I started HRT a couple weeks ago and like I’m microdosing T-gel because my living situation doesn’t allow for me to start experiencing obvious changes with any sense of rapidity, right? So it’s not like a lot omis going on yet.
However, one thing that has become more prominent in my mind since just getting my appointment for labs done (prior to starting) is just… how much more settled I feel. Like this is the direction I’m meant to be going in.
I’ve also started drifting towards more masculine thinking and vibes (for lack of a more concise way of putting it). I’m reconsidering my pronouns a little, I’m revisiting my experience with gender and the performance of it… it’s a good thing, a good period to be in.
I’m just glad, I guess. I’m terrified too, I mean if my folks (whom I still live with for financial reasons) find out I’ve started T then there could be serious consequences and I’m basically banking on leaving in June. So that’s stressful. But like. I’m happy. I’m excited. I finally feel like I’m starting down a path I always needed to take. I’ve felt for years like I was still waiting to grow up, for my body to change more because I hadn’t grown into being me yet. And now I feel as if that’s started :)