Its been a week since I came back and gone back to work. Friday, is always a day that most of us look forward to as it means that the work week has ended. As usual, I try to dress up a little more for Fridays, just so that it will perks me and all around me up a little.
This particular morning, I met up with the other 2 girls for breakfast. We went to another place for breakfast cos they said the bee hoon was nice. So I went all the way from one end to the other end of the property. Was supposed to meet at 9am and I was late as usual cos I am still suffering from jetlag... how can that be, I am also asking. The night before, I woke up at 330am and didnt fall asleep until it was like 530am, so screwed.. Hence therefore late la. I wouldnt have been late if I didnt jetlag.
It seemed quite norm to be jetlag for a week. But when I told this to Mr Bear Hug, he told me I nonsense cos when he went to USA, he managed to adjust back to it quite fast. I dont think so lor.. Maybe it was easier for him cos it was a 12-hr cycle but when you are in Europe, the 6-hr cycle creates loads of havoc cos its neither here nor there.
For some reasons, I went to the washroom near ZS office. Something in me told me that he was working opening shift that day. I dont know why too but when I walked past his desk, he wasnt at his desk. As usual, I will just hurried past.
My surprise came when I was near the convention center, I saw a familiar face walking in my direction, behind a group of guests. Half my mind, I wanted to enter thru the first door but I decided that I will walk up to him and say hi. Its been a while.. say about a month since I last saw him (ZS).
I have wanted to see him that was why I in a way purposely walked to his office, now that I come face to face with him, shouldnt I just take the chance? We greeted each other with bright smiles and I believed both of us were both happy to see each other. He asked how was my trip and I told him - it’s of course great to be home to Germany, i replied. At that moment, it didnt occurred to me that he actually did read my LINE update, which I had done the update purposely just for him too.
He asked where I was going and to my surprise, he walked with me. I told him that I was going back to office, and he thought I was walking towards carpark so that I can drive back to the other office. Until I told him that I now sit on property and the office is near the cafeteria. I asked if he knew about my move his reply was - No, I don’t know but now I know. Which was quite obvious la, cos I didnt mention to him in any way.
Told him a bit about my jetlag and my not sleeping for more than a day and told him of some of the things that I do in Germany. Had to share the part of being able to drink at any time of the day that I wanted, and how great it was to just be drinking and chillaxing away.
Told him about the tedious flight and his question was - ‘Was there any cute ang mo guy who was sitting beside you?’ I thought for a long time and he just gave me the face. I told him, from my hesitation, the answer should be no right and we both laughed.
We had to part cos I need to run for meeting. Though it was just a short chat, I believed both of us felt happy about seeing each other and having the chat. It’s been a while since he walked me. We have avoided walking for a while and we only just try to finish our chat at where we were.
I hope this is a good start for us, to get back together, if we can. If not, I would like this to be a good start to our friendship. I miss his hugs and texts though.
The rest of the day went by ok. I had lunch with my 2 girls and I know M is upset, so when I got to see her, I made sure that I gave her a hug - for as long as she needed. And as expected, she hugged me tight and for a long time. She nearly cried and I had to assure her that everything is gonna be alright.
R was more chill, her only comment when she saw me was ‘Wow, you look like Little Red Riding Hood’ cos I was in this red dress that not many could tell that it was the Bavaria traditional dress. Only H was able to recognise that.
Em said that my dressing is so out today that she had to take a photo and send it to my BFF.. He just replied ‘why got Dutch Lady?’ but didnt text me on Friday cos he was apparently on leave. He texted me on Sat to ask about my dressing though. I will update more about what happened on 15.May.2015 in my next post.
When I finished lunch, I went to ES office to pass something to Hon, and while I was there, I chatted with the ES girls & guys.. made a lot of noise, as usual. KT asked or rather told me that I am still jetlagging that’s why I have been waking up in the middle of the night. Was there for about 20-30mins and had to head back to office to get work done.
Work was ok, and I have a tea session with Mars, sitting at the cafe, facing the window, means that the conversation that I was having would be easily disrupted cos familiar faces will walk by and waved. I waved to a couple of people and missed seeing ZS until he walked past the door and turned back, looking at me smiling. I am happy with that brief smile too :)
When we were leaving, saw CY and Nick, had a short conversation with them before parting way.
Had to rush for a dinner appointment with newfound drinking mate. We agreed to meet on Friday, cos he was leaving for HKG on Sat. So I rushed and went to meet him. He seemed quite upset in the afternoon and we had to chat about it. After that, I shared with him the wonderfully pretty catalogues of the watches. We just kept going and wondered if we should be buying, of course not la.. we need to work very hard for things like that wor.
He confided in me that he was quite upset with his relationship and is thinking about ending it. I had to tell him that he shouldnt and he should try to rejuvenate it. I told him to rejuvenate by sending flowers, giving her surprises and not to wait for things to happen. Told him he needs to make the first move and not wait. I encouraged him to have a conversation with her cos that’s the only way out, if it is really not working for them then the better way maybe to part, so that both parties can be happier as compared to the existing state. I think I am speaking from experience. I dont want to see people breaking up, guess that the last thing I want from my friends now. Especially if they have been together for a while. It’s hard to find the one that you can be with together for a while. Dont let ego get in the way cos I think that what happened to mine. Pitfalls that all should avoid.
I told him that actually girls are very easy to manage. Small things that we always say doesnt matter actually does. We always said we dont want flowers cos its a waste of money but we still are very happy if we do get them occasionally. A hug which is small gesture means lots to us. A text in the day just to ask how are we, adds it all up.
I told him about how I am very impressed with my dear Marcus. He didnt do anything but I am just very impressed in the small little things that he does - carry my bag for me, open the door, let me walk first and walking me to the car even though we were in the well-lit carpark on property. He does that not only to me but to all the girls that needed such help. I told him how I am very touched by Mr Bear Hug’s voice call just to ask me ‘everything is ok?’ ‘you sure?’. All Mr Bear Hug wanted to be assured of is hearing me say ‘I am ok’.. And how ZS’s hug had meant so much to me. We parted at 1030pm cos that was the agreed timing to go off as he needs to be in the airport to catch a flight to HKG. I sincerely hope that the trip is good for him to clear his mind and I hope everything will be good for them both.
I think the day was made great becos I managed to see ZS. The vibes that we had for each other is that we were both happy to see each other, it was the best that I have ever gotten. It is also the reason why I wanted this recorded here. I am ready to let Us go but I still think that at the back of our mind, we still have feelings for each other. I dont know why I feel this way and somehow my intuition is telling me that this feeling is both way. I want to be proved wrong but many times, it was proven that my intuition is right.
We’ll see.. if ZS and I managed to start anew, it would be great. if not, I am happy to just be friends.
Will work hard to update my trip cos I got lots to share on that. Tata :)
