#sociopath?

[angelgirl08]

i don’t feel guilt just shame

[chubsono]

I solely blame @otvlanga for making me think Neloth is sexy even tho I know for a FACT he has a shriveled up pp

[rawcookiedough]

I love being invited to parties

I also absolutely hate actually going there...

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Then I get there and just enjoy myself sooo much

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Then I wake up in the morning and cringe about everything I did, said or wore there.

[mrsgojosatoru]

i know what the netflix writers were trying to do with elektra. bc elodie yung says it over and over and over again. but honestly they fucked it up so badly i can write a paper on why mcu!elektra natchios is an angel only deserving of sympathy and love. 

[asoftyandere]

You call me psycho, but at least I don't have feelings

[oldphelpsinator]

June 14th, 2018

Continuing with my thought pattern from earlier...

After analyzing most of my relationships involving love, I definitely see a pattern. In the majority of all of the relationships, I exhibit a hesitance to reveal the person's true importance to me. This more than likely makes it seem like I don't truly value them. Which is totally not the truth, but I understand that it's the vibe I put out. An act of nonchalance.

I have also noticed that in relationships in which I am no longer close with someone, I cannot recall what exactly made us stop being close. Was it something subtle and gradual or sudden and catastrophic.

There are so many relationships that I am analyzing because I am trying to notice the patterns I've been exhibiting that are still prevalent in my relationships today.

The ones that stick out most are the relationships I have/had with my mother, my grandmother, and my ex best friend from approximately 6th grade through 9th or 10th grade.

These were relationships that were in my life before I became an adult. There are issues with withholding words of affirmation and appreciation where deserved, keeping my guard up, and creating problems with the intent of prematurely breaking things off.

These are all things I definitely still do to this day. There are things I wish I could change about each relationship.

My mother was a pure soul and didn't deserve to have such an entitled, ungrateful child.

My grandmother...I tried my best to stand up to her, but given the situation I had to do it more passively than I would have liked.

My BFF and I were so close. So inseparable. (I remember being really vulnerable once and in a text message compared her to being my Edward (Cullen) even though I didn't mean in a romantic way. I think she must have responded with some form of hesitance or discomfort and it negatively affected me or something.) I know she still misses our friendship, and I believe in more ways than I want to admit, I miss it too.

Hmmmm. Idk. I just have some deeply rooted issues when it comes to relationships. There's definitely something wrong with the [wo]man in the mirror, here.

[feelingsarentavailable]

Dance practice

So today i have a all day type of dance practice. i’m really fucking tired ~ we are on lunch break- going to taco bell ~ my dance teacher is a somewhat of a prick/ but i respect him for getting the job done

[theavalerion]

my favorite aesthetic is executively elegant

like

classy af but with an evil glint in your eye