The Choice to Live Under My Real Name
And now, quietly—I've returned to who I truly am.
In this age, showing your true self isn’t easy.
Many live behind borrowed names and shifting faces.
known for years as “Sauna Neko.”
I started drawing five years ago,
using the shape of a cat to express feelings I couldn’t put into words.
Messy hair between the ears, drooping ears, a flicking tail, trembling speech bubbles—
that cat was a mirror of my unstable heart.
Eventually, the cat became a girl.
Then, slowly, she turned into a real cat again—
a quiet presence beside me.
My online icons changed along with me:
And now, it’s a sleeping version of myself,
with a small cat beside me—who is also me.
At the beginning of 2025, I made a decision.
To live under my real name.
The visible “form” of my being,
and the invisible “presence” I had never been able to express in words or lines—
have finally come together, quietly, as one.
In a world that often feels like a virtual reality,
I’ve chosen to live as something real.