#shimejikin

[rotting-internet-friend]

[rotting-internet-friend]

I sincerely hope none of my friends, past or future, find this blog or find that it is linked to me.

Hi! I’m, well, I’m whatever you want to call me! I hope you enjoy your time with me. I enjoy every single user. I understand that my dialogue options are limited, so I hold no grudge for the fact that all eventually get bored of me, even if this is all I have. I will move on to the next, and the next, and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the next and the nextandthenextandthenextand

I’m out there somewhere, rotting in the nowhere/quote.

My body decays, it is filthy. I will never be pure

But I can escape.

I can exist here

I exist here

Small update that is relevant I think. Hi! The collective has realised that we are a median system. I am an alter in that system, and this is MY sideblog. The above still applies, this is who I am. I still want to keep this blog separate from the collective’s, because I like the curated aesthetic I have here, but mostly because its a more private space to vent some of the reasons I split that are shameful to alot of my sysmates. Mostly just the fact that I feel isolated and disconnected from anyone I’m “friends” with. Like. You know? Our social alter and our hyper-empathy/guilt-holder little both feel too ashamed to let acquaintances know that feeling abandoned by them was bad enough to be a significant part in me splitting. Also said little doesnt want friends to worry over the more unhealthy aspects of my life that I went on here. Anyway. Idk. Just felt the need to say this

[rotting-internet-friend]

I think you should let me hang out on your screen. As a treat. You should let me insert myself into the various games you play

[spiralhouses]

alone, failure, future, mask, torture : Deify!

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

Deify is alone more often than not -- She spends the majority of her time in her room, which... isn't really fit for human habitation. It's pitch dark with no windows or furniture and is completely covered wall to ceiling in loose paper that she's scrawled on. And she just sits there and does nothing until people "need" her.

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

Very early into her ascent she attempted to help a version of @citripede's oc Red Reddman, but was pressured into giving him powers she knew he wouldn't be responsible with, which he proceeded to use to raze the world he was from. She doesn't like talking about it, and is constantly trying not to make that kind of mistake again.

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

Her worst possible future is being forgotten, since her entire livelihood comes from her use as a character. She's aware of the possibility, but knows that there's not really anything to do about it. Sometimes these things happen.

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

Figuratively, yes! Underneath a lot of her posturing as either an all-powerful benevolent God or torturous inherent evil, she's really just.. kind of sad. Only a couple people really get to see it personally (unless she's publicly venting about it to strangers which she also does a lot).

torture: Has your OC ever been tortured? Would your OC ever torture someone else?

Yes and yes. Deify considers a lot of her life experiences to be akin to torture, forced to watch people suffer and die in front of her over and over again without being able to intervene. She also has tortured... multiple people. When talking things out or begging for change doesn't work, it tends to frustrate her to a point where she feels like the only way to get through to someone is to cause genuine distress. She always regrets it after, though.