
Then, softerâgenuinely meaning it this time:
âBless you.â
S7en wanted to crawl out of his own skin.
The moment Elex muttered, "Bless you," the badgerâs warm, steady hand still braced between his shoulder blades, something deep in S7enâs chest twisted in frustration.
He hated this.
Hated the way his body betrayed him every few minutes, tearing through his last scraps of dignity with these brutal, relentless fits. Hated the way Elex looked at himâworried, watching him like he might break apart at any second. Hated that every time he so much as shifted his weight, Elex was there, ready to catch him like he was seconds from collapse.
Maybe he was, but that wasnât the fucking point.
This wasnât him.
S7en was used to being sick, but he wasnât this kind of sick. He wasnât fragile, wasnât someone who needed to be taken care ofâwasnât supposed to be this goddamn weak.
Another harsh, rattling cough clawed its way up from his lungs, cutting through the feverish static in his head. He barely had time to turn away, pressing the sleeve of his hoodie against his mouth as his body shook with the force of it.
Elexâs hand tensed, fingers gripping into the fabric of his hoodie, steadying him again.
S7enâs ears flattened in irritation.
Enough.
He jerked out of Elexâs hold, staggering forward a step, breathing hard, barely steady on his feetâbut still standing.
"I'm fine," he rasped, voice a raw, scraped-up wreck of sound.
Elex snorted. Loud. Unimpressed.
"Yeah? You sound fine."
S7en ignored him.
Or tried to.
Exceptâhis sinuses had other plans.
The burning tickle had barely given him a break, lingering just under the surface, simmering relentlessly behind his nose and eyes. And nowâwith his breath still short, his body still weak and tremblingâit surged forward again, sharp and overwhelming.
S7en barely managed a gasp of warning before he snapped forward, the fit tearing into him with brutal force.
Each one ripped through his already shredded lungs, leaving fire in his chest, his ribs aching like something had been bruised or cracked from the sheer force of it.
And thenâthe coughing hit again.
Hard.
It stole the air from his lungs, wracking through him until his knees nearly buckled under him.
His hands gripped the counter, holding on for dear fucking life as his body fought viciously against itself.
Elex was there again in a flash.
Hands on him, steady, grounding, pulling him back before he could fall.
"Youâre fine, huh?" Elex muttered, half annoyed, half furious, but his grip was gentle, voice low and serious. "You think this is fucking fine?"
S7en wanted to answer.
Wanted to tell him to fuck off, to stop looking at him like that, to just back offâ
But he couldnât fucking breathe.
The coughing fit was too deep, too brutal, too much, and his vision spotted at the edges, his lungs screaming, his head swimming with fever and exhaustion.
His fingers trembled against the counter, and his legs wouldnât stop shaking.
Elex felt it.
And that was the worst part.
The badger cursed under his breath, wrapping an arm around S7enâs waist, pulling him back before he faceplanted right there in the middle of the fucking kitchen.
"Okay, thatâs itâIâm done with this bullshit," Elex snapped, hauling S7en toward the couch despite the felineâs weak, half-hearted struggling.
S7en let out a low, frustrated growl, batting at his hands even as he stumbled against him, utterly defeated by his own fucking body.
"Dude, seriously, let meâ"
"No."
Elex cut him off sharply, voice hard, final, leaving no room for argument.
Thenâhis tone softenedâjust a little.
"You need to sit down, dumbass. And for once in your miserable life, youâre gonna listen to me."
S7en hated how exhausted he was.
Hated how his body wouldnât move the way he wanted it to.
Hated thatâno matter how badly he wanted to fight backâhis traitorous limbs had already given up on him.
Elex barely had to guide him down onto the couch before he collapsed against the cushions, completely drained, head swimming, breath still uneven and wrong.
His ear twitched in irritation, but he didnât move.
Didnât argue.
Didnât fight anymore.
Becauseâfuck it.
He was too goddamn tired.
Elex didnât let himself relax until S7enâs breathing evened outâwell, as even as it was going to get. The kid still looked like hell, slumped against the cushions with half-lidded eyes and a slack grip around the blanket Elex had thrown over him. His tail flicked weakly, more from habit than any real energy, and his ears twitched in irritation every time his breath hitched into a congested wheeze.
It was bad. Still too bad. But at least he was sitting, not swaying like he was about to drop. That was a start.
Elex exhaled sharply through his nose, dragging a hand down his face before pushing himself up from the couch. He needed to get his shit together. They had a whole bag of meds sitting on the counter, and for once, S7en wasnât going to be the stubborn idiot refusing to take them. No, that was Elexâs job nowâfiguring out how the hell all this medical bullshit worked.
His boots were heavy against the floor as he moved toward the kitchen, flipping on the dim overhead light. The white pharmacy bag sat there, mocking him, filled to the brim with bottles, blister packs, inhalersâhell, one of these things mightâve just been straight-up magic. He grabbed the first bottle, squinting at the label like it had personally wronged him.
"Take one tablet by mouth twice daily with foodâunless otherwise instructed by a physician."
What the fuck did that mean? Was he supposed to wait for otherwise-instruction? Or was that just there to fuck with him?
Elex muttered something under his breath, shooting a glare at the offensive medication. Fucking hell, how did people do this every day?
He scowled, shaking the bottle like it might start making sense if he rattled it around enough.
The next one was just as bad.
"Take two puffs every four to six hours as needed. Do not exceed prescribed dose."
Okay. Cool. That was fine.
Exceptâthe hospital never actually told him what the prescribed dose was.
And thenâthere was the liquid medication, which had no dosing instructions at allâjust a cryptic warning about side effects and some useless-ass guidelines about food intake.
Elex ran a hand through his hair, exasperated, glancing back and forth between the bottles, the inhalers, and S7en, who had been silent this whole time, sitting on the couch, still trying to get his breathing under control.
The kid looked like hell.
Still pale, still feverish, still sitting with his head tilted back slightly, eyes half-lidded, like even the act of keeping them open was just too much effort.
His chest rose and fell unevenly, each inhale too shallow, too weakânot enough to fully fill his lungs, but too much effort to take in anything deeper.
Elex sighed heavily, rubbing at his temple with his free hand.
"Okay, what the fuck is all this shit supposed to do?" he muttered, glaring at the pile of medication like it personally offended him.
S7en huffed softly, the sound half-exhausted, half-amused, and didnât even look up before he started listing them off.
"Antibiotic, once in the morning, once at night."
His voice was wrecked, but steady, like he had done this a thousand times before.
"Steroidâtwice a day, no food restrictions. Just tastes like absolute shit, so, fair warning."
Elex blinked, glancing down at the bottle in his hand.
"Rescue inhalerâonly if Iâm actually dying. Preventative inhalerâmorning and night. Thatâs the one that makes my heart feel like itâs about to explode, so donât freak out when that happens."
He cleared his throat, wincing slightly like the action made it worse, before continuing.
"Cough suppressantâdoesnât work, but I have to take it anyway. Decongestantâalso doesnât work. Painkillerâevery six hours. Liquid bullshitâtastes worse than the steroid."
Elex just stared at him.
For a solid five seconds, he didnât say anything.
Then, finallyâhe glanced back at the pill bottles, thumbing through them until he found the right ones.
"Geezus Christ," he muttered, shaking his head. "You almost have your own pharmacy here with all the meds they gave you."
S7en let out a tired, unamused huff, before scrubbing at his nose with the back of his knuckles, his ears twitching with irritation.
Elex handed him the first set of pills, watching carefully as S7en picked them out of his palm with slightly trembling fingers.
For a moment, Elex debated saying something else, something serious, but insteadâ
"You know, I feel like if you took all of these at once, youâd either level up as a person or just ascend to the next plane of existence."
S7en snorted, which immediately backfired.
His breath hitched sharply, his body seizing up involuntarily as the tickle surged back with a vengeance.
The cat barely had a second to recover before another sharp, breathless hitch overtook him, his sinuses pulsing with maddening intensity. He gasped sharply, trying to brace himself, but the force of the next fit crashed into him with zero mercy.
The pills slipped from his fingers, scattering across the hardwood floor with a light, traitorous clatter.
His cheeks burned instantly.
For a second, he just sat there, frozen, ears pinning back against his messy teal hair, his tail curling tighter around himself. He wasnât even sure what was worseâthe fact that he had just sneezed the meds out of his own damn hands or the fact that it made him feel so fucking infantile.
He groaned, tipping his head back against the couch in pure miserable humiliation, before leaning forward slightly, already reaching to grab the fallen pills.
Elex swatted his hands away before he could even touch them.
S7en scowled instantly, his fever-glazed orange eyes narrowing as he snapped his gaze up to glare at the badger. âI got itââ
âYeah, you sure do,â Elex deadpanned, already crouching down to pick up the scattered pills himself.
S7en huffed, irritated, before quickly scrubbing at the underside of his still twitching nose with his knuckles. His tail flicked sharply behind him, his ears twitching again as Elex scooped up the last pill and stood, smirking lightly as he dusted them off in his palm.
Something about the expression made S7enâs already thin patience snap.
He glared up at him. "Whatâs so funny?"
The moment the words left his mouth, his already destroyed voice cracked halfway throughâa pathetic, raspy break that made him sound more like a dying animal than an actual person.
Elex exhaled a sharp, amused breath through his nose. Not quite a laugh, but damn close.
S7en scowled harder, sniffling sharply against his wrist to regain what little dignity he had left.
Elex pressed the pills firmly back into his palm before straightening up, shaking his head slightly. âNothingâs funny,â he said, voice casualâbefore immediately following up with, âI was just trying to figure out how the hell you hid being sick from me for so long.â
S7en rolled his eyes, leaning back into the couch with a tired huff. âElex, I hide shit from you all the timeââ
âYeah, no, seeâthatâs bullshit.â Elex raised a brow, crossing his arms. âYour sneezes when you get sick are not very⊠stealthy.â
S7en scoffed, sniffling again, before a slow, smug smirk tugged at the corners of his lips. âThatâs because I stifled them so well,â he admitted with a nonchalant shrug.
Elex blinked.
Thenâhe frowned. "You what?"
S7en lazily rolled the pills around in his palm, smirking despite himself. âYeah, man. I stifled the hell out of them.â
Elex squinted at him, skeptical. âWhen?â
S7en sniffled absently, rubbing at his nose with the edge of his sleeve. âYou remember when we were watching that dumbass action movie, and you wouldnât shut the fuck up about how the stunt choreography was unrealistic?â
Elex tilted his head, thinking, before snapping his fingers. âOh, yeah. That one scene with the glassââ
âI was literally dying next to you.â
Elex paused.
Stared.
ââŠExcuse me?â
S7en smirked slightly, tail flicking lazily behind him. âHad to fake getting a drink so I could leave the room. Barely made it to the kitchen before I fucking lost it.â
Elexâs eyes narrowed, his jaw working slightly as he absorbed that information.
S7en, seeing his moment, went for the kill. âOh, and alsoâremember when we were at that corner store and you spent ten whole minutes debating between two energy drinks, like they werenât both just sugar and violence in a can?â
Elex frowned. âThat was an important decision, dumbass.â
âSure.â S7enâs smirk deepened, lazy and teasing. âMeanwhile, I was behind you, holding onto the counter for dear life because my lungs werenât cooperating, and I was pretty sure I was about to pass out right there in the snack aisle.â
Elexâs frown deepened.
S7en leaned back slightly, gaze flickering upward in mock thoughtfulness. âOh, andâyou remember when we were in the car and you were yelling at Rex on speaker about how he treats his transmission like a war crime?â
ââŠYeah?â
S7en snickered, pressing the back of his wrist against his nose. âDude. I was dying next to you. Had to time my sneezes with your road rage just to keep you from noticing.â
Elex blinked. ââŠWhat?â
âYou literally screamed, âUSE YOUR FUCKING BLINKER YOU GODDAMN TWAT,â right as I sneezed,â S7en wheezed a short, small laugh, rubbing his nose. âIt was a perfect cover. Like, cinematic-level shit.â
Elexâs jaw dropped slightly, blinking at him in pure, stunned disbelief.
Elex crossed his arms, planting his feet, his entire posture shifting into something stubborn.
âAlright. New house rules.â
S7en blinked. ââŠThe fuck?â
Elex pointed at him. âOneâyouâre gonna let me take care of you.â
S7en opened his mouth, already scowling. âOh, absolutely notââ
âTwoââ Elex steamrolled right over him, ignoring the protest entirely. âThere will be no more of that stifling bullshit.â
S7enâs ears pinned back slightly, his tail flicking sharply. âDudeââ
âDonât âdudeâ me,â Elex said firmly, brow furrowing. âI donât give a shit what the reason isâyouâre not doing that anymore.â
S7en let out a sharp, exasperated sigh, tossing his head back against the couch. âChrist, youâre so dramaticââ
âSays the guy who passed out holding a birthday cake.â
S7en froze.
Elexâs smirk was victorious.
ââŠLow fucking blow.â
âYouâre the one who literally hit the floorââ
âI hate you.â
âAnyway,â Elex continued, finally dropping it, as he flopped into the chair across from him, stretching his legs out with a loud sigh. âIâm starving, and you gotta take some of that hospital-grade poison they sent you home with after eating, right?â
S7en hesitated, glancing at the various pills Elex had slipped into his palm. He couldnât really argue.
ââŠYeah,â he muttered begrudgingly.
Elex nodded, clapping his hands together. âCool. What are we ordering?â
S7en sighed again, dramatically this time. âI donât care.â
Elex raised an eyebrow. âNo, see, thatâs how we end up ordering some dumb shit that you pretend to like so you donât hurt my feelings.â
S7en rolled his orange eyes, sniffling lightly. âNot my fault you eat like an unsupervised toddler.â
Elex grinned, not remotely offended. âDamn right.â
And with that, he grabbed his phone, already pulling up a food delivery app, leaving no room for further argument.
S7en tried to get up.
Tried, being the key word, because the second he started shifting toward the bedroom, Elex shot him a look.
âOh, no, no, no. Youâre staying right here,â Elex said, pointing at the couch like it was some kind of containment zone. âWhere I can see you.â
S7en groaned loudly, tail flicking sharply. âDude. Iâm not gonna fucking evaporate if you look away for five seconds.â
Elex raised a brow. âYou literally collapsed in front of me two days ago. Forgive me if Iâm a little concerned about your ability to stay upright.â
S7en scowled, arms crossing over his chest. âIâm fine.â
âYou sound fine,â Elex deadpanned, watching as S7en immediately broke into a chest-deep coughing fit.
S7en glared at him through watery eyes, rasping, âFugk you.â
Elex just snorted, unfazed. âCâmon, sit your ass back down.â
S7en huffed, annoyed, but concededâpartly because he was too tired to keep arguing, but mostly because the food was almost here, and he was not letting Elex order something objectively terrible out of spite.
The smell of food hit first. The second Elex opened the door, the warm, greasy aroma filled the apartment, making S7enâs stomach tighten in anticipation.
They settled in, their usual chaotic banter tapering off into something comfortable, familiar, easy.
Elex picked a movieâsome ridiculous action flick with an actual stunt budget this time, S7en notedâand for the first time in days, S7en actually relaxed.
Until his nose itched.
Badly.
He froze mid-bite, the unbearable, creeping tickle flaring to life behind his sinuses, building way too fast.
Shit.
S7en barely managed to shove his plate onto the coffee table before his breath hitched sharply, his ears flattening as his body jerked forward.
Elex chuckled, not even glancing away from the screen. âBless you.â
S7en groaned, scrubbing furiously at his nose, already feeling the tickle threatening another round.
Another sharp inhaleâ
âHAHDTâtchiew!! HAHâtsschhiew!â
Elex snickered, shaking his head. âDude. Are you even eating anymore?â
S7en just glared at him, sniffling before finally grabbing his food again.
But the damage was done.
Between the sneezing and the growing warmth in his stomach, S7enâs exhaustion finally caught up with him. His limbs felt heavier, his blinks slower, and before he knew it, he had somehow ended up half-laying down, his head resting on Elexâs lap.
Elex didnât comment on it.
He just kept watching the movie, one hand idly moving to S7enâs hair, running his fingers through the tangled strands.
S7en sighed, melting into the touch, his ears twitching slightly as Elexâs fingers absentmindedly scratched at the base of them.
He didnât remember closing his eyes.
Didnât remember the movie ending.
Just the steady warmth of Elexâs lap and the slow, rhythmic drag of his fingers through his hair.
Thenâ
The tickle.
It built slowly, creeping back to life somewhere deep in his sinuses, sharp and relentless.
S7enâs breath hitched.
Oh, no.
Not now.
Not here.
Not while he was literally using Elex as a pillow.
His ears flattened, his tail curling tighter around himself as his breath trembled, fighting desperately against the overwhelming urge to sneeze.
But it was winning.
Shit.
S7en clenched his jaw, pressing his wrist hard against his nose.
âHhâNGXT! Ktchhh!âhâNNgch!â
The pressure spiked, throbbing through his sinuses, but he forced his body to stay still, stifling the rest down into silence.
âŠOr at least, he thought he did.
Untilâ
A low, familiar sigh from above.
ââŠDude.â
S7enâs heart sank.
Shit.
Slowly, hesitantly, he cracked one eye open.
Elex was staring down at him, unamused, brow slightly furrowed.
âSeriously?â
S7en winced, clearing his throat weakly. ââŠDidnât wanna wake you.â
Elex tilted his head, voice flat. âYou think thatâs what woke me up?â
S7en blinked. ââŠYes?â
Elex exhaled sharply, dragging a hand down his face. âGeezus Christ, dude.â
S7en sniffled, grumbling, âWhat.â
Elex gestured vaguely. âYour head was literally on my lap. I could feel you physically trying not to explode.â
S7enâs cheeks burned, his tail flicking sharply.
ââŠNot my fault your legs are too bony to absorb the impact.â
Elex scoffed, nudging his shoulder. âNot my fault youâre an idiot.â
S7en huffed, rubbing at his temple.
His head pounded, the self-inflicted pressure ringing in his ears.
Elex noticed.
S7en saw it in the way his expression softened slightly, his lips parting like he was about to say something.
But insteadâ
Elex just sighed again, shaking his head before gently shoving S7en back down onto the couch.
âGo back to sleep, dumbass.â
And S7en, with absolutely no energy left to fight, did exactly that.
S7en woke up with his body already fighting against him.
The headache was still there, dull but persistent, lingering behind his eyes like an uninvited guest. His throat burned, his chest ached, and every inhale still felt just a little too tightâbut it was better than before. Better than the hospital.
And that meant he was fine.
That meant he could get up, do things, prove to Elexâand to himselfâthat he wasnât some helpless burden.
So, the second Elex left to run errands, S7en forced himself upright, shaking off the exhaustion that clung to his limbs like lead. He ignored the way the room tilted slightly, ignored the way his chest protested, and made his way to the kitchen.
Dishes. There were dishes in the sink. He could do dishes.
Never mind that he had to lean against the counter for balance, or that his fingers trembled slightly when he reached for a plate. It was fine. He was fine.
Until he wasnât.
S7en barely made it through rinsing two plates before his breath hitched violently, his lungs locking up like rusted gears. His hands clamped down on the counter, knuckles white, as the coughing startedâdeep, raw, and completely unstoppable. His body lurched with the force of it, his chest burning as oxygen became an afterthought.
The plate in his hand slipped.
It shattered against the floor.
And, of courseâthat was exactly when Elex walked in.
Just in time to see S7en wobbling like a newborn deer, gripping the counter like it was the only thing keeping him upright.
His eyes narrowed. Immediately.
S7en, caught red-handed, tried to play it off.
"Chill, I was justâ"
"Sit your ass down."
It wasnât even angry. Just flat, exasperated, and completely done.
S7en barely managed to straighten up before Elex was right there, steering him firmly back to the couch like a misbehaving toddler.
He grumbled the entire way down, but Elex didnât care.
Instead, he pulled his phone from his pocket, tapped the screen a few times, andâ
BZZT BZZT.
S7en squinted at him. "âŠWhat was that?"
Elex, expression blank, held up the screen.
The alarm read: âS7EN MEDS. 3PM. NO EXCUSES.â
S7en blinked. Then blinked again.
"âŠYou set a fucking alarm?"
"Yep."
"Toâwhat, force-feed me medicine like Iâm a goddamn child?"
"If thatâs what it takes."
S7en stared.
Elex stared back, completely unfazed.
Then, without waiting for an argument, Elex grabbed the nearest prescription bottle, shook out the correct dose, and handed it to S7en along with the half-empty water bottle from earlier.
S7en groaned, dramatically flopping back against the cushions.
"You are such a pain in my ass."
"And you are a fucking menace," Elex shot back. "Now take your damn meds."
S7en grumbled something under his breath, but he took the pills anyway. Partly because he had no energy to argue. Partly because he knew Elex wouldnât let him off the hook.
As he swallowed them down, he sighed, rubbing the back of his burning-hot neck.
"âŠI dunno how youâre even standing this," he muttered, not looking at Elex. "You probably wanna burn your whole outfit after sitting this close to me."
Elex snorted. "Youâd think."
S7en hesitated. Then, quieterâalmost sheepish:
"âŠSorry."
For once, Elex didnât have a snarky response.
He just shook his head, sighing, before reaching over to mess up S7enâs already disaster-tier hair.
"Youâre a dumbass," he muttered.
S7en huffed, ears flicking.
But he didnât argue.
He kept his gaze fixed on his lap, fingers picking at a loose thread on the blanket draped over his legs.
He meant it. The apology.
He knew how Elex was about germs. Knew he was probably the last person in the world the badger wanted to be around right now. Hell, if the roles were reversed, S7en was pretty sure Elex wouldâve exiled him to the couch and disinfected the entire apartment on sight.
But instead, here he was.
Sitting barely a foot away, watching him like he actually gave a shit.
S7enâs throat felt tight, but not from the illness.
"...Sorry," he muttered again, softer this time.
For once, Elex didnât bite back.
No sarcasm, no snark, no immediate smartass remark.
Just a sigh. Then a hand in his hair, ruffling it up in a way that was almostâaffectionate.
"Again, youâre a dumbass," Elex murmured, voice gruff but not unkind.
S7en blinked, startled by the sudden shift, his ears flicking instinctively at the touch. He turned just enough to glance at Elexânoticing, maybe for the first time, just how exhausted he looked, too. The shadows under his eyes, the way his shoulders sat with a tension that had nothing to do with annoyance and everything to do with concern.
The realization sat uncomfortably in S7enâs chest.
Heâd been so focused on proving he wasnât a burden that he hadnât stopped to think about how much of a pain in the ass heâd been anyway.
S7en huffed, leaning just slightly into Elexâs touch before he could stop himself.
"...You didnât have to stay, yâknow," he muttered, almost embarrassed. "Couldâve just thrown cough drops at me from across the room or something."
Elex scoffed. "Yeah. Thatâs what I shouldâve done."
S7en smirked, just a little, but it was softer nowâless of a smirk, more of a quiet acknowledgment.
He still felt like shit. But at least now, he didnât feel like he had to deal with it alone.
For the rest of the night, S7en was weirdly compliant.
Took his meds without arguing. Didnât complain when Elex adjusted his pillows. Even let himself be half-buried under the weighted blanket without making some snide comment about suffocation.
And Elex didnât trust it for a second.
He narrowed his eyes as he sat down on the couch across from him, cracking open a can of some disgusting energy drink he probably shouldnât be drinking at one in the morning.
âYouâre being suspiciously cooperative,â he muttered, watching S7en like he was waiting for him to snap back into his usual brand of stubborn bullshit.
S7en just shrugged weakly, tugging the blanket higher like he was trying to disappear inside it.
"Yeah, well," he mumbled, voice thick with congestion and something else. "Turns out fighting you on this whole thing was kind of a massive dick move."
Elex raised an eyebrow. âYou donât say.â
S7en exhaled shakily, his ears flattening slightly. He stared down at the blanket in his lap, his fingers fidgeting with a loose thread.
âI justâŠâ he started, then hesitated, chewing the inside of his cheek.
Elex waited. Didnât rush him.
And then, S7en crumbled.
His shoulders sagged, and when he spoke again, his voice was softer, rawer.
ââŠI just wanted you to have a good birthday.â
Elex blinked, caught off guard by the sudden shift.
S7en swallowed hard, shaking his head.
"I tried so hard to make it perfect," he whispered, his fever-flushed face twisting in frustration. "And all I did wasâruin it. I passed out in the middle of the fucking party. You spent your whole damn birthday sitting in a hospital with me for two days while my lungs tried to fucking kill me, and I was a complete asshole the entire time becauseâbecause I didnât wantâ"
His voice cracked. His breathing hitched.
âI didnât want another thing making me thisâweak, fragile thing that everyone has to tiptoe around."
The words came fast, unraveling all at once, like he had been holding them back for far too long.
His ears flattened further, his tail curling tight against his side. His vision blurred, burning hot and heavy, and before he could stop itâa tear slipped down his cheek.
S7en gritted his teeth hard, like he could will himself to keep it together.
But it was too late.
S7en groaned, dragging the blanket higher over his face like it could physically shield him from the absolute disaster this night had become. His chest still ached, every breath too tight, too shallow, his limbs shaking from exhaustion and fever.
And now? Now he was crying.
Like some pathetic, fragile thing that couldnât even hold himself together.
He sniffled hard, but it didnât do muchâhis nose was already a mess, congestion weighing heavy behind his eyes, his entire face burning.
"Iâm sorry, ElâŠ" he rasped, voice cracking painfully.
Elex, predictably, just snorted.
"Nah. This is new. Iâm not used to emotional S7en. Kinda nice, actually. You should be pathetic more often.â
S7en let out a weak, miserable wheeze of a laugh, half-buried beneath the blanket. But the moment the breath left him, his face twisted again, another surge of heat rushing behind his eyes.
He sucked in a shaky inhale, gripping the fabric of the blanket so tightly his fingers ached.
âFuck,â he muttered, his voice barely above a whisper.
Elex blinked, the teasing smirk dropping instantly.
And then, before S7en could stop itâbefore he could shove it down like he always didâthe words came tumbling out.
"Iâm so sorry," he whispered, voice hoarse and broken.
Elex froze.
S7en sniffled again, his breath shuddering, his ears flattening against his skull as the weight of everything crashed down on him all at once.
"Iâfuck, I ruined everything,â he choked, his throat closing up mid-sentence. "Your birthday, the party, all of itâI justâI wanted it to be perfect for you. And insteadâ"
His hands curled tighter into the blanket, his shoulders trembling.
"Instead you spent two days in a fucking hospital waiting for me to breathe properly. Instead of having fun, you wereâsitting there, watching me, waiting for me to fuckingâ"
His voice broke completely, his vision swimming, his face already damp with fever and tears.
âYou didnât deserve that,â he rasped, hiccupping on the inhale. "I shouldâve justâI shouldâve told youâ"
His breath hitched hard.
And then it all went to hell.
The crying set off a coughing fitâa violent, wrecking thing that tore through his lungs like fire. His chest seized, his ribs protesting the force, his body curling in on itself as he fought for air.
The second cough didnât even fully land before the next one slammed into him, then another, then anotherâtoo fast, too deep, too much.
His vision blurred completely, a horrible static rising in his ears as the burning in his chest tightenedâtightenedâ
Fuck.
Fuck.
He couldnât breathe.
The panic set in immediately, his claws digging into the fabric of the blanket, his body locked in a frantic, gasping spiral. He couldnât stop coughing, couldnât inhale properly, couldnâtâ
Elex was there in a second.
"Heyâhey, hey, breatheâS7enâslow down, you gotta slow downâ"
S7en shook his head wildly, his hands gripping Elexâs hoodie on instinct, but it wasnât working. His body wasnât listening. Every breath came out short and frantic, his chest spasming like a malfunctioning engine.
He heard his own name, Elexâs voice breaking through the haze, but the static was getting louder, the world tilting dangerously, his lungs refusing toâ
Thenâsomething pressed against his lips.
"Inhale. Now."
S7en barely had time to process before the quick burst of medicated air hit his lungs.
He gasped. Choked. His hands shook violently, his tail flicking frantically as his body fought to cooperate.
Elex gave him another hit, then another, rubbing circles into his back, muttering something grounding and firm.
âThatâs it, kidâjust breatheââ
SlowlyâpainfullyâS7enâs lungs unclenched.
The hitching eased.
His muscles unlocked.
And when he finally, finally took a full inhaleâit actually fucking worked.
S7en collapsed back against the couch, his entire body trembling, his breath still unevenâbut at least it was breath.
Elex let out a heavy sigh, dragging a hand down his face.
Then, in true Elex fashion, he let out a sharp scoff.
"Geezus, your feverâs really cranking up the dramatics," he muttered, shaking his head. "Itâs never been this easy to tell how youâre feeling."
S7en, still wrecked, let out a weak, exhausted wheeze of a laugh.
"Go fuck yourself."
Elex grinned.
"Yeah, yeah. Love you too."
S7en was spent.
Completely and utterly drained. His body felt like a bag of lead, every muscle too heavy, too sore, too exhausted to do anything except exist.
But for the first time in days, he wasnât fighting it.
His breath still wasnât perfect, but it was steady. His fever still lingered, but it was manageable. His body still ached, but for once, he didnât feel like he had to push through it alone.
So when Elex moved to get up, S7en half-heartedly grabbed at his hoodie sleeve, murmuring something unintelligible.
Elex paused, glancing down at him.
âDâyou need something?â
S7en, barely awake, flicked his tail weakly.
âDonâtââ he mumbled into the fabric of the couch, already half-asleep before he could even finish the sentence.
Elex huffed, but instead of teasing him like he normally would, he just sighed, shaking his head.
âAlright, alright,â he muttered, shifting just enough to get comfortable.
He grabbed a stack of pillows, carefully arranging them on his lap, then nudged S7en toward them.
The cat didnât even argue.
Didnât crack a joke, didnât make a snide remarkâjust weakly adjusted himself, resting his head on the pillows, his breath slow and deep.
Elex pulled the blanket up over him, making sure it covered his shoulders, his arms, even his tail. Then, without thinking, he carded his fingers through S7enâs hair, slow and lazy.
The soft purring that followed was instant.
Elex snorted, a small, amused smirk pulling at his lips.
âUnbelievable,â he muttered under his breath.
But his voice wasnât mocking.
It was fond.
And when he finally let his own eyes slip shut, his fingers still idly combing through S7enâs hair, he barely had time to register the exhaustion catching up to him before he, too, drifted off.
The room was quiet.
The air was warm.
And for the first time in days, neither of them had to fight anything.
I donât know why but Iâm in love with Sven lately..so if you can and if you like the idea of course could you draw a Sven been struggling to sneeze because heâs been having trouble to sneezing so Elex needs to help him to finally release that sneezes please? âšđ«ą