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Today’s HC: Hongo has a lot of nightmares, which I think anyone would expect for someone in his situation. His nightmares are often related to Shocker, but also related to his friends. Like his friends telling him he’s a monster and being scared of him, including Taki and Tachibana. Then at the end there’s Hayaro, who acts very cold unlike the real Hayato and blames Hongo for his suffering, asking why he couldn’t save him? Then Hongo will wake up. Most nights he wakes up alone, but when Hayato happens to be in Japan or he’s traveling with him or something he feels a familiar pair of arms around him and his partner tells him “It’s okay. I’m right here.” And he’ll ask Hongo if he wants to talk about it. Usually Hongo will say no, and Hayato understands. So he’ll continue holding Hongo, stroking his hair soothingly, giving him forehead kisses, etc and they’ll fall asleep like that.

Also Hongo will apologize for “troubling” Hayato and Hayato will say “You’d do the same for me.”

I like that headcanon so much, I decided to write this small bite fic out of inspiration from it:

"Ouch! That hurts!" At the boy exclamation, Hongo quickly removed his hold over him.

The boy came with Ruriko and Hiromi, citing how his older sister got eaten by the ground. In an attempt to cheer the child, they went to his and his older sister's living arrangement to check if the boy's sister had arrived, and hopefully her being eaten was just an overactive imagination that children have. An unfortunate truth was given: the boy's testimony holds true, and Hongo suspects it to be SHOCKER Kaijin's doing.

To observe the surroundings, to hear facts from the child that he has no relatives but his older sister, to give an acknowledgement of the older sister's strength in raising her younger brother, to stand in as his mother and father, to abandon the simple role of an older sister just to raise her only family member right. Hongo swears to bring this child's sister back alive and SHOCKER down, so no more people can suffer at their hands. However...

"Ouch! That hurts!"

How can he say these resolves when Hongo should be wary of himself first? Hongo thought to give away his autonomy for the greater good. If he had been irrevocably changed into something he doesn't recognise, but can still do good with it, he'll accept it. But Hongo had forgotten; this body had been made by the hands of SHOCKER. He isn't human any longer; he's a machine made to do deeds unforgivable to any seeing eye. The difference between him and the others would be that his brain modification lacks loyalty to the evil organisation; however, he's still as monstrous as them. He---

"Hongo-san, how could you!" Ruriko shouted indignantly as she held the boy protectively.

"I-no... Ruriko-san--!" Hongo tried to approach but held himself back, afraid that he would hurt her, despite having no intention to do so.

However, Hiromi read Hongo's intentions off and got between him and Ruriko, shielding her best friend and the child away from Hongo's shy gaze.

"Don't come any closer!" Hiromi tremblingly demanded, her stance and glare screaming protectiveness despite how her body trembled in fear.

Hongo's robotic stomach churned unpleasantly. Hongo couldn't really find himself to defend. After all, they're right to be wary of him. He shouldn't be allowed to be near humans, especially fragile children.

"Get away from them!" Came a familiar, protective father voice shouted.

Hongo usually perk up hearing Tachibana's voice since the older man had watched over him after his parents' death. This time, Hongo could only feel undeniable horror hearing his voice, as the older man pushed him away from the girls and the child.

"Ah! Wait, Takeshi?!" Tachibana exclaimed in confused shock.

As the older man was about to spout apologies for misunderstanding the situation and help Hongo up from the ground, Ruriko spat the truth out.

"Don't, Master! He's a monster!" Ruriko held the boy tightly.

Tachibana looked conflicted at his employee’s words, “Ruriko, Takeshi isn’t a monster.”

“Yes, he is! He hurt me!” A boyish voice chimed in, the child in hand showed his bruised arms to Tachibana.

Tachibana's eyes shuttered, hurt at the sight of the bruises before closing them off and opening them to look coldly at Hongo, who had already gotten up from the ground.

“Oyaji—“

“—I should’ve known…” Tachibana interrupted before whatever Hongo could utter anything.

“I should’ve known you’re no longer the Takeshi I have looked over the years,” Hongo felt like his robotic heart beat out of programmed rhythm upon hearing such words from someone he cared for. Someone he looked up to.

Hongo, despite being a cyborg, a being of logic, was acting irrationally as he tried to take a step forward, desperate to explain himself to the older man. If he lose this familial relationship, then he'd be alone. He can't—!

*BANG! BANG!*

"Get away from them, Shocker!" Hongo stared at the bullets that shot to his feet.

"Taki?" Hongo shakily recognised his long-time friend. However, Taki wasn't wearing a friendly face but a hostile attitude, seeing Hongo as something else.

Everything is too much. Everything...everything was falling. This feels like a dream, but Hongo know this to be reality when everything—everyone reactions is reasonable. When everything holds truth. Hongo isn't safe around anyone. It's better to fight alone.

To...fight...alone...

"Hongo." His name being called out by this person shook Hongo Takeshi's soul.

Takeshi wants to melt or cry at such a gentle and warm call. Takeshi feels terribly selfish to have this man by his side.

"Why did you save me?" It's terrible to be alone. It's terrible that Takeshi is incredibly selfish when he saved Ichimonji Hayato.

It hurts badly when the younger man's tone holds no malice, only a soft curious tone that stabs Takeshi's consciousness.

"I'm sorry..." Takeshi can only say.

"Why did you save me?" Hayato repeated, and Takeshi could only repeat his apology as well.

Takeshi can only apologise for his selfish desire not to be alone on this hellish road. To be sorry for such a thing happened to Hayato and be happy that he is no longer alone.

Apologies ruminated in Hongo's head as he opened his eyes, his breath stilled to see his bedroom's grey ceiling.

A dream.

A terrible dream that Hongo absently reach out his connection to Hayato. Before Hongo realised it and take it back, Hayato had already noticed his selfish reaching.

"Hongo? What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, Ichimonji, just startled to accidentally contact you." Hongo uttered no lie; however, he can feel the younger man's concern for him despite his reassurance that nothing was wrong.

"Hongo..."

Hongo pursed his lips to hold back the truth he hadn't mentioned, but Hayato is a force that, despite not being in the same vicinity, Hongo still feels compelled to tell everything to the younger man. A charming point of Hayato that Hongo had already quickly noted upon their first meeting.

"It's just a dream I had," Hongo managed to say and it honestly felt like Hayato already knew what kind of dreams Hongo meant.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Hayato is tactful. Hongo admires that.

They both know that Hayato had already figured out what made the dream so startling for Hongo to call Hayato absentmindedly. However, Hayato is also great at making people comfortable with him. That includes Hongo.

"No..." Hongo's guilt shrivels to selfishness. It's relieving to be honest, as it's selfish to rely on Hayato's comfort.

"Okay..."

It's a painful short silence that Hongo shamefully hugs the connecting presence of Hayato in comfort.

"You know, I had a funny interaction with a kid today," Hayato began, likely picking up Hongo's deprecating thoughts and thought the best course of action would be distraction.

"...what kind of interaction?" Hongo honestly doesn't deserve him. For all of Hayato's patience.

"Well, I wanted to take a picture..."

By the time Hayato shared his adventures in Egypt, Hongo had forgotten about his dream. Typically, this is where Hongo apologises for bothering the other man, and Hayato assures that Hongo would've done the same for him if he had reached out. And frankly, Hongo wants to break that routine, since Hongo is pretty sure Hayato wouldn't appreciate this same song and dance. Which is why Hongo decided to start talking about a platypus to be coloured sea green.

Hongo was glad about his decision, considering he felt Hayato's pleasant surprise and delight at his ramblings. It's nice not to be alone.

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A Bad Hand

The universe is cruel.

Always giving them a bad hand.

They thought their first incarnation would be fine. The 1987 incarnation were going so well, a few insecurities, but manageable, like their Shredder and Krang. Until a destructive season came. They call that blasted season "The Red Sky season." It lasted almost like 3 lifetimes for them.

It was unfortunately the season the 1987 had lasted, as they suddenly meet the 1987. It wasn't peaceful meeting seeing how their life lasted, but they quickly befriended them when they explain the situation to the 1987.

There was a second incarnation. 2003 was to alike them for their comfort. This incarnation didn't last long as the first, but they somehow got more trauma the 1987 incarnations. Especially Donatello...

The universe seems to decided to stop this incarnation, much to their fury. 2003 were healing, they were joking and having fun, even if there's still the usual danger.

The only good thing to say is the fact their meeting with 2003 is a lot more mellow than 1987 incarnation. Though they didn't like how demean to the first incarnation. Then again, the 1987 that the second incarnation had met are fake, the same could be said with their fakes.

The third incarnation came after 5 years at the end of 2003. They have some questions to the universe on why She decided to make them so... dimensional?

Oh the horror when they learned what 2012 had been eating for 15 years straight. Their horror on what they heard Shredder has done to Hamato Yoshi's family. Damn the universe on making them only see what she chooses to let them see.

The universe might hate 2012 or is it love? Seeing how much the 2012 had lost and injured. They also had an unfortunate early meeting of 2012 Splinter. Since his time has ended early.

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If the universe has a corporal form, they would love to main it. That sadistic being showed them a maybe doomed timeline of 2012. After that, she then proceed to make the next incarnation! She didn't bother answering their question if that's how their their incarnations world would end or a timeline! At this, they couldn't help but bitterly realized on how she likes giving them a bad hand. After all the things they and all their incarnations had overcome, the ending is just...!

They're cautious with the fourth incarnation. It's so different from the other incarnations. It's colourful, bright, fun, and freeing... Instead naming the incarnation the year , they had given it the name Rise. Over time they lower their guard. The Shredder didn't really seem to give Rise any trauma, despite having a demon looking face, the armour gave no psychological attack.

That is until Rise Karai's death. And then their Krang... Shell...

And then the Universe just went on to make another one...

They couldn't help but see a pattern of each incarnation span getting reduced. There is also the pattern of giving Trauma. They can only hope for the next incarnation, but knowing the universe? She would probably give false mercy.

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Thought: Hongo going on a scientific rant on something he finds interesting and Hayato listening to him info dump :)

The fire crackles, filling the stale air of the night in Africa’s desert. Hongo Takeshi watches the sticks he had gathered burn to grey and blacken ashes. Some of these ashes flew down, gathering in the pits of the heat, while some were carried to the air. If it weren’t for Hongo’s cybernetic enhancements, any human being would mistake these flying ashes for dragonflies. Many don’t know why these ashes still glow, nor why it flies up. However, Hongo does. Even before he turned into a cyborg, Hongo’s mind had always answered these questions rather quickly.

When something burns, the fire heats up nearby solid particles and creates hot gases. The hot gases rise because they are less dense than cooler air, and they carry tiny ash particles upwards. Some of those ash particles can still be hot enough to emit visible light, especially red or orange light, which is why they look like they are glowing. In layman’s terms, if the bits are still very hot, those ashes can glow for a bit before cooling down.

Although ashes aren’t large enough to be mistaken for dragonflies. The buzzing and pressure of the wind from their wings aren’t felt from these char materials; no one but children can mistake them for dragonflies. Hongo was no different when he was a child. However, due to Hongo’s obsession with animals, he was able to quickly identify what a dragonfly is and is not. He can tell the difference between a lamp fly and a dragonfly from the wind pressure they give. In all honesty, Hongo couldn’t help but reminisce about how his mother often scolded young Takeshi for going out on an adventure to just collect bugs and let them fly over his face to familiarise them with the sounds of buzzing and wind pressure alone.

 “Here,” came a familiar warm voice, accompanied by a metal mug that suddenly obscured Hongo’s view.

Looking at who’s holding the metal mug, Takeshi lets go of his nostalgia and yearning for his childhood away to give Ichimonji Hayato a smile of gratitude before accepting the metal mug.

“Thank you,” Takeshi let human instinct take over and blew over the steaming curry. After a few blows, Takeshi deemed the curry to be cool enough to eat.

When Hongo was alone in Europe, he generally didn’t eat. Even with others' insistence, there was no reason for a cyborg to eat, nor was there time for luxury for him to pretend to be human when Shocker was still running around. After Shocker and Gel-Shocker, Takeshi let himself enjoy life again, only to be suddenly confronted by the sudden emergence of Destron. Hongo revert back that anything human convenience is too luxurious. However, with Hayato with him, Takeshi was quickly scolded for such a mentality, and was now forced to eat and sleep like any proper human being should. Because “Hongo Takeshi. You’re a modified human being not a modified robot.” are Hayato’s wise words.

“What were you thinking about?” Hayato casually questioned, making Takeshi pause eating for a bit.

Was it obvious that Takeshi was reminiscing about something, or did Hayato know something from their telepathic bond? Either way, Hayato always seem to know what’s up with him, considering Takeshi sees the man to be a strange but welcoming fellow that he can easily get along with.

“Dragonflies,” Takeshi answered after a minute of silence.

Hayato tilted his head curiously, “What about them?”

“Well…” Takeshi’s eyes flickered at the flying glowing ashes before looking back at Hayato’s curious black eyes, eyes that Takeshi sometimes swears are blue, “Just how often they are mistaken with char.”

“Ah,” Hayato’s lips twitched to a beautiful curve, “With how they still glow for a bit, I suppose they can be seen as dragonflies.”

Takeshi smiled at Hayato’s words.

The two men fell into comfortable silence; not even the crackling fire could break their comradeship.

“… Can you tell me about them?” Hayato asked, as Takeshi took his and his own empty metal mugs to pack them way to wash them tomorrow.

“Well... Dragonflies are a suborder of Anisoptera. Anisoptera are a group of insects which comprises the dragonflies. But here’s the thing, Anisoptera is a suborder within the order Odonata. The order of Odonata is comprised with two different suborders. Anisoptera and Zygoptera. I’ll get to the suborder of Zygoptera later; we’ll focus on Anisoptera first.” Takeshi clarified which Hayato hummed in responses.

“So, the dragonfly is an aerial predatory insect. It should be noted that any of a group of roughly 3,000 species of aerial predatory insects are most commonly found near freshwater habitats throughout most of the world. The dragonfly’s characteristics are rather distinguishable and beautiful. The same can be said for damselflies, the suborder of Zygoptera. But I’ll get on to them later as well,” Takeshi gushed.

“Adult dragonflies have long bodies with two narrow pairs of intricately veined, membranous wings that, while generally transparent, and have coloured markings. Their wings spread horizontally, although the exception to this would be a very small family being the Epiophlebiidae, where their wings are held vertically against each other rather than horizontally spread.”

“Back to general speaking, adult dragonfly wings are diversely coloured in a variety of shades, ranging from metallic to pastel colours tones. When you compare their wings to other insects, they’re quite large. Some even have a wingspan of up to sixteen centimetres, and their smallest wingspan is twenty millimetres. Fascinatingly enough, a dragonfly’s wing muscle must be warm to function optimally, which is the fascinating part. When it’s cold, it engages in wing-whirring and or basking in the sun to generate heat before taking flight. They also have huge bulging eyes that occupy most of their heads, giving some a field of vision approaching 360 degrees.”

“Generally speaking, have quite a powerful build for being a strong flier. Its speed and agility contribute to its being one of the most effective aerial predators.”

If Takeshi had human lungs, he would’ve taken multiple breaths to talk about any general knowledge of an insect and animal lover. However, a perk of being a cyborg at this time, Takeshi can talk about anything without stopping. Speaking without any stops and finally stopping talking, Takeshi noticed Hayato was listening attentively to his rant. The younger man’s attentive stare was rather flustering since Takeshi can rarely rant something random to anybody without losing their attention.

It seems Hayato caught on Takeshi’s fluster, as he gave a knowing smile but didn’t mention anything, “What about their life? Any other interesting facts?”

Takeshi brightens at the question.

The fire crackles; the stale night of the African desert is filled with chatter about scientific facts about dragonflies with an attentive audience. The fire isn’t the only thing that keeps these love bugs warm.

I honestly struggled with this ask because I had no idea how to draw this. Hence, I decided the solution would be fanfiction. Fanfiction is always the solution. The information on dragonflies is taken from Britannica. Ngl, writing this made me realise about V3's powers a lot.

[junsei-draws-rotasu]

When you're trying to make a fusion au if Kamen Rider Deb-O and KHR but you gotta build it up berfire canon divergance in KHR plot so you screamed because you just want to gi straight to the point

AHHHHHHH

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Wouldn’t it be funny for a crossover fanfic, the 2012 Turtles are called the Dead Turtles or something related to death because all of them canonically died.

Like, imagine:

“I wonder how death would feel like..” A Michelangelo wondered out loud.

“Mm, depends how you die. I died getting my atoms ripped apart. 0/10 experience. Wouldn’t recommend” Dee casually said, as the genius sipped the pot of coffee, unbothered at the concerned looks he’s getting.

“Dude…” Micheal (07 Mikey)

“If you want other death sequence, you can ask my brothers,” Dee suggested, “Although it’s likely they will say 0/10 experience like me… Except Mickey, he might say it was cool.”

And so, the nickname Dead turtle gang become a thing.

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I'm so out of practice. Trying to write a dead Gojo AU. This one would be my first complete fic since this would only have 3 chapters in it and with the outline pretty much done, I can finish it within the summer holidays.

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The original is the blue (Me) and the red is my beta. This is Dead Gojo AU btw.

Guess which one has a reliable POV and un reliable POV ? :)

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It's been a while! Currently in kinda summer vacation right now, so I managed to visit back my drafts for this AU.

I'm very surprised to see my drafts to see I'm halfway down on the first episode. Anyway, does anyone want to beta? Preferably someone who has no bias against ROTMNT and 2012.