La peggiore relazione, peraltro la più lunga, l'ho avuta quando ho zittito il mio sistema di guardia.
[L'intuito per i più svegli, le risposte fisiologiche per i pratici.]
É stato quando dopo anni in cui la gente mi ripeteva che ero troppo selettiva, poco elastica e pignola, ho fatto attecchire quel tarlo, convincendomi che il problema ero io che avevo un carattere di merda.
Ovviamente erano soprattutto le donne a dirmelo, allevate di default con la missione di accogliere e "amare" le peggiori nefandezze nella propria vita.
Bene. In quel momento conosciuto lui e il mio sistema ha fatto il suo dovere. Trovandomi però nella fase "ridimensionati perché sei tu la stronza", ho zittito il mio intuito e ho permesso che un dipendente affettivo entrasse nella mia vita.
[Solvolo su quali siano tutte le tossicità dei bisognosi affettivi.]
Essendo una di quelle che quando prende una strada vuole arrivare alla fine, mi sforzavo di vedere qualità positive, così ho dato benefici del dubbio come caramelle, mentre sprecavo un sacco di energia e salute a razionalizzare cose per me inammissibili.
Quando ne sono uscita ero a brandelli, il mio sguardo perennemente crucciato, il mio corpo rigido, la mia pelle morta, la mia psiche deteriorata.
L'unico consiglio che oggi dò alle persone che incontrano qualcuno e verso cui non hanno buone sensazioni, è di ASCOLTARE QUELLE SENSAZIONI. Non importa a quale prezzo o se credi di perdere il partner della vita (nota a margine: se hai questa paura devi solo ritrovare te stesso). Non impiegare un solo secondo a zittire ciò che l'energia ha svelato. E se proprio vuoi investire del tempo, fallo per verificare le informazioni che ti ha dato l'intuizione, MAI per trovare toppe, giustificazioni e pregi.
Perché devo sentire che il mio valore è direttamente proporzionale alla capacità di suscitare attrazione sessuale(?) proprio io che non so neanche cosa significhi voler scop*re qualcuno
I dunno if ppl remember, but a year ago (okay, almost a year ago) I wrote a post regarding “Favorite Part” that I’m pretty sure only a few handle of ppl may have actually read my entire rambling at the time. However, my post appears in the first pages of Google when you do a search (in English, with specific terms, though), and hah... hah...
So, it’s almost endgame for the series (the series seem to end in two weeks from today, Sep 11, 2019?!)! And I somehow thought, “yeah, let’s do this once more and WITH FEELING!”
I still consider this series criminally overlooked in the English netisphere, ngl.
Kinda a shame, because, the series has an interesting story and premise, and has also a pretty interesting cast of characters that you see their growth... reminding you they aren’t perfect, that they will keep tripping, and somehow keep moving on to improve themselves.
I don’t want this post to be just.. .that, an update from that old post I did last year... however, I want to sell you this one again, because... as it happens, I may have had some of my facts wrong due to the language barriers and what not... most of my feelings remain the same and that’s good, although... I think this deserves a better improved writing post from my side.
*cough*
“Favorite Part” (좋아하는 부분), authored by Tarli (or Tarly), is a story about So Woojoo, a woman who lacks self-esteem, and who happens to have some “extreme” taste in men. She tends to fall for guys with a pretty gorgeous face, and while this isn’t a bad thing, for a woman who is overweight like her, whose self-esteem is in the floor, and who doesn’t have friends to be her “voice of reason”... this might fall in an (sometimes unhealthy) obsession level for her.
Because that’s the only kind of love she might know. And things doesn’t get any prettier from there. It’s a long road for Woojoo to learn that the path she approached wasn’t the best she could have.
Let me be clear about something though. I’m pretty sure that you will all hate Woojoo at the start. Especilly during the first ten chapters (that are kind of a prologue). Given her reasons, the way she “loves” is a very pitiful one, where other guys would step on her, and she would be glad to be stepped on, too.
She isn’t a yandere... or a stalker, let me be also clear on this. But it leads into a very toxic relationship with Kwon (?) Minwoo, someone who is rumored to be a jerk with women, he sleeps around with them, and takes some advantage of them.
When she finally “breaks up” with him, she is helped by a barista by the name of Kang Hanbyeol, because he couldn’t see her being treated as garbage. They eventually start a friendship, and he has some crush over her. He is practically the only friend Woojoo has (and he is 2 or 3 years her junior; Woojoo is 23, while Hanbyeol is 20... point: he never refers to her as “noona”).
This is as far as spoilers I can go with this post, further stuff I may write and do outside this one are not spoiler-free at all, btw.
Turning a “new leaf” is not going to be easy for these characters. They are not perfect and they are not fully likeable either, but trust me you want to root for them as long as the story goes. As mentioned above, it’s an emotional rollercoaster.
I think I still root for “Favorite Part” because my first impression of it went over my expectations. I was probably expecting one of those stories where, once realizing things end wrong, the MC will change immediately after the fact - for fat and overweight female characters (most all of the time), they lose weight as a way to “improve” or “revenge”... but... WELL, this isn’t that kind of expectable (or “fun”/lighthearted) “glow up” story.
Woojoo may have some negative aspects as a fat character, and I still wish there were more series with a main overweight female character which main goal isn’t to lose weight as a way to learn self-respect... and it’s a long road for that, that’s for sure. I just hope... in an if scenario, she wouldn’t do it to “earn” self-respect, but more of a way where she finds comfortable enough to decide to do it or not... not as a direct response of that.
There’s a certain male who first appears overweight, though. And NOT ONCE he is treated as a joke, either. Sure, he seems to love to eat and what not... but not as a joke, I promise you. Also rare to see in dramas and what not... similar to Yachae in Park Subong’s “Veggie Hot Bun School Spring Holiday”.
How is its availability in English? WELL, you see... I don’t think it’s impossible for the U.S Line Webtoon branch to pick this series up in the future (and they have picked up some series from their Korean parent company somewhat late), however, I suppose the markets are different and the U.S.’ site is simply more pushing forward to their western creators (other international LINE sites have picked it up, however... ).
SO, last month I found out that at least someone is doing a fan translation of it in English! It’s not perfect per se, and at times it feels wonky, but I believe it has been improving as far as a I have seen, and hopefully this can bring to more people talk about it ;)
Even though it’s still in the first chapters, the road towards more an emotional rollercoaster is a long one, but, hey! Let’s enjoy this road together for the time being (and NOW I CAN FINALLY SHARE MY PAIN OVER THESE CHARACTERS WITH YOU, MWA HAH HAH).
HOPEFULLY the first 3 chapters... 5... don’t turn you off to read it. I promise you, this is a nice emotional rollercoaster... You are going to suffer, you are going to get happy at times... but it’s a great one.
As I have also said before, this webtoon is also receiving a drama adaptation, although, tbh...? Would they be able to replicate the power that has the original source? (and I have expressed my frustrations over it before)
The series might be ending in late September 2019 in South Korea (as that’s the last public chapter release), but there’s lots of stuff I wish I could talk about it after it finishes.
Andiamo via! via dai fantasmi. In fretta via! da questi inutili spasmi. Lasciando qui i tormentosi masochismi che inventano alla fine una tristezza che non c'è...
