#dpression

[starsintheskyee]

“are you ok?”

(hasn’t been eating or sleeping, constantly switching between insane panic and dissociation) “sure”

[risinglikesunflower]

Maybe I do just ruin people's lives and it would be better if I didn't exist.

[molokomoko]

I have been in a horrible depression since the beginning of winter. The world is a hellscape and everything is rapidly getting more unsalvageable by the day us all. Meanwhile people still kick back and manage to go about their lives and each day I curse my brain for not following through on finally snapping. I feel like an alien that can't figure out how to operate correctly on this planet.

How the hell do you all do it?

[vivii1018]

Am i crazy for still believing in us ?

[w3ndytheraccoon]

:D

[venthourz]

I caught you on dating apps, found the many half-naked IG models you follow, and the messages and pics back and forth with a girl you kept trying to date (claiming you never had feelings for her, but had her saved under a cute nickname, used to tell her you loved her, and used to have her name saved as “my baby”). But yet you have the audacity to be hurt when I said that all those things made me feel like you didn’t love me. What more do I have to do to be enough for you?

[ron456]

Things I do/got to accommodate myself with my ADHD, Anxiety, and Depression (cuz sometimes people are jerks but ya' still have needs that are better if met)

tw: talk of mental illness, self harm, etc,

I got me some Clear Loop Engage Earplugs! Pretty great for school. No one notices I have them in. I used to use those big, foam earplugs sometimes but I would have to have my hair down if I wanted them to be even close to discreet. I have loud parents and get overstimulated pretty easily so it makes the day justtt a little bit easier and I can still talk to people.

I got a Little Ouchie Stim Toy. It's amazing. I got a pink one and it really does help when I have self-harm urges or when I'm having an anxiety attack or depressive episode and I can't leave class. I even got one for my friend who also has depression and she seems to like it. (Obviously it doesn't fix EVERYTHING but it's a useful tool to have)

I got protein shakes cuz a lot of the time I struggle to have the motivation to eat or make food and getting protein shakes help me a little. (I got the fair life lactose free ones cuz Im lactose intolerant)

Art/Drawing/Creating. Okay, I knowwww this one seems so cliche and you're probably sick of neurotypical people being like "FiNd WayS tO eXpReSs YoUrSeLF" but it really does help me. It doesn't have to be pretty art. Things aren't beautiful cuz they're perfect, they're beautiful because they're authentic. I keep a little bundle of sticky notes in my pocket to take out and doodle on, write depressing poems, write an angry letter to no one, make horrifying art, draw a picture of myself crying just to feel. It's good to feel, ya'll. I got these, like, paint markers that I've been using to make some sad, chaotic depressing creations and it really helps to just get things out. Just do ANYTHING. You are allowed to feel.

I might post some of the art I've made with my markers cuz idk. Just cuz.

but anyway, yeah.

[starsintheskyee]

every day i hope life get better, it never does