[Hello, My Sexy Muffins! Happy Pride Season, Pride Season is I am back with a new chapter, and this one is for Pride Season! The Reader is A Non-Binary Imp with Smiling Depression. Anyway, I hope that you all enjoy this chapter here, My Muffins!!]
The Request
SMILING DEPRESSION IMP ONE: So okay smiling depression is when a person hides their true feelings and scared about how they would feel And they would put people first not wanting be selfish They always say that they are okay but not really in the mood about talking about their day or something that has trigger their emotions to snap They can feel really alone when there is a big crowd around themI hope this makes sense
(Disclaimer: Please seek help if you have any mental health issues. You are worth it, and you do matter! Keep asking for help and advocating for yourself until you can get help!
Disclaimer: Asmodeus Aka Ozzie and Fizzarolli Aka Fizz are Not Yandere in canon! This is just for fun and not to be taken seriously at all! Simping for fictional characters and yanderes is fine! Just do not be illegal or gross about it! You know who you are! You Dirty, Flaky, Biscuits! Yanderes are not ideal partners to have in real life! Also, remember to separate fiction from reality and headcanon from canon! Thank you, and Happy Pride Season!)
-Yandere Headcanons With Yanderes Asmodeus and Fizzarolli X Non-Binary Imp Reader With Smiling Depression From Helluva Boss-
.Ozzie and Fizz were both in love with you and obsessed with you, wanting you to be their darling.
.They loved you as the Imp you are and wanted you as the way you were.
.But they worried about your mental health since they could tell that you were hiding how you were feeling.
.Fizz could tell that you would fake a smile and act like you were okay with talking to people like Mammon.
.Ozzie can tell how you appear to be happy and outgoing in a large group of people, but he can tell that you feel rather lonely.
.They both try their best to help you and get you to open up about things that you want to talk about.
.Ozzie would pay all the money he needed to, to make sure that you have the best therapist and access to the best medication for your mental health.
.As they are yanderes, they can tell when you are really not doing good and are faking your smile, and they take their time to love you and spend time with you.
.They would be extremely protective of you and would do whatever it takes to help you feel good.
.They can tell what things do help you feel better, and they can do those small things that do help, no matter how small they help.
.They are the types of yanderes and boyfriends that would not let you feel alone, they are always there with you and want to be close to you.
.They are once again extremely protective of you and would not let anyone take advantage of you because you are theirs and they are not going to share you, their perfect darling.
.They would also be the type of yanderes that deal with rivals in various ways.
.Ozzie is very much going to kill rivals because he is a royal sin and can kill even sinner demons.
.He does not care who the person is, and he is not going to let anyone else hurt you or take advantage of you.
.Fizz is the type of yandere that would be there for you and let you be real with him; he does not force it, and he does not make you feel bad.
.Fizz would deal with rivals and show them how unworthy they are by publicly mocking them.
.They would be able to work together to break down rivals and keep them from trying to be with you.
.Ozzie is the one to kill them if they get too close or do not back down.
.Fizz will be the one to keep you from finding out that Ozzie killed the rival, and that everything is okay.
.They are the types of yandere that would create the day for you, making sure that you are comfortable and that you do not have to feel like you have to force a smile.
.They will do their best to make your day as easy as possible and monitor if you are getting better or worse.
.They did not care that you are an Imp, and that Imps do not get the best healthcare, they are going to make sure you get the best treatment and that they are there for you.
.In the end, they are always there for you and willing to be there for you, the obsessive love of their lives.
(Noticing The Signs) (Yanderes Asmodeus/Fizzarolli X Non-Binary IMP With Smiling Depression Reader-
(No One's POV)
In The Bed, was (Your Name), and they were in the bed sleeping, or appearing to sleep. They did not want to get out of bed. It felt like such an effort to get out of bed. Even so, they were able to push themself out of bed and shower, and make themself look like they are put together and not so depressed. They did not want their boyfriends to be worried about them. Their boyfriends knew that they did have smiling depression, but in the last month, (Your Name) started to fake smile more and hide her depression more. They did not want to have Ozzie and Fizz thinking they were selfish or be a burden to the two of them!
So they were faking the getting better part.
They made their way downstairs and saw that Ozzie had made breakfast and that Fizz was making (Coffee, tea, or drink of choice).
"Thank you." They thank Fizz as he hands them the cup.
"Anytime, (Your Name)," Fizz says, and he winks.
All three of them sit down, and (Your name) is more or less picking at their food. Ozzie took notice of it and knew that the smiling depression was not getting better. Because (Your name) was not getting better and was faking it. They would have to talk to them about it and make an appointment with their therapist and psychiatrist. Hopefully, a med change would help.
"How about we stay in today?" Ozzie says.
He was going to make it as easy as possible for (Your Name).
"That sounds nice, if it is what you want," (Your name) says with a smile, and that is what they were going to do.
Bringing attention that (Your Name) Smiling depression was not getting better would just add more shame to it, and Ozzie and Fizz will try and avoid that as much as possible.
(Your Name) is the love of their life, and they will do everything they can for them.
[YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS another chapter is done! I hope you all enjoyed this, and stay sexy, all of my sexy muffins! Happy Pride Season, Muffin!]
First off, I just wanted to thank everyone who has followed my humble little plant blog! When I first started this as a way to share my newfound hobby of learning about and growing plants, I never imagined how many others would find the same enjoyment from what I was sharing. I hope you continue to find joy in all things green and growing.
Second, I haven't posted much recently, mostly because most of my plants are in winter hibernation so there's not much excitement with growth as of yet, but also because I've been trying to focus more energy on myself. I was recently diagnosed with dysthymia, which has other names like smiling depression, high-functioning depression and persistent depressive disorder. It's a mild form of depression, but unlike major depressive disorder (clinical depression) that can sometimes ease and can swing between 'depressive' periods and 'healthy' periods, dysthymia is chronic and constant. It doesn't take you to extreme lows like clinical depression can, you can still get up, get through your day, and seem fine, happy even, but everything loses its luster, even things you love to do. Everyone can think you're a perfectly happy person because you can smile, and joke, and do your job well, while inside you're just going through the motions. My personal experience has been fatigue, loss of interest, trouble concentrating, anxiety, headaches, and memory issues that have gotten more noticeable over the period of two years. Something I didn't realize was a telltale sign of dysthymia. It was when I was driving one day, feeling like my head weighed too much to hold up, after having taken at least a dozen exhausted breaks when I was mopping the floors that morning, that I realized that something was wrong. I'm only 28, and I didn't remember existing this way before, but it's so hard to tell with dysthymia, because you become so accustomed to an existence of just being tired and disinterested because it's such a slow, progressive change.
I decided I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I started really looking at what was going on. The thing that helped me immensely was the fact that my mother has always been open about her clinical depression, and the depression that runs in the women of our family, and the fact that medication absolutely helped her. I was able to talk with both of my parents, and my best friend, who knew exactly what I was describing, and encouraged me to talk to my doctor.
So! My doctor, who is an absolutely wonderful human being, got me going on a regiment of multiple vitamins and an anti-depressant. She and her nurse (and the pharmacist at my pharmacy, who is awesome and did a fist pump when I picked up my medication) have been super supportive, and excited for me to start feeling better, which means so much when you're anxious about a change like this. I started off on a low dose with an improvement that I noticed about a week in. I'm not where I think I should be yet, so I'm happy to say my dosage has been bumped up recently. Here's to hoping this will be the magic number!
So anyway, I just felt it was important for me to share my personal experience with this, because dysthymia does tend to hit people in young adulthood, and I never knew about it until I was diagnosed. If you've felt like this, I encourage you to find a supportive doctor and ask for help, get on medication, and get it taken care of; just starting the process will already make you start feeling more hopeful!
So as my plants begin to grow again, I hope I will be growing with them, into a more whole person. 🌱🍃
