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She sits quietly, trying to remember the girl she used to be—but that version of her feels distant now, like a dream she can’t quite reach. The days blur together in cycles of medication, fatigue, and careful pacing, where even small tasks carry a cost. Life no longer stretches outward with endless possibility; it folds inward, shaped by symptoms, limits, and the quiet negotiations her body demands. There was a time when she moved without thinking, when energy wasn’t something to measure or ration—but that memory fades a little more each day. Now, her world revolves around surviving it, adapting to it, and learning how to exist within a body that no longer feels like her own.
And she smiles and laughs the hardest sometimes on the days that are harder. The silent strength it takes to push through fatigue and pain. To choose to live a Life, even one that's different, because some days she just wants to live like she's not sick.
She is me...💙✨
High-functioning depression is a state where people dealing with depression, mask their symptoms and keep leading their normal life.
Trapped in My Own Silence
There are moments when silence becomes louder than words — when the things left unsaid weigh heavier than the things we dare to express. I’ve often found myself trapped in my own silence, unable to speak out, not because I have nothing to say, but because I’m too afraid to disturb the stillness.
Silence can feel safe. It can be a comfort zone where no one judges, no one interrupts, and no one expects. But it can also be a prison — a place where thoughts echo endlessly, unanswered. I learned this the hard way, especially during nights when overthinking becomes louder than the world itself.
Interestingly, we all cope with silence differently. Some write. Some create. Some distract themselves with games, stories, or the familiar comfort of routine. I, for one, sometimes find a sense of calm in online platforms, not just for entertainment, but as a place where the noise of the world can be paused — if only for a moment.
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We all get trapped in silence at some point. The key is to find a way out — not always through loud expressions, but sometimes through small, personal routines that remind us we’re still in control.
the beautiful innocence of a game
kids yelling and screaming
grass stains on your knees
your best friend being faster than all the boys
you are still a little bit taller than them
you know girls develop faster
a kickball the only thing on our minds
and boys vs girls just meant teams
the heartbreaking truth of a game
teenagers laughing and crying
you learn a whole new meaning to please
that same best friend has new favorite toys
wondering why they don't spare you a glance
you know boys like blondes
you learn what a first heartbreak feels like
and boys vs girls got a lot less fun
the ugly secrets of a game
adults loving and leaving
unfortunately on your knees
your best friend can't even get you to talk
and you wish you were still bigger than them
but you know boys can't control themselves
you feel like a stranger in your own body
and you wish that boy was just an enemy
in a game
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Unerträglich dieses Gedankenchaos. Teils so abgefuckt das ich mich wahrscheinlich niemals trauen würde diese in Worte zu fassen.
It's painful to keep it all inside of me.
But letting it out can destroy me totally, so worth it?