𝐍𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 ⋮ 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 ⋮ 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 ┄ Din Djarin x Female Original Character, Han Solo x Female Original Reader (platonic) ⋮ 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 ┄ Star Wars
‼️ WARNING THIS STORY WILL CONTAIN ‼️
Mentions of Abusive relationship, Alcohol consumption, Anxiety, Assault, Attempted murder {ofc, this is Star Wars}, Sexual assault, Blood, Child abuse, Child death, Childbirth, references to Cults, character death, Depression, Drugs, Eating disorder, Emesis, Emotional abuse, Famine, Fire, Genocide, Gore, Gun violence, Hallucinations, Kidnapping, Miscarriage, Misogyny, Needles, Physical abuse, Plague, Pregnancy, use of profanity and vulgar language, Prostitution, PTSD, Sexism, Sexual harassment, Sexually explicit scenes, pedophilia, Slavery, Slut shaming, Spiders {beware those with arachnophobia}, Stalking, Starvation, Terminal illness, Terrorism, Torture, Violence and War.
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𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒:
Naia is a Force Sensitive, who was born in 29 BBY on the tropical planet of Scarif in the Abrion sector of the Outer Rim Territories. Originally born Naia Solvarion, she was taken from her home at 8 months old and trained as a Jedi under Master Obi-Wan Kenobi.
After Order 66 decimated the Jedi Order, she lost her way and found herself on Corellia. Only being 11-years old, she had little experience in taking care of herself and it isn’t until she meets Han Solo that she feels secure. Han and Naia had what some would call, a twin flame. They were both the same year and only days apart but to two different mothers, and yet they easily fell into a brother/sister relationship.
After her many extravagant adventures, she is lost once again. The meaning of life seemed unclear, her fear of teaching a new era of Jedi denies her ability to help Luke Skywalker, one of her best friends. That is until she stumbles across a certain Mandalorian Bounty Hunter with an itch to save a small green child, who had looked all too familiar to that of Master Yoda, and feels obligated to help protect the child from Imperial grasp.
Maybe Naia even finds love along the way, love that feels as normal as breathing air into her lungs.
Summary: Will Poe Be able to control his feelings when the mission is about a certain someone? They talk about it.
Authors Note: If you guys want me to make a part 2 where the mission happens comment below or in the ask box
P.S. I turned 21 guys! I find it ironic that when I chose what days to schedule the stories to post on I did not realize that one of them was the 21rst till after I did it. I have one posted on the 21rst and I turned 21 the exact month and year, I found it funny lol.
Poe smiled as he left the mall bathroom to see Y/n/n still asleep. What saddened him a bit was that he got back not long ago from talking with Leia, and she requested him to wake her up. Considering they stay in the same room. “Y/n, it’s time to get up.” Poe spoke softly as he gently shook her awake.
“Go away. Sleep time.” Y/n grumbled, digging her head further into her pillow.
Poe chuckled “Well get up and go tell your mom that.”
Y/n shook her head ‘no’, answering with a quick reply. “No way.”
“Why not?” Poe asked raising an eyebrow in the process, confused and assumed by how fast she replied.
“Cause that would mean I would have to tell her why I want more sleep. That leads to telling her what you and I did last night.” Y/n stated as she turned to face him and moved to sit up in bed up against the headboard. She gave him a pointed look as if to make her point further. “An that’s never going to be a discussion I have with my mother.”
“Don’t want your mom to know about what we do in bed?” Poe smirked leaning in closer to her. He playfully went in to nip at her neck.
Y/n let out a huffed laugh. “Would you want to talk about what we do in bed with my mother? Or better yet, she’s your general.”
Poe stopped once he heard her words. He pulled back from her neck and nodded with a gulp. “Ok, ok I see your point.”
“Yeah.” She stretched out the word and nodded along with him. “What was the reason she had you come to wake me?”
“We have a mission.” Poe answered with excitement in his voice and eyes.
“Together?” Y/s asked shocked with wide eyes
“Hmmmhmm” he nodded with a smile
Y/n furrowed her brow “Why?”
“Why? What do you mean why?” Poe asked taken back by her response.
“She never pairs us together because we-” Y/n pointed between them. “-Are together. It’s a conflict of interest, it could cause problems with us and the mission. Don’t get me wrong I’m glad we get to have a mission together cause yes they are a rarity. But my question of ‘why?’ still stands.”
“Well, I do think I know why.” Poe said with his head tilted back and up to the side.
She squinted at him before laughing. “Please do share your knowledge.”
But when Poe looked at her once again the look in his eyes wasn’t a playful one. It was serious.
“The mission.” Poe started and Y/n nodded in acknowledgment. “It evolves your brother.” Poe finished and studied her face to see her reaction. After all he’s good at reading her.
“Oh” was all that left her mouth at his words.
“Are you ok?” Poe asked interlacing their hands together.
“Hmmmhmm: she hummed wordlessly
Poe reached up with his unoccupied hand to cup her cheek so she’d look him in the eyes before stating softly. “Hey, you know you can talk to me right?”
Of course, Y/n knew that. She trusted Poe with her life and all her secrets. He is one of the only people that know the story of what happened to her brother and who he is now.
“Are you going to be ok with that? With my brother being involved?” Y/n asked him Ben Solo or as he goes by now Kylo Ren has been a topic that leads to overprotection and a fight once between the couple. Y/n watched as Poe just sat there in front of her looking off at the wall, eyes very blank. “Poe!”
“I don’t like him.” Poe grumbled turning his attention back to her.
“I know” Y/n smiled sympathetically. Kylo had tortured him and all she understood his dislike.
“Everything he’s done.” he scoffed
“I know” she nodded in understanding
“The way he treats you.” Poes face tinted red thinking about how Y/ns brother treated her and the other members of his own family. “I can’t stand it.”
“I know babe, I know.” Y/n ran her hand that was free through his hair. Trying to soothe his anger and nerves.
“I’m not gonna let him touch you.” his voice was hard but Y/n could hear the vaurinbltliy behind it.
“You can’t control that-” As much as Y/n appreciated his protectiveness and care, she knows he can’t prevent her brother from doing anything. No one can. But maybe her, but she’s still to drained from the last encounter she had with him.
“I can damn well try.” Poe stated with no room for arguing. Doesn’t matter if the guy tortured him before or the fact that he is the brother of the love of his life. Kylo Ren is never gonna lay a finger on her, ever again. Not if Poe has anything to do with it.
Summary: Yn solo and Poe Dameron have been friends since they met. But if you look closely you'll see that maybe they love each other. or not?
Warnings: star wars references. a little sad, but nothing too heavy. yn does not speak as a way to deal with feelings.
Word Count: 2K
A\N: I started writing this fanfic today and I'm already finishing her 2nd episode. I'll try to do something small, with less than 10 chapters, but in a detailed way that explores the novel and all the last 3 films in the Star Wars saga. Tomorrow I'll try to bring the next chapter. English is not my first language, so I'm sorry for any mistake. I'm new to the Star Wars world too, so if there's any mistake in history, tell me!!! I hope you like it, I love you poe dameron
GIF It's not mine! credits to the creator,
No one never understood what was going on between Poe dameron and Y/N solo. Even the elders of the resistance, who saw the girl grow up, didn't understand what was going on. Since the day Poe set foot at the base of the resistance he and Y/n they became best friends. Those who saw from afar thought they were just friends, but for those closest to the two they saw that they had something else.
Even for Leia it was obvious. Poe arrived after what happened at the Jedi temple. She'd rather not think about it. Sometimes she'd rather think her son was on another planet doing something instead of being on some empire ship. And the brother was somewhere training younger Jedi.
Leia embraced Poe as her son. Especially after her saw how he helped Y/N after...
Y/N was a little older than Ben. Her uncle, Luke, trained her a little earlier than her brother. The day Ben left, she was gone of the temple. She had completed her Jedi training. She was coming home with BC-2, her droid. When she got home she was greeted by her parents crying. Not happiness. It was the first time she saw her father cry. And the last time she saw her mother cry was in the birth of, well, him.
She didn't understand. She had seen her brother the day before. He was fine. He had joked about some other Jedi student, who for some reason couldn't carry the saber. They laughed, she cried when she said goodbye. She hugged her uncle and promised she'd be back in a month.
Why didn't they send her any transmissions? She would have come back, talked to him. Your brother would understand you. Wouldn`t? He was afraid, he must have thought he let his uncle down and ran away to the evil side of the force.
She didn't say anything for six months. It was her way of dealing with the situation. In the third month they received the news that they most feared for an empire spy. He was being trained by Snoke.
2 weeks after that news Han Solo and Chewie left.
She understood. For some reason she always understood people. It was their way of dealing with it. Leia got into work. She said it was just work, but Y/N knew that while she was working, she was looking for him.
What about Y/N? She helped with the resistance. Going on missions, helping some refugees from cities taken by the empire, and running all over the base when she was left with nothing to do.
When Poe arrived he wondered if he had made the right decision to join the resistance. He was 23 years old and had lost so much. It was presented to everyone except Y/N. The younger people at the base did not understand her, especially why she did not speak. The older ones knew, but they didn't say why.
The younger ones said that since she was a Jedi and could not say anything if she did could die, others said that her voice could kill everyone. Poe thought this idea was stupid, just another gossip. He had seen her from a distance, and had already realized that she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.
Their first interaction was in a meeting. Actually, it wasn't exactly an interaction. He was talking to one of the mechanics after the meeting, and as he looked into his eyes he saw a flash of fear and gave an apology and left. When he went to protest he felt a hand on his shoulder. To his surprise he turned and saw her, C3-PO and her droid, BC-2.
"Hello Mr. Poe Dameron. Miss Y/N would like to congratulate you on your flight on the last mission." As C3-PO spoke, Poe couldn't take his eyes out of her eyes. He knew she was pretty, but when he saw her up close he ran out of air. Y/N also looked at him, but in a more uncomfortable way. It's been so long for her since anyone actually looked at her. Suddenly Poe became aware that he was not breathing and pulled the air in a very noisy way. "An, it's... An, o-thank you lady, hm Lady Y/N." Poe had a shock, because he realized it was the first time a woman had him stutter. And Y/N hadn't even exchanged a syllable with him.
"She also wanted to ask about the maneuver you made when that ship came towards you, could you explain?" C3-PO said again and Poe explained quickly, leaving no opportunity for him to stutter again. Y/N heard everything looking directly at his face, paying more attention than she paid for in the Jedi lessons with Luke. When he finished explaining C3-PO looked at y/n, in which she waved and the droid returned to look at Poe. "Thank you Mr Poe Dameron, mrs y/n is grateful. If you'll excuse me, I have some obligations to deal with right now. I hope I helped you Ma'am." Then the droid left, leaving Poe and Y/n.
They stared at each other for a while longer when she realized she should leave. She turned to leave and for the first time in 6 months, in a hoarse whisper she said, "Thank you." Poe listened, and when he heard he shuddered and realized he needed to meet this woman. Y/N didn't even realize she'd spoken, she thought she'd just waved. She was so tired of the mission, she just wanted to get out of that meeting as soon as possible. But when she saw the incredible new endurance rider in the corner, looking a little lost, she knew he needed to exchange some interaction with him.
As soon as the meeting was over she pulled the protocol droid into an empty corner and asked him to mediate the conversation. She realized that she had "talked" to someone besides her mother for the first time the next day. She was so ashamed that her hands trembled all day. She thanked her that she didn't have to go out with the x-wing that day, because she knew that before she left the hangar she would lose control.
Leia meet Poe 3 days later. She had finally taken some time to talk to the new resistance star. Where she was going she hear about the amazing new pilot. She called the boy into her office and talked. They spent 30 minutes talking nonstop. It seemed little, but they met and Leia could already see the good-hearted man and the boy hiding behind his face. She had a brief perception with the force, that this man could one day take her place as a general. Who knows even maybe with YN´s help.
As Poe was about to leave he turned around and asked Leia, "General, do you know Mrs. Y/n?" "Yes, I do, why?" Leia realized that Poe did not know that Y/n was her daughter, but did not mention this fact. She wanted to know what he was going to say. "She, um, talked to me. I mean, she didn't talk to me. C3-PO spoke for her. But, um I... You know what? I have to go, have a good day, General!" And so Poe left leaving the woman surprised.
Her daughter didn't talk to anyone but her, she knew. Even if it was by C3-PO it was already a major breakthrough. She saw an interest in Poe for the girl, but kept that information to her.
3 weeks later she had one idea. She was going to send both in a mission. Leia sent them together because she realized that even if they didn't talk they felt comfortable with each other. At all the meetings they sat nearby, at lunchtime they sat together. If Poe was somewhere Y/N was next to him, and if Y/N was somewhere, Poe would be there.
The mission was pretty simple actually. Go to this uninhabitable planet, where it had been the last base of the resistance and seek some plans and reports of ancient missions. But it would last at least two weeks to get back and going. Poe accepted and went to pack his things. He didn't question it. He wasn't excited about the mission itself, but he knew it was an oportunnity going in a mission with Y/n. He wanted to at least try to talk to her. She didn't have to answer if she didn't want to.
But Y/N knew her mother was up to something. She wouldn't send a Jedi and one of her best pilots just to pick up some old plans that no longer make sense these days. "What are you up to?" Her hoarse voice because of disuse brought a shiver all over her body, but she ignored him. Her mother looked at her and smiled. "Nothing dear. Now go and pack your things. Before you go come here to say goodbye to me, all right?" Y/n stared at her mother a little more and headed out towards his room. Together some clothes, took a blaster and the saber. She stopped by the office, hugged her mother and she said goodbye with a look saying 'take care'. She didn't want to lose another son.
Poe was waiting outside the ship assigned to them. For some reason the news that he was going on a mission with the girl had already spread all over the base. Had he just received the assignment for the mission, how everyone already knew? And how did they know he was going with Y/n? Some of the mechanics and pilots who passed him wishing good luck. But he knew it wasn't good luck for the mission. He knew it was 'good luck to deal with the girl'. He understood the message between the lines.
Y/n knew about all the theories that they had about her, but she knew she had more important things to deal with. Like a brother in the empire, a missing uncle, a missing father who refused to say where he was and only responded to her broadcasts by telling the latest news and that he was fine. And the war she knew was imminent.
The girl quickly passed through all the corridors and went to the hangar, finding Poe and her droid playing. It was kind of funny. Y/N put her hand on his back and Poe who was kneeling to reach the time of the droid. Poe looked up and found her eyes. She waved toward the ship. A small one, but one that had enough room for both of them and the droids.
"Yes, of course, let's go. Come BB-8." Before he even got up right he had already taken the bag off her shoulders and walked to the entrance of the ship leaving no time for her to deny the attitude. Y/N, confused, went up the ramp and while Poe kept her purse she began to turn on the ship and close the ramp. While Y/N sat in place of co-pilot Poe came to take control of the ship. "Let's get this baby off the ground."
Y/N took a deep breath, knowing it would be a long 2 weeks without speaking.
Summary: A new girl arrives to make Reader's time in Highschool way more difficult.
Words: 2,693 (think this is the longest so far)
A/N: Alright some notes, this is based on my High School AU with Rey and things are pretty much the same except for Rey, we have a rather bad woman instead but Reader it's still a Solo. I wanted to write this for a while and well I finally finished it. Hope you like it, let me know what you think!
You were late for class. Again. Didn't hear the irritating beeping alarm and its constant try to tear your from your sleep. And your older brother wasn't kind enough to wake you up.
Running through the maze of halls you hoped to make it on time to the class before the teacher, you knew she wouldn't be happy to see you arriving late to her class once again.
Just when you reached the last turn to the classroom you collided with a body you weren't expecting that almost sent you directly to the floor.
"Shit, sorry." you said.
"Look where you're going, idiot!" a very angry voice said and you observed hypnotized the girl yelling at you.
Dark wavy hair falling over her delicate skin and hazel eyes gazing threatening at you while she kept telling you not to cross her way again. A mischievous grin curving her lips and the leather jacket only made her seem way more mysterious. You felt terribly attracted to this mean girl and yet you hated how rude she was over this little accident.
And as fast as you encountered her she was gone letting you alone in the desert hall.
Who was that girl?
The bell ringing reminded you how late for the morning lesson you were so you rushed the final steps to the classroom.
"Late again, Solo" were the teacher's first words when she saw you silently reaching your place, trying your best not to be noticed.
"Sorry, Miss Holdo" you said. Your friends, Poe and Finn laughed in silence and you glared at them for a moment.
“If you keep arriving this late I’m afraid I’d have to send you to detention” She said.
“Won’t happen again.” you assured her. With a smile she went back to her lesson, she knew you since you were a kid, she was a family friend and you assumed that was why she hadn’t send you to detention already.
“Where’s Rose?” you murmured looking at the empty spot next to you.
“Paige said she’s sick” Finn mumbled.
“Finn, quiet” Miss Holdo said making your friend flinch for a moment. You smiled before really paying attention to today’s lesson.
Lost taking notes and scribbling stars in the little notebook you almost didn’t hear the knock in the door, ignored the sudden murmur between your classmates but you heard her.
"I was told this is was history class." you knew that voice and recognized her jaw, her slim figure.
Not you, you thought
"It is.” the teacher told her with a sympathetic smile “Principal mentioned a new student, what's your name?"
"Rey" she said. Oh, she even had a nice name, great.
"Welcome, Rey. Please, take a seat.”
She eyed the class carefully as if she was examining her new empire about to rise, then her golden eyes found yours and that malicious grin she had when you met her on the hall was back on her face.
Rey walked across the room with everybody watching her every move but she kept staring at you.
“Is this seat taken?” she said pointing at the chair where Rose usually sat, now only occupied by your bag.
“Well... yes“ you barely said when she pushed your things out of the chair.
“Not anymore” she said without giving an actual damn about the angry way you stared at her.
First the hallway, now this, oh this girl was really rude and you felt like you were really starting to hate her. Huffing you picked up your fallen bag, you were grateful most of the things stayed inside but there was a few things that landed very away from you to reach, nor Finn or Poe could, only her.
While the class kept its regular course you watched at the little notebook on the floor hoping to get it back as soon as the class was over but you weren’t the only one watching it, Rey followed your constant gazes and soon the little journal was on her power.
“What do we have here?” she said playing with it in her hands. “Seems like the little nerd has a journal.”
“Give it to me.” you murmured.
She gave you a short daring glance before she opened it and proceeded to pass some of the pages.
"Stop. Give it back!" You told her.
"Whatever" she said tossing it at you "nothing interesting anyways."
Just in that moment the bell rumbled through the air marking the end of the class.
"See you later, nerd" she said already on her way out of the place leaving you all pissed and unable to say a word.
"What was all that with the evil witch?" Poe asked in the hall, the small group walking to the next lesson.
"I don't know" you said still a bit confused "but I have a really bad feeling about her."
And you were right. Not only she proclaimed herself as the new baddie of the school that nobody would dare to even look at her the wrong way, she was even feared by you own brother who used to be the big bad guy always intimidating people. But she dedicated her time to make your life impossible, making jokes about you, pushing you in the corridor.
Often you found yourself cornered by her in the main hallways when nobody else was there to help you giving her whatever she would want, sometimes it was money and some days she had taken your homework to deliver (? It as hers. And as much as you wanted you couldn't do anything but stare at her, which only made the wicked smirk on her lips grow wider.
And the constant question in your head was why? What did you do to this girl to treat you this bad? But the months passed and the question was still unanswered.
Certain day you were just picking a few things from your locker while happily chatting with Rose, it was one of that lucky days the girl who was always pushing you around like if you were kindergartens was nowhere to be seen, you felt somehow relax when she was not near. But oh no, there she was, dressed in dark clothes as always, ready to make someone’s life miserable.
You caught her figure walking confident through the place and you prayed she would not noticed you and at first you thought so when she passed by your side as if you were no there.
Then Rose hitted the floor.
All the students in the corridor saw how Rey pushed your good friend making her stumble backwards, but nobody said a thing, nobody even dared to look at the scene for too long they all were used to that, all of them were afraid of Rey.
The evil lady kept walking as if nothing had happened but looking over her shoulder to dedicate you a satisfied grin.
“Rose, are you okay?” you offered a helping hand to your friend who took it glad you were there.
“Yeah, I’m fine” she murmured when she was back on her feet.
It had to stop. Rey made your days in school miserable but you never said nothing about it. She could insult you as much as she wanted, after all this time there were no more words she could use to make you feel bad, she could push you all she wanted but you wouldn’t allowed her to touch your friends.
“Hey!” you yelled and surprisingly she stopped, as well as all the people in the hall, curious to hear what you had to said to the one and only evil queen. “You owe her an apology.” you stared at her.
“Oh, I don’t think so, darling.” Rey said “The one that should be apologizing is her, for getting in my way.”
“Bullshit, Rey!” you scoffed “We all saw what happened.”
“Oh, somebody’s cranky.” she mocked as she walked in your direction, her steps echoing as she got closer, arms crossed.
“Somebody needs to shut up.” you raged which actually made her flinch for a matter of second and you saw the students around you trying hide the smiles forming on their faces.
“Y/N, forget it” Rose said grabbing your arm “It’s not worthy your time”
“It is, Rose” you assured her. Leaving her side you approached Rey more than you would usually do, you wanted to make sure she hear what you had to say. “I’ve had enough of your stupidity walking around the school as if you own it” you hissed “You can do whatever you want to me but I’m warning you, do not mess with my friends.” There was a strange mix of emotions on her face, not the confident smile on her lips, she looked rather confused, surprised. “Now, Rey. Apologize”
“No.” she said. “Why you even defend her, Y/N. Is she your little girlfriend?”
“No, but what if she was?” you told her now getting closer to her. “What if, huh? would you have a problem with that too?” she gave no answer “Well at least I’d have a fantastic girl but you? No, you are going to end alone, because nobody wants an asshole like you and I assure you I wouldn’t date you even if you were the last person in the world. You don't deserve to be loved, Rey"
Rey's fist collided with the side of your face making you dizzy for a moment. There was a collective gasps.
"You really shouldn't have done that" you murmured before sending a punch to her face and it didn't take long for her to respond with a new punch.
Both blinded by the fury and lost in the fight didn't hear the people cheering around you.
"Fight! Fight! Fight!" The crowd screamed but you ignored them, the only thing you care about was dodge Rey's merciless hits.
A pair of arms wrapped around you and pulled you from Rey's grasp, you heard Ben’s voice telling you to stop, only then you realized not only that at least half of the school was there watching the scene but you found Miss Holdo's disappointed face.
*****
"This behavior is absolutely unacceptable" Miss Holdo said way angrier than you had ever seen her. "Be thankful you're just getting a few days of detention. Do you realized you could have been expelled?"
Holdo's gaze travel from Rey to you and stayed gazing at you for a few seconds.
"I have to talk with your parents. I want you two to think of your actions while I'm gone" the teacher said "Try not to kill each other while I'm not around." She added and before taking a last look at you she left you alone with Rey.
The first minutes you stayed in an awkward silence, watching at the clock hanging on the wall as it marked the slow pass of the time at the rhythm of the tick tock. It was going to be a really long detention.
The girl sitting a few feet away from you didn't make it any easier, the constant tapping of her pencil against the wood surface of the table was really stressing you out.
"Can you stop?" You finally broke the silence.
"Am I bothering the little princess?" She mocked.
"You're stressing the hell out of me" you told her.
"And what are you going to do? Punch me? Look where that took us." she said.
"You started it, Rey" giving her a cold stare you told her. Then both went silent again but the tapping didn't stop.
Unable to ignore the way she was drumming with the small pencil you stood up your seat.
"I said stop" you said taking away the pencil from her hand. Next moment Rey was also in her feet dangerously close to you as she used to do to intimidate you, but that power was not hers anymore.
"Careful, Solo" she murmured "You may have found some guts to speak up in front of people but right now it's just you and me alone and you don't know what I'm capable of" she glanced at you with fury on her hazel eyes. "So don't dare me."
She backed away and turned to her seat. She was right, there were just she and you in the detention room, no one else. It was time to get answers.
"Rey, why you treat me like this?" You asked.
"Because I hate you" she said carefree.
"But why? Since the first day we met you've been nothing but mean to me" you said "You didn't even know me and still you decided you hate me?"
"I hate losers and your the biggest one around here" Rey added.
"That doesn't makes sense" you took a step closer to her "I'm tired of just bear you pushing me and treating me like garbage"
"You are garbage, Y/N"
"See? this is what I mean" you said "You attack me again and again but why? Why me? What did I do to you to deserve being treated like this?"
"You wanna know? Fine" she said "but don't go crying with your brother after this."
"Go ahead" you murmured serious.
"You’re scum, Y/N.” she started “I know who you are, playing dumb all the time, being ‘dad and mommy’s perfect daughter’ but I think you’re quite the opposite, surrounded by a bunch of losers.”
“So you’re problem is that I have good friends? a family that cares for me?” you chuckled “I guess you don’t have that yourself and you’re just jealous that I have people who care for me.”
She stared at you with a killer gaze, that certainly made her angry and sure it was why she preferred to attack you when you were alone, so you would feel as alone and helpless as hers. But there was something else that she was still holding.
“What else, Rey?” you added “There’s something you’re not telling me, I know you just enough to know that.”
You saw the big bad empress of the school doubting for a moment, almost fearing the words that were about to come out of her mouth.
"I hate the way you look at the other girls because I know you will never look at me the same way, the only times I get to be close to you you look at me with so much hate" Rey said a little too fast and too angry, frustration lying over her face while she was slowly getting closer to you "And I hate it that you're right, I don't deserve to be loved, but I hate it more that I fell for you anyways perfectly knowing I didn't have a chance to be with you"
There was a moment when the only thing you did was stare at each other, both of your not exactly knowing what to say, what to do.
Rey rushed in your direction “She’s gonna kick me again” you thought, bu she did something very different that you expected.
Carefully, Rey pulled you closer, crushing her lips against yours to lead a rough, desperate kiss. Her lips were surprisingly softer than you had expected, unexpectedly sweeter compared with the bittersweet words that often came from her mouth. You found yourself not pulling away immediately but rather intrigued by the way she kissed you, even enjoying it for a brief moment, forgetting whose lips were softly caressing yours. Until she pulled away.
Breathless, flushed and inches away from your face Rey examined your astonished features, her eyes scanning so desperately your face, wanting for a reaction maybe, waiting for a new fight maybe, but she only found you in conflict.
“Fuck, I hate you!” she hissed. Rey rushed to grab her things and let the room as fast as she could, the slight pink adorning her face and you could swear you noticed a crystal tear running down her face though she was already far gone.
You sighed taking your place back on the seat, processing just how much of a crazy day it had been.
This was going to be one hell of a month.
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Request: I'm using two requests this time. yes!! i love love love the new rey high school au fic!! maybe an idea for a future fic if the same series could be Rey maybe giving the reader a promise ring or sm. i just thought it would be cute ❤️ by anon
I really love your account and your writing! Could you do a high school Rey au where they celebrate their anniversary? I hope you have a great day by anon
Words: 1,285
A/N: Fluff, fluff everywhere after the angst I've been writing lately you deserve some fluff. The cheesiest thing I've written btw. Enjoy!
The garage door opened slowly with a loud squeal, the warm light of the day illuminating the room and revealing the well known place where you spended a good part of the time with Rey. When it wasn't in your home, it was here in Maz’s old garage in the back of her cantine, The Castle.
A smile curved your lips as you remembered all the memories you and Rey had built in this place. All those days sitting on the edge of the work table, watching her skilled hands repairing motors and every sort of mechanical devices while you talked about everything and nothing at all at the same time.
Your attention focused on the vehicle in the middle of the room, the bright red motorbike amazed you the moment you saw it.
“You repaired it.” you murmured impressed as you remembered just how old and broken this thing used to look when Rey found it, it looked so different now, so new.
"You like it?” Rey asked smiling proud of her work.
“How did you manage to make it look this good?” you said tracing figures with your fingers along the bike.
"With a few old pieces I found” Rey shrugged and smiled at you as she explained. “Maz let me use her trash and some old parts she had laying around. Got some help from Zorii, too."
"It's beautiful. “ you said admiring her creation.
"Not more than you.” she teased giving you a quick kiss. "Come one, I want to show you how fast can run." Rey told you taking her place in the motorbike and offering you a hand to climb behind her.
“Fine.” You chuckled wrapping your arms around her waist “As long as I can hold you this close.”
“Please do” she said before igniting the powerful engine of the motorbike that rumbled as Rey accelerated sending the bike flying through the streets, it took you by surprise which made you hold even tighter to her waist and lean closer to her body and you knew she was more than fine with that.
Once you got used to the motion you observed the way you passed fastly through the city from passing the crowded streets filled with cars that made you close your eyes more than once for how close they were, to leave the main city to the highway. It was incredible how fast this bike could go and more impressive how Rey managed to control it with ease and calm.
The sides of the highway suddenly started to fill with more and more trees instead of cold buildings and after exiting a tunnel you found yourself surrounded by nature, tall trees at both sides of the road and carefully looking up you discovered beautiful bows made out of intertwined branches, the warm light sliding through the empty spaces casting a soft green light over the road.
The wind in your hair, the velocity, the way you hold Rey's slim body, everything is perfect, peaceful. It’s an instant captured in your memory, you held her tight happily. There couldn’t be a better anniversary gift than this.
The motorbike slowed down as Rey took a small rocky road that you both laugh as the small bike seemed to jump whenever the tyres met the smallest little rock on the way. Then she finally stopped and leaned the bike helping you climb off, following you after.
“This is the place I wanted to show you.” she smiled taking your hand on hers as she guided you to the end of the road. It was a lookout, hidden between a few trees. You placed your hand over the old stone railing and admired the distant city, your city and the way the sunset was starting to fall over the buildings.
You were speechless, it was breathing. You couldn’t help but feeling a bit sentimental, especially since it brought you back the memories of this past year. What a chaotic year and yet you wouldn’t change any single bit of it, because Rey was in your life, she turned your world upside down and that made her the best thing that has happened to you.
A year. It sounded like a lot and yet so little. So many days and even more hours, minutes, memories. Felt so long and at the same time felt like it passed so fast, seemed like yesterday was the day you were hiding with her behind the stadium seats for the first time. Definitely, the most fantastic year of your entire life.
"Thanks for bringing me here" you murmured eyes focused on the view.
Rey’s body tensing dragged you out of your thoughts and as you turned to look at her you found her gaze focused on you, tender eyes and subtle smile that made your heart fall for her once again. However there was doubt in her eyes, nervousness.
“I want to give you something, Y/N" she said.
"I didn't bring you anything" you said a bit sad and mentally cursed yourself for forgetting to bring something for her, it was a special occasion after all.
"You didn't have to, don't worry. Having you here is all I ask" she assured you. You watched her pulling something out of the pocket on her hip, holding it for you to see it. A ring
"Rey…" you gasped as you saw the beautiful piece on her hand.
"It's not what you think," she chuckled "I'm not asking you to marry me, not yet" she teased with a small wink and a light smile.
"Then what is it?"
"A promise." She told you, she was nervous you saw it on her face and it was not usual to see her that way. She was quiet for a moment feeling your gaze on her "I'm sorry, I'm just thinking on the right thing to say. Things are moving fast with graduation coming soon and everything and I just- " she giggled nervous. "Shit, this is not going the way I planned."
You looked at her long and delicately as if you were looking at her for the first time, her silliness just letting you know how much she meant this. Taking her hand you encouraged her to keep going. She sighed.
"This is promise to a future full of light, love and togetherness, whatever happens this next months. It's a promise," she told you meeting your eyes, the light of the sunset making them seem softer than ever. "to always love you."
Rey let guided your hand she was holding, you watched her carefully placing the small ring on your finger. It fit perfectly, meant to be for you and only you.
Unable to contain yourself you pulled her into a kiss, sweet and true. You wanted her to know just how much you loved her.
"I love you, Rey. With all my heart." you murmured breaking away just inches away from her "And even though I'm unsure about the future, I'm certain that I love you." You said searching for her hazel eyes "And I will love you forever."
Rey and you exchanged loving gazes for a moment both thinking just how lucky you were to found each other, to love one another. She smiled at you before brushing her lips against yours one more time, sealing the promise.
As the sunset kept its way down the city and the night started to consume the last light rays you found yourself holding Rey's waist, resting your chin on her shoulder as she drove back home.
Your heart filled with love and hope of a future with Rey by your side and with a promise you were intend to keep.
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Summary: After the events of The Rise of Skywalker, reader finds herself wondering about her brother and asks Rey about what he would said about her.
Words: 1,500
A/N: I have a whole list of request to do and instead I'm here writing another thing. This is inspired on the song by the same name and I actually use most of the lyrics. Enjoy.
Falcon’s cockpit never felt so alone, never this quiet. Your footsteps echoed through the small room as you walked to the pilot seat, gently stroking the seat where your father used to sit, running your fingers over the soft material. It was still so unreal to believe he was gone, you could still remember his face screaming orders at Chewie, still hear his laugh, it seemed it was just a few days ago since you lost him… and your mother.
And brother, too.
This war had taken away everything from you but at least it was over, finally over after all those years. You knew your parents would be more than proud of that, happy for you to have a chance to start over.
Ben was a whole different story. You didn’t see him for years, didn’t had the chance to talk to him more than for a few minutes during battles. You felt like you didn’t know your own brother. You would have liked to at least say goodbye but you couldn’t even do that. But there was someone who knew him a little better than any one.
“Hey” Rey shyly greeted in the hallway of the cockpit.
“Hi” you murmured.
“How are you holding up?” she said.
“Feels weird” you chuckled “It’s quiet all the time, often I feel like I’m just taking a nap and mom is going to wake up me to send me on a mission.” you told her a bit nostalgic.
“Yeah, I think the same sometimes, but I usually think I’m going to wake up in Jakku.” she told you, then a soft smile curved her lips. “You said you needed me, Y/N” you nodded slowly.
“I wanted to ask you about…” you sighed “about my brother. You two seemed close, at least closer than me. I was just wondering if he... ever mentioned me.” you said trying hard for your voice not to crack.
“He did.” she murmured. “He thought you were awesome.”
“He thought I was awesome? my brother?” you asked, it seemed impossible he would think that way about you, all he said to you those few times was that you were in the wrong side and he was going to destroy you.
“Definitely” Rey affirmed.
“How?” you said.
Rey looked at you thoughtful, she knew how much you missed your brother, how much you wanted to know more about the man he became even if that hurted you. She thought for a moment on her conversations with Ben Solo, Rey couldn’t deny that he asked for his sister, always wondering if Y/N was alright everytime the Force connected them, but aside that he didn’t say much.
The scavenger knew the effect it would cause on you if she told you the truth and upset you was the very last thing she wanted. She sighed before the words left her mouth.
“Well, he said “ she started, her voice shy and nervous as she talked to you “there’s nothing like your smile, sort of subtle and perfect and real.” she told you looking at the floor for a moment. “He said, you never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel” Rey spoke as if those were your brother’s words though they were her own thoughts about you.
A bit of a smile started to form on your lips, you tried to imagine Ben telling Rey about you.
“And he knew, whenever you get bored you scribble stars pretty much everywhere.” both of your giggled for a moment and you saw one of your stars in the side of the control panel.
“True” you said.
Your reaction filled Rey with confidence to keep talking.
“He noticed you shot blasters the same careless way your father used to.” Rey said and you let go a bittersweet chuckle.
“Ben, really thought about me that way? He never said anything, why?” you asked sitting down confused, wishing you could have asked him in person.
“Your brother was in so much conflict, Y/N. Fighting against those who were controlling him and against himself.” Rey explained as she got closer “And though he wanted to he couldn’t talk to you, he couldn’t find a way.”
She sat down in the seat next to you and took one of your hands.
“Everytime we had this… bond” she told you “He asked about you, he would always say if I could tell her” she paused for a moment and her eyes met yours “tell her everything I see, if I could tell her how she’s everything to me. But we’re a millions worlds apart and I don’t know how I would even start.”
Rey spoke from her heart, meaning every sweet word she said to you, amazed with the way your eyes shined with her words and that precious smile of yours adorned your face. Many times she wanted to confess her undying love for you but she was afraid to do it, she was surprised how easily the words came out of her mouth.
“Did he said anything else?” you said excited to hear more.
“About you?” awkwardly asked Rey, your words took her by surprise.
“Never mind, I don’t really care anyways.” you chuckled shaking your head.
“No, no, no just, he said, he said so many things, I’m just trying to remember the best ones” She rushed to said, she spoke incredibly fast, an uncommon thing in her that made you smile. Rey cleared her throat.
“He thought you looked really pretty” she murmured but immediately corrected herself “ er...It looked pretty cool when you put that black jacket and wear your hair down.”
“He did!” you agreed, it was one of the few things you remembered about your brother.
“Ben wondered how you learned to dance like all the rest of the world isn’t there” she said and it confused you a little, your brother never saw you dancing, to be honest the only person you felt confident enough to dance around was Rey, so you started to doubt her words.
“I feel like I never met the real him, the Ben you describe sounds so different from the one I knew.” you told her “He just seemed so far away, so cold.”
The girl in white clothes feared for a moment you knew she was lying about her brother, so she thought fast in how to make sure that wouldn’t happen.
“He loved you, Y/N.” She told you, you didn’t doubt that, never had done that but there was something telling you this wasn’t Ben’s words.
“Did he ever tell you about the time the jawas chased us?” you said analyzing the way Rey features changed from calm to nervous before she answers your question.
“Y-yes, he mentioned something like that.”
“Did he said how we stopped them?” you glanced at her trying to find a way to escape or even answer the story you were making up, she seemed really in trouble this time and you finally knew she was lying. “He never told you any of the things you just said, did he?” you said a bit upset.
“No, sorry, Y/N.” She sighed defeated.
“No, it’s okay. It was stupid for me to ask you such thing.” you forced yourself to smile. You couldn’t deny you were a bit sad you didn’t get no much answers for your doubts about your brother, but in the other hand… those words she said, were they lies too?.
“When did you know I was lying to you?” Rey murmured ashamed.
“It was the dance.” you told her and she nodded. “now I wonder, where did you get all that? It was beautiful, though.”
Rey stared at you for a moment, debating herself if she should tell you the truth or keep lying, but right at that moment the light that came into the window and lighted your face made her realized that if she could fight a whole war and make it out alive she could finally confess her feelings for Y/N, but again the question was how to begin.
Taking all the courage in her she leaned to kiss your lips, taking your face softly in her hands to pull you closer. Her lips were soft as she kissed you sweetly, there were millions of words but she said more with her action that she could have with words and you felt the happiness invading your body as you kept there with her.
Then she pulled away just enough to rest her forehead on yours and look down at you.
“I love you, Y/N” she muttered and you smiled back at her. “It’s about time you know”
You kissed her back before you smiled at her.
“I love you too, Rey.”
Maybe this war hadn’t taken everything from you after all, maybe you lost your family, some of your friends but you had her and a chance to start over now that you knew the truth.
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Request: Hello! I just discovered your account and I am obsessed! I just read love lockdown and I was wondering if you could do a fic that takes place after it when the reader and Rey have their first day being an out couple at school/ telling Poe, Finn and Rose? I hope you have a great day :)) by anon
Words: 769 (I've been writing very short things lately)
A/N: Here it is, I feel like I got this request a long time ago but I hope you still like it. Have a great day/night.
“Oh, I knew it” Poe grinned.
“No, you did not” Finn chuckled looking at him-
“I knew it.” Poe repeated, his gaze focused on your slightly blushed but smiley face while Rey held your hand proudly in front of your friends after telling them about your relationship.
“Well, you certainly spend a lot of time to together, I don’t know why we didn’t realize before.” Rose smiled. Out of your group of friends Rose definitely was the smartest one, way smarter than Finn and Poe together. “I’m so happy for you two” she pulled you and Rey into a hug.
You felt a wave of happiness invading your body, it felt good to be out. Not having to hide, specially not from your friends that you loved so deeply and it seemed they did love you too as they immediately accepted you, not questioning, just fully understanding.
“Yes, I did” Poe said to Finn as they both continued their little discussion.
“Of course you didn’t know, Poe” Finn inquired “You literally tried to ask Y/N out”
“No!” Poe said but thought for a moment. “Wait I did. But it was before they were a thing, right?” he asked.
Definitely Rose had the brain they were lacking of.
The boys shared a conspiracy gaze before turning to face you and your girlfriend.
“How long have you been dating, guys?” Finn asked with a grin, Poe raised an questioning eyebrow.
“Six months” Rey answered giving you the most heartwarming smile and for the first time you were able to smile back at her and even press a soft, quick kiss on her lips.
“Six months!?” they nearly screamed, surprised. Rose rolled her eyes before staring at them annoyed.
“Why didn’t you tell us before?” Finn asked sincerely.
“It’s... complicated” you said. It was still a bit strange and new for you to talk openly about it but at the same time you felt grateful for it. “I was closeted, I was insecure about what people would say if I told them.” you confessed “ It sounds kinda stupid now that I’m saying it outloud, since pretty much everyone have been so supportive and kind” there was just so much joy in all of it, you even felt some tears coming to your eyes but did your best not to let them fall.
“It’s okay, Y/N” Finn said with a smile. “It must have been tough to hide yourself for so long”
“We’re happy you can finally be openly together.” Rose added “You deserve to feel free to share your love with the world.” she sweetly said “So how are you feeling?”
“It’s still pretty new” you said “But I feel fantastic”
“Me too, Y/N” Rey said giving your hand a tiny squeeze “I’m glad we don’t have to hide anymore, so stupid boys won’t try to ask you out again” she said and both of you laughed.
“Hey!” Poe protested a few moments later after processing Rey’s words.
“That mean he did ask you out when you two were dating?” Finn laughed.
“Looks like” Poe said “Now I understand why Rey got so mad when I asked for help to get Y/N to date me.”
“You’re an idiot, Dameron” Rey told him glancing at him.
“You really are, Poe” you giggled.
“And blind, apparently” Finn joked.
“Thanks a lot for the help, Finn” Poe huffed eliciting a collective laugh from the small group of friends. “Now seriously, you two make a nice couple” he said
“Thanks” you murmured.
“You are a pair of weirdy nerds, perfect to one another” he said with a smirk on his face.
“Watch it, Dameron. I won’t hesitate to kick your ass” Rey warned, this make your friends burst laughing again.
You felt a pair of eyes laying on you from the distance, looking over your friends you saw the shadows the group of baddies casted as they walked careless through the school and met your brother’s eyes. You held his gaze for a moment, serious and then he gave you a tiny smile, faint but it was there. Ben gave you a small approval nod before he disappeared with his friends behind him.
With a wide smile you turned back to your friends already lost in some new discussion full of jokes and laughs, you admired the view enjoying every moment of it.
Condentely you wrapped on arm around Rey’s waist and leaned on her shoulder as the talk continued unaffected by your actions. Seemed like the only person who noticed was Rey, she smiled pulling you even closer to her side.
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Request: The reader gets injured in a car crash and their leg needs to heal but they get impatient because of how long it will take + scared that Rey might leave them because their is a chance of permanent damage? Rey assures the reader that they aren't going anywhere. Requested by @ajaxthecharizard
Words: 1,760
A/N: angst, angst everywhere! It was fun to write this little thing. Sorry for the delay but I really hope you enjoy it! Thanks for requesting!💕💕
“How is she?” panting Rey asked as soon as she entered to the waiting room. Her heart had almost stop when she got the call that informed her you were in the hospital. Millions of thoughts swirled inside her head of the million things that could had happened to you as a lump formed in her throat. Was the panic what made her race to the hospital.
“Hey! Easy there, Rey.” Han stopped her gently placing a hand over her shoulder. She looked up to meet your father’s eyes.
“Is she okay?” Rey mumbled.
“We’re waiting for the doctor to tell us how she is.” Leia said sitting on the small couch in the waiting room. “Come here.” She said and Rey rushed to her side already wrapping her arms around your mother, that had clearly been crying. “How did you find out about this?”
“I called her.” Ben said and only then Rey realized he was leaning in the wall nearby, serious but with the same worriedness in his eyes as his mother.
The small group waited patiently in the quiet small room until eventually a woman in white coat appeared in the doorway, with your medical record in her hands that asked for your family.
"She was lucky, the crash could have easily killed her but she's fine, just a few scratches and the leg" the doctor explained.
"What happened to her leg?" Leia asked concerned. The doctor sighed.
"Displaced fracture, we realigned her bone and immobilized it. However, the nerves close got damaged, there is a possibility of loss of movement."
The room went quiet for a moment, all of them processing the information they just received.
“Can we see her?” Rey urged to ask after the explanation. It calmed her down a little to know you were fine aside from the injured leg, but she was still concerned about you, she needed to see you, she had to.
******
When the door opened you didn’t expect to see her face, she was supposed to be in class this afternoon and yet she was here, running to your side with tears pooling in her eyes.
“Rey” you murmured with half a smile, it was so great to see your girlfriend, but as much as you tried you couldn't hide the pain that came with the smallest move. “Hi”
“Hi” Rey chuckled between sobs while she sofly ran her thumb over the small cut on your forehead. She noticed a few cuts more, from the glass of the windows she supposed, as well as couple bruises along your arms, her gaze kept scanning your body until it met the plaster cast on your left leg. It broke her heart to see you this way.
“You’re here.” you told her.
“I came as soon as I found out what happened.” she murmured taking your hand. “I was so worried, Y/N. I thought I lost you” Rey said, her last words faded away in the air as she was afraid of even say them.
“It was an accident, the car came out of nowhere.” you explained “because trust me, I know how to drive, I learned from the best.” you said trying to make her smile, you didn’t like to see Rey cry, specially if those tears were for you. And she did give you a tiny smile, she was the one who taught you to drive.
“I wish I would have been there for you.” she said “I should have been here-” you saw the single tear that rolled down her cheek.
“This is not your fault, love” you cut her off “You’re here now, aren’t you? That’s more than I could ask.” She looked at you with tenderness in her eyes as well as some pain. You kept like this until you heard a familiar voice getting closer.
“How are you feeling?” Ben asked as soon as he was next to you, on the other side of the stretcher. He looked worried, just as everybody else in your family, maybe a little more, you were his little sister after all.
“If I say ‘fine’ would you believe me?” you told him.
“Absolutely not.” he said leaning in to wrap his arms around you half sitting on the stretcher. His hug was tight and warm, meaningful.
Ben rarely expressed his emotions out loud, he was still working on it, but he was so concerned to hide and he stayed like that for a while, afraid to let go.
“You really scared the shit out of me, kid.” he finally said giving you some space. "Who am I going to bother if something else happened to you?" He said trying to cheer you up winning a small giggle from you. "I'm glad you're okay, little rebel." He said resting his hand over your shoulder.
From the corner of your eyes you caught your parents getting closer, worried of course, but glad you were alive, hoping you would recover soon.
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The recovery took time, much longer than you would have liked, countless days that became months made you nearly lose your mind.
“You can do it, one foot in front of the other.” Rey assured you staying close to you with every new step you took, your hands barely holding the wooden bar on the recovery room, your stepfoots echoing through the room filled with differents therapeutic devices.
An enthusiastic smile curved your lips when you took a couple steps by your own, it was unbelievably for you the fact that after a long time being unable to walk without some sort of help you were doing it right now. Chuckling you took a few more steps, excited with your progress you decided to accelerate a little.
“Take it easy, babe.” your girlfriend chuckled amazed but still worried about you. “Slow down.” But you ignored her words.
You took a new step, and another, two more… and fell.
“Y/N!” Rey said rushing to your side, her heartbeat running fast. She tried to help you get up but you declined her help.
“Don’t!” you growled. All the excitement you had felt seconds ago vanished the moment you hit the cold floors and got replaced by a growing frustration that soon formed a lump in your throat. You stayed like that for a moment, trying your best to push down all the frustration and insecurities inside you.
You felt useless.
The past months you spent the days being treated like a complete child, you were not able to do a single thing without someone else's help, everybody tried always to be gentle with you, pitying you for being injured. You hated it.
You felt Rey’s confused gaze on you.
“Sorry.” you mumbled searching for her hazel eyes, while you moved to lean your back on the wall and extended your fragile leg.
“It's okay, love.” Rey murmured sitting next to you on the floor.
“No, it's not.” you said “I shouldn’t have reacted like that.”
Rey placed her hand over your extended leg, caressing it gently as her eyes met yours. You sighed.
“I’m sorry, Rey.” you told her “It’s just… this whole process of healing is taking too damn long.”
“You had a big injury, Y/N.” she added “You have to give it all the time it needs to heal. I know it sounds like a lot but you’ll get better soon.”
“But how long is it gonna take? What if it takes forever?... what if it never really heals?” the frustration and impatience in you talked for you, though it was truth, there was a possibility of permanent damage. “And if it never heals then I’ll be just a burden for my family, for you Rey.”
The brunette listened carefully to your words, aware of how frustrating you felt and how much your life had changed after the accident.
“You shouldn’t even be here, Rey” you said with a bittersweet chuckle, refusing to meet her eyes “You should be in Ahch-to studying, Luke found you an amazing scholarship you should be using it and not here losing your time with me.”
The lump in your throat grew bigger as you prepared to tell her about the constant fear of losing her.
“Sometimes,” you gulped “I think it’d be better for you to go. You’d be better off without me as a burden.” your voice cracked in the end of the sentence.
“Hey,” Rey rushed to softly tilt your face founding tears pooling in your eyes. “don’t say that. You’re not a burden in any way, please don’t dare to call yourself that. I’m right where I have to be, Y/N, by your side.” she said “And I am not going anywhere.” Rey assured you.
“But this is going to take so long-”
“It would take all the time it needs to heal and if it means forever than I will be here forever by your side.” She said. She reached to take your hand in hers, guiding it to her lips and pressing a soft kiss in the ring she gave you a long time ago. “I made you a promise and trying to keep it, this doesn’t change anything. I love you more than anything in this life, Y/N.”
The tears in your eyes rolled down your face as you held Rey close to you, hiding your face in the curve of her neck you let all the feelings wash over you with Rey’s arms around you holding you safe into her embrace. You asked yourself what could you possibly had done to deserve a girl like Rey, that loved you with all her soul, that cared so deeply and so truly for you. That stayed by your side even in this rough times. You couldn’t ask for a better girlfriend.
"So, ready to try again?" She murmured once you were all calmed down. Resting your head on her shoulder you chuckled.
"Yeah, I think I can try again." You said.
"Then let's go" Rey said standing up from the cold floor and immediately turning to help you get up, this time you did take her hand.
"Thanks" you giggled back on your feet leaning in to press a soft kiss on her lips. "I love you, Rey."
Then you got back to your recovery routine, happy to have her by your side now more than ever, with a warm sensation in your chest knowing if you two could go through this, than you could go through anything in life as long as you were together.
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