Hi <3 I'm so sorry. I'm really proud of you for trying and sticking it out, though. I think you should be really proud of yourself for how hard you tried. I'm sending you lots of hugs <3
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fearless anon
Hi! <3
Yeah I know what you mean...it's hard with friends, because you never know how they'll react or how things will change if you stand up to them. I'm sorry you're going through that.
As far as your dad...trust me, I get that. My dad was very similar to this when I was a kid. Parents dont always see the pressure they're putting on their kids and it's so frustrating!! I know with a lot of them, it's because they love you, but it's still annoying, especially if they don't then show love by supporting you in other ways, like showing up to things
And as far as school...just know that I only took ONE AP class in all of high school and I still got into some pretty good colleges. I know all of this can be very anxiety-provoking, but remember that colleges look at more than just coursework. They look at test scores, extracurriculurs, essays, and more. I know it's frustrating to do more-basic courses but sometimes that can be a blessing in disguise because then you can focus on other things, you know?
Sending love!
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caterpillar anon (new) (cw- SI)
Hi! I'm hoping you know this is for you since I redacted your ask but...yes, this is called passive suicidal ideation, and it's definitely a reason to seek help. It's not a good feeling at all, and you deserve to feel positive about your life! Do you have someone you trust that you can ask for help?
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skating anon
Hi, it's skating anon
I haven't realised how much time has passed since an update so here's an update
So last I saw her was in June, I live in the Mediterranean so it's very hot so we haven't met up in summer bcs since our parents don't know eachother they won't let us go to eachothers houses
In the first week of July we found out the skating school is gonna close
Now we found that one of the coaches opened her own school
So on Monday we're both going for a lesson
This is more of an update than an ask but I always appreciate some help or advice lol
Hi! I'm so glad another school is opening! I mean, since you guys haven't seen each other in a while, my advice would be to just use this time to catch up! I'm so excited that you get to see each other! Let me know how it goes!!
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fem guys anon (new)
Hey Cas, I need help with something.. so, I am a gay man, and recently I started dating this guy.
We are good, he doesn't have a problem with me being trans (I am fully transitioned) and we are nice. I love him.
But the thing is, I don't feel attracted to him when he is masculine presenting. He is a femboy so mostly it's not a problem, but when I realized that I felt too guilty.
I am gay %100 percent btw, I don't like girls at all, not attracted to them. I am just more into fem guys.
But I felt so guilty, I didn't said anything to him bc maybe he will feel bad? And I don't know what to do I really love him and he is hot as fuck. I know he is attracted to me and I am too.
But sometimes. And I feel bad at those times. Normally I accept him without thinking, but two days ago I said no, and said I was tired, which I was, but I felt too bad. So much. I even had a panic attack I think?
Anyway, so what should I do? I don't wanna hurt his feelings, and I absulately love him. Is there a way to be more attracted to masc guys?
Hi!
ooo this is a tough one.
I think the thing is, you can't change who you're attracted to. You can't magically make yourself attracted to masc guys. I think you just have to decide like...if you really don't find this guy attractive part of the time, is it worth being with him? Also remember, it's OKAY to not want to be with someone because you don't find them attractive.
I think you have to take some time to really think through your feelings and explore what you want. Remember that forcing yourself into something is just going to be more hurtful to everyone in the end. You are allowed to have preferences! But yeah, unfortunately, you can't force attraction, you know?
Awww yesss! Tracing his freckles after a long day and just admiring each other 🥺🥺somebody get me a Jamie Drysdale lol
ok yes this is not a want but a need in life. like literally where can i get a jamie? like you guys are just cuddling together on the couch and you’re tracing his freckles and it’s just helping you destress sm and you’ve had a really long day so it kind of starts putting you to sleep, so when you finally do fall asleep he just carries you to bed and lays down with you 🥺🥺 🥰
Two of those people I told you about (the friends-ex friends ig-that have much part in my terrible mental health rn)
Both blocked me
After I agreed with one who DIDNT block me that we all thought that one from the other day was a piece of shit for not even saying anything
I haven’t talked to them in a little while
The piece of shit one hadn’t talked to us in awhile
How is it any fucking different
I hate them so much, I hate them for ever making me feel like I mattered and then just yanking it away.
It’s not fair
I don’t want to hate them or love them I just want to be indifferent but I can’t and it fucking sucks
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Hi <3
I'm so sorry, that's really mean of them. Like...you at least deserve an explanation. I hope at least in the long run not having them in your life will end up being healthier, since they're the ones who hurt you in the beginning, you know? You deserve so much better than how you're being treated right now <3
Post 2:
It’s worse
Like
Miles worse
I lost
Almost everyone
just because of one fucking person
I don’t feel worth shit
I don’t want to do this anymore
I can’t do anything right and no one wants me around and now they’re actively shit talking me, I know bc they’re also vague posting
I wish all they knew was I wanted “I’m sorry”
I wish they knew all I’ve wanted for the past two months is them back
I wish he knew all I wanted was to hug him
but they’ll never know because they all hate me now and everything fucking sucks
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Hon, you do NOT deserve to feel like this! You don't deserve to have friends that treat you like this! If they're acting like this because of something they did, then they're NOT the right people to be friends with.
I know it feels awful and lonely, but you deserve so much better than this. Are there some other people outside of this group you could hang out with?
I'm sending a thousand hugs. I promise it'll get better <3
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grounded anon
Post 1:
Happy pride month!!!
I got out of school on Thursday, so there will probably be a lot less updates.
Here's how Thursday went:
So a little of people didn't go to the last day thingy, so school was kinda empty. We went to our last 2 periods (I had power hour and ela) and me and my crush had the same schedule :D anyway, we went to the auditorium to do awards and shit and we sat next to eachother. We weren't as touchy unfortunately but that's okay. We were touching knees so that was enough. Most people left after that but the crush couldn't leave since her mom had work so I just stayed with her.
We ended up watching separate shows in reading class for a bit (I was reading ur microfics lol) eventually we started playing cards and yeah. It was fun.
When I had to leave I sad as a joke 'what if I just kissed you' so we just blew kissed at eachother (normal thing between us). Then she said bye love you and I obviously said it back
Anyway, a small thing but something nonetheless. Usually I initiate the 'love you' but recently she's been saying it first?!?!
Anyway, we're gonna see eachother on Tuesday, Wednesday, and thrusday since we're going to a art day camp
My family has finally calmed tf down. My older brothers graduation party is this week and there will be like 50+ people (I'm gonna have a breakdown ~_~) I'm not sure if I sad this before but my mom told me were going to Alaska, where her mom lives. Now, I would be excited but also my homophobic grandma lives there. The grandma who knows I'm gay bc my mom told her. Soo....... yea. I'm also going to some catholic camp at the end of the summer. (Im gonna be as gay as possible)
Anyway, hope your feeling the rainbows this pride month.
-grounded anon
Hi! I'm so glad things are going well with your friend! I hope your brother's grad party went/will go well. Let me know, yeah? As far as alaska...wow, that sounds like a huge change. Do you know anyone else who lives there?
And the camp...you don't have to tell me, but do YOU know the name of it? I don't want to scare you, but if you know the name, you should just look into it to make sure it;s a legit camp and not anything scary, since your mom has been so strict with queer stuff in the past. I want to make sure you're safe <3
Post 2:
Okay so hello.
I know you haven't answered my last ask but HOLY FUCKING AIRBALL
so my mom looked through my phone even with the fucking password I had on it (she made me give it to her) and she isn't fucking giving it back.
(redacted)
I don't know what to do anymore.
Also say hello to the shitty amazon tablet!
-(re) grounded anon.
Holy shit, I'm so sorry <3
Remind me, do you have any safe adults in your life? Anyone you can talk to about this? Remember, I have a link to a list of hotlines on my pinned post, in case you're feeling like this again.
Please remember that you don't deserve this. You deserve acceptance and love, and I promise that you WILL get that someday <3
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no worries anon
No worries anon here (again)
I didn’t end up talking to that person after that text, so I feel a little empty, but it’s fine. I found other people to talk to.
Anyways, I finally got a haircut (I got one a bit ago, but that was a small one). It is definitely helping me feel a lot better gender wise
Hi! I'm glad you found someone else to talk to! Honestly, I think that will be healthier. Does this person respect you for you?
And congrats on the haircut! I bet it looks awesome!
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Midnights anon
Hey Cas! Midnights anon once more, how are you?
I’m still in kind of a limbo space about existence because of finals and summer starting (also I’m kinda waiting on some people to get back to me so I can plan things around some future commitments but no one’s been replying, and so now my plans for the summer are all fuzzy and weird and stuff) sooo I figured I’d try and ramble my ideas on how to make friends over the summer, and just what to do over the summer
I’m pretty sure the library is my best bet, so maybe I can start going regularly? There are organized things for people my age (but last time I went I was the only one who showed up), and there are local shops that I can go to, like a local café, consignment store, bookstore, and there’s a nearby arboretum, but whenever I go out I see like, nobody my age. My neighborhood is pretty quiet and it’s the type for older couples who all have kids that went off to college to retire to, since it’s close to the city.
I really wish I could just, start doing summer stuff already but on top of people not replying to my emails and stuff for my summer plans, my finals make this whole week confusing and scary. I have 2 exams that are awkwardly spaced out tomorrow, nothing on Tuesday, something I have to submit—but not be in person for—on Wednesday, an exam on Thursday, and an exam on Friday (the scariest exam).
I just want the week to be over and I want to start being myself more! I know that the summer freedom will do my good but I just can’t get there yet. I’m almost there but I can’t do anything to speed up the process so I’ve been staying inside my house, doing nothing. No hobbies except studying, and when I’m done studying I’m too scared to start a hobby or to mentally examine myself because that always takes too long and gets in the way of school and work even though I’m already done with all I can do for school and work. I’m just so exhausted, and if I try to relax the fear of finals just prevents me from doing anything good for myself
Akshshsjadjhfdjakakdjdj I’m so lostttttt
Thank you for listening. I hope you’re having a nice day :]
Hi!
OMG I understand this feeling and it's the WORST! Like you're stuck in limbo!
One thing that helps me when I feel like this is making lists. Like can you make lists of things you want to do once summer starts? That way you feel prepared, even if you can't do anything yet.
But YES I understand this so much. I'm feeling similarly right now, actually. I have two more weeks left and I'm feeling so antsy.
I'm wishing you so much luck on finals, and it sounds like you have some cool plans this summer!
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skating anon
Hiii skating anon again,
Fyi this might be long
I wanted to send an update on what happened
Slight backstory: my birthday was the Friday before (23rd) and she's demi sexual (so I know that was gonna have smt to do with it)
On the 31st we met up and went to an arcade, as soon as I got there she gave me the last book I needed as a gift (nick and Charlie) which I really wasn't expecting
We went to the arcade and went for fried chicken, it was fun, just like normal but then we walked down to a small beach that there is near it and we just stayed standing against a wall looking at the sea and talking
When she stopped talking I told her that I like her, her response was tbh better than I expected
Her response: "I'm not saying no but since I'm demi I need more time" which I 100% respect so I asked her if we can still be friends and she said obviously
So over all it went well I think
Apparently her friend (who has never even met me before) told her I prob like her lol
Sry it's long
Hi!
Please don't be sorry!
And okay, it sounds like it went reasonably well! At the very least, she didn't freak out or get upset or anything, which is awesome! I'm glad it went so well, telling someone your feelings can be super scary. Keep me updated if you remember!
I know you said I didn't have to answer but I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. Life isn't easy, and you're doing such a great job just....life-ing. Remember that getting better and healing from trauma isn't linear. You'll have good days and bad days. It doesn't mean you're doing any less fantastic <3
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names anon
Hi Cas!!
I've just officially started dating someone, but they go by she/they pronouns and recently they asked me to be their girlfriend, and I'm really happy! I was wondering if you had any gender neutral boyfriend /girlfriend terms because I don't know any, and we're not up to pet names yet. ✨✨
Hi! Congratulations!
I know most people use 'partner.' I've also heard:
significant other
date mate
datefriend
themfriend
sweetheart
my person
I hope that helps! Sending you both love!
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pictures anon
HELP I DONT KNOW WHO TO TELL BUT GUESS WHAT
I was hanging out with the friend group which is like 5 or 6 of us
And afterward
This girl (I have a crush on)
Texted me
And was like
Hey I thought you looked really pretty tonight so I took a couple pictures of you, here they are
And they were just shots of me like laughing or looking at my phone or whatever
BUT SHE THOUGHT I WAS PRETTY
AHHH
No one ever said anything that nice to me bruh like it was amazing completely separate from fhe fact I like her
How sweet
OMG this is so sweet! She was obviously looking at you :D Keep me updated if anything happens!
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panromantic anon
Hey Cas! It's panromantic anon, and I saw an anon ask if you knew who your anons are, and I want to ask, do you know who I am? I mean I have been pretty obvious so-
I mean, don't mind you knowing who I am, I go by anon because a lot of people are reading those asks and I don't want a lot of people to know, but I don't mind you or a few mutuals figuring out so I posted things on my blog about things I ask here as well.
I was just curious, you can say yes or no or not answer this at all! Sorry to be a bother-
Hi
Not a bother at all!
Honestly, I have no idea lol. Which I think you've said before that you've been obvious and I got so confused. I thought, oh maybe you're someone I know from discord maybe? just because you said that. but I truly have no clue.
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parkour anon
Parkour anon,
So um, I am not afab or girl, I am cis guy but, tbh thinking about it, I look very feminine. I don't feel comfortable with it but my face has softer lines I guess ? and can't grow any facial hair bc of a medicine. Sucks a little. Maybe he is homophobic ? Dunno, I had more girlfriends than him but I also had boyfriends in the past so.
Anyway, he still doesn't let me do my goddamn work so I started to do the same to you out of spite. I know it's not the best thing to do but, telling a guy who works out a lot 'he can rest if he is tired, it's not easy for guys like him' in the 10th minute of a 2 hours training is so fucking funny. Sorry not sorry. Anyway, I have to deal with him a little, but, 3 weeks later I will be the lídar. It's some sort of team captain? I don't know how to explain it , but It means I will assign the works for 6 weeks, and then another person in my team will take that position.
And yeah, technically speaking, I am stronger than him. not in every aspect of course, physically maybe we would have a draw or he might win, or I might win depending on our states. If I am gonna be honest he is great, but like, I have been trained more than him in year count.
Don't know why he is acting like that. It's stupid.
Hi!
I'm so sorry, I hope I didn't offend you. But yeah, the homophobia makes total sense. I originally asked because the behavior seemed so bigoted, you know? Maybe he's jealous as well, if you can get girls and he cant...
But omg you telling him things are not easy for 'guys like him' is SO perfect and I laughed out loud reading that. 10/10 perfect response. I'm sorry he's acting like that, I'm glad you'll get some power soon.
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skating anon
Hiii
I'm skating anon
Soo I haven't built up any courage to tell her I like her however I think my chances have gone down like like 70%
I just figured out she's demi too so I feel like there's like 0 chance
I mean technically it's more like an update than an ask but yeah still do you think I should anyway build up the courage
Alsoo
Skating anon again
I know it's not an ask just thought it might give someone a small laugh
So the girl I like wants an undercut but the hairdresser she goes to is like the old people gossip place so she ain't going there for an undercut, her friend suggested a hairdresser however he's gay and so he might assume she's gay and ask something so she doesn't want him to give her an undercut
But there aren't any other options left
So her mum told her that she should tell her dad to cut it for her
So moral of the story she wanted an undercut but now it's her dad who's gonna actually do the undercut for her
Hi!
Okay I'm confused. From your second ask, are you saying she's not gay and that's bad? Because if she's demi and likes your gender, then you still completely have a chance...just because someone's demi doesn't mean they don't want to date/don't like people! It just means they need to get to know you first! I don't think that affects your chances at all, really. As long as you get to know her!
Also good for her for getting an undercut. I want one so bad but I'm not brave enough.
I'm skating anon, so basically so far I'm still friends with her but I didn't have the courage to tell her anything about liking her, my friend is telling me I should tell her so that we go out for valentine's day. I know for a fact she doesn't have any plans for valentine's day and I mean I'd even ask her like to go as friends but idk
What should I do
Hi!!
I mean, I think you should!! You could always just say "we should hang out on the 14th" and see how she reacts, you know? like don't specifically say it's a date but don't NOT say that and then see the vibes from there!
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Therapist Anon
Hiya cas, how are we
Therapist anon here with a bit of a long one so hope you're ready :)
One: were having a tour reunion soon (all went away for 3 weeks with a bunch of other people under the same program had such a blast)
Met a boy, talked, went on like a 5 hour hike we talked all the time. After a whileee he went to my friend with a "see ya later!" Then came bounding back (he was like a fawn learning how to walk, beyond adorable) and my friend who was near the front came up to me and was like " *name* you know he came to us stayed for about a minute then said he was bored, I'm gonna go back to *name* (ie me)
OK one was I flattered, boys never looked at me (woah that sounded so pick me, please forgive me) but he was on and off with a girl, later in the trip (like mid week 2 or smth) he was sad cos he ans this girl had a misunderstanding so there I kinda forced myself to give up because ain't no way imma make a move on a taken (?) man
Might not go to the reunion cos train strikes (yay) could only go if they doo a weekend then come back sat night (hopefully they do another one cos I wanna see him) it also doesn't help that all my friends ship us and to this DAY still talk about how cute we were
(Also gonna mention that it was him and two of ny friends bur then it dwindled to just me, my friend and him then just me and him- we didn't say anything and just talked about religion, parent, where we come back etc (in my religion where you're from has quite a big impact ie. If you're from European countries you're gonna have different customs to those from the middle east/Asian countries))
But yeah :D boy trouble am I right?
Two: friends are still being a bit...exclusive
And it pains me that they'll talk about how they've gotten so much better (they havnt) they had another party sat night and I wasn't even doing anything, I would have loved to come but no invite :/
But I also feel like I'm missing out on such teenage things like I've never gotten drunk (yay me I'm being so responsible but I feel like as somebody who's going to uni soon and never had alcohol other than for religious reasons (again alcohol is a pretty big deal here for...numerous reasons I'm not getting into otherwise wrll be here for too long) ans I've never talked to a boy other than school, cousins, sibling friends (and this one) so idk
I don't have a girl gang I don't feel as if I can go to them for boy trouble of course I know they love me (just had a weekend away and as we were lighting Friday night candles we all hugged, blessed each other etc) and I love them but idk....if they realize what they're doing then maybe?? There's definitely leaders and sheep but know I think it's mostly leaders cos of how long it's been going on (since after covid cos long story short, my mom got sick and it was a major health hazard so when bubbles came out I couldn't do it-I didn't step outside my front door for about 6 weeks we were all too scared and then schools opened and I had to distance myself ALOT like if we were in one big room, I was outside the building. Wore a mask until 2022-23 I'd say because of how scared I was so that definitely caused issues yay :) but I feel like that may be part of the issue cos I had to distance myself and push myself away -they were all so sweet coming to say hi and talk, sitting on my porch while I sat inside and for that I love them but that's definitely a factor)
Really really sorry for how long it is but lemme just summarise:
Met a boy, in love, his relationship status=complicated
I am single beyond single and would LOVE A BOYFRIEND HINT HINT HINT G-D
Friends being ignorant, met a new friend but she's going thru a tough spot so I cannot vent, I have to be there for her
Feeling like I'm missing out on ny teenage years ESPECIALLY THANKS TO COVID had depression and have anxiety, kinda feeling like depression is coming back (yay)
Covids a bitch
Also would love to make a huge academic comeback but cannot focus for the life of me, I'm actually addicted to my phone and my other friend doesn't do work until like 2am so that's a no go
Would love if you have any tips:)
Thanks again, really sorry for how long it is, mwah mwah mwah
Hi!
Okay so as far as the boy....Idk, for me...if someone isn't showing genuine interest in me, like it feels like I'm competing or having to work for love...that feels like a red flag. You deserve someone who truly cares about you, you know?
As far as your friends and being a teenager....honestly I feel like I've had so many people say the same thing- and I don't say this to minimize what you're feeling, I say this to tell you that you're not alone. It's okay to experience things in your own time! You'll experience all the things you're meant to WHEN you're meant to, I promise <3
For focusing...have you tried setting timers on your phone? I think there are apps where you can lock it for like 10-20 minutes at a time, and use that time to study, and then give yourself a break.
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Admissions Anon
Hey Cas!
I didn’t really know who I could talk to about this in my everyday life so I’m just gonna leave it here. Don’t feel pressure to reply!
Anyway, the college admissions cycle is underway and I’ve been applying places. I have only heard back from one school (my fav school) and was denied from them, I’m still waiting on about 10 others to get back to me - most of which are easier to get into as my top school has a low acceptance rate.
For context, whenever I would talk about this school to anyone (parents, friends, etc.) it was pretty clear that they didn’t think I’d get in. I’ve had some pretty serious medical stuff over the last few years which has impacted my grades, so my friends at school don’t think of me as capable to get into a difficult school and my parents just didn’t wanna get my hopes up. Guess they were right on that account.
Logically I knew that I likely wouldn’t get in since previously acceptance rates were like 15% (and this year they dropped to 6%) but there was still a little tiny voice in the back of my head that kept whispering “what if…”
So although it’s a little crazy, I kept thinking that I was going to get in. Perhaps more than a little crazy. Whatever. Anyways, clearly I didn’t and I feel like I can’t mope about it or anything because none of my friends will understand cause they’re either super smart nerds who would’ve gotten in or they despise academics and would never apply to a school that difficult to get into. So I just wanted to be able to talk to someone which is why I’m leaving this here.
So all this leads to the fact that since I have bad anxiety and depression I’ve sorta been spiraling a bit since I found out today. I’ll be fine though. Hopefully. Just give it a few days.
I’ll shut up now but if you did read this thank you for listening (or reading I guess since this isn’t audio)
Thanks xx
Hi <3
I completely understand this. I feel like we're sold this lie that if we work hard, we can go to whatever college we want. But in reality, some colleges are almost impossible to get into, and it's so upsetting. And on top of that, even if you get into your top school, there's paying for it.
It's definitely a letdown to know that you won't be able to go to your top choice school. I'm not sure if it would make you feel any better, but I wasn't able to go to my top choice, either, I actually ended up going to one of my last choices. And I ended up LOVING it. Sometimes you end up at the place you're supposed to be, you know?
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Guess Anon
hi Cas,
Ive posted a few asks on here but they were public - but this time, I don't think that I'm brave enough to be. Although you'll probably guess who this is if youve seen my other tumblr posts
Its my father's birthday tomorrow and me and my sister are seeing him. The issue is, I tried to bring up the fact that I had dropped out of college last time we saw him, and he told me that he'd be really disappointed and wouldn't want to see me again, so I played it off as a joke and just said that I was thinking about it. He asked me whether I was meant to be in college when we were out last and luckily I had an email saying that my classes were cancelled the day because they were running christmas trips and my teachers were all going (for context I dropped out late november and I still had access to my college email until very recently as I've finally been formally de-enrolled), so I showed him that email (which he originallytbough I'd faked) but obviously this time, I have no messages or anything (cause I've been fully de-enrolled so they deleted my email and stopped messaging my phone number). I'm just scared that he's going to find out tomorrow and get angry and violent, and then he'll blame me like he always does. I'm scared, Cas.
Thanks for taking the time to read.
Hi <3
I'm so sorry that I didn't get to this before you saw your dad. I really hope it went well.
I want to remind you of a few things:
First, when your safety is at risk, it is always okay to lie. You could photoshop the email?
Also, when your safety is at risk, it's okay NOT to see family, even if they are family. Nobody deserves to be hurt. I understand if you are still relying on your father for some sort of support, but if you arent...I would reevaluate spending time with someone who is violent.
But also I want to say...I hope you know that you don't have to explain your choices to people. You're allowed to make choices that are best for you, and fuck anyone who judges <3
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Milk Anon
Hey, so milk anon here...
A couple months ago i got a gf, and shes amazing, and beautiful and lovely, and i l'île her a lot
But... im terrified of physical affection (like holding hands and cuddling and kissing etc.) And idk if maybe its because its my first relationship or not but ive started to think maybe that i may not actually be into girls after all, but just guys? I dont want that to be true bc like i said my gf is amazing and i dont want to hurt her, but i also dont wanna lie to her, nor myself, but i also just dont know and its kinda freaking me out
Sorry if its a bit much lol, i just needed to rani a bit to someone not too involved
Hi!!
Honestly...there are so many reasons why someone might not like physical contact and I'm not sure if I can tell you what the reason is for you, you know? Especially since I'm not a professional. But it sounds like you might just need to reflect on the why. Like...is it the person? The situation? The type of contact? That kind of thing. Also you said this is your first relationship...it could simply be that you're not ready for a relationship and that's completely okay!
Also if you do end up realizing you don't want to stay with your gf for whatever reason, just make sure to tell her what you told me- that she's amazing and you care.
Wishing you luck <3
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Outlet Anon
It made me so happy to read your update! It sounds like things are going so well for you and it amazing how all of those changes have improved things so much! I am sending you love and I hope things continue to go well!
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Two Fics Anon
I promise, there are people who read. Also if it helps motivation, you and try to find people who share similar tastes in tropes and pairings, and then share your writing with them! Fandom friends are wonderful hype people!
Hii, fyi if you don't wish to answer this I totally understand
Basically I go skating lessons twice a week once Monday once Wednesday (same company diff children)
In the Wednesday lessons there's this girl I REALLY like (I'm a girl too btw) and I figured out she's gay too, we've been talking for about 2 months now but I've liked her since August
I really wanna ask her out or at least tell her I like her (I'm 14 and she turns 14 in 10 days)
The only thing is I'm terrified to ask her because I'm scared of her getting mad
The one other time I told a gay girl who was my friend I liked her she said that I made her uncomfortable and these things I never forget so it made me scared to ask this girl out
I mean tbh if she says she doesn't like me I have no problem with that but I see her every week so if she starts hating me idk what to do
Do you have any advice pleasee
Hi!
Okay if someone gets mad at you asking them out, that's just...mean, really. Like it's totally okay to say no, but if you ask politely then they have no reason to get MAD! The person you asked in the past seems like she's a bit shit.
I think when you ask this new girl, just be kind and respectful. Tell her what you told me- you'd like to ask her out, but if she doesn't want to, that's okay and you don't want it to be awkward.
The truth is, it might be a bit awkward if she turns you down (I've been turned down before, it's not the best), but you'll be able to push past it if she's a decent person. Nobody likes awkwardness, you know? So she'll probably just pretend it didn't happen and eventually things will go back to normal. And if she doesn't...then she's not a decent person anyway, and fuck what shit people think.
Hiii how are you ? I fell down the stairs today and cried for a minute straight #hormones. Dw I have a high pain tolerance but I just started sobbing lol. It happens. LONG post ahead, I kinda went off hehe.
Anyways let’s get started!! Yes quinton gets to be upfront because he would probably feel so uncomfortable(no offence) with all the sexual tension going on there if dyl or jamie were in the front hehe. But yes they would be bitchy about who gets to sit upfront “ no Jamie it’s mine turn to sit with Brigid” “ no it’s my turn dylan you just sat with her” so brigid would get fed up and banishes them to the back hehe. Lmao Brigid can we listen to Katy perry now? The silence!! And then no can we listen to Lady Gaga?. Quinton trying not to lose it in the front seat. If I had to chose tho I would chose lady gaga:) wbu?
Get ready to be beat! Yes Ryan is absolutely not sitting upfront w me! We would be crazy and I wanna win so. Quinner is sitting up front w me but he decided to be .... and I’m banish him to the back. Braden is the most chill so he’s sitting upfront and giving me directions!! Haha dyl yelling at you to drive faster, but no I will beat both hehe;). Kesh who’s sitting up front w you? Would Kirby be handsy😏?. We would have to make so many stops lol. Like it’s just nostalgic for us, but new for you so it would be fun to make pit stops. and we would just be taking so many Instagram photos as a group and w our boys and together ! We love that ! “Wait wait wait Lexi pull over, I remember this place I wanna take photos” lol this is bad hehe.
Lmao yes, your hair would be so tangled!! They would be panicking a bit because they’re like omg she’s gonna be so mad.... honestly Ryan would just take the photo and then post it but then Dylan would repost it and then Jamie and then me lol. Honestly I kinda love when people just take videos of being in the car w like the scenery showing, but this would include us laughing and listening to music! I hope they makes sense. Hehe Ryan or Dylan would probably take photos of Braden, cozzy and devon sleeping and would post it. Back to the hair: hehe yes I can see you giving them a death glare when you realize and your getting mad and would hide. I’m just imagining this in my head, like me pulling over and you running out of the car and quinton and devon fixing your hair lol. Somebody would be filming this no doubt.
Music wise, yes I love blasting music and people looking but it’s kinda a flex when they see who we are with.... I like rap too! What song do u like Brigid?. Country will be played and 2000’s which is fun! I’m good with anything !. Kesh I love hype up songs as well and bass heavy songs because they sound good on speakers hehe. I’ve been into Rihanna for the past week and I was working out to her music- where have you been, rude boy, bitch better have my money lol, pon de replay hit different but also S&M for some sexiness. Lmao sorry I’m just listing Rihanna songs that I love atm. What are your fav songs right now? Awww dancing on the side of the road is so soft, but everybody needs a dance break! Cozzy, Devon and Braden are some how still passed out, I admire that. Late night drives🥺 are we spicing this up 😏.
Hehe you and devon are swamped w emails and more and you’re like kirby can you please go w them we need somebody to watch them. Als yes quinton go take those hot photos . I admire Dylan’s sleep schedule, like good job on catching up on sleep. Kirbys just trying to sweet talk you and kiss you so that you wouldn’t be mad. All in all, kesh is just shocked like how is that possible? Lmao Brigid, Ryan and I w the shopping cart just stocking up on popcorn, chips m&ms, I love that. Jamie and Dylan are racing each other to see who can grab the most cereal and made sure that they are getting the correct ones for Brigid. Honestly all the boys are just confused about how grocery shopping works hehe. The crackhead energy. Kirby is panicking. We literally bought out all the snacks. Beaver tails are delish and I know where you can get them so 😃. I want to stuff Quinner’s mouth w beaver tails cuz that’s cute:) yes healthy food is a must, like fruits, veggies, rice cakes hehe. But remember that we are going to workout on this vacay hehe. After the grocery store we would go into the mall or something and the boys would just be wanting to buy video games 😂 and ps5’s. Also kesh I love how some of the boys are just trying on clothes. Why do I get a feeling that one of the boys would just be filming all of this?
The chirping will happen nonstop, I’m sorry it’s just to much inspo. Aww yes they are blushing real hard, cuz they like you soooo much. But Brigid is enjoying touching them so no prob.
The boat is a must and it is happening!! Hehe yes the tubing would be chaotic, everybody is just trying to get each other to fall in 😂. Ryan thinks that he’s getting away w pushing me in but SIKE you are coming with me. So then we’re just fighting in the water. Quinner would be like where did they go?. Hehe brigid gets so wrapped up in laughing at us that Braden pushes her in haha. Yes we all look super hot in our bikinis, and the boys are speechless! Like dyl and Jamie are just like wow, she looks so amazing! And Kirby is so in love w you, he’s like I’m the luckiest man ever. I’m still gonna make sure that I wear a non tie bikini so that it doesn’t untie, like one time I was in the boat and my friend pulled on the string and the entire thing untied and I just jumped in the water to retie. That is not happening again lol. Quinner would be mad hehe. Idk I’m seeing Brigid in a black bikini or maybe a dark blue one? It would match your eyes?. Kesh in a red one or yellow and me maybe in a green one or just black lol. Hehe yes kesh and Kirby are just doing cute couple stuff and keeping an eye out but we are to chaotic to maintain .
Hehe yes ig we are clingy but cute drunks but I get kinda wild when I drink so the body shots would def happen. It would be hot tbh. Yes somebody do body shots w Brigid. Dylan would step up first, and he would be enjoying it and then Jamie sees and is like no it’s my turn so he does it and in the end it’s just a competition and you all get drunk hehe. Kesh and Kirby are the parents of the clubbing trip no offence.. like wanna go help cozzy and devon? Hehe lol I could just be dancing w Brigid and the boys would get jealous and one of them would just come up and be like excuse may I cut in, and i would be like tf but then they give me a glare and I go dance sexy with Quinner or crazy w Ryan. Kesh and Kirby should dance at least at one point during this time. We all look hot btw :)
Hehe yay I can be friends w Dylan :) I want that friendship to happen tbh. but he’s getting jealous but I’m like let them have their moment, so I distract him a bit w talking.
Girls day is a must! I wanna hang out w you so badly. Some cute clothing will be bought! Ooo yes us modelling and them being in awe. Oo kesh a different modelling show w the boys 😏. The boys are getting handsy esp Dylan and Jamie hehe. And they are super protective so no other guy at the club gets any ideas. After tho it’s biker shorts, sweat pants and hoodies type of vacay lol .
Thank you for reading ! Hope you enjoy mes chéries💗🌸
yes ok so loooong post ahead people
oof that tough falling down the stairs lol. honestly i’m not doing to great right now bc i did not do as well as i wanted at my meet, so now i’m in a funky headspace. but hopefully answering this ask will help, and i can get my shit together before my events tomorrow (which are actually my important events)
haha yes dyl and jamie would just be arguing like “no it’s my turn to sit in front, no you just did it’s my turn” lmao. and then whenever they’re sitting in the front there’s just too much tension for quinton to deal with lol. so then i feel bad for quinton so i banish the other guys to the back and let him sit in the front hehe. and i’m just ignoring the other guys and refuse to play either of their music and i let quinton pick. and if we purposely pick songs we know the other guys hate, that’s a secret we’ll never tell. oof between those two idk, probably lady gaga, but again we’re not playing music jamie and dyl like lol.
haha no, you get ready to get beat. i’m like an INSANE driver when i want to be. and ofc dylan is just yelling at me “faster brigid, hurry tf up! we have to beat everyone” so then we’re just zooming. but then obviously you’re doing your best to keep up so you have to banish ryan to the back so he doesn’t distract you. and then you let quinner sit up front until he starts getting too handsy bc you’re like no i won’t let myself get distracted. so then braden’s up front giving directions and trying to get you to go faster, but i’m still winning lol. and then kesh is also still in the race, and she and kirby are just chilling in the front bc everyone else’s asleep. ooooh yes making lots of pit stops bc nostalgia for all of you canadians. and then me and kesh are just seeing all the sights for the first time. oooooh yes all the cute insta pics we could take
ooooh yes people taking vids of like the music and scenery would be so cute to post as stories. and ofc all of us laughing and stuff, that would be so cute. anyways yes, my hair would be a hugeeee knot. and i would just give them the death glare, like you’ve got to be fucking kidding me. and jamie and dyl just try to hide from me, like they run away as soon as the car is stopped. and then devon and quinton fix it for me, god bless their souls. like i’m sorry, bc even i wouldn’t want to deal with that. ik how my hair can get. and this would be allllll over everyone’s stories ofc lmao
ok yessss our music game is on point tbh. ok so for rap, the artists i’m really into rn are juice wrld (rip i actually loved him sm), kid laroi (who learned from juice, so he sounds a lot like him), trippie redd, mgk, and nf. also iann dior, but he’s not so much rap as r&b. honestly any of their songs slap. and then ofc country and early 2000′s. and any music with good bass, but i think a lot of the artists i said have that. ooooh yes getting out to have a dance party on the side of the road. hehe it could be really crazy. or alternatively, it could be when you’re out on a late night drive and there’s a slow song on the radio and you guys just get out and slow dance to the song together no this is not at all inspired by the song slow dance in a parking lot anyways yes late night drives are so cute. but then of course they can get spicy 😏 in case you couldn’t tell i’m always down for it to get spicy lmao
haha yes quinton and dylan c. honestly have their priorities straight. and devon and kesh are swamped with director duties, so that leaves kirby in charge. so then ofc when we get home kirbs tries to sweet talk kesh, but she’s just not having it. she’s just like how? anywaysssss at the store we have the most duo of ryan and lexi, plus now i’m added into the mix, and it’s just a mess. like we buy a shit ton of popcorn, pretzels, chips, candy, etc. and we literally bought half the store’s supply of everything lmao. and then dyl and jamie are just in the cereal aisle trying to grab as much cereal as they can. whichever one of them gets we chocolate mini wheats i will love forever. and then kirby’s getting healthy food bc yk he’s trying to be responsible. so then kesh has to explain that his whole job was to make sure everyone else was getting healthy food, not just get it himself lmao. but honestly none of the guys actually know what they’re doing lmao. and then we obviously have to get beaver tails to so lexi and quinner can have a moment, but idk where you get those lol. but yes we will be working out a ton on this vacay, so it’s ok that we have sm junk food lol. and then after we’re done with food, the guys decide to wander the mall and then they just buy a ton of video game and then they’re trying on clothes lol. and yes obvi they’re videoing the whole thing bc they’re secretly middle school girls who want to have a blog lmao
hehe yes me getting chirped the whole trip, esp the boat day. and the guys are getting so embarrassed about it, but i just don’t care lmao. and then the whole boat day is so chaotic obvi. when ryan pushes lexi in, quinner will come back and just be confusion lmao. like where’s lexi. and then i’m dying laughing and then braden sneaks over and pushes me in lol. but yes we all look amazing in our bikinis. like kirby is just so in love with kesh and thinks she looks gorgeous 😍 and then dyl and jamie are just like damn you look hot about me lol bc we’re horny ones on this trip apparently. and i’ll wear a tie-back jolyn bc they actually stay on lol. and then ofc quinner thinks lexi looks super good, but then she tells the story about the last time she wore a tie-back and he’s just like why didn’t you do it again? lmao. ooooh for bikinis i like a black top with a print on the bottoms idk why. and then you guys in whichever color you want. also yes kesh and kirby are trying to be responsible during this, but it’s just not working lol
haha yep i can definitely see you and quinner being wild drunks together (it’s more like when the alcohol is wearing off that you guys get really clingy) so obvi you guys start doing body shots. and ofc it turns into a jamie/dyl competition bc what doesn’t? and then me and lexi are just dancing sexy together, yk like two drunk girls do, and then dyl or jamie tries to come over and cut in and at first you won’t let them but then you finally give in and go dance with quinner instead. and then yeah, no offense kesh and kirby, but y’all are the parents here. like making sure we don’t do anything too too dumb lmao. and also being a wingman for some of the other guys. but you guys def dance together at least a little bit too. and obvi we all look hot
yessss i feel like you and dyl could be super chaotic friends too. so the two of you are just chilling together and then you have to distract him lol, but then after that you have a different chaotic friend for when ryan’s not available lmao
yes yes yes, girl’s day would be so fun. and then we get a ton of cute new clothes so obvi we have to model them. and they’re all just in awe, like those are our girls. but then we also do private modeling shows 😏 and we all know how that ends. and then when we’re in our clubbing clothes obvi they are getting super protective over us bc we look so hot and we’re their girls, so no other guys can get ideas. but then once they’re drunk they’re handsy as hell lol. but then the rest of the vacay ends ups spent in hoodies, sweats, and athletic shorts lol. and obvi some of the guys’ clothes
ughhhh i love this, the whole thing was amazing. 10/10