#such bad

[dollsonmain]

As per the usual, I’m exhausted. Haven’t been eating. Haven’t been sleeping. Am just angry.

And Lusis is still sitting in PA instead of having moved again overnight, which would have put her at delivery today. Maybe tomorrow.

I was going to take the boy to the park to do some litter control since I don’t have the energy to actually play with him, it would be good to do anyway, and we haven’t done ANYTHING this summer, but now I get to play phone tag with Home Depot.

The discount That Guy pushed for was 25% (3794.73). Their offer was about 6.5% (975). I accepted it to put an end to this mess and it still hasn’t ended.

I’ll call today and see if they can get that paperwork while I’m on the line with them, or if they can’t, whether they can get someone authorized to send large value gift cards (they do Vanilla Visa which can be used everywhere just not online) on the line. Then I would pay the full amount without amending the contract and just have to wait for an invoice, which is another demand by That Guy, and a gift card that’ll never come.

I don’t care. But if they do send it as a gift card, I AM TAKING IT. And I am USING it. For myself. For things I like and shit I want. That are just for me. Not for the house. Not for the boy (ok maybe for the boy I like the boy). Not for That Guy. For me.

But, this does pose another problem. That Guy’s method of me taking care of bills while he’s gone is Stupid. And, thanks to many, many medical bills that were sent as a series of smaller bills instead of two full-value bills during this trip, in addition to him extending this trip twice instead of coming home where he has to be to rectify the situation when he was initially supposed to, I’ve run out of magic money papers (MMPs).

I’ve already had to send myself a MMP with a value of 3000 to cover the smaller bills with my own MMPs, with the instruction to use the few remaining of his to pay large bills, like the mortgage.

That was working out fine, as in we’d run out completely before he returned but it wouldn’t be an issue and he could make more when he gets back, until he bought a vacation package pushing the credit card bill from a manageable-in-this-stupid-system 200 or so to 3000.

So now I have: 

Mortgage - 2000

Contractors - 2500

Credit Card - 3000

Roof Install - 11,000

As you can see, that’s well over the 3000 I was given when his MMPs ran out. And there are only three of his MMPs left.

So, I think I’m going to have to talk to Home Depot today, and send myself another MMP with enough $$ to cover at least one of those large bills.

[plottwiststudios]

I think you're the first writer I've ever met that actually took his book down due to 'sexism and being generally bad'. Could you tell us a little more about that? c:

If this gets at least 100 notes, I’ll go into vivid detail on why I took down both This Crazy World and its sequel. Until then!

This Crazy World stars a 24 White dude named Nicholas Orinvinchi (admittedly, his last name is one of the only legitimately cool things about the series.) After his uncle finds out Nick cheated on his girlfriend (Miu Kato), said uncle blackmails him into saving the world from a death ray machine. Because if his girlfriend finds out, she will absolutely kill him.

Accepting every layer of ludicrosity for the absurdity that it is, Nick drags his girlfriend and around 6 other killers to make their way to said death ray machine and kill the one responsible for threatening the planet. What follows is a quick and maddening descent into ‘So Dark, So Gritty’ territory with no nuance on how to deliver the satirical portion of the book, making it being taken completely seriously.

But that isn’t even the main problem. The main problem is how problematic it is from a social, narrative, and characterization standpoint. If you thought Women of Xal’s demo was thoughtfully written and respectful to women, you can throw away any faith you had in me as a writer if you decide to read that seven year old book as I only ‘really’ got into my groove around two years ago.

[lalalesbians]

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[waff-les]

Every line is about who I don't want to write about anymore.

I was fine. I got used to being alone. Then I fell in love with you. I was fine. Everything was okay. But then you came along. You came back. I saw love in your eyes. More than I saw their colour. I fell in. I fell knowing I shouldn’t. I knew I should have stayed away. But I couldn’t because you got me. You understood. You felt it. You felt me. You felt us. I was fine. I was okay before I fell in love with you. I was used to being lonely. You told me. I wouldn’t have to be any more. You left. You left. Oh my God. You left. I thought you meant it. Please. Please don’t tell me you love me still. Please don’t break me again. I told you. You were going to hurt me. I was wrong. For the millionth time. I hurt myself. I don’t love you anymore. I can’t. I don’t want too. You tell me sweet things. You said them to keep me here. You said things you don’t mean. To see if I’m still wrapped up in you. I am. I always will be. You win. You win. You always win. You tell me to let you go. Then you make sure im still wrapped. Wrapped around your finger. I’ll come running. I’ll come running every time. I don’t love you anymore. You’re my devil sin. I don’t love you. That is my biggest lie.

I don’t love you anymore. I wish it were true. I’m lying to myself, again. I’m lying because of you.

Destroy me if you must. I’m still here. Waiting on you.

Always.

[ipeje]

Oops I forgot to say at some point that Netoge is god awful.

[solob25]

Look y’all know me.  I don’t think there has been a moment where I don’t smile or try to joke about things.  I can get steamed and things can make me sad but its all just passing between moments of happiness.  

Tonight I slipped into a state of complete sadness.  I’ve never felt this shit before.  I don’t even know fully why.  So I’m just going to power through it until I smile again.  

Just felt like sayin something.  I don’t wanna bother anyone tho because you’re all so lovely.  <3

[meteortotheearth2028]

So how does the 2016 World Champions sound to you guys?