Flashback to that delusion I had that there was a little black ghost kitty that was my friend. I love when my psychosis isn't a fucking horror movie come to life or fueled by horrific trauma. Sometimes. It's just seeing your dead guinea pig and feeling as if she's still there or feeling like there's a magical black cat ghost that's watching over you and taking care of you. Sometimes it's nice. Sometimes it's just hearing voices having a conversation, like a weird family bbq that doesn't really exist. Sometimes it's just hearing music when it's not there.
It's not very common in america and not very talked about for schizo folks to have non scary delusions and hallucinations. But like. It's very much a real experience. It doesn't have to be scary to be a real part of schizospec shit. And I know it's more common in other cultures for them to be less scary. Always thought my "good" delusions and hallucinations meant I didn't count. But they're just as a real part of schizospec and psychosis as the scary parts. They may make me jump sometimes, but they're much nicer to experience. Sometimes it's the hallucination of someone petting you or holding you. Sometimes it's just nice to have more neutral or positive and safe hallucinations and delusions.
When most of mine are paranoid and scary and especially related to trauma and flashbacks, it's nice to have ones that simply just are and can even be comforting.
