#soft philosophy

[existentialangelsblog]

I feel everything so deeply, it almost feels like nothing at all.

[everythingyelloww]

I’m enjoying this book. The author recommended reading one chapter a day. Each chapter is 3-4 pages. My ex always teased me about how I read books. I read a few pages and then pause to savor them. I might think about a few pages for five minutes or 30 minutes or all day so it takes me forever to read one book. This book is designed to be absorbed this way.

One of the things I learned was how to make “done” lists. I am harshly self-critical when I’m not productive. “Done lists” remind me of how @snapthistiger writes. I think his posts are calming to read. My done lists feel the same way, and I’ve started creating them mostly for work. They help me see when I need to add self-care and make me proud when I do have self-care entries.

The last chapter I read, “Let the future be the future - on crossing bridges when you come to them” has been helpful to me with respect to my Butterfly’s domestic violence situation.

It mentions Carl Jung’s “the next and most necessary thing” philosophy, reminding me that I don’t have to live ten steps ahead of myself mentally right now. Just focus on the next most necessary step of this day for my mental/emotional/physical health, even if that is simply making a nourishing meal for all of us or taking a shower.

“What is anxiety? It is the next day. With whom, then, does the pagan contend in anxiety? With himself, with a delusion, because the next day is a powerless nothing if you yourself do not give it your strength” - Soren Kierkegaard

[rrrmasashi9]

the circle of people around you

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This comic is something I drew a long time ago for Webtoon.

It’s quite old, and because of formatting rules it’s split in some awkward places, but what I wanted to express with this comic is that the “world” is really nothing more than the circle of people around you, and even if people outside that circle say bad things about you, it’s not something you need to worry about. This way of thinking, however, is a core belief that has stayed with me.

As for the characters in this comic: the cat-eared boy who is explaining things at the beginning and the blond boy who is listening to him used to date when they were students. The blond boy wanted to live while hiding the fact that he was bisexual, so they broke up.

Ten years later, they met again at a bar. That’s the story.

[the-soft-scholar]

soft existentialism

sometimes i wonder why i am here not in the heavy way just in the quiet curious almost tender way.

the world feels too big for me and yet somehow i fit inside it like a small note tucked into a vast book.

maybe existence is not meant to make sense. maybe it is just a series of soft moments held together by breath by chance by the tiny choices we make while trying to be gentle.

i think about how strange it is that i am alive at all sitting here in this exact moment feeling something i cannot name and letting it pass through me the way light moves across a room.

maybe that is enough. to exist quietly and feel deeply and let the universe figure out the rest.

[existentialangelsblog]

Let me sit here a little longer, before it all changes again.

[existentialangelsblog]

“We all need meaning, and we all search for it. We may never fully understand the meaning of life, but perhaps the act of searching, evolving, and connecting is the meaning we’re all reaching for.”

[existentialangelsblog]

lately, I mourn things that haven’t even ended yet. I mourn the present before it’s gone.

[existentialangelsblog]

We must be our own before we can be another's.