Does A Dimming "Light-Work"?
Madali akong kausap.
Pero kung pahihirapin mo lang ang napakasimpleng issue dahil lang sa insecurities and shits na hindi mo maayos-ayos on your own, don't expect me to come begging for you.
For you to actually make an effort to LISTEN and THINK CLEARLY.
I don't waste time and energy for those who can't AT LEAST help me work on what needs to be fixed.
HAPPINESS is a choice, though a lot of people stops just there, not really thinking about the REAL POSSIBILITIES and what comes after.
WE CANNOT STOP AND STAY IN JUST ONE MOMENT OF HAPPINESS, I wish we could, but NO.
We BREATHE even though we want to die most of the time.
We MOVE our limbs even though we lack of energy to get through one day.
WE'VE GOT TIME.
WE ARE OUR OWN TIME.
Yet you chose to stay frail and sick and drag everybody else into your void of shattered dreams.
DREAMS ARE FOR THOSE WHO ARE ASLEEP.
YOU HAVE YOUR EYES WIDE OPEN, yet you chose to be blinded by the darkness of your own negativity.
Nalulungkot ako kapag kasalanan ko dahil hindi ko naexecute ng maayos yung goal ko or yung effort ko sa isang tao na kailangan ako.
Pero mas nakakalungkot isipin na kahit nag-effort ka, dahil lang sa kasakiman nilang mas mabigyan sila ng halaga bukod tangi sa lahat ng mayroon ka, nagmumukha kang masama sa mundo nila.
Totoo man o hindi, I can't blame them.
Masarap kasing mabuhay sa mundo kapag pakiramdam mo espesyal ka even just for a day. Paano pa kaya kung madalas?
Pero naisip kaya nila? Isa lang ako.
Mortal. Napapagod. Nahihirapan. Tumutulong.
May sarili akong buhay at hindi ako limitado para lang sa iisang tao.
Hindi ako limitado para sa iisang direksyon lamang at kulay. I appreciate everyone and see them as who they really are.
Nanumpa ako kay Gaia na gagawin ko lahat ng makakaya ko maliwanagan lang lahat ng nasa dilim as long as nagkukusa silang magtiwala. Nanumpa ako kapalit ng paninirahan ko dito.
Vowed that as long as I live and breathe, I will make this life worthy for those who needs light-work. Every time I think of giving up, I will pay them light.
Pero mahirap talaga to.
Iba-iba kasi ng expectation ang mga mortal.
Likas na sakim at mapanira.
Ikukulong ka nila sa ideya na hindi mo naman katotohanan hanggang piliin mo na lang maging masama.
I ALWAYS GIVE THEM CHANCE YET I ALWAYS STAND CORRECTED BY MY OWN SENSE OF CARE AND JUDGMENT.
This is why I dislike rudeness and negative people.
The fact that I can easily absorb everything makes me vulnerable to those that continuously creates havoc even at the most sound and peaceful place. They are my disease.
BUT WHEN THEY SMILE?
Knowing I've caused them a tiny spark of light?
Knowing at least for a moment, the negativity was gone?
It's all that I need to keep going.
Sabi ko katawan ko lang ang susuko pero hindi ako mapapagod.
This is why I push myself to work harder.
Not everyone will make an effort to make you feel special.
Not everyone can do the same for me but at least I can for them.
OR SO I THOUGHT 😔
