10 FUCKING YEARS OF YOUR LITTLE BROTHER NEVER TELLS YOU BUT HE LOVES YOU SO YOU SAID YOUR MOTHER ONLY SMILED ON HER TV SHOW YOURE ONLY HAPPY WHEN YOUR SORRY HEAD IS FILLED WITH DOPE I HOPE YOU MAKE IT TO THE DAY YOURE 28 YEARS OLD YOURE DRIPPING LIKE A SATURATED SUNRISE YOURE SPILLING LIKE AN OVERFLOWING SINK YOURE RIPPED AT EVERY EDGE BUT YOURE A MASTERPIECE AND NOW YOURE TEARING THROUGH THE PAGES AND THE INK EVERYTHING IS BLUE HIS PILLS HIS HANDS HIS JEANS AND NOW IM COVERED IN THE COLORS PULLED APART AT THE SEAMS AND ITS BLUE AND ITS BLUE EVERYTHING IS GREY HIS HAIR HIS SMOKE HIS DREAMS AND NOW HES SO DEVOID OF COLOR HE DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND HES BLUE AND HES BLUE YOU WERE A VISION IN THE MORNING WHEN THE LIGHT CAME THROUGH I KNOW IVE ONLY FELT RELIGION WHEN IVE LIED WITH YOU YOU SAID YOULL ~NEVER BE FORGIVEN TIL YOUR BOYS ARE TOO~ AND IM STILL WAKING EVERY MORNING BUT ITS NOT WITH YOU YOURE DRIPPING LIKE A SATURATED SUNRISE YOURE SPILLING LIKE AN OVERFLOWING SINK YOURE RIPPED AT EVERY EDGE BUT YOURE A MASTERPIECE AND NOW YOURE TEARING THROUGH THE PAGES AND THE INK EVERYTHING IS BLUE HIS PILLS HIS HANDS HIS JEANS AND NOW IM COVERED IN THE COLORS PULLED APART AT THE SEAMS AND ITS BLUE AND ITS BLUE EVERYTHING IS GREY HIS HAIR HIS SMOKE HIS DREAMS AND NOW HES SO DEVOID OF COLOR HE DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND HES BLUE AND HES BLUE….. YOU WERE RED AND YOU LIKED ME BECAUSE I WAS BLUE BUT YOU TOUCHED ME AND SUDDENLY I WAS A LILAC SKY AND YOU DECIDED PURPLE JUST WASNT FOR YOU!!!!! EVERYTHING IS BLUE HIS PILLS HIS HANDS HIS JEANS AND NOW IM COVERED IN THE COLORS PULLED APART AT THE SEAMS AND ITS BLUE!!!!! AND ITS BLUE!!!!! EVERYTHING IS GREY HIS HAIR HIS SMOKE HIS DREAMS AND NOW HES SO DEVOID OF COLOR HE DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND HES BLUE AND HES BLUE EVERYTHING IS BLUE EVERYTHING IS BLUE everything is blue… everything is blue………
❀ Self care is so important for the mind and body. As much as it is important to do external self care, we also need to take care of ourselves internally. Today I want to share some spiritual self care that I do in order to look after myself and my well-being.
˚˖𓍢ִ໋ MEDITATION 𓍢ִ໋˚˖
I think there is a lot of misinformation when it comes to the practice of meditation. People seem to think that your mind must be completely blank while meditating and that cannot be farther from the truth. Repeat after me, YOU MEDITATE TO CLEAR YOUR MIND, YOU DO NOT CLEAR YOU MIND IN ORDER TO MEDITATE. I learned this from one of my favorite manifestations YouTuber's, Nero Knowledge, and he compared your mind to a filing cabinet. With your filing cabitnet sometimes you put too many files in there, so you eventually need to make space for new files. In this case your mind is the filing cabinet, the files are your thoughts, and how you make room for new thoughts is to meditate.
❀ How do I meditate? ❀
Meditation is very simple and has many techniques that you can choose from. You can meditate to some relaxing music or vibrational rates. There is also guided meditation, you can find many of these on YouTube. There is also visualization meditation, usually used for manifestation, and you can meditate to an affirmation tape.
My favorite way to meditate is to sit in complete silence for a few minutes, sit down, close my eyes, and let my thoughts pass through. This gives me a couple of minutes every single day to just be an observer of my thoughts and clear out that mental filing cabinet.
As far as how long to meditate for, that is completely subjective. I typically mediate for 2-5 minutes a day, but some people love to mediate for 10 minutes plus. It's all in what works for you how your brain works.
˚˖𓍢ִ໋ POSITIVE SELF TALK 𓍢ִ໋˚˖
Whether people believe it or not the internal conversations you are having with yourself control the outcome of your life and how you view yourself. Implementing positive self talk in your life genuinely will chnage it for the better. This is something that I've added to my life and it has not only changed my physical appearance but more importantly my mental headspace. I sometimes think about the way I used to talk to myself and I am completely mortefied. The way I used to talk to myself was so ugly and degrading. Now I am muchmore patient with myself and I am definitely happier. In my opinion positive self-talk is one of the most important forms of self-care.
˚˖𓍢ִ໋ YOGA ˚˖𓍢ִ໋
Yoga was one of those things that I never understood. I never got how it could be relaxing and it just seemed like a workout to me. It wasn't until recently that I started adding yoga into my life and I can genuinely say that it has made my night routine so much better. It's also helped my joints, and made me much more flexible. I think it's the slow but conentrated movements that make me at ease and let my mind rest for a second. I trypically do it for 5 minutes, right before bed.
˚˖𓍢ִ໋ EFT TAPPING ˚˖𓍢ִ໋
EFT Tapping stands for Emotional Freedom Techniques. It is the practice of tapping on the acupuncture meridian points of your body. So the sides of your eyes, under your eyes, under your nose, under your arms, chin, eyebrows, collarbone, and the area betwen your pinky and wrist. People use EFT tapping when they are feeling stressed about a specific situation. I learned about EFT tapping through manifestaion coaches and have really implemented it into my life.
❀ How do I perform EFT Tapping? ❀
Basically all you'll want to do is, when you're feeling stressed out, go to a quiet space and start tapping on the specific acupuncture meridian points. You will want to tap for a couple of seconds at each point. While you are tapping you'll want to state just a few affirmations to yourself. EX: "It is okay that I am feeling this way", "I know this feeling will pass." I would say a new affirmation everytime you tap at a new point. I love to tap on my collarbone because I find that point calms me the most and the more you do it the more you'll discover which points work the best for you. I tyoically do this for about 2 - 5 minutes, but adjust that time as needed!
˚˖𓍢ִ໋ AROMA THERAPY ˚˖𓍢ִ໋
I love essential oils. I know they get a bad wrap because of all of the MLM schemes, but my god does it work on me. Whenever I have a clean earthy smell in my room, especially with lavender, my mood is infinitely better. It makes me feel more a peace and just like I got my life together. I know it sounds dramatic, but it's so true.
❀ Those are all my little 'Woo Woo' self-care tips I have that have helped improve my life.
It’s about to get so good, babe. It’s about to happen for you. I just need you to stay locked in. Stay focused, just a little bit longer. Don’t let the outside noise distract you. It’s all just noise any way. See it through. 🤍
Kepada semua orang yang pernah hadir dalam kehidupanku, terima kasih banyak ya. Terima kasih karena sudah mau berteman dan berkenalan denganku. Menjadi alasan dari sekian episode hidup yang ku lalui, sampai akhirnya hari ini aku menjadi pribadiku yang sekarang. Terima kasih sudah memberikan kenangan, pelajaran, keceriaan, tawa maupun tangis. Terima kasih banyak sudah mau menemaniku bertumbuh, berproses dengan segala keadaanku, keterbatasanku.
Semoga kalian semua selalu dalam penjagaan Allah, selalu Allah bimbing selalu di jalan Nya.
Dan, Aku memohon maaf kepada semuanya. Apabila selama bertemu kalian semua, banyak perkataan atau tindakanku yang mungkin melukai hati kalian. Semoga tetap ada hal baik yang kalian dapatkan dariku.
Semoga Allah bimbing dan jadikan kita sebagai hamba Nya yang pandai bersyukur pula taat.
Walaupun aku tau, kita semua tau, itu berat. Ketika kita tersadar sudah jauh, ingat Allah akan selalu ada, Allah akan selalu menunggu hamba Nya. Allah mencintai hamba Nya yang pendosa itu untuk kembali, untuk memohon ampunan Nya.
I haven’t forgotten you. The promise I made to start again, to treat myself better, to stop settling for less than I deserve. I know I’ve broken you a few times. I said I’d rest but kept pushing. I said I’d walk away but stayed. I said I’d choose you but kept putting everything else first.
But I’m trying. Maybe not perfectly. Maybe not every day. But I haven’t let go of you. You still live in the parts of me that believe there’s more. I’ll come back. I’ll keep coming back. And one day, I’ll hold you the way you’ve always needed. I’ll make you proud.
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