#sabaw thoughts

[disneyprincessisdead]

sanay naman akong hindi mapansin wala ng bago dun pero ang sakit pa din. Kahit alam mo na yung mangyayari iniisip mo kasi na baka may magbago pa, na baka may pag asa kaya ayan ka tatanga tanga forever umaasa kahit alam mo namang babalewalain ka lang nya

[dyuleeenggg]

Please don't be confused. People always think that I don't want to get along with them, but what they don't understand is going on break alone is really my thing. 😆😆😆

[dyuleeenggg]

Oooppss! Sandali lang! Pwede naman mag pahinga, 'wag padalos-dalos kasi baka magka-galos.

Alalahanin kapag ito'y malalim, ito'y mahirap gamutin, sa sakit baka muka mo'y di maiwasang mangulimlim.

Kaya inu-ulit ko, sandali lang!, Ikaw muna ay mag pahinga, kumilos ka kapag sigurado'y dadamin ay panatag na.

[dyuleeenggg]

It's been a while

Hey! Yeah it's been a while since my last post here.

Been very busy with my "work life". Well I decided to visit my blog again and share an update about myself (Even though you're not really interested. ✌)

There's a lot of things happened for the past months. I was transferred to a different program that has offered a permanent restdays. The good thing about that It's weekend. Actually, I had the chance spending more time in BED (one of the good reasons). 😂😂😂 I can now make some plans every weekend. Yey!!! Happy kiddo.

Actually 'yun lang naman ang gusto ko i-share. I just wanna let you know guys that I'm still alive and I really miss posting nonsense stuffs here. 😆😆😆

Ok bye!

[disneyprincessisdead]

Thoughts #1

I want to live.

I just want to live.

I want to see the world

I want to know what life really means

I don’t want to spend the rest of my life sitting in my bed watching some shit in my computer screen and watch people fight over some petty things.

I want to socialize, discover new things, and get out of my comfort zone.

Insecurities, stress, depression and anxiety is what I’ve got from being at home

In a home where my family can always see what i'm doing, what i’m up to, where i'm trapped.

So do I really call it a home? Where i’m safe but also trapped. 

I feel suffocated not being able to do the things i want to.

I love you guys but I love myself too so i’m sorry if I get mad at you for trying to tame me.

Your reasoning’s out of this world. Not because bad things happened to you it means that it’ll happen to me too

We’re very much different so stop comparing my life and yours

Through the 19 years of my existence I've been continuously going with the flow.

Stay at home. Study. Home. Study. And again and again and again until I've reached where I am today

Sure I've visited some places but i cant even recall the memories as it wasn’t as fun as i thought it would be.

I've made a lot of sacrifices. My dreams will forever remain as dreams because it was too late and now i'm stuck at this place waiting for the time to be set free.

Waiting until stress and depression eat me. 

But I will be alright... I'll be alright. 

I know I will

[siemsayko]

Yakapin mo ‘ko...

Nang mahigpit.

Na para bang ayaw mo ‘kong mawalay sa iyong tabi...

Na para bang takot kang mawala ako sa iyong gilid...

Na para bang ako lang ang tao sa iyong paligid.

Yakapin mo ‘ko...

Nang matagal.

Na para bang ayaw mo na ‘kong pakawalan...

Na para bang sabik ka sa yakap ng isang nangangailangan.

Na para bang ayaw mong isiping aabot sa hangganan.

Yakapin mo ‘ko...

Nang nakapikit.

Hanggang sa balikat ko’y ikaw ay makaidlip...

Hanggang sa lumalim na ang gabi...

at ako’y wala na sa iyong tabi.

Ang yakap mo sa akin...

Ay onti-onti kong papakawalan...

Onti-onti kong bibitawan.

Dahil ang yakap mo sa’kin, hatid ay kaginhawaan,

Ngunit ang yakap ko sayo’y sasaktan ka lamang.

Dahil ang yakap mo sa’kin,ay hindi ko malilimutan.

Ngunit ang yakap ko sayo’y, kusang ika’y lilimutan.

Salamat mahal, ngunit kailangan ko nang lumisan.

Baon ang iyong yakap na puno nang pag-iingat.

Puno nang pag-gabay at pagmamahal na ‘di ako iiwanan.

[dyuleeenggg]

“SABAW”

Minsan inu-ulam, kasama sa hapag kainan, Masarap sa tag-lamig.

Pero Kadalasan utak ko. :D Tinatamad ako, walang mga Ideas na pumapasok sa utak ko for layouts. Deadline tomorrow, but until now wala pang idea. 

[a-rain-nako]

Sinimulan ngunit hindi tatapusin, Yan ang pag-ibig na namamagitan sa atin. Hindi kailanman lilimutin, At ang mga pangarap ay ating tutuparin. Kahit pa ang iba ay may sabihin, Pikit mata itong tatanggapin, Hindi ko na lamang sila lilingunin, Dahil hindi ko sila pipilitin, Na paniwalain, Sa isang bagay na alam naman natin, Na hindi panlilinlang ang gawain. Isang pakiramdam ang aking naramdaman, Hindi ito pamilyar sa sistemang kinagisnan, Tila ba ang aking katawan, Ay nanibago ng una itong nasilayan. Ngunit 'di kalaunan ay aking din namang nalaman. Pag-ibig pala ang terminong karapat-dapat, Sa mga pahiwatig ng damdaming nag aalab, Mga naramdaman ay nagiging sapat, Aking nagagawa ang mga dapat, Para ialay sa'yo ang pag ibig na tapat.